For the sake of my brother debut, I decided to become a Uranus superstar

"Xiaoxiao, open the door..."

"Xiaoxiao? Xiaoxiao, I left something in the dormitory. Open the door and I'll come in and get it, okay?"

"Xiao Xiao, Xiao Xiao, say something!"

"Lin Suyu, calm down, go to the program team and ask for a spare key!"

Shen Yirong's panicked aphasia interspersed with the noisy voices: "Ah Xiao, don't do stupid things..."

Luo Xiao knew in her heart that she shouldn't do this, at least she shouldn't pretend to be deaf and dumb at this moment.

He was asleep and couldn't hear anything.

Luo Xiao convinced herself so.

It seems that his exhausted silence at this moment is really because he fell asleep after entering the door, and all the complicated and noisy things around him were classified as boring and annoying noises, and they were completely isolated from sleep.

Leaning against the still vibrating door panel, Luo Xiao sat on the icy floor with a blank trance-like doll whose rope was cut and abandoned in the scorched wasteland.

The sun was shrouded in a heavy mist into a chaotic grayish white. Occasionally, a gleam of light leaked out from the strands of clouds, and was soon buried by more gathered clouds.

The noise outside the door finally quieted down. In the silence, he heard Shen Yirong ask cautiously: "Ah Xiao, can you open the door? Or do you want to be alone for a while?"

Guessing that Luo Xiao was sitting by the door blankly at this moment, Shen Yirong squatted down to ask.After penetrating the wooden board, his voice was a little muffled and depressing.

After a long while, he heard the voice of his friend: "Leave me alone."

No emotion can be heard from Luo Xiao's voice, the tone is alienated and indifferent, just like the cold boy who said in a cold voice, "If it's okay, can you stand up straight" during the first program recording.

It seemed that after several months of getting along, Luo Xiao, who would finally show her toothy smile in front of acquaintances in private, also closed the door of her heart in despair at the moment the door was closed.

Shen Yirong stayed for a while, and then said in a gentle tone: "Then whenever you need us, just call out. We won't go too far, if you want to talk to someone, I can be there whenever you want."

He knew that he shouldn't say too many superfluous words, but still couldn't help saying: "Ah Xiao, you really don't have to bear too much responsibility on yourself, it's not your fault."

He didn't hear Luo Xiao's answer, so he felt his heart twitch, and he didn't feel like arguing with others. He stood up and said to Lin Suyu, "Let's take turns staying here."

"No need, I can do it alone."

Bai Hongyu took the initiative and said, "Let me bring you a cushion."

Lin Suyu sat down close to the door and refused: "That's fine."

He leaned his head against the cold wooden board, and said calmly: "Xiaoxiao, don't be afraid, I'll just sit with you for a while, and I won't ask any questions."

On the other side of the door, the black-haired boy was holding his legs, looking forward without saying a word.

The cut square window frame was reflected in the boy's eyes, and the arc-shaped black pupils vaguely captured a bleak sky.

Hearing Lin Suyu's words, his hands trembled slightly.

Lin Suyu didn't expect his friend to be able to answer the question, but who knows, the young man behind the door answered the question: "I... thought that after becoming an idol, I have become much stronger."

It was a hoarse voice with broken vocal cords, as light as fallen leaves falling from the top of dead branches.

Lin Suyu felt a pain in his heart, and blurted out: "Xiaoxiao, you don't have to be strong..."

And after these words, Luo Xiao never spoke again.

Luo Xiao didn't know how long he had been in this state, because of poor blood circulation, his legs were as stiff as a stone.Time passed minute by minute, and in a trance state, the perception of time could not help but become confused.

Messy thoughts flashed through his mind like lightning, and he remembered a lot of messy things - the hot and humid sea breeze blowing across his cheeks in summer, the blackboard with chalk dust flying around, the cooling spray sprayed all over his head by Lin Suyu when he was drowsy in class in the afternoon, piled up A mountain of textbooks piled on the table.

Although the life in junior high school was lonely, it was peaceful and peaceful.

He should have continued to live like this.

If he hadn't come to be an idol, this kind of thing wouldn't have happened, and that girl wouldn't have committed suicide by jumping into the river.

"this is not your fault."

Shen Yirong's voice flashed by.

Yes, it's really not his fault, and he knows it very well.

but……

It was a living person with shining eyes when he smiled.

Thinking of the "survival hope is very slim" and "the body has not been salvaged" that Shen Yirong saw on his phone just now, a sense of depression wrapped around his windpipe like weeds, which made him instinctively stop thinking deeply, and desperately turned his thoughts to other things. place.

He actually has a lot of questions he wants to know.

