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Dean Lu packed his luggage when someone knocked on the courtyard door.

He led Little Platinum to open the door. Li Ke saw them and reached out to touch Little Platinum's head.

"Bai Shen called me," Li Ke said, "He said he was leaving."

"What do you mean leaving?" Lu Xun asked.

"I don't know either," Li Ke said, "He spoke ambiguously, and his tone was very calm."

"Did he say anything else?" Lu Xun asked.

Li Ke replied with some hesitation: "I also asked how you are doing recently and whether you have seen a doctor again."

Lu Xun was silent.

Is it just caring, or really caring?

"Do you really know him?" Lu Xun asked.

Li Ke frowned upon hearing this: "What are you talking about?"

Forget it, Lu Xun thought, no matter what Bai Shen's identity is, since he didn't take the initiative to reveal it, then it's his privacy.

"That medicine box... Has anyone else touched it?" He thought for a while and asked.

"No." Li Ke was not very sure, "Bai Shen has been kept in my house since he gave it to me."

"Which floor do you live on? Is there a guardrail?" Lu Xun asked.

"On the second floor, the balcony is open," Li Ke realized, "You mean, someone moved the medicine box?"

Lu Xun nodded. He found that after struggling for so long, he still chose to believe in Bai Shen, even though he was not as convinced as before.

He took out the photo from the desk drawer and showed it to Li Ke: "Maybe someone deliberately provoked me, so I went to see him."

"What happens after meeting him?" Li Ke asked, "Do you have any plans?"

"I don't have any plans," Lu Xun said, "I just want to know the truth."

It was raining lightly in the early morning in Bangalore, and Bai Shen sat up from the bed in a daze.

"Brother, Lu Xun seems to be looking for you recently." Bai Hua walked to the bed and said to him.

"Looking for me?" Bai Shen's drowsiness disappeared suddenly, "How could he find me?"

"It's true," Bai Hua said, "He's tracking all the data you've left during this time."

Bai Shen thought for a while in silence before saying, "Let him look for it."

"Then hurry up and leave," Bai Hua said, "In short, get out of our circle and don't come back."

Bai Shen shook his head: "I want to see him."

"How many eyes are staring at you now, don't seek death." Bai Hua frowned and looked at him.

"Those are not important," Bai Shen smiled, "I just want to meet him, just take a look."

Bai Hua wanted to dissuade her, but she didn't say anything, and instead asked, "You and that Lu Xun... are you real?"

Bai Bai lowered his eyelids deeply, and gave an ambiguous answer: "In my life, true or false, everything will be lost."

He didn't say the rest.

True and false have become illusions, he doesn't care about them.What makes him care about is what is within reach, such as looking for his lover.

"...he found the location of the coffee shop," Bai Hua said, "he should be there soon. Let's go as soon as we meet, or grandpa will know."

"Understood." Bai Shen responded.

In less than two days, Lu Xun arrived in Bangalore as expected.During the day, he sat and waited in the cafe that Bai Shen had visited.

Lu Xun deliberately let Bai Shen's computer see his browsing traces.Now if Bai Shen is willing to see him, he will come to him.And if Bai Shen doesn't want to come, then he will understand and really want to let go.

He originally thought that Bai Shen was the person he could trust most and even show his weak side, but until now, they turned out like this.

The person you once hugged tightly and talked about love, suddenly told you that your past was just a huge lie, and the feelings you gave were just a necessary means to achieve your goals. What would you think?

Everything I told you was a lie, including the phrase "I like you", which is such a desperate thing.

Lu Xun waited for a long time in the corner of the cafe. There were people coming and going outside the window, but no one stopped for him.

Bai Shen stood at the corner of the street outside, quietly staring at the people in the window for a long time.

He's lost some weight and probably hasn't eaten properly lately.There was an unconcealable tiredness on his face, and he began to doze off not long after sitting there.

Bai Shen stood silently in the distance, watching him squinting his eyes and about to fall asleep, and couldn't help laughing.

After watching it for a long time, I still haven't seen enough.It wasn't until Bai Hua came over that Bai Shen took off Lu Xun's coat and handed it to him: "Help me put this coat on him."

Bai Hua held the coat blankly: "What do you mean?"

Bai Shen was very worried about his IQ, patted his shoulder, and then made a few gestures: "The coat, on him."

Bai Hua nodded, walked into the cafe and put his coat on Lu Xun who was already asleep, turned around and walked back. There were people coming and going at the corner of the street, and no one stopped to wait.

Lu Xun woke up in a daze, raised his head and lowered his head to sleep again.

When he woke up again, he found that there was an extra piece of clothing on his body, which was exactly the one that Bai Shen took from him on the Sichuan-Tibet Plateau.

Lu Xun tore off his coat from his shoulders and held it in his arms.

Bai Shen has come.

What does this mean?

Even the coat was returned to him, is this... the end?

