If the fleeting year has not come

The night before the farewell party, we were busy building a firewood pile and setting up the grill.I don’t know which rich and powerful kid found a media company to build a temporary stage. A huge LED screen was erected in the open space behind the school, which was originally a bit desolate. The lighting and sound team will also enter the venue later, and the X exhibition stand is placed along the school. each conspicuous area.Just looking at the momentum of the unfinished truss, I knew that the Academy of Fine Arts had won at the starting line.

With the entry of professionals, we miscellaneous workers are disgusted, and we have changed from the main force of work to idle onlookers.As an activist, Gong Yu joined the planning and control team without hesitation, and I saw Li Zhiyang among the same boring crowd.This time she was no longer walking alone, what surprised me was that the person standing next to her was actually a boy, they were talking about something, Li Zhiyang looked embarrassed.

"Long time no see." I took the initiative to greet him and help him out.

Li Zhiyang probably saw me a long time ago, she didn't show much enthusiasm for my appearance, she just nodded indifferently, but the boy next to me coughed a little awkwardly, grinned at me and left.

"His name is Gu Yiyan, and he is a senior of ours for two years. He rented this equipment with money." Li Zhiyang directly omitted the greetings, and introduced to me while looking at the boy's back as he left.

"Tsk, you're doing well, you've met all the seniors in just a few days." Skipping the unfamiliar reunion, I also entered the role.

"Actually, there are not many people in the Academy of Fine Arts who don't know him. It is said that he is very famous in universities in the capital..."

"Wait, do you want to say that he has a good family background, good looks, good grades, excellent grades, high quotient, and a two-dimensional male god who has fallen into the mortal world." I grabbed Li Zhiyang's bloody description that might appear next.

"That's not true, his dual quotient is quite touching." Li Zhiyang complained calmly, "It is said that he has taken a fancy to someone among the freshmen and asked me to introduce him to him."

Someone unexpectedly asked Li Zhiyang to act as a middleman. Sure enough, her IQ is not high. Anyone who knows Li Zhiyang knows that this girl can't give a fart to someone she doesn't know for a long time without embarrassment. She is too slow to warm up.

"Originally, I almost refused, but you took the initiative to come to my door and slapped me in the face." Li Zhiyang shrugged and spread his hands in a helpless manner, "Do you think this guy is so smart that he is so immortal that he actually fell in love with you?" , I said I’m not familiar with it, I don’t know if I’ve heard it, you came here before I finished speaking, it’s impossible for this matchmaker to be improper.”

Wait, the heartthrob is looking at me?What kind of campus plot is this at eight o'clock, I just passed by to get a bowl of soy sauce and get a boxed lunch, he was bored looking for fun, at least he was looking for someone with lines and a sense of presence.

"Don't be funny, I haven't seen him." I said I didn't believe it at all.Even if the seniors return to school early, it will only be a few days, and I have been mixing with Gong Yu and the Chu sisters, so those three people are more conspicuous, and it is impossible to find my existence with a lantern, okay?

"Oh, people said, from last year to the end of this year's art exam, I saw it fifteen times in the back street of the school, thirteen times in the ramen restaurant, and no less than ten times in the convenience store. You can see it almost every day in the surrounding area, once in places other than the school such as 798, and countless times in the studio, and you ignore it every time." Li Zhiyang repeated like a treasure.

"My God, how do you know, maybe you have been following him." It's incredible that the record book of events, I didn't feel that there was such a person around me that I could meet every day.

"How is it possible? I'm just unlucky enough to be in the same studio as him." Li Zhiyang lifted up the small notebook in his hand, and the bold and powerful font on it was obviously written by a boy, "That guy even put the time and place of every meeting together. The clothes you wear are all drawn, it really touches me."

A little embarrassed, he took the sketchbook and flipped through a few pages. The senior is indeed a senior. The picture reproduces the real scene, and even the expressions of the characters can be accurately grasped. There are also some small details that are impossible to discover if you don’t pay special attention. If this painting is published on On the Internet, you may become a new artist and Internet celebrity, I feel sincerely.

"You are full of sighs. What do you mean? The protagonist of the painting is you. Why don't you have a little time? You actually look like nothing to do with yourself." Li Zhiyang took back the sketchbook and poked me on the head.

"He's really good." I couldn't help but praise.

"Well, I will relay your exact words to him." Li Zhiyang raised the point fearing that the world would not be chaotic, "how good the painting is, it shows how hard a person is. You can think about it, maybe tomorrow you will become Enemy of College Women."

