I'm arrogant at the apex of the hip-hop god

Shen Xi stood up from the chair almost immediately, looked at Qi Shui incoherently, and there was a slight tremor that he didn't notice in his usual cold voice: "You, are you still there?"

"Why, do you think I'm really gone?" Qi Shui put down her pen, leaned lazily on the armrest behind her, seemed to smile lightly, but didn't seem to smile.

Shen Xi wanted to shake his head subconsciously, but then stopped slowly - he was not qualified, he was the one who asked Qishui to leave, and now he was the one who expressed his reluctance to Qishui, this is not the same as the bitch who wants to set up a chastity archway. What's the difference?

Qishui looked at Shen Xi without blinking, and sat back in the chair for a long time, with a tone like an old friend reunited after a long absence: "Welcome me?"

Shen Xi was taken aback for a moment, then smiled wryly.

What he wants to say, welcome or shock or struggle, surprise and hesitation, no single words are enough to describe his complicated mood at the moment—even at the first moment when he knew that Qishui was still there, what rushed to his heart the most Emotions turned out to be pleasant surprises - but Shen Xi still had to admit that the violent ups and downs accumulated in his heart at this moment, like a tsunami passing through, were more than all the entangled, repeated emotions, and the pain that could not be admitted to Qi Shui.

The return of Qishui means that the problem has not been solved.

Qi Shui shrugged, not surprised by Shen Xi's silent answer.He understands Shen Xi, enough restraint and kindness that does not want to hurt others are undoubtedly the most attractive flashes in Shen Xi, and the cruelest act he has ever done is just to drive him away out of love and selfishness ——However, it was precisely because of his understanding that he wanted Shen Xi to do one thing for him.

"I want to see him." Qi Shui said slowly.

Shen Xi was taken aback for a moment, but when he realized it, he subconsciously wanted to refuse - to allow Qi Shui to meet the lover who had sex with him again with this body, would undoubtedly be betraying Feng Chen to Shen Xi, how could he agree.

"Don't worry, it's just a meeting." Qishui knew what Shen Xi was worried about, and smiled self-deprecatingly, his voice was as low as the night breeze, and there was a desperate determination that no one knew about, "Sing a song, and I'll leave .”

Shen Xi stared blankly at Qi Shui, as if he understood his unfinished subtext through this sentence, overwhelming self-blame swept over Shen Xi in an instant, almost making him blurt out his promise to Qi Shui—but, the last remaining trace Reason held him tightly.

No, this is unfair to Feng Chen.

After a long time, Shen Xi let go of his thin lips that were almost bleeding, looked straight at Qi Shui, and said word by word: "I, I'm in love."

"Really? Congratulations." Qi Shui didn't seem to care about what Shen Xi said, until Shen Xi's voice fell, he suddenly woke up, his voice raised unconsciously, with eagerness, "Is it him?"

Shen Xi reacted for a while, then realized that Qi Shui was referring to Feng Chen, and nodded.

"Very good, very good..." Qishui said more than a dozen "very good" in a row, walked around the quiet dormitory muttering to himself, then closed his eyes and leaned against the desk , fell into a long silence.

accident?No, he wasn't surprised at all, he was even relieved - there was a voice in his heart saying, luckily it was Feng Chen, and luckily it was Shen Xi.

It would be impossible for him to accept anyone in the world being with the person he likes, so if this person he is destined to be with is with another form of him, will he feel better if he thinks this way? ?

But why has he comforted himself like this, but his heart still seems to be tightly clenched by someone, the pain is so painful that he can't breathe...

Shen Xi had never seen Qishui in such a downturn, as if falling into an abyss, the silence was so terrifying that he raised his hand subconsciously, and patted Qishui lightly, his voice was full of self-blame that almost drowned him: "Yes, sorry."

Qi Shui came to his senses, smiled lightly, and shook his head: "No need."

