If the fleeting year has not come

Not long after, we were driven out of the school hospital by the doctor on the grounds that we should not occupy the bed when the fever subsided, and we walked to the dormitory with big bags and small bags.After reading the novel, of course, all the big and small bags were hung on Gu Yiyan, and I just followed behind doing nothing to watch the male god become a laborer.

My steps are still a little weak, but it is not a serious problem. I suddenly feel refreshed by the night wind. There is no answer to the pent-up matter in my heart, and I can't think of a result. Maybe I should continue to let the natural development take its course. End naturally.

"You...have a boyfriend?" After walking for a long time without a word, Gu Yiyan suddenly turned around and asked in a serious tone when he was about to reach the downstairs of the dormitory.

"No, I'm single." I shook my head.I'm not just single, I've been single all my life.I thought I had a girlfriend, so I posted her photo on the center of the wall, but it turned out that she was just having fun on a whim.So, starting today, I am a single dog who accepts dog food again.

As for her, it's not that she doesn't have love, but that she is powerless to herself.

"But I heard you talking on the phone just now..." Gu Yiyan didn't continue, because eavesdropping on people talking on the phone is not a good habit.

"That guy is my sister. I heard that I didn't answer the phone all the time, thinking that I was kidnapped by the bad guys, and I'm going to ask you how much ransom you want." I said evasively.

A thought popped up, am I going step by step in the direction of the scum girl without looking back, I obviously don't like it, but I want to pretend to be ambiguous, what kind of experience is it to let a male god be a spare tire, is it because of shameful vanity Heart trouble.

But there was an encouraging voice from the bottom of my heart telling me that there was nothing wrong with me doing this, Su Zi didn’t want me, there was always someone who knew how to cherish it, and the other party was a high school male god, who slapped her face every minute.

"Shouldn't you go out tomorrow? Are you recuperating in the dormitory for a day? There are a lot of things to be busy at the beginning of school, choosing a club to participate in various activities, and a bunch of messy welcome parties." Gu Yiyan's tone was a little unwilling, and he was still gentle. For my sake.

"It shouldn't take too much energy to eat something and watch a movie." I squinted my eyes and smiled, but found that my eyes were so swollen that I didn't need to squint, and it had a slit eye effect.After seeing such an image, or in other words, there is no image at all, Gu Yiyan could still propose an invitation to me without changing his expression. His eyes are either blind or have hallucinations, and he can see the beauty of my heart through the phenomenon. Literally, I didn't believe it 20 years ago.

"Okay!" Gu Yiyan nodded with a smile on his face, and seemed to be more energetic when he moved things and walked.After thinking about it, a murmur that only he could hear clearly drifted over with the evening wind, "I'm really not a bad person."

The reflex arc was so long, I complained silently in my heart, pretending not to hear it.

It is said that starting a new relationship is the best way to deal with the pain of the previous one.I don't know if this statement is correct, but I probably still have such poor acting skills by forcing myself not to think about it and pretending to be heartless and happy.

Probably because I was frightened by the way I was helped out, and the dormitory aunt left a deep impression on her. When I appeared in front of her alive and kicking a few hours later, she unconsciously looked at me a few more times and showed mercy He also put Gu Yiyan, who was standing behind him with a respectful smile on his face, into it, put down the things in his hands and immediately rolled out, and reported to the school after 5 minutes.

Gu Yiyan, who was accommodated, appeared in the girls' dormitory, causing frantic screams.Especially when we were approaching our dormitory, I took a step forward and knocked on the door to inform the girls inside that they were ready to pick up the guests. Who knew that the three of them appeared at the stairs earlier than me, and proudly welcomed Gu Yiyan in like a peacock.

It's just that I haven't seen him for an afternoon. The dormitory is in the cleanest state in my life, and there are bursts of fruity fragrance.The shoes and socks flying all over the place on weekdays are all neatly placed where they should be, and the things on the four beds and desks are all displayed in an orderly manner, making me think I went to the wrong door.

It was approaching the lights-off time, and the dormitory was about to be crowded with girls rushing through the door from the next few floors, Gu Yiyan didn't dare to stay any longer, put down his things and said see you tomorrow, then escaped out of the dormitory door .

The phrase "see you tomorrow" must have been a scheming work. From the expressions on the faces of the girls, I came to the conclusion that it further confirmed the rumor that Gu Yiyan and I had a secret story that we had to tell.

Maybe it's because I sensed that my state was a little strange. After sending away the people who rushed through the door, the roommates didn't even hold the daily necessary bedtime discussion. turned off the lights in the room.

No one spoke, only a small night light emitting limited light, the bedroom was so quiet that only the occasional creaking sound of the bed board, and the rubbing sound of the quilt because I was not used to going to bed early, could not sleep.