Lu Xun quickly turned on the computer, and everything was as it was.The computer screen was like a window where no one had come to stop and watch. He stared at the computer in a daze for a long time, and there was no other movement until the computer went to sleep several times.

He originally thought that no matter how ruthless the words are, they are just a moment of anger, or a temporary parting.

He originally thought that the two of them could have a long-term relationship, and even if they broke up, they could stay together for a while longer.

But in the end, the two really have nothing to do with each other.

Lu Xun booked a plane ticket to Australia, planning to visit his mother before returning to work.He needs to do something as soon as possible to fill the empty mood.

Bai Shen just left without any luggage, and returned to China with the wallet and mobile phone in his pocket, traveling thousands of miles to Medog, Tibet. This place is called "Boyu Baimagang" in Buddhist scriptures, which means to hide lotus flower.

Before he had a name, Grandpa casually called him "Bai Ma".

The snow-covered childhood at the foot of Nanga Bawa and Jiala Bailei Mountains has been buried in the deepest part of memory together with that deserted island.

Bai Shen bought a cold jacket to wrap around his body, but it might be of poor quality, or for some other reason, he felt surprisingly cold, tens of millions of times colder than Medog in his memory.

The cold wind howled in the ears, and the far-reaching eyes were covered with a vast expanse of whiteness.

He walked to a courtyard and stood in front of the iron gate, neither speaking nor moving.

A local woman came out of the house and was startled when she saw him, then approached him and gave him a namaste.

Bai Shen also bowed slightly and made a namaste.He never believed in religion, but for no reason envied the people who practiced the law here, they were pious and holy, and they were truly clean.

The woman opened the door and invited him in.Bai Shen stepped on the snow on the ground and walked in.In the main hall was an old man, covered with a saffron robe, dozing on a chaise longue.

Bai Shen approached, squatted down in front of the recliner, and quietly stared at the face in front of him.

He finally realized the phrase "faces in the world, see each other and lose face", every time he sees his grandfather, he can feel the change in him.

The deepened wrinkles are like cracked gullies on the surface of the dry earth, and there are more things in those cloudy eyes that he can't understand, a kind of compassion and universal feelings.

When the old man heard the movement, his eyes were still closed, no one moved, and he didn't ask who it was.

Bai Shen reached into his Tibetan robe, gently held the old man's hand, and called out in a low voice, "Grandpa."

The old man slowly opened his eyes, looked at him for a while, then laughed, and raised his hand to stroke his hair: "Ma'er, you are still here, aren't you?"

"Yes." Bai Shen replied, sitting on the wooden chair beside him.

"Things in the world are beyond the reach of the world," the old man said softly, "I don't want to go with the tide, but sail against the current, it's okay, this is the descendant of my old Bai family."

Bai Shen looked at him speechlessly, before saying after a while: "The grandson is not filial."

"You came to me because of the deep sea?" Grandpa asked.

"Yes," Bai Shen replied, "I want to leave the deep sea and do my own thing."

Grandpa didn't speak, and looked at the white snow in front of him silently, and suddenly remembered: "Do you remember a poem you wrote when you were young, 'Walking in the frost and snow, it seems to be cold in the world. Looking from afar with the cold wind, It's nothing but the branches of residual flowers. Empty, illusory.'"

Bai Shen nodded: "I remember."

"I thought at the time, how could a ten-year-old child write such a small poem?" Grandpa narrowed his eyes slightly, as if recalling, "I have taught you passwords, intelligence, and management since you were a child, and brought you You participated in special training, and even threw you and your brother and two children on a desert island."

"Before that, I always thought that I was doing the right thing, and what I gave you was a promising future," my grandfather said softly, "Until that year when you went out to train, I found those little things you wrote under your pillow. Poetry. For the next ten years or so, Grandpa will be thinking, am I wrong. "

Bai Shen lowered his head, silently not knowing what he was thinking.

"Ma'er, tell me, why did you suddenly want to leave?" Grandpa asked, "I knew you were unwilling before, but you never resisted. At your current age, I thought your life was a foregone conclusion .”

Bai Shen thought for a while, what was the reason for his leaving.

It may be that Bai Hua made him leave the deep sea on the bright side, but in fact this will not have much impact on him, but it is a good time to do a dark line.

Maybe it's because he doesn't want to hide his identity anymore, as long as he stays in the deep sea, he will be complicated.If a few of his friends find out, they should be very disappointed.

It may be that he finally met Bai Hua after many years, and Bai Hua also has the intention of returning to the deep sea, so that he no longer needs to stay in the deep sea as a successor.

……

After thinking about it, I couldn't come up with a definite answer.

Snow began to fall outside again, and the stove in front of the door made the sound of crackling and crackling firewood.

Bai Shen looked outside the door for a long time before speaking as if he had made up his mind.

"Grandpa, I think..." Bai Shen hesitated, but also affirmed for no reason, "I fell in love with someone."