[Beautiful Man] Rebirth Notes

I stayed in South Korea with Xinyu for two days, and then flew to Shanghai for work. Since the last time I broke up on the plane, Hansen has never appeared in front of me, and sometimes I suddenly think of Hansen’s eyes when he left , like a gesture of fulfilling one's wish and being able to die at any time.

Will he really take his own life?

I can't help but think about it lately.

I also think about Gu Ming's good and his bad. The birthday gift he gave me in the previous life was a watch with a positioning device hidden in it. Rescue our lost donkey friends from the predicament, so he once saved my life.

What I used to be the most intolerable was knowing that I didn't like him, but he always appeared in front of my friends as a boyfriend. Because of him, I didn't even have a chance to fall in love early. Because of him, I missed the male god in college. Because of him, I don't even have a friend of the opposite sex. My college classmates tease me for having a jealous boyfriend, and I feel like my life has been ruined by him.

But now that I think about it, it's a bit naive to hate a person because of these things.

In the previous life, Gu Ming was hospitalized due to a serious illness. At that time, I was busy with work, so I rarely went to see him. Every time I went, he was in a good mood, which made me mistakenly think that his condition was getting better day by day. When I went to visit him again, I saw him slumped deep in the hospital bed with a haggard appearance, and my heart was not untouched.

After attending Gu Ming's funeral, besides the grief, I felt a moment of relief when I thought that I would never have such a crazy man like Gu Ming in my future life. At that moment, I felt worthless for Gu Ming, he shouldn't Falling in love with a hard-hearted woman like me.

I think that if he hadn't met me, Gu Ming's life might not have been as miserable as it was in the end. Although he couldn't escape the fate of dying early, at least he would have a happy time, and a woman who loved him would be happy for him when he left. Go heartbroken.

Thinking about it this way, I feel unlucky because I met Gu Ming, so why not Gu Ming?

If Gu Ming took his own life because of this, I think I will feel guilty for the rest of my life.

I feel that I have become a person like Gu Ming. When I see women who are too close to Xin Yu, I will be jealous and angry. I wish I could go up and slap those women. I feel that those women are coveting my man. This made me very indignant, but I was able to maintain my sanity and did not do anything out of line.

I hate the female stars who walk arm in arm with Xinyu in fashion shows like a couple. I hate those women who look at Xinyu with affectionate eyes. I hate those who call Xinyu Ouba with sticky voices. Woman, it turns out that if you love someone, you really want to monopolize him. I began to understand Gu Ming's previous behavior, because I became like him.

I was sitting under the stage, watching Xinyu in a white suit and a female star in a white dress walking slowly on the stage, all the shots and eyes were projected on them, two equally stunning people stood together , especially seductive, the audience present seemed to be attending their wedding.

I was sitting in the corner, wearing plain and ordinary clothes, my hair was tied up with a headband, and there was no excessive makeup on my face. Compared with the radiant goddess on the stage, I was like an abandoned chaff wife.

I didn’t want to look at the stage anymore, I lowered my head and started playing with my phone. After logging into my Twitter, I saw Huang Taijing, Jeremy and my brother recorded a birthday song for me. Everyone wished me a happy 20th birthday below, but I am not happy at all, Xinyu is so busy that I forgot my birthday, such an important twentieth birthday.

While shopping, my phone rang and it was an unfamiliar number.

"Hello."

"Susie, it's me, Amy."

"Hello, Amy." Amy is Jeremy's childhood sweetheart, and Jeremy should have given her my number, but what does she want from me, is it to wish me a happy birthday?

"Can you come out now? I'm at the entrance of the venue."

I probably guessed what she meant, looked at the time, and there was still some time before the end of the fashion show, so I talked to my agent and went out.

Walking towards the gate, I saw a blond woman with her back facing me at the gate, and when she heard footsteps, she turned and looked at me.

"Susie, I have something to ask you." She came over anxiously and held my hand.

"what's up?"

As soon as I finished speaking, two tall and strong men came out and stopped me, "What are you going to do?"

"Susie, please come with me to my house."

What am I going to your house for? It's not the way to invite someone as a guest.

I was carried into the car by them, and the car was speeding all the way. I wanted to call Xinyu, but they snatched my mobile phone, and then I was dragged into a private jet.

English is so bad I can only repeat over and over: "You can't do this, you can't do this."

Amy kept trying to explain something to me. I could read the apology, but I couldn't understand what she was saying.

I enjoy the VIP-level treatment on the plane, but this will not reduce my anger. Speaking of which, I am not familiar with this Amy at all. If it is not because of Jeremy, I will definitely go up and fight with her regardless of the image.