He straightened up, his face was still a little pale after returning to normal, and his eyes became more and more black as ink, as if hiding complex emotions that were too thick to describe in detail, he said in a low voice: "If you are worried, call him— "

Before the words finished, Qishui swallowed the rest of the words in an instant.

Qishui, who had never dared to face the facts, looked at Shen Xi who still knew nothing about it, and finally made up his mind. He rubbed his eyes vigorously with a wry smile, suppressed the soreness in his throat, and said three words in a very soft voice. Word: "Boyfriend."

Shen Xi frowned lightly: "One, do you have to go?"

"I have to go." After Qishui finished speaking, he repeated word by word, "I only saw him, the last time."

At this moment, Shen Xi finally knew why Qishui appeared - he was saying goodbye to the person he liked, and to himself.

A layer of mist instantly formed in Shen Xi's eyes, he didn't wipe it off, and let the warm and hot water splash silently on the ground, as if this could wash away his selfishness and cowardice.

"Why are you crying?" Qi Shui raised his hand to wipe away the tears on Shen Xi's face, and bickered with him as he did when he first came here, with the same naughty tone as when he first met, "Didn't you want me to leave a long time ago, I am here , you can’t make friends with other people normally, you can’t fall in love and get married normally, and you have to take medicine. If it were me, I would wish to send you away early. Oh, little crying bag, don’t cry, you are enough What if you cry again and scare your boyfriend away?"

Shen Xi has never hated his past self as much as he does now - splitting Qishui and strangling him with his own hands is undoubtedly more powerless and desperate than never getting it.

And what Qishui said just now pushed Shen Xi one step further into the abyss of self-blame and guilt.

"Okay, don't cry, I didn't say I'm leaving." Xu Shi knew Shen Xi's character too well, Qi Shui deliberately put on a straight face, pretending to be fierce and threatened him, "You can't control me, I want to come later Come and go, you'd better stop begging me to leave."

Knowing that most of Qishui's words were lies, Shen Xi still couldn't help but ignite a glimmer of hope—Shen Xi, who couldn't make up his mind to drive Qishui away again, would rather continue to suffer in pain than Facing Qishui's departure.

He closed his eyes, forced back the remaining tears, forced himself to suppress the trembling in his voice, and said softly: "Location."

Qishui unlocked the phone, opened the WeChat avatar app and logged into his own WeChat account, ignored the small red dots that popped up, found the address of the bar, and handed it to Shen Xi: "You take him—"

Before the words were finished, Qi Shui suddenly paused for a moment, as if he still couldn't understand the fact that Feng Chen would no longer belong to him, he tugged at his hair dejectedly, and after a long time, he returned to his previous nonchalant appearance: "Your boyfriend, what's left? Leave it to me."

Shen Xi hesitated for a moment, then nodded.

"Be sure to bring your boyfriend with you." Qi Shui solemnly told Shen Xi, as if guessing that he would be confused, she smiled wryly and said to herself, "Tomorrow, tomorrow you will know."

When Feng Chen called, Shen Xi was already on his way to October Bar.

"Little friend, you haven't contacted me all day. Is it because you are in arrears on your mobile phone?" Feng Chen teased Shen Xi jokingly, his lazy voice came to Shen Xi's ears clearly through the receiver, brighter than the moonlight outside. Be seductive.

"No, no." Shen Xi blushed and explained softly, "I just contacted you."

"Really? Could it be that my mobile phone is in arrears?" Feng Chen raised his eyebrows, switched the interface with his fingertips skillfully, clicked on WeChat, and when he found that the top message was still blank, he said "tsk", "kid, you Was it captured by aliens and sent to the wrong channel?"

Surprised, Shen Xi quickly opened WeChat, only to find out that the signal in the subway was too bad, and none of the messages he sent to Feng Chen were sent successfully.

"Okay, okay." Shen Xi clicked send again, and after confirming that everything was sent this time, he spoke softly.

