If the fleeting year has not come

"Late autumn is not suitable for you." When we got home, Aunt Ye and I were the only ones at home, and my father was probably on a business trip again.Just before she had time to take off her shoes, Auntie Ye appeared at the entrance and cut straight to the point, "Although Late Autumn is a nice person, her attitude towards romantic relationships is scumbag, and the idea of ​​having fun in time is not advisable."

"I have nothing to do with him." I told the truth and repeated what I said to Ye Xiao. I really just wanted to help him reject those Yingyingyanyans who automatically posted them.

"Do we need to talk?" Aunt Ye proposed, and I guess she was talking about me and my senior sister.

"I won't tell her to cause her troubles, that would be too scary." Actually, I didn't intend to tell this matter. It's my business to like her, and it has nothing to do with Suzi.It's just that they all seem to take this matter very seriously. Do I look like a pervert who can molest others?

"At first, I thought that such feelings would fade with the passage of time, or if we didn't see each other for a long time, but you didn't treat her like this." Aunt Ye used an affirmative sentence.

"But I can't do anything, even I feel that this kind of relationship is not normal." What I said is also true, liking the same sex, what a shocking thing, if this happened in ancient times, it must be immersed in a pigsty.

"If she likes a man, then you have to hide this feeling. What if she doesn't like a man?" Aunt Ye threw a deep-water torpedo without blushing.

"What are you talking about..." I was so shocked by Aunt Ye's words that I couldn't find Bei for a while.What does it mean that she doesn't like men? It's possible that she can like women, but before she was clearly in love with Wen Tian and the whole school knew it.

"Wan Qiu is a girl, Su Zi knows." Aunt Ye increased her firepower calmly, "I told her before Wan Qiu, and she said it's okay."

"But she chased Wen Tianyi for a long time before..."

"Who knows, maybe she was hurt by a man?" Aunt Ye shrugged her shoulders, looking like an outsider, "In many cases, after being hurt by love, she doesn't trust men and starts to like women instead."

"Wen Tian also hurt her?"

"Wen Tian also likes men, is it ironic?" Aunt Ye seemed to analyze relationship issues as if I were her peers.

"He likes men?" I was shocked.Two homosexuals are around me. Before that, I always thought that homosexuality would only appear in some controversial novels, and I just happened to like the same sex. If it wasn’t for my senior, I don’t think I would I like women.

"He told Wanqiu himself, and he may feel that it resonates."

"Then Suzi likes late autumn, because it happened to be late autumn, or because she only likes women." I want to know this question, and it is also very important.

"I don't know. You have to ask her about this. How could others know." Aunt Ye shook her head. "I just found out about this, so I'll let you know by the way. As for how to decide or what to do, you have to figure it out yourself."

Auntie Ye ended the topic by saying wash your hands and eat, and dropped a row of landmines that exploded in my heart.Wan Qiu likes women Wen Tian also likes men, the senior sister fell in love with Wan Qiu after being hurt by Wen Tianyi, this kind of messy relationship circulates randomly in my mind, but it seems that they have nothing to do with me.

"A while ago I saw an article like this: If you like it, confess it. If you are afraid of confessing, you don't even have to be friends. Is the relationship you really want to be with her just a friend?" Aunt Ye saw me standing Standing in a daze by the door, I said something that I don’t know whether it was enlightening or persuading me, "I am the editor of Pure Love, you don’t know, Pure Love is the love between the same sex."

Pure love...a new term that came into my view. Isn't homosexuality something that should be excluded? Does anyone still write articles to promote this kind of thing?This is completely contrary to the education we have received since we were young. Maybe it is because Auntie Ye is the editor of Pure Love that she is particularly tolerant and understanding about my affairs?

But the problem is, even if you get the understanding of your family, what can you do.What kind of relationship do I really want to have with my senior? I don’t even know myself. I really haven’t thought about such a thing as being a lover and living together. After all, it’s beyond the scope of my imagination.Two women are together, I don't have girlfriends, I don't know the difference between same-sex lovers and girlfriends.

Or, maybe I just want to be best friends with my senior sister?I read on the Internet before that some women would be jealous because their best friend found a boyfriend or got close to other people. I don’t know if it’s the same as mine.

Ever since I was helped by Su Zi in primary school, my eyes seem to have stayed on her and never moved away, nor have I seen the outside world. Even though she has left, I still stay in the world constructed by my own fantasy Looking forward to seeing you next time, or something else I don't know.

