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The Tibetan New Year is approaching, and the difference between the time of the Chinese New Year and the Chinese New Year is more than ten days, which is not too long.There are also some Han people celebrating the Lunar New Year here, and the small county with a sparse population is becoming more and more lively.

Bai Shen has had no appetite for the past two months, and he may not be used to the food here.He walked around the crowded places in the county a few times and saw the tastes from all over the country, but he still had no appetite.Only then did he suddenly feel that it was not a problem of acclimatization, he just didn't want to eat anything, and he didn't even bother to move.

Although people have come here, the work in hand is still not idle.Lu Xun also makes people worry. He runs here and there and doesn't like to stay at home. There has been a lot of turmoil in the circle recently. How many pairs of eyes are staring at him outside, but he runs here and there without caring, and even went to the United States to stay. a few days.

When Chu Chu contacted him, he was walking aimlessly in the snow, thinking about how to deal with the mess.

He picked up the phone: "how is it?"

"Lu Xun hasn't returned to China yet," Chu Chu said, "I've been in the hotel for two or three days, and I'm bored in the room and don't go out."

Bai Shen's heart tightened suddenly: "What happened to him?"

"I don't know," Chu Chu replied, "I asked the hotel staff to deliver breakfast and clean up the room twice, and he fell asleep in the room in broad daylight."

Bai Shen was silent for a while, then asked hesitantly, "Are you sick?"

"I think he looked pretty much the same that day," Chu Chu said, "If he's not sick, he should be sick."

Bai Shen didn't know how to answer, so he could only say, "Please help me to let people see how he is doing."

"Okay," Chu Chu was silent for a while after finishing speaking, and then added, "You are almost done, explain clearly as soon as possible, don't let him misunderstand you all the time, I think he is really uncomfortable."

Bai Shen also thought about it, but there are always too many "buts" in their relationship, mixed with work, mixed with safety, mixed with the situation of the previous generation and even the previous generation, the two of them have special identities, even if they want to clarify, it is not Now.

"Understood," Bai Shen said, "you can take a look at how he is feeling, if necessary, there are a few boxes of medicine to take, the name will be sent to you later, you go to the hospital."

"Okay," Chu Chu agreed, and couldn't help complaining, "I listened to you when I was a child, and when I grow up, I'm married and have children. I still have to listen to you. Back then, I should have carried my grandfather to cover you and run away."

Bai smiled deeply: "Thank you."

After hanging up the phone, he sent Chu Chu the names of the medicines.After sending the message, the whole person was only restless and dazed.

Can Lu Xun understand?This is just his last resort at this time.Lu Xun's appearance now proved that he and Bai Shen did not have a private deal, but were used in the past. At least other organizations would not try to find trouble with him in other ways.

Bai Shen squatted down weakly in the snow, thinking that Lu Xun should hate him at this moment.

Or, why not treat hate as love that quenches thirst by drinking poison, it is worse than forgetting him in a blink of an eye.

The sunlight came in through the gaps in the curtains, but it didn't brighten the room any brighter. The whole room was lifeless and filled with a terrifying silence.

Someone knocked lightly on the door outside the room, and then walked in directly with the hotel room card.

Chu Chu was wrapped tightly, pretended to be a staff member, and walked to the bedside with breakfast and medicine box.

Before that, she asked her friends in the hotel to help her pay attention. This was the first time she saw Lu Xun since he left her house that day.Just like what her friend told her, Lu Xun was lying on the bed, groggy, not sure if he was sleeping or resting, or even passed out.

She stretched out her hand and gently covered his forehead, but luckily she didn't have a fever, maybe it was some other discomfort.Lu Xun frowned and closed his eyes tightly, looking like he was having a nightmare.

Chu Chu poured water and raised his head, and it took him a long time to feed it.Finally she pushed him and was out the door before he was fully awake.

Lu Xun sat up in a daze and rubbed his hair. He turned around and saw the breakfast and... medicine on the table?

He vaguely remembered that someone came in to deliver breakfast and clean the room in the past two days, but he only remembered this incident, and other details were blurred than frosted glass.

He struggled to get up and walked to the table, where the breakfast was still hot, with a card on it.

The card was written in beautiful English handwriting, to the effect that after breakfast, take the medicine as soon as possible, and also wrote a sentence "Take care of yourself, adjust your mood and go home as soon as possible", signed by the motel.

Lu Xun read that sentence again inexplicably, where is there a hotel that drives guests home early to stay?

He then looked at another bag of medicines, which were basically medicines for stabilizing and relieving depression. After eating breakfast for no apparent reason, he took the medicines according to the instructions.

Right now, he doesn't care about who sent the medicine, whether it will be dangerous or not, he just wants to get out of the current situation as soon as possible.