Feng Chen continued to tease the kid while unlocking the phone: "Do you miss me? If you dare to say no, I will punish you for saying the three words 'I miss you' a hundred times, enough for a 60s voice—"

He couldn't finish speaking, and was about to stop abruptly when he saw the new message that popped up on WeChat, taking advantage of the provocation overflowing from his lazy voice.

After a long time, Young Master Feng said something meaningful: "Little friend, you asked me to go to the bar??? Tsk, it seems that I misunderstood you a little bit before - a hundred times is a little bit too little, I think you deserve it no matter what." Say you miss me a thousand times in front of my face, and it barely matches your boldness of inviting me to the bar for a date tonight."

His voice was ambiguous, Shen Xi seemed to be able to feel the warmth that Feng Chen rubbed against his ear when he said this through the receiver, he blushed instantly, and stammered to explain: "No, I didn't invite you."

Feng Chen raised his eyebrows and said "Oh?", his tone rose, and the depth of his slightly bent eyes reflected the never-ending photo of Shen Xi in the album: "It's not you? Then who is calling me now? Tsk , it seems that I have to go out quickly, or I will be late, and such a bold kid will not wait for the deadline."

Shen Xi was terribly embarrassed, afraid that Feng Chen would take the opportunity to make more excessive demands in public after meeting, so he could only bite the bullet and admit: "Yes, it's me."

"It's really you?" Feng Chen curled his lips stubbornly, while getting up and walking outside, he continued to tease Shen Xi, "Then you say you miss me a thousand times, right now."

Shen Xi was even more embarrassed, he didn't know how to say "I miss you" to the mobile phone in this crowded car, let alone a thousand times.

The slightly accelerated exhalation was mixed with the sound of the subway station announcement that stopped every three minutes, almost inaudible. Hearing the long silence that almost dropped the line, Master Feng smiled silently, making sure that the other person was still the shy little girl from his family. stammer.

"Can't tell?" Feng Chen gestured to the driver who was waiting not far away, and didn't rush into the car.

Shen Xi nodded in embarrassment, after realizing that Feng Chen couldn't see it, he gave a soft "um".

As soon as he finished speaking, he heard the boy's deep voice pass through the receiver and gently fell on his heart, but it was more domineering than the wind whistling in the tunnel outside the window: "Then wait for me at the subway station, don't run around—— If you can't say it, use a kiss instead, huh?"

Because of this "unreasonable" request that could not be avoided in the end, Shen Xi's heartbeat was still a little uncontrollable until he got out of the subway.

He pursed his lips very lightly, and began to breathe messily at this moment, swiped his card and walked out.

The night was cool and cool, and the moonlight rolled up through the sparse branches and leaves. Shen Xi walked quickly, worried that Feng Chen would not be able to find him if he was not familiar with the subway. However, after walking a few steps, his footsteps suddenly stopped.

The boy was wearing a crisp white shirt and black trousers, with his long legs stretched out, leaning lazily against a cartoon sculpture on the side of the road. When he saw himself, he opened his arms and looked at him with smiling eyes without blinking.

Shen Xi's face turned red, and he immediately quickened his pace, but he didn't have the nerve to throw himself into Feng Chen's arms, and just tugged at the corner of his clothes lightly, for fear that his arms would get tired.

"If you don't come in again, my left hand will also be disabled." Feng Chen shook his wrist pitifully, as if he had really become a delicate young master who couldn't lift heavy objects with his hands.

No matter how thin-skinned Shen Xi was, he couldn't stop Young Master Feng who acted coquettishly and wanted someone's life. He closed his eyes in embarrassment, then took Feng Chen's hand, and carefully moved his head close to Feng Chen.

Feng Chen's scheming succeeded, he took advantage of the opportunity to wrap Xiaojieba in his arms, and squeezed his fingers into Shen Xi's fingertips with ease, lowered his head slightly,

A kiss as soft as moonlight imprinted on the corner of Shen Xi's mouth.

