thirsty

After the plane took off, Lu Xun remained silent.

"Our luggage... the manager will help us airlift it back." Bai Shen casually found a topic.

Lu Xun nodded.

Bai Shen continued to look for something to say: "Are you hungry, do you want to eat something?"

"..." Lu Xun was silent and didn't answer. After a while, he lowered his head and stared at his fingertips, "I want to drink."

Bai Shen felt speechless.

What does this mean, drinking to drown your sorrows or simply being addicted to alcohol?

Bai Shen asked for two glasses of wine, but before handing them to Lu Xun, he snatched them from Bai Shen's hand and drank them all in one go.

Bai Shen was stunned for a moment, should he tell Lu Xun that he drank his cup?

As soon as he finished drinking, Lu Xun turned his head away from Bai Shen, and there was no movement.

During the [-] hours of flying back to China overnight, Lu Xun remained silent afterwards, closing his eyes and pretending to be asleep.

Bai Shen had no choice but to let him go and pretend he didn't see it.

It was evening when he arrived at the domestic airport, and Bai Shen was about to call a car, so he turned his head and asked Lu Xun, "Shall I take you home first?"

They stood outside the airport and walked for a while in silence until they reached the side of the country road where there were no people.

"I want to go home." Lu Xun said suddenly.

"Okay, then I'll call a taxi now." Bai Shen patted him on the shoulder.

"Not there," Lu Xun's voice was almost trembling, "I want...to go home."

Bai Shen was taken aback, it was really difficult for him to understand the meaning of this sentence at once.

He was still in the trap, at a loss for what to do for a while, so he could only comfort him in vain: "Lu Xun, this is the city we live in, don't worry, it's safe. I'll be home soon, take a good rest, okay?"

Lu Xun just shook his head, he didn't know how to explain, he didn't know where to start, he suddenly remembered that Bai Shen didn't know him, it was just a stranger he had known for a short time.

He was about to collapse, and the disappointment overwhelmed him almost overwhelmed him. He felt that he was almost suffocating, and everything around him became blurred.

Lu Xun raised his hand to cover his eyes, squatted down weakly, and simply sat on the cold ground with his head buried between his knees.

Distraught, he saw the night approaching.

"Lu Xun?" Bai Shen also squatted down nervously.

Lu Xun raised his head, his eyes were frighteningly red, and the crystal clear blue pupils were covered with a thick layer of mist.

He reached out to grab Bai Shen's collar and clenched his hands tightly, like a drowning child grabbing a life-saving straw.

"Bai Shen, Bianhua..." he said, big tears fell down.

This time Bai Shen was really completely frightened.

...the other shore flower?

Bai Shen remembered that day in Andalusia, when they were discussing Naihe Bridge, Lu Xun asked him what Bianhua was.

It is a flower blooming on the side of Huangquan Road, which symbolizes eternal life and never seeing each other.

"What's wrong with you?" Bai squatted in front of him, gently holding his face, and carefully wiped away the tears with his thumb, "Tell me, okay? I will listen to whatever you say."

Lu Xun still shook his head, and just repeated that sentence: "I want to go home."

Bai Shen probably thought that he was drunk and hadn't recovered yet.

The two of them squatting under the street lamp beside the highway really looked like two drunks who sneaked out of the university campus to party all night.

But Lu Xun's consciousness was actually very clear, and it was because he was too sober that he felt extremely painful.

After being silent for a while, Lu Xun choked up and said softly, "Do you have any medicine?"

Bai Shen's heart sank: "What?"

"An Ding." Lu Xun looked at him with weakness in his eyes.

Bai Shen stopped talking, not knowing how to answer.

After a while, he said: "Yes. If you don't want to go back to your place, why don't you come to my house first, and I will accompany you, okay?"

Before Lu Xun could answer, he opened his arms and hugged him, and patted him on the back lightly, like coaxing a child.

Of course, Bai Shen didn't intend to listen to Lu Xun's answer at all, he had already made up his mind, and just let him know.

