The Deepest Color of the Night

Fang Jin has never experienced such a long silence, so long that he even felt that the world was frozen, and even the time would not change.

He didn't know how long it took before he heard Gu Yuan's voice outside the door, and he was very calm: "I see."

"But you still have to come out for dinner. If you don't want to face me now, I'll go to the meeting first." Gu Yuan said again: "Although I still want to talk to you...but you should calm down first, wait until you think about it." Then come to me directly."

Sitting on the cold tiles by the bathtub, Fang Jin hummed hoarsely for a while.

He could feel what Gu Yuan wanted to say, although he couldn't see it through the door, but he had this strange feeling.

"..." After several seconds, Gu Yuan's dull voice sounded again: "Then I'm leaving."

The footsteps faded away, and the door opened and closed.

In the bathroom, Fang Jin maintained that posture without moving, as if his whole body was squeezed into a ball under invisible pressure, and the flesh and bones were crushed inch by inch inside his body into a smelly bloody mud.

——I want to develop a relationship with you.

I did it because I wanted to develop a relationship with you.

Fang Jin didn't even think that such a day would come, he couldn't believe that these words came from Gu Yuan's mouth.

He had imagined the best ending before, that is, he could give Gu Yuan the ring of peace between the two as a congratulatory gift, and be able to stay at Gu Yuan's side as his assistant for the rest of his life, congratulate him when he succeeds, and congratulate him when he fails. Get through it with him.He knows that there are also bosses and subordinates who become true confidants and friends. If one day after many, many years, Gu Yuan can tell him that the best friend I have ever had in my life is you, then he will really have no regrets in closing his eyes.

But he never thought that Gu Yuan would develop a relationship with him.

It's worse than liking him and wanting to sleep with him once.

Fang Jin bit the inside of his lips tightly, feeling the blood overflowing from the gap between his teeth, spreading to his mouth and swallowing his throat.

The severe pain was so clear and clear, but it made his confusion and agitation strangely calmed down a little.

It has been like this since a long time ago. Whenever he is under too much mental anxiety and stress, pain can always bring him short-term comfort.That feeling was like reminding him that he was still alive, the dead don't feel pain, only the living do.

And what he has always pursued is to live.

He has seen too many dead people, most of them died at the hands of Gu Mingzong.Those people were able to breathe, speak, and see the world one second, and their vitality was more active than him; the next moment, they turned into pale and rotten meat dripping with blood, and they were randomly piled up in a corner of the world and buried. Maggots gnawed into rotten bones.

He was terrified of becoming like that, he didn't want to die.

He would rather live with blood dripping, endure humiliation, live secretly like a stray dog ​​in the cracks of power, at least he can open his eyes and see the rising sun in the east every day.

——Then if an insignificant ant like him wants to live desperately, would Gu Yuan be willing to die for him?

Fang Jin stared at the solidified floating dust in the air without moving, and remembered the scene when he saw Gu Yuan later.

That was his last year in Germany, and the Gu family held a birthday reception that month he took him back to China—however, Gu Mingzong, a person, can already cause great psychological pressure in a short period of time. Getting along didn't drive people crazy, it was purely because the foreign country was not in the environment of Gu's family.

And during the month in Gu's house, they faced each other day and night every day, as if being forced into a sealed environment and then exhausted the oxygen little by little. This process almost didn't completely break Fang Jin's mind.

One night during the reception, he ran out and sat blankly by the pond in the garden in the middle of the night. The surroundings were completely silent, and the caterpillars and weeds were silent, as if he was the only one left in the whole world.Later, he slowly felt his emotions calm down, and when he was about to leave, he suddenly saw a person not far away standing under the shade of a tree, watching him motionlessly.

Fang Jin was taken aback, slipped his foot and almost fell into the pond, only to hear the man say: "—be careful!"

"...Who are you? What are you doing where?"

"My name is Gu Yuan."

Fang Jin's breath stopped for an instant.

The night was very dark, and they couldn't see each other's faces clearly in the shadows. It took a long time before Gu Yuan said slowly: "I was drinking too much and came for a walk, and then I saw you coming and sitting by the water... Are you Is the guest still a member of our family? If you have any difficulties, you might as well tell me, maybe I can help. "

Only then did Fang Jin realize why he hadn't heard anyone approaching - because Gu Yuan was already here.