I didn't dare to sleep, so I drank a few cups of coffee to cheer myself up. Amy, who sat across from me, slept peacefully. There were two big guys sitting on the seat next to her. She could indeed fall asleep peacefully, but I couldn't. .

The plane landed on a roof. At this time, I was so sleepy that I couldn't open my eyes. I was blown by the wind, and my eyes were sore and weeping.

"Susie, don't cry, we won't hurt you." Amy said with her arm around my shoulder.

Before I had time to look around, I was half dragged and half dragged into a magnificent mansion and sat on the sofa. The soft sofa made me really want to lie on it and sleep at the moment, but I didn’t know if I was safe. Now, I can only restrain my desire to sleep.

After a while, a rich middle-aged man came out, and a young man stood beside him. Amy got up and walked towards them, then looked at me and muttered for a while.

The middle-aged man nodded and waved his hand.

I was pulled up again, my arms were already red because of these two rude guys, I shook them off angrily, cursed them in Korean and let out my breath, whether they understood or not.

But I still couldn't escape the fate of being walked with arms crossed. I resigned myself to being led upstairs by them, trying to figure out what they brought me for.

The door was pushed open, and Hansen, who was wrapped in gauze, was sitting on the white carpet in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, and he turned his head to look at the door.

"Molly—" He got up too quickly and touched the wound on his body, and he cried out in pain and clutched his chest, while the woman in a nurse's attire next to him stepped forward to support him.

"Go away, don't touch me." Hansen scolded the other party, shook off the man's hand, looked at me with a surprised expression, "You came to see me?"

I stood at the door and didn't go in.

Hansen approached me and kicked everyone else out.

I sat on the chair and yawned. It was amazing, and I felt relieved to see him.

"Who are you, Amy?"

"My sister-in-law." Hansen curled his lips, "Don't you care about me?"

"How did you make yourself look like this?"

"Big burns on my back and my apartment was burned down."

"It's lucky that I'm fine. Then you take good care of your wounds. Can your family take me back? I was brought here by force." I suddenly disappeared, and Xin Yu must be dying of panic.

Hansen lowered his head, then stood up and said to me, "I'll see you off." He took out a shirt from the closet and put it on.

"If you are injured, take care of yourself at home."

"It won't hurt you." He put on his shirt and opened the door. A young man blocked the door and asked, "Where are you going?"

When the two stood together, I realized that they looked somewhat alike. This person should be Hansen's brother.

"My brother almost committed suicide because of you. You should stay and take care of him." He looked at me and said with a grim expression.

They found someone who could speak Korean and translated it for me.

"It has nothing to do with her, let her go."

"Look at what you look like now? Am I going to watch you die?"

Hansen and I were locked in the room. Hansen desperately knocked on the door to let them open the door. I saw his back start to ooze blood, so I quickly stopped him.

"Why do you not cherish your life so much? How lucky you are to be born again. Isn't it what you expected to have a healthy body?"

Hansen sat cross-legged on the ground and looked up at me. His face was pale with pain from the open wound, his cheeks were sunken, and his eyes were blue. He didn't look as energetic as before.

"I burned all your portraits, trying to forget you and try to live again, but I found that I couldn't do it at all. The fire accidentally ignited the sheets. I thought maybe dying like this is the best relief."

"You're crazy." I couldn't believe that he really had the idea of ​​suicide.

"I won't have the idea of ​​committing suicide anymore. I will never see you again after I die. We finally meet again in this world. I haven't celebrated your birthday once, and I haven't cooked a table of dishes for you with my own hands. I haven't made a painting for you, I haven't sat down and chatted with you, I still have a lot of unfulfilled wishes, how can I just leave like this?"

I hugged him and said in tears: "Gu Ming, why did our relationship become like this? We used to be the closest friends who talked about everything. Why did we come to this point? You can't die. I don't want you to die."

"I won't die. No one in this world understands each other better than us. As long as you are willing, we will still be the closest and most intimate friends."

He hugged me into his arms and gently stroked my head. He used to comfort me in this way. When I was most panic and helpless, he used to soothe the uneasiness in my heart.

Dusty memory is like an old photo that accidentally dropped out, you have long forgotten it, but it has always existed.

"Mo Li, uncles and aunts love you very much. Even if they are separated, they still love you and will never leave you." Seven-year-old Gu Ming said in a childish voice what the adults taught him. The not very wide arms have become my safe haven.

"Dad will marry another woman, and they will have their own children. If I am bullied, Dad will definitely not love me as much as before. The same is true for my mother. I will become a child that no one loves."

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I will protect you from now on and prevent others from bullying you."

"Let's pull the hook."

"Good~"