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After staying at his parents' house for a while, Bai Shen arrived in Nepal with very little luggage.

When he was still in adolescence, he really wanted to come here to have a look, but unfortunately he was delayed by his studies and work, and he never had the time and opportunity to come here.

In fact, few people know that he is very good at writing poems, and if he reads a lot, he will naturally come up with a few sour literati words.

He wrote about Lumbini, the pilgrimage capital of Nepal, and Kathmandu, the city of light. He also imagined that he would get married here, holding a quiet and simple wedding ceremony for only two people.

"Adopt a little girl."

Bai Shen suddenly thought of the words he said, that quiet night and the sweet kiss, and the furry head buried on his shoulder.

The power supply time of the hotels here is very short, just a few hours a day.When the power went out, Bai Shen took out a photo album from his backpack.

This photo album was bought on the way back from sending Xiao Qin to the airport that day. He randomly entered a gift shop and picked out a photo album, so that he would never die. Where promises were never kept.

Bai Shen felt that he should also thank the beauty mole. During the half a year that he and Lu Xun were together, they didn't even have a single photo together.But the stack of photos thrown out by the beauty mole clearly showed the process of the two from their first acquaintance to mutual love.

It's just a breakup that ended abruptly, Bai Shen thought.

He took out the photos one by one, arranged them in chronological order based on memory, and stuffed them back into the album.Organize and remember.

The first time we met in the consultation room, the first time we went to the supermarket together, the first time we wandered abroad together, the first time we hugged under street lights, the first time we saw him cry, the first time we watched a performance at an amusement park, The first time he was beaten into the hospital, the first time I went to eat in the western suburbs of Damascus... many, many firsts.

His fingertips rest on one of them.Bai Shen picked it up with nostalgia, and looked at it carefully for a long time.

In Moscow, they stood at the window hugging and kissing.

Bai Shen smiled, it turned out that the hug was not the most intimate one, but fortunately he took it quickly when the beauty spot threw out the photo, otherwise if this photo is seen, let alone the group of unconscionable people believe it or not Lu Xun had nothing to do with him, he himself was going to die of shame first.

He took out a photo that he treasured from his backpack. A young man was holding a golden retriever in one hand and a huge reindeer doll in the other, squatting in front of the gun shooting stall, laughing happily at the camera.

Bai Shen's fingertips gently stroked his face in the photo.What a cute big boy.

He took out a palm-sized reindeer doll from his backpack. It was the one that Lu Xun fished out from the claw machine.Bai Shen still remembered that when he said "reindeer" at that time, he still smiled secretly.

After looking at it for a long time, Bai Shen carefully put the photo album and dolls into the backpack, and then walked out of the hotel.

The emotions that had been suppressed for several days already collapsed when he saw those photos. He felt that he should go out and find something to do, and quickly forget those gloomy things.

So he wandered around casually, walked into a bar street, and then randomly entered a music bar.

There was a band playing and singing in the bar. It was obviously very noisy, but Bai Shen's mind was filled with Lu Xun's voice, which came from all directions, and it was as clear as reverb and 3D surround UMAX sound effects.

He just wanted to forget about those, and acted as if the two of them had never met before.

For some unknown reason, he ordered absinthe, and drinking it didn't feel like wine, but like a flood of memories, like a drunken kiss.

He drank until his head was dizzy and unable to think about other things before he stumbled out the door and sat down casually by a street lamp.

Lu Xun said that he would never get drunk, because he would not let that kind of situation be unfavorable to him.Shit, getting drunk and playing crazy is a joyous thing, many times better than holding back happiness when sober.Lu Xun was so pitiful that he had never even experienced this feeling.

A young Chinese guy at the side finally couldn't stand it any longer, and came over and patted him on the shoulder: "Are you okay?"

"What a fart," Bai Shen raised his head in a daze, tried to open his eyes wide and looked over, and when he saw clearly, he just said coldly, "Get lost."

The beauty mole sighed, and sat down next to him: "Is it really for the love of the children of the world? Career is the most important thing, career is the most important thing."

"Career?" Bai Shen turned around and grabbed him by the neck, his eyes were terribly red, "Career can use the person you like the most? I told you not to touch Lu Xun!"

"Lu Xun?" the beauty mole repeated, while holding Bai Shen's hand to prevent him from pinching too hard, he quickly realized, "For you, it's the same for you to work in another team, so don't worry too much about it. "

"What do you know?" Bai Shen asked him indifferently.

The beauty mole was a little surprised, he hadn't thought that Bai Shen, who was always gentle, would be ruthless sometimes.When I think that these are all caused by my own team, I can't help but feel full of guilt.

The beauty mole sighed softly: "I will allow you to be sad for a while, and when you are done, hurry back to Jiutian with me."

"In my dream, even if I went to sweep the streets, I wouldn't join Jiutian." Bai Shen said.

"Okay, okay, if you don't join, don't join." Beauty Mole didn't want to argue with him, so she had to follow him.

He pulled Bai Shen: "You drank too much, I'll take you back."

"Get out," Bai Shen pulled out his hand, "I don't want to see you."