And he didn't make a sound and didn't walk away, because he was afraid that he would commit suicide if he couldn't think about it, so he kept guarding by the side!

"I..." Fang Jin didn't know what to say for a while, and then said softly after a long while: "Thank you, I didn't want... to jump off. I just felt a little uncomfortable for a while, so I..."

"That's good." Gu Yuan nodded, his voice calm and gentle: "Everyone has difficult times, but life is not easy, let alone give up. If you have any troubles, you can come to me. Although I have limited abilities, But there are a lot of things that can be said.”

Life is not easy, let alone give up.

Fang Jin had mixed feelings in his heart, and just looked at him blankly.The figure of the young man in the shadow was tall and straight, but strangely overlapped with the handsome young man in his memory lying on the ambulance and soaked in blood.

"...I see," he finally managed to say, "Thank you."

Fang Jin turned around and brushed the weeping willows by the water, and quickly walked through the deep bushes in the night.After walking a long distance, he turned his head and saw Gu Yuan's figure by the pond still facing him, silent, as if watching him go.

... Later, the pond in the garden was quickly filled, and Fang Jin went to Germany again, and he never saw Gu Yuan again until he finished his studies and returned to China.

However, under the starry sky that night, the figure who quietly watched him leave still clearly remained in Fang Jin's mind, and it did not fade for a long time.

He thought that his feelings for Gu Yuan were hatred mixed with jealousy. After all, this person has everything he longs for but doesn't have, family, freedom, dignity, status... He is the root cause of his current situation. To a certain extent, it determines his own life and death, and it is very likely that he will take over his own life in the future.

However, Fang Jin was inexplicably unable to hate him.

Maybe it was because he begged like that: Don't let her give me blood transfusion, just let me go to that world by myself.

Or maybe he waited for him in the shadows of the night for so long, and told him seriously that life is not easy, so don't give up.

·

In the bathroom, Fang Jin raised his head and let out a long mouthful of bloody breath after a long time.

When everything is in a quagmire, the most important thing is to stop when you stop.

There is an extremely persistent side in Gu Yuan's character, and his ability to remember the little girl who secretly wiped her tears on the steps for more than ten years fully demonstrates this point.At the same time, he is used to being in a high position for a long time, and he will try his best to use various means to get what he wants, and it is impossible for him to easily and completely throw it away after a sentence or two of rejection.

He was right to want to have a good talk, Fang Jin thought wearily, only a serious talk can completely express his attitude, let him completely dispel his thoughts, and avoid falling into the most dangerous situation because of himself.

——But if it is still not okay to solemnly express your attitude?

As soon as this idea came up, Fang Jin snuffed it out with self-deprecating.With Gu Yuan's appearance, status and power, what kind of person does he really need, who needs to stalk someone of the same sex as him?Besides, even if he really doesn't agree, it's easy, just resign and it's over. Fang Jin is not arrogant enough to think that at that point, Gu Yuan will still insist on not letting him go.

It's just a night's sleep, how many emotions can I sleep.

·

Fang Jin braced himself and changed his clothes, ordered something to eat, and after the opening ceremony of the morning meeting was over, he sent a text message to Gu Yuan asking where he was.Almost immediately, Gu Yuan replied the location, which was an open-air garden cafe inside the hotel.

"I'll wait for you on the viewing platform, don't rush and take your time."

Fang Jin stared at the phone for a while, typed "OK" slowly, pressed the send button, and put away the phone.

Although the hotel is big, the open-air cafe is not far from here.Fang Jin still feels a little uncomfortable after eating, not because of the hangover - the alcohol has been metabolized long ago, but because there is an uncomfortable feeling deep in his body that seems to have been invaded by foreign objects, especially when walking.

He resisted the strange feeling. On the surface, his face was very pale, but his expression was very calm.Go up the elevator to the top floor of the hotel. Inside the open-air cafe is a sky garden with flourishing flowers and trees. The observation deck is covered by a huge glass ceiling, suspended above the hotel, and you can see the blue sea in the distance.