It may be because I slept for too long at night, my mind is also extraordinarily energetic, I don’t know what to think about in a mess, and the previous things are running around in my mind like a movie, and I am enveloped by indescribable complex emotions Get up, out of control.

Burying my head under the quilt, I took out my phone, looked at a row of red missed calls, and wondered again what kind of mentality she had for calling me so many times.Good and bad thoughts flooded in, worrying that I was still trying to throw the blame on me, and I couldn't get results in a mess.

I heard you were looking for me?

Message sent, this is the last message, I said to myself, self-deception couldn't have been more obvious.Send it in the form of a question, really don't you hope to get a response.

I stared at the phone for a while, until the other people in the dormitory rarely even turned over, and the sound of even breathing indicated that they had fallen asleep. I still didn't get the expected reply, probably she really didn't want to talk to me.

Should I call back or not? I wanted to press the call button without giving up, but I had no idea what to say after I got through.Ask her why she suddenly ignored me, or just continue to dryly ask her why she wanted me, I am really a person who can't chat, I can't think of a topic that can avoid embarrassment, so I should give up.

I don’t know how long I struggled until the battery of my mobile phone silently turned into an empty shell. I could only plug the mobile phone into the 24-hour uninterrupted power supply next to the table, go back to bed, and count the goats in an attempt to fall asleep.

I have never believed that she has no feelings for me at all. Judging from all the things she has done, she has me in her heart.But I didn’t want to admit our relationship, and then ignored me and avoided me. The mental journey I can understand is probably that I finally found my own mind, so I felt afraid, and after struggling, I decided that this relationship should not continue, so I decided. It will end in this way.

Of course, it is also possible that it was just a momentary distraction. I was moved by my concentration and felt that I should respond.But when it was time to respond, I felt scared, so I suddenly cut off all contact after the attempted sex, and let the relationship go back to the original point, or even before the original point.

To sum up, no matter what the possibility is, no matter what the reason is, the ending is in front of her eyes. She wants to end this abnormal relationship, but she can't bear it. Maybe it's because she's afraid of hurting me, maybe it's because of other things. I don't even want to delve into it.

The only thing I want to agree with is that since the end is her choice, what I do is just to let her relax, I will not continue to pester her, and I don’t have to let her be a bad person and be spurned by people around her. Probably this is the last thing I can do for her. What she does, is not contact.

Silently pressed the quilt for myself, and forced myself not to think so much about what I have and what I don’t have. Tomorrow is a new beginning. In any sense, maybe I can try to accept other people.Although I don't know much about it, that person, like her, knows that I like to drink milk and remembers it in my heart, and is gentle and considerate of others.

This is not bad, I said to myself in my heart.

The morning sun shone into the bedroom, and the four of us woke up almost at the same time. We frantically wanted to close the curtains and go back to sleep, but we were stunned by Gong Yu's convulsive roar for a few seconds, without any sleepiness.

"Sleep, sleep, you all know how to sleep, you deserve to be single and no one wants you!" Gong Yu ruthlessly dealt a violent blow to everyone present.

"Speaking of this early in the morning, I think you are comfortable and you will not be comfortable after a long time." Chu Ge was very angry when he got up.

"Shengdanjing is not for you." Chu Lian expressed his dissatisfaction concisely.

"Dirty words describe you and I think clean." Lack of sleep, blood pressure drop, temper rise, and my mood is also very bad.

"As a primate, I decided not to care about poultry!" Gong Yu rubbed her sleepy eyes, and continued to yell in a bloody voice, "Get up quickly, you have forgotten what a big day it is today!"

"Are you going to be a sketch model for Picasso on a big day?" Chu Yao's tongue was very literary and artistic.

"Say something quickly, you can't survive two lines in a novel like yours."

"No, no, no, I definitely won't give her a second shot in my article." I corrected.

"Today is Xiaoyu and Gu Nanshen's first date, and you actually want to hurt me?" Gong Yu jumped off the bed, and directly lifted my quilt, "Get up quickly, you must dress up today , we can’t lose face in our dormitory!”

"Yesterday's stupid look can be accepted even by a single word, so why not be ashamed." Chu Yao calmly turned the target of his attack on me.

"It doesn't matter, anyway, I have to go out beautifully today, at least stop the mouths of those stinky women, saying that our Xiaoyu is not worthy of Gu Yiyan!"

"The draft when God created man actually dared to speak so boldly." Chu Yao also got up from the bed with a grunt, "Get up, if I don't give you cosmetic makeup today, I will scare those gossips to death, so I will eat the keyboard live! "

A sense of powerlessness struck, and I resigned myself to leaving in an attempt to seal my bed.How ugly am I that I need a face-lifting makeup, probably in the eyes of Chu Yao, I am a crooked succulent in our supposedly beautiful age.