Bai Shen felt deeply in his heart, he grew up so big, he rarely saw a man cry with his own eyes, especially a real man like Lu Xun who seemed to be invincible and not afraid of death at all.

Except for the time in the kindergarten class where he scratched the face of the intern teacher and made him cry, which made him feel a little guilty, this should be the first time he saw a man cry in front of him. He must have such a strong feeling.

I felt worried, and there was an unspeakable feeling.

He called a taxi and told the master the address of his home.

Lu Xun leaned against the car door listlessly, and when the car shook, his head hit the car door heavily.

Bai Shen hurriedly pulled him over and leaned against him.

"Are you drunk?" The driver of the car glanced at the rearview mirror.

"No, he's not feeling well." Bai Shen quickly explained.

He didn't want to play the role of a drunk who wandered around late at night, maybe the driver would throw them on the side of the road.

Lu Xun still didn't speak, his face was almost covered with frost.

After arriving at Bai Shen's house, Lu Xun sat on the sofa and looked at his house silently.

Bai Shen went to his neighbor Xiao Zhou to bring back his foster golden retriever, Little Baijin.

Accompanied by my own smart dog, the house should not be too awkward.

As soon as Xiao Baijin saw Bai Shen, he happily twisted the disco and rushed into the house as if he had been drugged. When he entered, he found Lu Xun sitting on the sofa without saying a word.

Bai Shen took the antidepressant medicine he took before going to bed from the drawer, poured a glass of water, and handed it to him.

"Eat it, it can relieve your mood." Bai Shen said.

Lu Xun took the medicine obediently, and waved to Little Platinum, who was watching from a distance: "Come."

Seeing that Bai Shen was so kind to Lu Xun, Little Platinum immediately divided him into the friendly camp, ran over obediently, sat down at his feet, and wagged his tail.

"Are you hungry?" Bai Shen blurted out out of habit.

Every time he came back from get off work or a business trip, he would ask "Are you hungry", and then Xiao Baijin would run over with his small bowl in his mouth to express that he was so hungry that his chest was on his back.

"I'm hungry." Lu Xun replied.

Little Platinum, who had already stood up and turned around to pick up his small bowl, heard this superfluous answer that he never had before, and turned back to look at Lu Xun with his head tilted.

Bai Shen didn't expect him to answer.

Lu Xun didn't react until Xiao Baijin went to grab his own small bowl.

"Bai Shen." He frowned.

"Huh?" Bai Shen was wearing an apron, which was a normal gray-brown apron, not the pink and tender one "for girls".

"Are you just...asking the dog?" Lu Xun asked seriously.

"...That's right." Thinking of Lu Xun crying just now, the atmosphere should be a little heavy at this moment, but Bai Shen still couldn't help laughing.

Lu Xun also smiled. Although the corners of his mouth slightly curled up, he still smiled.

"Let me cook some noodles, okay?" Bai Shen asked.

"Well," Lu Xun nodded, grabbed a handful of dog food from the box and put it in Little Platinum's bowl.

"What's his name?" Lu Xun asked.

"Little Platinum." Bai Shen's voice came from the kitchen.

Lu Xun touched Little Platinum's head.

"What the hell name, huh?" he whispered.

After eating noodles and taking a shower, Bai Shen said, "You sleep in my room."

"I'm not sleepy," Lu Xun refused bluntly, "Is there... any wine at your house?"

Bai Shen looked at him.

No way, this handsome young man is actually a drunkard?

Bai Shen thought of the refrigerator in Lu Xun's house that was empty only for wine and long tongue sorbet, and suddenly felt that his deduction made sense.

"I'm not addicted," Lu Xun looked at him and explained, "When I'm not in a good mood, I like to drink."

"Oh, that's it." Bai Shen took out the only absinthe from the refrigerator and scolded himself inwardly.

He can drink, but rarely does.The two lonely bottles in the refrigerator were absinthe from Li Ke.

This wine is one of the top ten spirits in the world.