With trembling fingertips, Shen Xi suppressed the beating heart that was about to jump out of his throat, and he didn't dare to open his eyes, as if he didn't have to worry about being in public, let alone being seen by passers-by.

Harmful, those who are close to ink are black, Shen Xi has now been brought up to learn the trick of deceiving his ears and stealing his bell.

Young Master Feng made up for the lovesickness he hadn't seen in a day with a light kiss, he let go of Shen Xi contentedly, and took his hand towards the bar.

"You, your legs, can you walk?" Seeing that Feng Chen was not in a wheelchair, Shen Xi immediately slowed down, his slightly frowning brows were full of worry.

Feng Chen smiled and squeezed his fingers to indicate that he was fine——Young Master Feng has a lot of idol burdens, but he can't bear to bring a wheelchair with him on the first date with his child, that would be too unpleasant.

What's more, in order to create a sense of cp with the children today, he specially matched the same style of couple outfits, shirts and long pants, which should be more youthful, and even the cufflinks are the so-called couple styles that he put together bluntly .

Thinking of cuff buttons, Feng Chen couldn't help but look at Shen Xi's neatly tied cuffs, and couldn't help raising his eyebrows: "Why didn't you bring them?"

Shen Xi raised his eyes in confusion, and saw Feng Chen's fingertips gently rubbing against his sleeves, then he suddenly realized, and explained softly: "Pocket, put it away."

That cufflinks looked very expensive, Shen Xi always wanted to wait until there were important occasions to wear them, usually he was reluctant.

Although the child didn't say it clearly, Feng Chen still saw through Shen Xi's reluctance to use his little thoughts at a glance. He was so soft in his heart that he wished to present all the best things in the world to Shen Xi immediately, but he could think of Shen Xi's character. , Feng Chen could only temporarily suppress the urge to spend money on him in his heart, lowered his head to close to Shen Xi's ear, and said arrogantly, "The most valuable person is yours, do you still mind that little thing?"

Shen Xi was speechless when asked, looked at the most valuable boy in front of him, couldn't help but smiled slightly, and then nodded.

The stinky Young Master Feng was recognized by his children, his wolf tail instantly went up to the sky, and he kissed the children for a long time in a secluded corner before leading Shen Xi to the bar.

It was only when he walked to the door of October Bar that Feng Chen realized that something was wrong.

"Why did you come here?" Feng Chen didn't like this bar, not only because he was drugged here, but he was also worried about how he would explain it to Shen Xi if he encountered Qi Shui——no Feng Chen who dared to hide Shen Xi couldn't point to Qi Shui and admit, "Then what, this person is the fan I fucked."

Thinking about it, it felt like a big embarrassing scene.

Shen Xi also stopped in a daze, not knowing what to do next—Qishui only said that he was going back to the bar to sing the last song, and he didn't tell him other information. Even now, he didn't even want to see Qishui. No one knows yet.

The street lights were dim, and the plaques with different styles along both sides of the street reflected the figures of people coming and going at the entrances of various bars. It was the first time for Shen Xi to come here. The passers-by, who dared not approach, took out their mobile phones, ready to confirm whether it was this bar, and then their pupils trembled.

When she slowly opened her eyes, those thick and colorful eyes were as dark as ever, but covered with a rare layer of sadness.

Seeing Feng Chen again after a few months seemed like a lifetime away.

Qishui smiled wryly and lowered his eyes, looking at the hand that was still tightly held by Feng Chen, the sadness in his eyes was stronger than before, and there was also a hint of joy that was almost masochistic.

At this moment, Feng Chen still didn't know anything about it. Seeing that Xiao Jieba suddenly fell silent, he slightly raised his lips, scratching his palm and discussing with him: "Change a family? Huh?"

Qishui moved her fingertips very slowly, suppressed the urge to hug Feng Chen, and said softly, "Just, just stay for a while."

Even if Feng Chen didn't like it, he would give priority to satisfying his children's demands, nodded and held the children's hand tightly, and went in to find a quiet corner.

