Loving you is an unrepentant journey

The Spring Festival is coming soon, but the city of Z has become very deserted. The roads that used to be congested have become very smooth. There are not many cars on the road, and there are almost no pedestrians on the street. Most of the shops are closed. Even the roadside The city's green plants also seem to be listless and drooping.

Yi Qian thought it was because most people in this city had gone back to their hometowns.

He thought of the bustling town of Lu Feng's hometown. Even at night, there was a rush of people, and people spoke and called loudly without any scruples.

Yi Qian retracted his eyes and glanced in the car. This is his elder brother's car. The driver in front is an old driver who has worked in his family for many years. The car is spacious and clean, filled with the smell of agarwood and leather seats .

Yi Qian shook his left hand with his right hand, and his hands touched each other, feeling each other's wet, hot and slippery touch. His palms were sweating because of the temperature in the car.

This is not at all the same as Lu Feng holding his hand. Lu Feng's hand is wider than his, leaner and stronger, with rough calluses and red chilblains on the back of his hand. Yi Qian thought Here, it was suddenly difficult to suppress the sadness that suddenly surged in his heart, but it was not actually sadness. He couldn't describe what it was like, sad, painful, and overwhelmed.

Yi Zhou saw Yi Qian suddenly turned his head sideways, and heard a low sound from his throat, like a choked sob.

He is a pragmatist, and his family is also a businessman. He has been working with his father since he graduated from university and returned to China. All kinds of personnel and professional affairs are enough to consume all his energy. He has no time to wander around like Yi Qian. When it comes to love, he even gets married on a blind date and then ends when he thinks it's good. He doesn't understand and doesn't have the heart to understand Yi Qian's twists and turns in love.

But seeing him like this made him feel uncomfortable.

He stretched out his hand and squeezed Yi Qian's shoulder, and said, "Dad is not completely unreasonable, you should be submissive, and you should answer everything he says first, and then take your time, huh?"

He lowered his head to look at Yi Qian's face. Yi Qian raised his head to suppress the sadness in his heart, and avoided Yi Zhou's gaze by the way. Fu Fei is a man with a lot of scheming, and he does many things by hook and by crook, before he seduced you, I will not say anything, but if he is married and still seduces you, he really deserves to be pecked at."

Although Yi Qian also had a lot of resentment and anger towards Fu Fei, he didn't want to mention him, nor did he want people around him to mention him. He said: "I have nothing to do with him, don't talk about him."

"Don't talk about him? If you told me not to talk, I won't talk." Yi Zhou sneered, staring at Yi Qian with deep and unhappy eyes, "You are really, you are more deceitful than women, I really don't understand , how can I, Yi Zhou, have a younger brother like you."

"I'm sorry, I didn't grow up like you, I let you down." Yi Qian said angrily.

Yi Zhou is seven or eight years older than Yi Qian, and he was sensible earlier, so when Yi Qian was born, he was no longer able to fool around, but he didn't have much interest in Yi Qian, who was a milk baby, and gradually grew up , Yi Qian is also sensible, and he is a brother who teaches Yi Qian in all aspects, but Yi Qian is not very good in all aspects except for his appearance and cuteness. He taught him math problems three times and he still If he didn't understand, Yi Zhou lost his patience, turned around and left, asking his family to ask Yi Qian for tutoring, and not to look for him again.

Yi Qian didn't know that his elder brother looked down on him, so he didn't come to him to make fun of himself.

Yi Qian was hit by Yi Zhou a lot when he was a child. At first, he was still afraid of him, but then he became rebellious, neither afraid of him nor convinced of him, and the two had different personalities, so they took different paths.

His eldest brother is the pillar of the family, and he is a young master who is messing around with his job.

Yi Zhou reached out to slap Yi Qian on the head, but Yi Qian pushed his hand away.

Yi Zhou snorted, and said: "You don't listen to me, anyway, that Fu Fei, if you want to have something to do with him in the future, don't talk about dad, even me, I will beat you up. You said that It's free love, I think you are not self-respecting at all."

After Yi Zhou finished speaking with a straight face, Yi Qian glanced at him with a sullen face and stopped talking. Although he and Fu Fei had broken up a long time ago, and he knew Fu Fei no less than Yi Zhou, he didn't want anyone to slander him. His previous love was actually the best time of his youth. Now, his mentality is already old, like a shrinking tortoise.

After returning home, although Yi Yunsheng, who had experienced all kinds of storms, was indeed very angry about his youngest son, it was not that he couldn't stand it anymore.

He is over 65 years old now, but he doesn't look old from a wealthy family, but his body is too majestic, and when he has a stern face and no smile, it is very frightening.

He was not at all amiable.

Yi Qian didn't have much contact with him since he was a child, he always had so many things to do, and he always had so little time at home, it was a luxury for Yi Qian to listen to his teachings once when he was a child.

Moreover, Yi Qian had a well-behaved personality when he was a child, which was particularly reassuring, and it was even rarer for his father to spend energy on him.

Yi Qian had only quarreled with him once before this.

When he returned home after graduation, his father wanted him to join his own group for training, put him in the next position, and let him learn technology and management.

Yijia is mainly engaged in heavy industry and machinery industry, and also undertakes some important confidential projects of the country, and even participated in many important major projects of the country. This shows how traditional and serious the atmosphere of Yijia should be.

Yi Qian's personality doesn't match the atmosphere of Yi's family. He doesn't like it at all, and he is determined not to go home to do things. Yi Yunsheng is so angry with him. Yi Qian was still young at that time, and he was pampered and grew up. , During school, she always studied like an ivory tower. When she became impulsive, she quarreled with Yi Yunsheng, and she was determined not to work in the family group.But Mr. Yi asked him what he wanted to do, and Yi Qian couldn’t tell why. He likes photography, but it’s impossible for him to be a photographer, because he only likes to take pictures of things he likes, and it’s impossible to meet customer requirements.So he was also confused.

