Loving you is an unrepentant journey

When Lu Feng said that he didn't do anything in Seablue Star, the sensitive Yi Qian already understood Lu Feng's intentions. It was impossible for him not to understand, because although Lu Feng's love was not expressed, it was always reflected in his behavior Reflected.

His feelings made Yi Qian panic.

Yi Qian thinks that he is a very free and easy person, and he doesn't care about many things in his life, but he is naive and stubborn about his feelings. His favorite writer when he was a child was San Mao. He went to live in the Sahara Desert and was severely laughed at by his elder brother.

Yi Qian has always felt that he is a person who is drifting in life. He feels that he is earnestly drifting away, but his friends think he is drifting seriously.

At least in the matter between him and Fu Fei, he didn't have any friends who liked him, and they all thought it was funny that he and Fu Fei were together.

Yi Qian was very sad for a while, why is it funny to fall in love with someone properly?

But in the end Fu Fei got married in a fair manner, and when he still wanted him to maintain an extramarital affair with him, he really felt that his love affair was very funny.

Love not for the purpose of marriage is hooliganism.

Although it is unrealistic for him to fall in love with the purpose of getting married, he feels that at least he must have a very correct attitude, and he must not be together with a playful mentality.As long as people hold this kind of mentality, they will not be serious about this relationship, and feel that there is a way out anyway, and feel unbearable if there is a little conflict, and they will hurt each other casually, and they will break up casually.So you must fall in love with the mentality of being together for a lifetime, this is the real love.

He once shared his love philosophy with a few good buddies, and everyone thought he was mentally ill.

Someone else said: "Even the most conservative women, there are not many who think like this. Where did you get this antique thinking?"

Yi Qian said: "What do you know? I am enjoying spiritual enjoyment, which is different from those of you who only know about physical enjoyment."

Everyone said: "Fu Fei provoked you, it was really bad luck for eight lifetimes."

Yi Qian was very angry, but seeing that everyone took this as a joke, he had no choice but to heave a long sigh, and made it a joke himself to avoid embarrassment.

So he never talked about emotional matters with his friends again, and told this group of people that he was playing the piano with a cow.

Fu Fei went to get married without telling him, and even thought that he would accept the matter. After he proposed to break up, Fu Fei didn't believe that the breakup he said was true for a short time, thinking that he was just angry and coaxed. Well, when Yi Qian was disturbed by his entanglement and couldn't sleep, thinking of this incident, he always felt that his overly serious attitude gave Fu Fei such confidence.

He must feel that he loves him so much that he is willing to forgive any of his actions, it's up to him. The two have been together for more than four years, and he was angry so many times, making a lot of noise, but he never threatened Fu Fei by breaking up. I always don't mention the past after the incident, and manage the relationship after it well.

But is this really wrong?

If he hadn't met Lu Feng, he would definitely feel that his previous stubborn mentality was wrong, why didn't he have fun like Zhao Hao and the others, and there was never a shortage of newcomers around him.

But he saw his shadow in Lu Feng, he was moved by Lu Feng's true love for him, and he felt sorry for him.

So the more it was like this, the less he could deal with Lu Feng casually after he confessed to him.Otherwise, it's no different from playing with Lu Feng's feelings.

Yi Qian looked at Lu Feng and said, "It's true that I was wrong when I said that just now. But I didn't think it through at all. I can't be with you. I don't want you to misunderstand."

Although Lu Feng had already guessed this kind of result, when Yi Qian really said that to him, it was impossible for him not to feel lost and sad at all.

Lu Feng said: "I know, I can't give you many things. Besides, I know you have many other things and other pressures..."

Yi Qian raised his hand to tell him not to talk, he sat on the bed, feeling very powerless, and said: "It's not what you think, you are fine, I don't need anything from you, but I really can't accept it now your feelings."

"Why last night..." Lu Feng frowned at him, he actually couldn't understand many of Yi Qian's actions.

Yi Qian looked at him and said, "Sorry, I gave you the wrong signal. I'm sorry..."

Lu Feng pursed his lips and forced a smile, and said, "It's okay, you don't need to apologize, this kind of thing needs to be agreed by both parties."

Yi Qian knew that he was sad, and he felt even more sorry, saying: "My family is in a mess now, my dad is very old-fashioned, and he is already very angry when he knows that I am gay. I am afraid that I will hurt you."

Lu Feng said: "If you have anything, you can come to me. Can we still be friends like before?"

Lu Feng's voice had returned to his calm, as if he had never been rejected by Yi Qian.

Yi Qian rubbed his cheeks and said, "I don't think so."

Lu Feng clenched his hands into fists. He was silent for a long time. He didn't know what else he could say to keep him. He didn't even understand that when Yi Qian misunderstood that he was working in Seablue Star, he was willing to be nice to him, knowing that he was not After working in it, I want to reject him instead.

Yi Qian felt that Lu Feng was very pitiful, so he became hateful. In fact, he really liked Lu Feng.

Lu Feng took a deep breath, and said to Yi Qian, "Go to sleep with the quilt on, so you don't get too cold. I'll cover you with another quilt."

He got out of bed and took out another quilt from the cabinet.