As a result, after walking a few steps, he ran into Hao Jun who was drunk.

"Wuuuuuu, brother Chen, are you here to pick me up?" Hao Jun has been squatting at the bar every day waiting for his little elf, drinking so much that his cheeks are like a monkey's ass. Chen immediately pouted and opened his hands, wanting to throw himself into Feng Chen's arms, begging for comfort.

But before he could reach Feng Chen, his fluttering "wings" were caught by an elbow.

"No." Feng Chen blocked Hao Jun with his elbow in disgust, and uttered two words concisely, extinguishing Hao Jun's little flame of longing for warmth.

Hao Jun was cruelly rejected, burst into tears with a "wow", he had no choice but to hug himself because of grievance, suddenly realized that there was another person beside Feng Chen, rubbed his eyes violently, and exclaimed: "What a handsome little brother!"

Why sober up, only a handsome guy.

Hao Jun, who woke up in an instant, was still wondering when there was a young brother with a godly face in the bar, and when he saw Feng Chen and his intertwined hands, his slow reflex arc finally caught up with the progress: "Fuck, this Could it be my future sister-in-law?!"

Feng Chen raised his eyebrows, smiled lowly and said "um", his extremely lazy tone was no different from usual at first, but the raised corners of his mouth betrayed his extremely happy mood at the moment.

Qi Shui suppressed the bitterness in his eyes, saw that Feng Chen was about to hold his hand and sit down, took a deep breath, and then forced himself to let go of Feng Chen's palm.

The fingertips that suddenly fell into the sky trembled slightly in the noisy light and shadow, just like his heart that had completely collapsed at this moment, Qi Shui forced himself to regain his composure, looked directly at Feng Chen, and instinctively wanted to hold his gaze again when he was surprised Li, said slowly: "I, I have a gift that I want to give you."

Feng Chen couldn't help laughing. Seeing that the kid seemed very nervous, he couldn't help but start talking hooligans again: "I don't want it, you are the best gift, you know?"

Qishui's heart, which was already riddled with holes, hurt even more at this moment. He looked at Feng Chen who couldn't hide the strong love in his eyes, and prayed in his heart: Please, remember what you said last night. All the words that have passed.

He suppressed the rolling Adam's apple, and made a firm heart to avoid Feng Chen's entanglement again. Wrapped his fingertips around his hands, stood up, and smiled lightly at Feng Chen: "Wait, wait for me for a while."

Feng Chen narrowed his eyes slightly, looked straight at the kid who seemed to be a little abnormal since he entered the bar, and asked him in a slow voice: "What's the matter? What do you want to do, I'll accompany you."

Qishui subconsciously took a step back, fearing that Feng Chen would see through the disguise he had been holding so hard until now, he pinched his palm hard, forced himself to look at Feng Chen's still intense gaze, and shook his head lightly: "No, it's nothing Son - I'll be soon, you are here, wait for me."

After he finished speaking, he turned around quickly, and his tall, thin and handsome figure disappeared under the noisy crowd and the colorful beams of light in an instant, without a trace.

Feng Chen frowned, staring at the familiar but somehow wrong back, stood up and prepared to follow, but was hindered by the gossip Hao Jun who has been holding back until now.

"Brother Chen, where did you pick up such a handsome little brother!" Hao Jun was still immersed in tonight's double-faced crit and couldn't extricate himself, "I always thought that you are a god that no one is worthy of. Yan Zhi will be lonely forever, I never thought God was afraid of your loneliness, and even sent another fairy brother down to accompany you, ah, where did you find it?!"

Feng Chen said absently, "It's from the school."

Hao Jun: "..."

Ahhh he is so angry!Why didn't he work hard to get into university and let the school send him such a handsome little brother!

Before Hao Jun recovered from the sadness that was as big as the West Lake, the lights on the stage dimmed suddenly.

