If the fleeting year has not come

Naturally, one of us was in the classroom and the other was outside the door, as if to expel the terrible silence in the dark, we talked a lot and talked about a lot of things.As if everything is back to the past, we can talk for a long time without saying anything, even if it is just a boring topic that is bubbling.

But the invisible tacit understanding is that we all avoid the relationship issues, and when it comes to going to her house to play during the summer vacation, we only stay on the surface. Her bed is very soft, and the dishes she cooks are not unpalatable.An inexplicable sense of loneliness spread in my heart, and I forced myself to continue the chat. The situation of having nothing to say is more terrifying than talking nonsense.

"You're a strange person." Su Zi suddenly started a new topic, not remembering what the last topic was.

It's strange to you, I replied weakly in my heart, but my mouth still guided her to say the following, "How should I say it."

"It's just weird, otherwise why would it be..." Before Su Zi finished speaking, the second half of the sentence was interrupted by the loud explosions outside, "The welcome party is over."

As a ceremony for the successful conclusion of the welcome party, the school has prepared fireworks that are said to have hundreds of rings, and they are exploding into colorful colors in the sky at this time, illuminating the distant sky brightly.

"It should be, everyone started to set off fireworks." I agreed.I always felt that there was something interesting in what Suzi didn't finish, so I tried to bring the topic back, "What did you just say that was weird?"

"It's nothing." Su Zi didn't intend to continue the topic.

What is the difference between half-spoken and a eunuch? Just when I was full of complaints and wanted to express my disgust, the window of the activity room was pushed open from the inside. grab my attention.

Looking at the light source, a small object was handed out from the window, and it turned out to be a key in his hand.

"Open the door." Su Zi said two words concisely.

By opening the door, you mean opening the door of the activity room?I was in a dazed state, and followed Su Zi's instructions to turn the key in the keyhole, and the lock hanging on the door just fell off, and the door was pulled open from the inside, and I stayed in the activity room. A person from the night appeared in front of him.

Didn't it mean that there is no key and it is locked inside? What happened when a key was suddenly given and it happened to be the door lock of the activity room? I stared blankly at the person in front of me.

"You have the key." I said affirmatively, and an idea gradually formed in my mind.

"Yes." Su Zi admitted generously, and his frank appearance made it difficult to utter accusations.

"Why didn't you take it out sooner?"

"You didn't ask me earlier." Su Zi shrugged, with innocence written on his face.

"So you deliberately lured me to stay here for one night." It was still an affirmative sentence.I just blamed myself for having a broken picture, falling for her tricks, and foolishly standing outside the door talking to her for hours, just to make her not feel scared.

"Not exactly." Su Zi said frankly, "I can't open the lock by myself. Since you are here, I might as well let you stay a little longer. Or, you don't want to talk to me, and you don't want to talk to me. I."

The skill of this villain to sue first has been fully charged, I lit a candle for myself in my heart, and I couldn't find any words to refute.Obviously she lured me here from the auditorium on purpose, and judging from her behavior that she came out by herself right after the performance, her purpose was simple and rude, just to prevent me from seeing Gu Yiyan's performance.

"Why." Although I have come to a conclusion, I still want to hear her say it herself. At least this will give me the illusion that she cares about the existence of Gu Yiyan, to the point of intentionally targeting her.

"Yeah, why." Su Zi blinked, even in the dark, she could still see the slyness in her eyes through the street lights outside, "Probably because I'm not happy."

"I'm not happy, what did I do to offend you." The hidden answer was ready to come out, and I tried to give further guidance.Use your height advantage to block the classroom door, maybe some things can be settled tonight.Although there is no defense, it is probably a matter of time.

"Because..." There was a smile on the corner of his mouth, and Su Zi cut off the text pretending to be mysterious.

"Why?" I asked eagerly.Such an intimate smile used to often appear on her face, especially every time she finished teasing me.It's been a long time since I saw it, and I'm in a trance, and I can't help but want to guess the deep meaning behind the smile.

Just when I was about to fly out of the sky, the warm breath rushed towards me, a smiling face formed a close-up in front of my eyes, Suzi's eyes were slightly closed, and the fragrance on my body surrounded me.This is the rhythm of stealing a kiss, I secretly pinched myself, the situation turned too suddenly and I couldn't accept it.

Since you have no ability to resist, then enjoy it gracefully.Thinking of this, I also closed my eyes, waiting for her next move.