"It's not that I asked him to draw it. Why can't I throw this pot away." I was also helpless.The so-called male gods are not all people with a strange style of painting, with a curious vision that runs counter to the world, so they don't take a long look at me.

"People say that you are the first girl who continues to ignore him."

"So has he watched too much of the president's articles, or is he too deeply involved in watching TV?"

"No, no, what he said was that when he saw her for the first time, he felt a sense of aloofness and aloofness in the mountains and clear springs. People couldn't help but want to take it for themselves and enjoy the beautiful scenery alone. The next few days The first meeting proved that he has a unique eye, and he has been stuck in a muddy foot since then and cannot extricate himself." Li Zhiyang said something that made my goosebumps all over the floor in an exaggerated voice, and he shuddered, "Emma disgusts me to death , That’s what it means, love at first sight and love again. If you want to hear more, please contact Gu Yiyan himself directly, and beg him to let him not continue to hurt me.”

"I..."

"Don't talk nonsense, I've conveyed his meaning, I'll send him your number later, don't tell me how to decide is your business." Li Zhiyang interrupted me before I even had time to organize my words Finished words.After a pause, he continued, "Actually, I think, you can try to get in touch with this person. Although I know who you like, Gu Yiyan is not bad, and he is a little naive compared to most people. Cute, being a friend is also a good choice, don't you think it's a particularly sad thing not to have your own world."

Looking at Li Zhiyang, I was speechless. A voice deep in my heart told me that what she said was very reasonable.I like someone so that she can make herself better, not to lose myself in the world of liking her, and finally become unable to like myself.I used to be like this. I had no hobbies and I couldn’t see the future. It seemed that Su Zi was enough. I was sad or ecstatic about a little thing, but I never thought about whether such a self really had a reason to exist.

"But what if he wants to date me..." I asked the bottom line with a guilty conscience.

"Honestly, I think Gu Yiyan is a single-minded person. Although he looks suave and suave, I guess his first love is still there. He is a pure and innocent little virgin. What a waste of a leaf among thousands of flowers." A face that doesn't stick to your body." Li Zhiyang sighed softly, "If you don't want to date him, then don't date him, and no one stipulates that you must have a deep friendship after you know him. This kind of painter is heaven defying, maybe he can learn something from his teacher."

"Really?" Why did I suddenly feel like I knew Li Zhiyang again.The method she taught me is not an excuse used by scumbags to justify themselves.

"Is there anything wrong? You haven't confirmed the relationship with anyone in the house. Don't think I don't know. You haven't been in touch for the whole summer vacation. Even if you live in the next building, you still pretend not to see each other. .In this case, why not give both parties more space and try to see the outside world, the one who can go back is the true love, right?" Li Zhiyang thought very openly.

Li Zhiyang's statement is not completely correct, but it is not unreasonable.I haven't been in touch with Su Zi for so long, as if I don't take the initiative to find her, she will disappear in my world.Although it has always been this setting, but this time it is slightly different. As for what is different, I can't tell.It seems like what Li Zhiyang said, only by seeing the outside world can you know whether you still have your original intention.

This is the first time in such a long time that I have doubted whether my feelings for Su Zi have been a habit since I was a child, or because I am simply unwilling, or I really only think of her as one person.

I have been emphasizing that no matter how time and space change, my heart will never change.But everyone has a day when they feel tired. The heart will not change, but it does not mean that it will not be tired. When you are too tired to walk, maybe it is time to reorganize this relationship.

Now I am probably in a period of burnout, not tired of Su Zi, but bored with her nonchalant attitude, or tired of her alienation whether she wants to play hard or is afraid of worldly eyes.

My thinking has always been simple, as long as she has me in her heart, I can continue to persevere, but it turns out that I want more than I can get.Holding hands, hugging and kissing or going further, there are more spiritual comforts, tacit eye contact and tacit companionship without words, Suzi's evasive attitude makes me feel like a hollow in my heart Similarly, more and more are filled with emptiness, from puppet to doll, which is not fundamentally different.

Play with me when I am happy, and hide by myself when I am bored. If it is only this level of demand, then I would rather just watch from afar and let her find the happiness she wants.As for me, I think that great blessings cannot be given, and it is even more impossible to wait by the side as a spare tire. Probably I can only pass the time like now, looking for fun without any desires or demands.

"Will he come to our farewell party tomorrow?" I sighed silently in my heart, and I adjusted my sudden depression.