I want to ask what is going on with this matter, why it has turned into this situation, where is Gong Qingrou now, and whether the matter has really reached an irreversible point. Ask why you have to go out of your way to hide it from him...

But at this second, he lost all the courage to ask.As long as you touch this topic tentatively, your heart will ache like a needle, as if it is a fire that can burn you out.

It wasn't until he heard Bai Hongyu's voice outside the door asking Lin Suyu if he wanted to eat in a low voice, that Luo Xiao suddenly realized that a whole morning had passed.

He raised his head slowly.

The mobile phone was lying quietly on the table two meters away from him, charging.

In the past few hours, he has passed his eyes over it countless times, but he never tried to get up to touch it.

It would have been fine if I hadn’t chosen to be an idol in the first place.

Clenching her hands tightly, pulling them together until the point of pain, Luo Xiao let out a sigh of relief, rubbed her numb legs that were so numb that she lost consciousness, and resolutely supported the wall and stood up.

If you can't turn back time, don't wallow in regret.

The time for self-consolation has been long enough.

— After all, there are still people waiting for him.

…………

"No, you don't have to worry about me after you finish eating."

Bai Hongyu disagreed and said, "We still have to eat."

"That's right, you can accompany me, but there's no need to go on a hunger strike together, right?" Hua Qian squatted in front of Lin Suyu, listlessly said, "If Ah Xiao sees you like this, he will definitely feel bad."

"No need, it won't hurt if you go hungry." Lin Suyu stood firm, "Xiaoxiao is hungry, so I will go hungry with him. You must have the attitude of being with others."

Hua Qian tilted his head, and said in a softer voice: "Why are you so relieved that Ah Xiao is alone in there? There are so many knives, lighters, and things in the dormitory, if he can't think about it..."

"He won't abandon my aunt and me." Lin Suyu interrupted him without thinking, paused, and then said, "If he really intends to do this, Brother Bai asks the staff for the key, I will give you the key first." Open the door for a while and rush in, breaking his leg."

Lin Suyu's tone didn't seem to be joking at all, Hua Qian's spine felt a chill, and he felt a dull pain in his calf.

"Since you have the key, why don't you go in?"

Lin Suyu was silent for a while before explaining: "I think what Shen Yirong said makes sense, Xiaoxiao really should have the right to know, and I always go too far in this regard... So, Xiaoxiao said she wanted to be alone, I Want to respect his ideas."

"But you don't worry about him being alone, so why are you sitting here with him?"

Lin Suyu didn't say a word, it was a tacit agreement.

Looking at Shen Yirong who was still following up the latest news in real time, Hua Qian felt a little sympathetic to these two relatives and friends: "What if Luo Xiao can't figure it out all the time? He doesn't look like the kind of big-hearted type, if I would , The discomfort has passed for a while, and the more he thinks about his words, the more he will get into the corner..."

This is exactly what Lin Suyu was worried about.

He knows how much Luo Xiao is twisted. At the beginning, he could struggle with marketing for several months, until now it was only in a state of half-compromise.If he was determined to make things difficult for him, what would happen in the end, Lin Suyu felt a chill in his heart when he thought about it.

Just as Hua Qian wanted to say a few more words of comfort, the crisp sound of high heels hitting the tiles suddenly sounded in the empty corridor.

Several people looked at reflexively, and the person who came was not Chai Fei or Mina they often deal with, but Jin Huan wearing a taupe shawl.

Maybe it was because of the confusion on their expressions, Jin Huanrou said softly: "They are all busy and crazy now, and you all know the reason, so I won't talk about it. I am a big idler, so I was called by them to care about you guys Mental health problems of trainees... Speaking of which, why are you all blocking the door, isn't it cold standing in the corridor?"

"It's okay, let's use the cold to exercise our will!" Hua Qian patted his chest, with pride written all over his face, "A real man is never afraid of the cold, this is an iron law, just like a real man never looks back when he walks by The road of thorns and thorns, will always only look up at the mountains that have not been climbed before!"

He had already planned that Bai Hongyu would hurt him, but after waiting for a long time, Bai Hongyu just looked at him as if he had seen a ghost, as if he saw a horse suddenly stand up and walk on two legs.

After staring at Bai Hongyu for a while, Hua Qian realized that his friend's eyes did not meet him, but passed him and looked behind him.

Hua Qian immediately forgot that he was a real man who "never looked back", and turned his head suddenly——

At this moment, the tightly closed door finally opened.

Luo Xiao stood at the door, her cheeks were as pale as snow, but her eyes were shining brightly.

"Sister Jinhuan, good afternoon."

Because Luo Xiao hadn't been in the water for a long time, Luo Xiao's originally clear and calm voice was hoarse, but he didn't realize it, and insisted on saying: "I... have something I want to discuss with you."