"Okay, okay, I'll disappear when I send you to the hotel." The beauty mole could only compromise.

He no longer wanted to recall the matter of sending Bai Shen back to the hotel, the process was as difficult as taking the meat of a Tang monk.

Bai Shen was sitting on the side of the street leaning against the lamppost, motionless as if he was asleep.

The beauty spot can only say like coaxing a child: "Go back, let's go."

Bai Shen still ignored him, until it began to rain impatiently, pouring down on them.

The beauty mole felt a little uncomfortable, so he took out an envelope from the inner pocket of his coat and handed it to Bai Shen: "Take it, Lu Xun gave it to me after you left that day, let me pass it to you, anyway, I can't understand it. "

Bai Shen opened the envelope, took out a piece of paper and unfolded it.He never thought that Lu Xun, who didn't even know a few Chinese characters, was able to write so much, and he wrote it very neatly. He didn't know if he looked it up word by word and wrote it out over and over again.

Those two incomplete lyrics were finally sent to him completely when they separated——

☆ ☆

If the moon doesn't shine tomorrow

As long as I see you smile, everything will be the same

This is what makes me happy, my soul

that's better than a special look

or any one of the grimest looking stabs

are more real

i can't imagine my sadness

if one day you stay away

i think so

when you look ahead

Don't remember all that I didn't give you

Just left too many things to tell you

there's so much more you want to tell me

There is still too much time and passion to go through

By your side, my darling, by your side...

Please forgive me

If one day I think that you are no longer you

And if they ask you

I'll just say one night

i dreamed of you

And only in dreams from then on

see myself with you every day

By your side my love...

please be by my side

☆ ☆

Bai Shen thought of that bright afternoon in Spain, the big boy's eyes were as distressing as a wounded lamb.Think of his hugs, his kisses.

Bai Shen lowered his head, raindrops trickled down his hair, and tears couldn't stop flowing.

He clutched the letter tightly, buried his head in his knees, and couldn't help crying bitterly.

The beauty mole sat on the side, so she could only pat him on the back lightly, her voice was so low that it was quickly drowned out by the sound of rain: "I'm sorry."

The rain drenched the whole street and dripped down on them.The silence of the night is even more desolate and deserted in the sound of rain.

It was early morning when he returned to Bai Shen's room, the beauty spot threw him on the bed and was about to leave.

Bai Shen sat up suddenly, stumbling into the bathroom.

The beauty spot is worried, I'm really afraid that something will happen to him.

There was a sound of splashing water in the bathroom.He walked to the door of the bathroom and said with a puzzled look: "You are already like this, why don't you wash it tomorrow?"

Bai Shen ignored him.

The beauty mole said anxiously: "Hey, then you can wash it, you have to take off your clothes, right?"

He had no choice but to go over and take off Bai Shen's coat, and as soon as he stretched out his hand, he touched the biting cold.

"Are you crazy to turn on cold water in winter?" The beauty mole has never seen anyone who is drunk like this, so he had to switch to hot water, and then stripped his clothes down to shirts and trousers.

"Take off the rest yourself." The beauty spot walked out of the bathroom, looked back worriedly, "Hurry up, I'll leave after you sleep."

When Bai Shen came out with his whole body wet, the beauty mole was almost asleep while sitting at the table with his head propped up.

Bai Shen didn't wear any clothes, only wrapped in a large bath towel, and threw his head into the quilt, his still dripping hair quickly wet the pillow.

He closed his eyes in a daze, and lost consciousness in a daze.The beauty spot went over and touched his forehead, it was so hot, he didn't know if he fell asleep or passed out.

"As you are now, if someone from other organizations finds out, it will take a few streets to kidnap you," the beauty mole said, taking out a fever-reducing sticker and sticking it on his forehead, complaining, "You're traveling alone. If I'm not here today, you'll die on the street."

He didn't know what he was talking about with a person who had already fallen asleep, but he couldn't hold back and said, "Hey, go back quickly, no matter which organization you're in, it's better than being outside. It's nothing to hide all the time, you Say yes?"

"I just can't figure it out. What are you doing to protect Lu Xun? You can't even protect yourself," the beauty mole looked at his peaceful sleeping expression, "Besides, Lu Xun is no less capable than you. He must know what to do."

"Why don't I go and find out who Lu Xun is from?" Beauty Mole said, "Don't you have his detailed information, I'll take a look too?"

The beauty mole talked to himself for a long time, then covered him with a quilt to make fun of himself and went out.

It was already noon when Bai Shen woke up the next day. He felt dizzy and sat on the bed for a long time before going crazy to find Lu Xun's letter.

Fortunately, it was next to the pillow, and the ink on some of the writing on the letter paper had been smudged due to the rain.

He folded the letter and stuffed it into the envelope, and put it in the innermost compartment of the backpack.

The sky outside the window has cleared up, and about last night, he only remembers a letter and a hearty heavy rain.

The author has something to say:

This song is A Ritos de Esperanza by Alex Ubago, the prince of Spanish love songs, which means a cry of hope.

The shout of Master Reindeer is a little cloud rushing to my side. (T﹏T)