After waiting for nearly half a minute, the fragrance and body temperature gradually faded away. I opened my eyes and found that Suzi had already trotted to the stairs.Turn on the flashlight on the phone again and shine it in my direction.

Not only has the key, but also the phone and battery, there is no such a scheming girl.I said that I was helpless, but I didn't mean to be angry at all.I touched my lips and almost touched them. If I had taken the initiative a few seconds ago, the result would have been slightly different.

"Because the earrings are gone, gifts are reciprocated." With a smile still on the corner of his mouth, leaving this sentence, Suzi turned and went downstairs, walked a few steps and seemed to stop, and added, "There is still that song, I But you are not allowed to hand it over to others."

Looking at the figure that had disappeared at the top of the stairs, I touched my ear with some regret, but there was nothing there.It seems that I took it off and never put it back on. My heart is inexplicably desolate. I used to feel that there is something missing in my life if I didn’t wear it for a day. Now I’m used to its absence. Is it possible that I will get used to it from a certain day? There is no such person as Su Zi around.

This is probably the reason why she was angry, I put down the paired things without authorization.Whether it is the earrings or the song, perhaps in her view, this is tantamount to letting go of our memories.What she doesn't want, she can't give to others.A hint of rebellious thoughts emerged, she obviously gave up on me first, but she still asked me to wait in the same place, this kind of domineering will look cute when I care about it, but if I don't care about it, where did she come from? Confidence, I think it must be me who can't let go.

But the truth is, I really never let go.Even though I seem to be living happily every day, I have someone to accompany me wherever I go, and there is a god-like figure who considers my affairs carefully, but there is always a black hole in my heart, and no one can fill it, except her.In other words, a wall has long been built where she is, and she can't get out if she is self-confident, and it is impossible for others to come in.

In fact, I found out that the earrings were missing a long time ago. After shopping with Gu Yiyan for the first time, the earrings disappeared along with the wallet. It is estimated that they were stolen while walking on the road.And the song "Next, Intersection, See You" was also deliberately sung by Gu Yiyan. With his influence, the whole world must know that he is going to sing this song.I stubbornly want to pretend that I don't know or don't care, but I just want to know if the person I care about will find out whether he cares.

It turned out that the experiment was successful now, and she cared.But she only cares about it, probably as long as I put on the earrings and don't listen to Gu Yiyan sing, it proves that she is more important than everyone else in my heart.It seems that as long as this is done, she can continue to leave with satisfaction and watch the fun from afar.

If it was in the past, I might happily think that she cared because she was jealous, and she did these things secretly because of her pride.But now, even if she admits it personally, I think there will still be a question mark in my cognition.So what if I admit it, she can withdraw and leave at any time, and the only one who is getting deeper and deeper is myself.

I even started to wonder if this relationship was worth it.

Originally, I was a pessimistic person. Although I didn't want to admit it, the feeling of inferiority has always been with me, and I feel that I am not good enough to be liked by anyone.Especially after experiencing her indecisiveness again and again, I really wanted to say that enough was enough, but I didn't have the courage to make up my mind.

Sighing silently, it is easy for people to think of things without reason in the dark.

The fireworks outside have been over for a while. If I don’t leave, the dormitory will be locked. I should also go back and study how to kneel and beg forgiveness to save the boat of our friendship.He wanted to take out his phone to check the time, but found that there were more than a dozen missed calls, most of them were from Gu Yiyan, and there were three people in the dormitory.

I told myself that I should cherish the people around me, not those who thought of being passers-by early in the morning, I warned myself in my heart.But the fact is that I understand the truth of comforting others, but I can't do it for myself.

Another call came in, from Gu Yiyan, I hardly had the courage to answer it.

"Hello." He replied weakly, feeling guilty inexplicably.

"Where are you?" Gu Yiyan said the three simple words, it seemed that it took a lot of effort, and he was probably so speechless that he didn't even want to scold me.

"The activity room of the literature club..." It was just a very common question and answer, but I was so guilty that the unexpected lie came out by itself, "I left something behind after rehearsal today, let me come and get it .”

"I'll go find you." Gu Yiyan seemed to believe my words.

"No, the lights will be turned off immediately and the dormitory will be locked." I didn't have the courage to meet the person on the other end of the phone, and I suddenly had a feeling that the harm I suffered from Suzi was being recovered bit by bit from Gu Yiyan, no matter whether he was innocent.

After a brief silence, Gu Yiyan's voice was firm and forceful, "See you downstairs in the dormitory."