If the fleeting year has not come

Maybe I am a person who is easy to get into the horns and stubborn and doesn't know how to hide myself. This kind of inexplicable and long-lasting sadness lasted until after dinner, and it was probably so obvious that everyone could hardly ignore it. A subtle atmosphere of awkwardness surrounded us until we were sent back.

"I'm going to bed." After drinking, I felt cute, as if I didn't need to care about other people's feelings at all, and I became confident when I said willful words.

Without waiting for anyone else to react, I stood up from the sofa and walked crookedly towards the room.After drinking too much, it was amazing. I felt like I could suddenly lift a big tripod with one hand and break a big stone in my chest.The way of thinking has also become straightforward, and you can directly say what you want to do, except of course, except expressing such impossible things to someone.

The truth is what is said unintentionally. If she really thinks this kind of behavior is disgusting, even if she doesn't name anyone, I think I'm right.In this case, I will not disgust her anymore, I thought so.

Holding on to the handrails, I stumbled up the stairs, feeling a little heavy, irritable and frantic, wanting to throw something, feeling dizzy, with all kinds of inexplicable voices making noise in my head, I always feel that it’s a shame that the day is over like this, but I can’t do anything .

His vision began to blur, and it seemed like a black and white TV movie was playing in front of his eyes, with a mosaic effect the size of snowflakes.I almost walked back to the room by rubbing against the wall, sat down on the bed, and there was already a roaring sound in my ears, an unprecedented experience.I took out the bracelet that had been treasured for many years from under the pillow. There was no luster in the darkness, and it seemed to agree with my mood at the moment. The darkness seemed to be emptied, and there was no hope in sight.

"An Yu?" Su Zi's doubtful voice sounded from the door.

"What are you doing?" I think my tone must sound like I'm angry, a little stuffy, and I have the peculiar nasal sound after drinking.

"Can I come in?" Su Zi's not-so-small voice sounded erratic and distant in my ears.

"Whatever." I couldn't say the refusal, so I had to give up on myself.At this time, I really wanted to cry unreasonably and beg her to leave me like I was acting in a TV series, but that kind of thing was so hypocritical that even I felt disgusted.Female men who can't act like a baby are doomed to suffer, I believe many people have this experience.

The door of the room was pushed open, dazzling light came in, and the senior sister appeared at the door like a person with a background light.Fumbling for the switch on the wall to turn on the light, the indoor and outdoor brightness returned to the same level, making people's eyes sore.

"Drink too much?" Senior sister looked at me with a soft voice.

"I don't know." I looked at her, and suddenly wanted to grin silly, because she deliberately followed up with concern.My mind began to make up a hundred bloody plots of novels, and the people who loved each other tacitly told each other to spend a beautiful night together.

"It's so hot." She stepped forward and touched my forehead, with a gentle smile on the corner of her mouth, "No wonder I was weird all night, I was drunk. If you can't drink, don't keep pouring yourself wine , and no one is forcing you to drink."

Watching her mouth open and close, I don't care what she said at all, I don't need to look to know that the expression on my face must be stupid now, with dull eyes and a silly smile.Being touched by her at such a close distance, I suddenly had a strange feeling, and I really wanted to push her into the corner fiercely to ask how to like me, or to look at me more.But after thinking about it, she is taller than me now, and I may not be able to push her, so let's talk about it later.

By coincidence, I grabbed her hand that was about to leave from my forehead, and stuck it to my face.Probably because of the winter, the hand of the senior sister is very cold, and it just cools down on my face, which is very comfortable.

"Hey..." Senior sister protested.

I gave her a puzzled look, and I remembered Wen Tianyi's words, anyway, I'm drunk, so I'll wake up tomorrow as if nothing happened.Drinking can really strengthen your courage. I dragged my senior sister's hand and fell on the bed. It is normal for a drunk person to be unable to stand still.Under Suzi's slightly shocked eyes, I fell into the bed with her, with a very small distance between us, and I could put my hand on her shoulder as soon as I reached out.

I arched my body forward, and my mood became very beautiful. The distance between us was so close that I could smell the fragrance of shampoo on my senior's hair.I retracted my head into her arms and found a comfortable position. I decided to continue ignoring her protests that could only be expressed with eyes because of shock. The slightly terrified look stimulated my heart. I couldn't tell whether it was uncomfortable or refreshing , anyway, I'm drunk, forget about it tomorrow.It is you who forget, but I will probably remember it for a long time.

Suzi's arms are dry than I imagined, the baby's fat face is not shown on the body at all, and the developing figure has not yet fully formed.It is very soft to hold, and it is written as a lady and read as a pervert. There is also a girlish fragrance, which I guess is the smell of shampoo mixed with body wash.

"An Yu?"

In order to cover up the thundering heartbeat, I could only lie in her arms and pretend to fall asleep, but my hands were maliciously wrapped around her waist and refused to let go.