Lu's mother didn't have the consciousness that two people should sleep in the same bed and cover the quilt separately, so the bed was covered with a big quilt with thirteen catties of cotton wool, which was enough for two big men.

Lu Feng took out the thinner and smaller bed and spread it outside, letting Yi Qian cover the already warm bed.

Yi Qian did not lie down again, he said: "I think I will leave tomorrow."

Lu Feng was making his own quilt, and he was taken aback by his words, but in a blink of an eye he returned to normal, continued to make the quilt, and said, "Okay, I'll take you back to Z City."

"No need, I'll call a friend to pick me up." Yi Qian said.

Lu Feng said: "Are you going home? Or not?"

Yi Qian: "I don't want to go home for now, I'm going to live at a friend's house."

As Yi Qian said, he asked Lu Feng to hand him the mobile phone he put on the bedside cabinet. Lu Feng gave it to him, and he sat there and turned on the mobile phone. The new card used in the mobile phone was bought by Lu Feng .

With his head down, he found a number and dialed it. After a while, the phone was connected.

"Hello, who is it?" An impatient male voice came from the opposite side.

"Zhao Hao, it's me." Yi Qian said.

"Ah? Yi Qian." Zhao Hao's voice was full of surprise.

Hearing his surprise, Yi Qian said, "Have I ever looked for you at home?"

"That's right." Zhao Hao said in a very loud voice, full of anger: "What's the matter, your elder brother personally brought people to my place, it's like looking for criminals, it scared me. They thought you were hiding in my house. Here, I told you that you had never been here, but they still didn’t believe me. What happened to you? Did you sleep with your sister-in-law?”

"Zhao Ritian, can you keep your fucking mouth clean, what nonsense are you talking about?" Yi Qian was originally in a depressed mood, but his anger overwhelmed his depression when he talked nonsense.

"I'm not talking nonsense. What happened to you? Your elder brother is so fierce that he scared me to death."

"It's nothing, but Fu Fei's wife ran to my house to make trouble. My family found out about Fu Fei and me. You know my father's character. You are so angry that you want to kill me and clean up the house to avoid future troubles."

"Ah! Fu Fei's wife is so capable! Didn't you guys break up early?" Zhao Hao said, "Didn't you guys break up? You still slept with him afterwards, I said you, Yi Qian, on Fu Fei's bed Is kung fu really that good..."

"Fuck you, I'm worried, can you stop making me uncomfortable. I have no contact with him after that. I think his wife deliberately used this as a gimmick to occupy the commanding heights of public opinion. " Yi Qian frowned.

"When you first got together with him, I told you that there is something good about someone like Fu Fei. Even if you want to find a man, you can't find a young man with a good figure and good skills in bed. What do you want to talk about? Feelings, he is the kind of person who has ass feelings, and now he has been played with, and his wife has come to him..."

Zhao Hao's sarcastic remarks made Yi Qian furious, and said angrily: "Zhao Ritian, can you fucking shut up for me. If you talk again, I'm hanging up the phone."

Zhao Hao said: "Okay, okay, Mr. Yi Qian, if you have any orders, call me at this time, and you can tell me."

Yi Qian: "..."

If he hadn't asked for something, Yi Qian really wanted to hang up the phone right away. He used to have Lu Feng to comfort him about his emotional problems, but now he can no longer look for Lu Feng.

He endured his depression and anger and said, "I'm at a friend's house right now, a little distance from City Z. You ask your driver to pick me up in a car. If you leave now, you should be there at noon tomorrow."

"Which friend?" Zhao Hao asked.

"Someone you don't know. I'll send the address location to your QQ, and you ask your driver to leave immediately."

"I'll pick you up in person, and comfort your wounded little heart by the way." Zhao Hao said enthusiastically.

Yi Qian said impatiently: "The labor and management don't want to see you, you better not come here. Also, don't tell anyone about me, if my family knows that I have asked you, I will ask you to take responsibility gone."

Zhao Hao said, "Is this how you should be begging for help?"

Yi Qian said: "I'll send you the location. Alright, I'm hanging up the phone. Let me tell you one more thing, I'm going to lose ten years of my life."

"You really hurt my heart by saying that... Hey, hey..." Zhao Hao stared at the phone boredly when he realized that Yi Qian had actually hung up the phone.

Zhao Hao has a playful attitude towards everything, life is so short, of course he should try his best to be happy.So he really couldn't understand many of Yi Qian's behaviors, and felt that he was really sick.

Yi Qian sent the location to Zhao Hao, and said to Lu Feng, "I'll leave at noon tomorrow."

Lu Feng said: "Okay, I will borrow a car to take you to the county first tomorrow morning, it will be more convenient for you."

Yi Qian felt stuffy in his stomach, unable to speak out.

Zhao Hao quickly called him again and said, "I've called my driver, and I'm leaving right away. It's just Yi Qian, why did you go to such a place in the countryside where no one shits?"

Yi Qian said unhappily, "Can't I be happy? Besides, here, the birds are singing and the flowers are fragrant, and the wild animal breeding base, why is it that the birds don't shit."

"Oh, okay, tell my brother, why did you run to that place full of bird droppings? No wonder you can't be found anywhere in your house."

"Send me the driver's number." After Yi Qian said this, he hung up the phone casually.

When Zhao Hao called again, he never picked up again.