"I don't know what I think." I tried to confide to Aunt Ye with some distress, "It seems that I have never thought about being with her as you said. But it's not that I haven't thought about it at all, anyway. It just feels weird...”

"Is it okay to let nature take its course?" Aunt Ye stood in front of the dining table and placed the bowls and chopsticks, without even looking up at me, "Xiaoyu has entered the period of youth distress, time flies so fast."

"No..." I was confused about Aunt Ye's sudden change of subject.

"In the past few years, you have been locked in your own world, except Suzi or Suzi, is this appropriate?"

"Huh?" I was completely dumbfounded by Aunt Ye's question.Just now she encouraged me to confess my love, and suddenly asked me to let it be, but now she said that I can't keep looking at the senior sister, I don't understand the twists and turns of my brain.

"How about we make an agreement?" Aunt Ye suddenly suggested.

"What agreement?" It's really hard to keep up with this jumping thinking. No wonder Aunt Ye can be an editor. People who write articles have big brains, I deeply understand.

"After this year, you'll go your separate ways again, and you won't be able to chase her to another school for the next two years." Aunt Ye said clearly, "How about this, I'll contact you to study abroad after the first day of junior high school." After finishing junior high school, let you go out and have a look during these two years. If you still remember her after two years, or if you still feel that no one can take her place, just go after her, how about it?"

Let go and chase?My thinking was completely shocked by the last half of the sentence. Wouldn't it be considered a pervert if I did so?

"Pay attention to what people say, I mean, after two years, when you grow up and can think independently, how about making a decision that you won't regret." Aunt Ye raised her volume and pulled back I don't know fugue. Thoughts of where to go.

Going to other places for two years means that I have to face people and things I don’t like, and I can’t hide in my own small world. Without the protection of my family, what will I be like in two years.Maybe you will meet a lot of interesting people and things, and find that you are just as habitually dependent on your senior sister as you are on your mother?Although my mother didn't give me the tenderness I should have.

"Okay." I nodded in agreement, giving myself a chance.

"Treasure the few time we have left to get together." Aunt Ye suddenly said something very literary, and before I could feel emotional, she revealed her true nature, "Speaking of it, although Xiao Wanqiu is scumbag to feelings, she is scumbag to sisters It's really good, you are married to her, and you can buy whatever you want. But you must remember, she has a lot of scumbag girls who can't count them on both hands, just treat her as a strange millet. "

"You don't object anymore?" It was really hard for my darling to accept Aunt Ye's change for a while.Before entering the door, she asked me to stay away from Wanqiu with righteous words, and now she wants me to get along well with her.

"It's not like you guys like each other, so I have nothing against it. Get married at noon on Sunday, right? Let Xiao Yezi go to the Internet cafe by himself and there aren't so many computers for him. I'll open all the accounts to watch the ceremony."

"All the numbers..." I couldn't help but feel ashamed, how many numbers does she have, three computers are not enough.

"Anyway, I'm also the leader of a gang. How can I do without a few big players to support the scene? Besides, this game has been running for so many years and it's almost coming to an end. It's time to find a new game." Aunt Ye said it as a matter of course, "Speaking of it, Does Suzi know that you are going to marry Wanqiu, how will she react?"

"I'll probably come on Sunday." Looking at Auntie Ye's face with gossip, I suddenly sympathized with myself and Ye Xiao, who has such a mother who is sometimes understanding but not serious.

"Then I have to stimulate her well, who made my little Yu'er unhappy."

After eating dinner for nearly an hour, Aunt Ye seemed to have been turned on some strange button and kept accepting her work for me.For example, what is Danmei and what is Lily, and various technical terms such as Gong and Shou, and I also recommended a few novels for me to read, saying that they are the keys to open the beautiful door of the new world.Maybe this kind of behavior is misleading in the eyes of others, but I think it should be a kind of Auntie Ye's special education method. It is better to accept the correct guidance calmly than to hide it and talk about it.

There's nothing wrong with being gay, it's just that the person you like happens to be the same gender as you, Aunt Ye thinks so.But the worldly perspective is equally important. People cannot live in a vacuum. If you decide to take this path, you must have the consciousness of being looked down upon or even cast aside. This is the message I got from Aunt Ye’s words.

So neither supporting nor opposing her, did not make me feel inferior because I fell in love with the same sex.I also appreciate her willingness to find solutions to problems, or rather, ways to validate things.Let me face up to my feelings, of course, this is all for later.