It was during his most depressing period that Fu Fei approached him. He was fascinated by Fu Fei's unscrupulous drive to go up, and Fu Fei said that he can do whatever he likes, not everyone He has to bear so many responsibilities and must turn himself into a steel frame. He is soft by nature, so he should always be so soft.

Yi Qian fled to his side. His father thought that his personality was not like his mother's, so he had no choice but to focus on cultivating his eldest son.

And Yi Zhou didn't let him down, Yi Zhou was his copy, if one day he didn't finish his work without touching his feet, he would feel upset all over.

So he gave up on disciplining his younger son more and more until he was found at home.

What kind of person is Yi Yunsheng? High officials and dignitaries greet him with a smile, but a woman comes up to him and scolds him, but he can only bear it.Because it was indeed his son's fault.The child does not teach, the father too.

Yi Qian was brought home, the old man went to attend an important meeting and was not at home.

Yi Zhou also can't waste time with Yi Qian at home. After throwing him at home, he explained to the family: "Keep an eye on him, don't let him go out."

Then, a signal jammer was installed in Yiqian's room, making it impossible for him to communicate with the outside world.

Yi Qian nestled in his own room. Apart from facing his mother's tears, the room was full of books teaching him how to be a human being.

Yi's mother's surname is Pu, and she was born in a military family. The Pu family is a very low-key family, but after so many years of accumulation, it has become an unshakable family, and the Pu family does not engage in trouble, so it is even more unshakable.

The atmosphere of the Pu family is more dull and serious than that of the Yi family. Apart from obedience, there is no room for any rebellion. Mother Yi is almost completely obedient to her father at home and her husband after marriage. However, she is not without wisdom and her own opinions, but she always She will change herself for the sake of the so-called overall situation, no matter how unwilling she is.

Yi's mother and Yi Qian said: "The girl from Liu's family is very good. She went to university in China and a master's degree in the UK. She majored in art appreciation. Don't you like photography? You should be very interested in photography." A common topic. Xiaoqian, your father said that on the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, invite her and her parents to come over."

Yi Qian didn't respond.

Yi's mother looked worried. The eyes that were red from crying these days have been red and swollen, and they haven't disappeared at all. Her voice is a little hoarse, and she even talks to Yi Qian with a little bit of flattery.

Yi Qian really wanted to harden his heart, but he couldn't, he reached out and grabbed Mother Yi's hand, Mother Yi was well maintained, a little fat, her face was white and her hands were white, her fingers were soft, but she hadn't put on makeup these days, plus she was worried , the complexion is not good, the wrinkles on the corners of the eyes and the forehead are particularly heavy, Yi Qian knows that his mother is really old.She is five or six years younger than Yi's father. She used to be a dancer in an art troupe. Since she got married, she has taken care of her husband and raised her children at home. Yi Qian grew up by her side, and her appearance and personality follow her.

Yi Qian said, "Where's Dad, you haven't come back yet?"

Yi's mother said: "Come back tomorrow night, he's back, what he said is for your own good, don't make trouble with him."

Yi Qian's fingers touched the end of her eyes, gently trying to smooth the lines around her eyes, but his fingers had no magical function at all, except for touching out the tears of Yi's mother, the wrinkles were still there, he I also saw the white hair on the side of her temples that hadn't had time to be dyed black.

Yi Qian said: "Mom, don't cry, why are you crying again?"

"Promise me, don't quarrel with your father. Just listen to what he says, and you will agree." Yi's mother said with a sob.

Yi Qian pursed his dry lips and said, "I know. However, the uncles and aunts of the Liu family and their daughters, please don't invite them over. You have also seen how Fu Fei's wife, Ms. Gu, came to my house , if I get married at that time, I will also harm girls like this."

Mother Yi's tears flowed out again as if she didn't want money, she clasped her son's hand fiercely, "Mom doesn't understand, why do you have to have a man, why, Xiaoqian, aren't you a man? Mom was wrong, your dad said I raised you up like this, I was wrong, right?"

Yi Qian felt as if he was being scalded by a branding iron, so hot that he felt that he was going to turn into ashes, and turning into ashes probably felt better. He took a tissue to wipe her tears, then held her in his arms, gently Gently stroking her hair, "Mom, what are you talking about. I love you the most, love you the most."

Yi's mother couldn't help but continued to cry, her eyes were almost blind from crying.

Yi's mother's tears were like a torrent of water in his heart, almost drowning his whole world.

Yi Qian had no choice but to wipe away tears for her. There was nothing he could do about it, and his sexuality was not something he could choose at will. He couldn't say these words, and he couldn't say them in front of Yi's mother.

He just wanted to get away from here, but he knew he had nowhere to go.

He bowed his head and kissed her forehead, and said, "Mom, really don't cry, I took a camera to take a picture of you, and I took a picture of you like this."

Yi's mother wiped her tears and stared at him, "What time is it, you're still joking."

Yi Qian said, "I'm serious."

He really went to get the camera, the heavy camera was in his hand, and the light winter light came in from the window. Mother Yi wanted to avoid him, "Don't take pictures, you are still making fun of me at this time. How can you see people like this? .”

Yi Qian said: "Where is it? She has always been the most beautiful person."

He really kept taking pictures of Yi's mother. Yi's mother couldn't do anything about him. She wanted to hide from him at first, but then she couldn't hide anymore, so she had no choice but to smile at his camera, with tears on her face, helpless and loving smile.

When Yi Qian saw her in the camera, his heart felt as if he was drowned by the sea of ​​sand in the desert, and his whole heart was sucked by the dry sand without any moisture. He was shriveled, had no tears, but was dying.