It's never been this serious in all the years I've been growing up.Slow movement, fatigue, loss of appetite, low mood... Many symptoms appeared at the same time and reached the peak at this time.

After some relief, Lu Xun packed his luggage and prepared to go home.He went to the lobby on the first floor and asked the front desk: "Who delivered the breakfast in my room today?"

"She's off duty," said the front desk, "Sorry sir, if the service is poor..."

"Thank you," Lu Xun interrupted the front desk, "The service is very good."

He dragged the box out and didn't ask about the rest, he didn't want to know anymore.He was afraid that he would hear some expected answer, even if he thought about it a little bit.

After returning to China, he didn't inform anyone, turned off his mobile phone and stayed at home alone.

The whole yard is lifeless, and it is out of tune with other lively and warm yards.After staying for a day or two, Lu Xun decided to go out to work. After all, his salary tripled during the Chinese New Year.

What's more, he doesn't want to stay here, he doesn't want to see anything related to Bai Shen in this room, and he doesn't want to have a little spare time to think about things he doesn't want to think about.

Time flies by when you're not trying to kill it.There is a lot of time, between the full work, what he feels is the boundless reality, even if it is dangerous, at least...it is real.

Xiao Xiao went back to his hometown to be with his family, Li Ke also took time to stay with his mother, Lu Xun was very busy running around, only Bai Shen lived a monotonous and low life by himself.

He also took a look at the Tibetan New Year, which was full of flavor and made people feel very comfortable.However, no matter what kind of external activities, he basically did not participate in them, at most he just waited and watched from a distance.

Occasionally he would play a game of chess with his grandfather, or help his aunt wash dishes, and more often, he would just walk aimlessly in the snow alone in a daze.In many moments, he could feel restless and powerless dead silence, wrapping around his neck in circles, making it difficult for him to breathe.

In fact, he very much hopes that time will stop here, in the dead silence, before the storm comes after the silence, and stop forever.In this way, what he cannot get is still not obtained, and what he loves deeply has been lost.

After the Spring Festival, Bai Shen seldom went to Medog County. If he had nothing to do, he would study his grandfather's notes, and if he had decrypted documents, he would take them to a deserted snow field and stay silently all afternoon.

"Lu Xun has been working recently," Chu Chu called and said, "I was recovering from a gunshot wound last week, and I started running out again in just a few days."

"Well," Bai Shen listened, feeling uncomfortable, "How is he feeling?"

"I can't see it," Chu Chu said, "Even eating, I threw away the bowl and ran away. I was afraid that he would be exhausted to death."

"The medicine from last time, you can send it to his home for me." Bai Shen paused, then changed his words, "Let's go to his unit."

"Okay," Chu Chu said, and suddenly mentioned, "When are you going down the mountain, White Taoist?"

Bai Shen smiled lightly: "Maybe... wait until I don't care about him."

Time slips through your fingers like quicksand, as if no one gets tired of life because of its passing.

The monotony of the day after day has been inexplicably moving forward before it wears off. In May, on Bai Shen's birthday, he ran behind a hill and made a wish alone.

He has never had the habit of celebrating his birthday, only his family celebrated it for him before he was three years old, but since he can remember, he is reluctant to celebrate it.He always felt that he was not born for himself, and Bai Hua's birth was the same.They are just tools and don't live for themselves.

Lu Xun told him before that he would celebrate every birthday seriously, because he liked the feeling of living an extra year, and also liked the feeling of looking forward to his birthday next year.

After all, Bai Shen and Lu Xun are different. Although Bai Shen's past has had turbulent stages, he has always been loved by others, and he has never fought alone. Besides the experience of surviving on a deserted island, there are few other life-threatening incidents. Things, at most, are more feelings about life.

But Lu Xun grew up from a lonely child who was in danger of his life at any time to an adult who was not sure if he would have a tomorrow. What he had encountered was much crueler.Compared with lamenting about his own background, Bai Shen often spends more time thinking about what Lu Xun has experienced, what he has endured, and everything he has endured.

Time flies out like an arrow leaving the string and rushes towards the future, and the past is pinched in the palm of the hand and disappears.

In the blink of an eye, it was late autumn again, and the weather on the plateau was getting colder day by day. Bai Shen put on an extra coat, looked at the small stove where tea was being boiled, and sat on the steps in front of the courtyard in a daze.

Grandpa slowly walked over from behind him, looked at his back for a long time, and then said, "Ma'er, come here."

Bai Shen walked over and sat down beside him.

"There is something that Grandpa wants to tell you," Grandpa said. "Before you told me about that boy, I thought you might not want to, so I didn't check it out. But some time ago, I saw that you have been When I was looking for Chuchu to ask about his recent situation, Grandpa looked at his profile."

Bai Shen turned to look at him, the old man patted Bai Shen's head, and laughed as he spoke: "Silly boy, you don't know, your fate is great."

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