There was a moment in the audience that was almost dark and deep, like a precursor that some kind of existence would be swallowed forever. When it was lit up again, Qishui, wearing a black trench coat and wearing a mask, stood in the depths of the dim light and shadow, facing The audience cheered from shock to surprise, smiled lightly, and whispered in a hoarse voice: "Long time no see, I kept everyone waiting for a long time."

"Qishui?!" Hao Jun rubbed his eyes, unable to believe that the boy on the stage was really the little elf he had been waiting for for so long, but soon, when Qishui sang the first line of the lyrics, Hao Jun completely Crazy, excitedly screaming "Aww", "Brother Chen! It's really Qishui! Qishui is really back!"

Young Master Feng has a headache - he is not blind, of course he can see that Qishui is on the stage who has disappeared for a long time but bumped into him when he came - this is really fucking Murphy's law, afraid of any kind of big car accident on site.

At this moment, Feng Chen was full of thoughts about how to explain to the children for a while, rubbing his temples with a headache, and didn't pay attention to what Qi Shui sang, let alone the eyes that Qi Shui kept looking at him.

If the eyes could speak, then at this moment, the eyes hidden behind the mask, looking at Feng Chen with nostalgia and reluctance, would be saying: "I love you."

But unfortunately, the eyes can never open.

All the love that Qishui can no longer express to Feng Chen can only be restrained and hidden in his singing, just like every crush who loves but not, humbled into the dust.

"...Goodbye, myalmostlover; Goodbye, myhopelessdream..." (Note: Goodbye, my hopeless love, goodbye, my hopeless dream)

The cold and slow singing reverberates in the quiet bar. Even if you can't see Qishui's expression clearly, each of his gurgling tones like a clear spring is filled with unconcealable sadness, and penetrates deeply into the bottom of people's hearts through the eardrum .

It hurts so much that it makes people want to cry unconsciously.

After the last line of the lyrics was sung, the audience fell into a deathly silence. There was no applause, no cheers, only the silence that seemed to be taken away by the singing just now. Red eyes, bowing, thank you: "The last song is for the one I love."

When the death-like silence was broken by this confession, the audience who finally woke up looked up in shock, watching Qishui on the stage turn and leave.

He walked very fast, as if once he stopped, he would never be willing to go again. His slender figure cast an extremely lonely black shadow under the chasing beam, and then disappeared.

Hao Jun hasn't recovered yet: "Brother Chen, what does Qishui mean by that? Isn't he singing here?"

Feng Chen couldn't answer, because in the next second, he saw Qi Shui walking straight towards him from not far away. The corner of the black windbreaker was lifted up by the wind, revealing the looming white shirt inside.

"Hello, I'm Qishui." Qishui walked up to Feng Chen and stood still, just like when the two first met when they woke up in the hotel, tried their best to restrain the trembling of joy in his voice, and introduced himself to Feng Chen— ——At that time, Qishui thought that he had got what he wanted, but he didn't know that he had opened a wrong magic box that could never be corrected.

Feng Chen looked at him with a cold face: "I know you are Qi—"

He couldn't finish.

Qishui slowly took off his mask and untied his windbreaker. In the shock of Feng Chen's sudden stop on the opposite side, as if everything could be restarted, he said slowly to the boy he liked: "You Well, I am Qishui."

If possible, he doesn't want to be called Qishui, he wants to be Shen Xi.

The author has something to say: Note: "...Goodbye, myalmostlover; Goodbye, myhopelessdream..." (Goodbye, my hopeless lover, goodbye, my hopeless dream) Lyric source—— "Almost lover"

Thanks to "InX" who watered Wenwen and the cuties who have been waiting for a long time, pen refills!

ps: It was a bit uncomfortable when I was writing this chapter. My phone was looping the song "Almostlover". The hot comment I wrote seems to be even more uncomfortable-"almost is really the saddest word in the world. I almost made you fall in love with me. I almost succeeded. We almost have love."

Unfortunately, just a little bit.