The comfortable sea breeze blows from a high place, and there are not many people in the garden at this time, Gu Yuan is sitting at a delicate white coffee table by the floor-to-ceiling window, seeing him coming, he immediately said loudly: "Here!"

Fang Jin walked over and said, "President Gu."

His eyes were steady and unwavering when he said these two words, but this simple title is enough to explain everything.

Gu Yuan and him looked at each other for a long time before saying calmly, "Sit down."

Sitting opposite Gu Yuan, Fang Jin saw a steaming cup of black tea with milk in front of him. It was obvious that Gu Yuan ordered it just in time for him to come.

"You were drunk last night. It's not good to drink coffee early in the morning. Use black tea instead to nourish your stomach. Unfortunately, I don't know how to make hangover soup. I wanted to order it from the hotel in the morning, but I was told that the kitchen was covered by the venue. gone."

Gu Yuan took a packet of brown sugar from the sugar bowl at hand and handed it over, but Fang Jin didn't take it.

"Thank you," he looked directly at Gu Yuan, but refused with a soft attitude: "I've already drank it myself just now."

Gu Yuan didn't answer, just lightly threw the sugar bag in front of him.

"So you came to me, you have already thought about it, right?"

Fang Jin stared at the misty rising white air in the teacup, and after a while he said: "Yes, Mr. Gu, I'm sorry for what happened last night...but I can't accept your proposal to develop a relationship. sorry."

In fact, it is easier to say than imagined.

Fang Jin slightly closed his eyes, only to hear Gu Yuan's voice from the other side who was neither happy nor angry: "But you didn't behave like this last night."

"..."

"Fang Jin," Gu Yuan raised his chin, and said meanly, "I don't know if you think I'm stupid or something else, but you kept calling me by my name last night, and you kept me from leaving, that's normal. Drunk reaction? You still look at me when you are fucked by me, and you still look at me when you are fucked by me until you cum. I will check with you again and again if you know who this man is fucking you. You said it was Gu Far away, have you forgotten so soon?"

Fang Jin pursed his lips tightly without saying a word, because his lips were even a little bluish due to excessive force.

"You think I'm the kind of stunned young man who can be dismissed casually, just listen to what you say? The next morning when I wake up, I don't recognize it. I say sorry and pretend nothing happened. You come out to whore for free?"

Fang Jin seemed to want to deny something, but Gu Yuan could not refuse to interrupt him: "I don't know how you broke up with someone before, but this time it's different from what you thought. Even if you did whatever you wanted before, you're so romantic It doesn't matter if you wander around, but today's matter is not something that you can end as soon as you say it can end, the initiative is in my hands, understand?"

Fang Jin couldn't say a word, and Gu Yuan seemed to feel his lips trembling slightly through the white air, but the words he said were very calm: "——Then what do you want, Mr. Gu?"

Gu Yuan said coldly: "I want to develop a long-term relationship, don't make me repeat it for the third time."

Fang Jin's sitting posture is very straight, his shoulders droop naturally, his back is thin and straight, and from Gu Yuan's point of view, it is actually a very beautiful curve.

He is wearing a thin light gray woolen sweater today, the color makes his skin very transparent, it seems that in Gu Yuan's memory, the blush dripping with lust all over his body last night is just an illusion, not on the calm and indifferent surface Leave no trace.

"...I'm sorry." Fang Jin finally said, his voice soft but firm: "I just want to maintain the relationship with you as a superior and a subordinate."

Gu Yuan leaned back deeply into the chair: "——Why?"

Fang Jin didn't answer, like a stone statue made of ice and snow.

"Are you in any trouble?" Gu Yuan asked suddenly, squinting his sharp eyes and looking him up and down: "Is there something that you have to not tell me?"

These words were unexpected, Fang Jin's heart was shocked instantly, but there was nothing unusual on the surface: "What did you say?"

"I didn't investigate carefully before, but I think you haven't mentioned anything about your family, and you haven't seen any relatives or friends. Your education and language level should only be achieved by your parents who have a lot of money. Why didn't you mention it? Woolen cloth?"