After thinking about it, he still felt that Li Ke should be scolded.

Lu Xun picked it up and looked at it: "Thank you, I like this very much."

"Really," Bai Shen secretly sighed, and suddenly called out, "Lu Xun!"

"What's wrong?" Lu Xun had already opened the wine cork.

"You just took the medicine." Bai Shen suddenly remembered.

Lu Xun's hands paused, and he raised his head to look at him: "It's okay, almost three hours have passed, and it's not a sleeping pill, and I'm not a fool. By the way, which cup should I use?"

Lu Xun only had one glass for his own use at home, but there were seven or eight cups of various kinds on Baishen's coffee table.

"I use them all, you can just take them if you don't mind. The sugar cubes are in the box." Bai Shen said.

Lu Xun smiled: "You are quite attentive in your life."

Bai Shen likes to collect some interesting gadgets, and he doesn't think it's strange if he collects too many.

Lu Xun hesitated to choose for a while, but still took the most unremarkable ordinary wine glass in the corner.

"Drink less." Bai Shen frowned.

"Does it hurt?" Lu Xun asked.

The words were too straightforward, Bai Shen nodded a little embarrassed.

Lu Xun smiled: "I'll send you a bottle another day."

Bai Shen clicked his tongue, is this person a fool?

"I don't feel bad about wine." Bai sighed deeply.

Lu Xun turned his head to look at him.

Right now, while his hat was still thrown in a hotel seven or eight thousand kilometers away, Bai Shen raised his hand and rubbed his hair.

He just took a shower and his hair hasn't been completely dried yet.He changed into a dark white T-shirt and black shorts, which fit well and looked like an energetic college student.

Lu Xun turned his head back, poured a glass, and finished it in one gulp.

Bai Shen felt that watching him drink was particularly enjoyable, without procrastination at all.

He quietly left the living room, went to the balcony and took out his mobile phone.

"Did Xiao Xiao tell you about Lu Xun?" Bai Shen said to the other end of the phone.

"That's the information I gave you." Li Ke replied.

"Are you taking me for a fool?" Bai Shen was angry. He was angry with Li Ke for the first time in several years. "I felt something was wrong since you asked me to treat him. You want me to treat him. Then you hid it from me again, are you crazy?"

There was silence on the other end of the phone.

Li Ke didn't expect Bai Shen's reaction to be so big. After all, to them, Lu Xun was just an outsider, and he was just doing favors, without any profit at all.

"I know something about him, but it's because I know that I don't want to tell you." Li Ke took a deep breath, "Bai Shen, don't be angry."

Bai Shen didn't know what to say.

He's not a kid, and of course he doesn't lose his temper.But now, seeing Lu Xun's condition getting worse, he couldn't do anything.

"Bai Shen, Xiao Xiao gave the information. If he didn't write it down, it means he doesn't want you to know. Do you understand?" Li Ke said.

"Then how do you know? How can I judge that you are not trying to get him some bad idea by asking me to cure him." Bai Shen hung up the phone angrily.

If he didn't know anything about Lu Xun's past, and he was basically in this state, then he would be treated as a ghost.

He returned to the living room and saw Lu Xun leaning against the back of the sofa, blocking the light with his arm.

Bai Shen turned off the light, helped him to lie down on the bed in his own room.

"You should know that absinthe has hallucinogenic effects. I told you to drink less. I don't feel sorry for the wine." Bai Shen looked at him and sighed.

Lu Xun looked at him misty eyes, maybe a little drunk, maybe not.

"Come here." Lu Xun said, his voice was soft, like a child acting like a spoiled child.

Bai Shen didn't know why, so he sat on the edge of the bed and leaned over to get closer to him.

Lu Xun reached out to hold the back of his head, pressed down a little, and then kissed him.

It was a long and gentle kiss, and Bai Shen could feel the absinthe on the tip of his tongue mixed with the smell of alcohol, penetrating into his nerves bit by bit.

There was a bang in Bai Shen's head.