A helpless sigh came from above my head, and the senior sister tried to break her hand away from mine, but as a class with the privilege of drunks, I pretended to be impatient and muttered a word of unknown meaning, and put my head on the senior sister's shoulder.

This embrace is something I have always dreamed of. I encouraged myself in my heart, and a sense of peace of mind came to me spontaneously.After being drunk, it will obviously make people's minds clearer, and they will more directly understand what they want. I sincerely believe that.Pillowing on the senior sister's shoulder, she can't see my face from this angle, but I can squint to see her appearance, as beautiful and helpless as a frightened deer, people can't help but want to see more similar expressions .I'm such a pervert, no wonder she feels sick.

Thinking of the word disgusting, the emotions that had been suppressed all night found a breaking point as if touched by something, I raised my head and met the senior sister's eyes.

"Xiaoyu?" The senior sister's voice was full of hesitation.

From her pupils, I saw a ferocious self, with red eyes and a determined complexion. Of course, it is also possible that this is just my illusion.

Blinking my eyes, I was drunk again so I didn’t need to admit that I was paralyzed. I tentatively stuck out my tongue and licked the lips that were close to me. Maybe it was because of the smell of alcohol. It was really like the novel. That way, with a hint of sweetness, people want to taste more.

I closed my eyes and was about to stick it on, but was pushed away by a strong force. I really can't take it lightly, I said to myself in my heart.However, if I missed this opportunity once, I would never have it again. I continued to pretend to be dead with my eyes closed, fearing that the scene I saw would make the shadow area in my heart as large as the Milky Way.

"Crazy!" Su Zi threw down three words angrily, and rushed out the door.

Hearing that the door of the room was slammed hard, I got up silently and sat cross-legged on the bed. I was secretly happy in my heart. It was a neurosis rather than a perversion.Neuropathy is the same as being ugly, it's just a disease that can be cured if you don't give up treatment.But neuropathy can be treated with medicine, and ugly people can have plastic surgery. What is the sudden discomfort that is about to overwhelm me?It is enough to cry out for sore eyes, and just shout out for chest tightness, but how to solve this indescribable bitterness, can eating some sugar relieve it.

I think I should be tired, and I have such a strange feeling after drinking a lot of fruit wine that is like horse urine mixed with water, which is an unprecedented experience.I silently walked to Aunt Ye's room, got into her quilt, and didn't care whether I would be disgusted by Aunt Ye if I didn't wash up, because I did something even more disgusting today, even though that person only said that I was crazy, she Probably short-circuited the brain for a while and didn't think of the word abnormal.

I was supposed to be drowsy and drowsy, but when I lay on the big bed in Aunt Ye's room, I suddenly became very awake. Although I was accompanied by a severe headache, I felt that a headache is really a perfect way to refresh myself.I was deceived by Wen Tianyi. This was my intuitive reaction. I said that I could not admit it the next day when I was drunk. Now I am so flustered that I have no way to wait until the next day to see my senior sister.What can I say when I see her, in fact, she misunderstood me, I am not crazy, my body is a pervert?

He grinned self-deprecatingly, but found that his lips were cracked and painful due to dryness. He recalled the soft texture he encountered not long ago, if he could always cherish it.I stroked my face with my hands, grabbed the void and stuffed it into my arms. I wanted to collect her hands that touched her, and everything about her. I am really a pervert, the out-and-out kind.

The door of the room was pushed open again, I arched my body and looked out the door nervously, I had the illusion that the senior sister had come back, but it wasn't, this was Aunt Ye's room, she couldn't have found this place.

"I haven't slept yet." Aunt Ye didn't seem to be surprised that I suddenly appeared in her room, she just asked in the usual lazy tone.

"Hmm." I uttered a monosyllabic word that didn't make any sense.

"Tsk, I drank a lot, so that's why I'm not allowed at home." Aunt Ye closed the door of the room, "Can I turn on the light?"

"it is good."

"I sent them all back. Suzi seems a little weird. What happened?" Aunt Ye walked to the bed, turned on the reading light on her side, and turned it to the darkest.

"Drink too much." I looked at the dim light, and didn't plan to say anything, and it didn't make sense to say it, even if time went backwards, I thought I would still do that.

"You are the biggest today, I forgive you for not taking a shower." Aunt Ye didn't ask much, just gave me a hug, and whispered in my ear, "Happy birthday, my little girl."

Suddenly my nose felt sore, I blinked my eyes to suppress the moisture that was about to overflow, and fell asleep with my back to Aunt Ye, but the water stains on the pillow were getting bigger and bigger.

"I'm free." Aunt Ye's voice appeared behind her.

I'm fine, I said to myself in my heart, when I close my eyes, my mind is full of the terrified eyes and disgusted face of my senior, I will have a good dream tonight, I twitched the corners of my mouth, seeing her is a good dream .