Fang Jin looked straight at Gu Yuan and said calmly, "I don't want to talk about this kind of private matter with my boss."

"Let's think so." Gu Yuan mocked slightly, "Besides, the last time you had a date with someone, you asked for leave after [-] o'clock in the morning to rush home, and you didn't answer the phone for a whole day—Fang Jin, tell me, who are you? The kind of person who asks for leave early in the morning to go home and have sex with someone?"

"Do not……"

"If you have a boyfriend, tell me," Gu Yuanju said condescendingly, "It won't take long to hide this kind of thing, and it will be easy to find out."

Fang Jin pressed his hand on the edge of the table very hard. In an instant, he knew that there must be a crack in his expression, and even the end of his speech broke out: "——It has nothing to do with that at all! Why do you ask these?!"

Gu Yuan looked at him, and said lightly, "Because I like you."

"Because you like me and I like you, so I want to pursue you and develop a long-term and stable relationship with you. Is it so difficult to understand?"

In an instant, Fang Jin's mind went blank.

...I want to pursue you.

because I like you.

If he didn't have such a terrible identity and experience, so many dirty and dirty secrets, if he had no connection with Gu Mingzong... How happy would he be to hear this now?

Or, even if the words come later, when he finds ways to get rid of the cruel and taboo relationship, and finally can stand freely in the sun, and then say it from Gu Yuan, what kind of ending will it be? ?

Sitting in the chair, Fang Jin felt that his whole body had been emptied, and there was no warmth or strength in his body.

He couldn't believe that fate could be so cruel to him, there was no kindness at all, it was the worst kind of tease.

"...Mr. Gu..."

Fang Jin opened his mouth slowly, as if he could feel the coldness of his breath when he spoke.

"If you... like this, I can only..."

I can only resign.

At this moment, a voice sounded from not far behind him: "—Hey, Gu Yuan!"

Fang Jin's voice paused, and Gu Yuan raised his eyes and stood up quickly.

I saw an old man in Tang suit walking forward among the crowd. He looked about to be in his 80s, but he was full of vigor and vitality. He looked at Gu Yuan and smiled and said, "Why, invite someone to talk about things here?" ?”

Gu Yuan made a comforting gesture to the other party, and then smiled at the old man: "Yes, this is my assistant."

The old man turned his face away with a smile.

——At that moment, Fang Jin caught a glimpse of an obvious mole on his temple.

"Young young man, really handsome." The old man first reached out and shook Fang Jin's hand: "I am the director of this hotel, so my surname is Ke."

The moment his palms touched, Fang Jin stared at his wrinkled face, and a chaotic picture flashed in his mind——

In the Gu family mansion, in the study room, Gu Mingzong, who was sitting high above him, drank his tea with his head bowed, without raising his head, he asked, "——what are you doing, let me raise a child to play with?"

On the ground, Xiao Fang Jin was out of breath from crying, her tender face was flushed red and blue, her big eyes were full of tears, and the back of her hand swiped left and right to wipe out traces.

"Mr. Gu was joking." An old and kind voice sounded from behind Fang Jin, and he laughed and said, "You may not know, but this kid's blood type is the same as Gu Yuan's. How much trouble did we have to get it..."

Fang Jin turned her head back, sobbing, trying to raise her gaze.

I saw an old man surrounded by the crowd, like stars arching the moon, facing Gu Mingzong with a pleasant smile; he looked really old, his hair and beard were grizzled, but he was still in good spirits, turned his face At that time, I saw a very obvious mole on his temple: "Gu Yuan has a special blood type, in case something happens in the future... at least there is an emergency..."

——That face was imprinted in Xiao Fang Jin's tear-filled eyes. Through time and memory, it gradually overlapped with the old man in Tang suit in front of him. The position of the mole and the smiling expression remained unchanged.

Fang Jin's hand was still holding him, but his pupils tightened instantly!

"...Mr. Gu," Fang Jin turned his head and turned to Gu Yuan, with just the right amount of doubt in his calm expression, even the most careful eyes could not see the slightest abnormality: "—this Mr. Ke..."

Gu Yuan smiled and said, "Oh, it's my grandfather."