dumb love

What kind of voice signaled him to lift it down, and directly held his lower body, firmly against the palm of my hand, and rubbed gently with the thin calluses in my palm. Of course I know how to make him more comfortable, and I don't care. I'm not very good at this, but it's just him who makes everything easier.

☆、Farewell to Mingchuan

This visit to Chenxi's hometown was quite complete. It would have been more complete if Shen Nuo hadn't had the cheek to run over to Mingchuan when he left. Seeing how Shen Shuyu dotes on his son so much, let alone buy him the latest model Yes, it would not be too difficult to drive him to Mingchuan and then back.

I'm extremely dissatisfied with his behavior, but since I just had a meal last night, I don't care about it with him.

No matter how much Shen Shuyu dotes on him, it is just the love a father should have for his son. Compared with my father, he is far behind.

After walking through it two or three times, I am very familiar with the road of Mingchuan, but it is such a small city that so many people are nostalgic for it.

Chen Xi was catching up on sleep in the back seat, and Shen Nuo sat next to me and looked at me with great interest.

"Just say what you want to say, don't stare at me like that, you're infiltrating." In my eyes, this person has always had a bad stomach since he didn't remember anything, and it's not just an education issue at all.

"Don't, I didn't do anything." Shen Nuo was really dissatisfied with my misunderstanding of him, his expression didn't change, and he said: "I said Shen Mingyi, it's not good for you to be like this, don't always It looks like being persecuted, this is a disease, you need to see a doctor, I just saw Xiaoxi sleeping all the way, you are not such a beast." This person not only has a bad personality, but also has a particularly cheap mouth.

"What did my dad tell you?" Sure enough, this was the question he was more concerned about, but didn't he think about whether I would tell him this question before he asked it?

"Go home and ask your dad, I'll send you there now." He raised his eyebrows, ignored him and cut it in disdain, thinking that in two more months, it will be a long summer vacation, and here I am, I stayed for a whole year, not long, but it may be the deepest tie in my life.

There will always be some little ruffians gathering at the gate of the school to fight and make trouble. They won't commit big things, but they will come to a scene from time to time. The people who make trouble will not be safe. Then, I don't know which class caused the disturbance. The deputy director of the grade, Zhang Wenming, got the news and stayed here to arrest them.

I have a headache, even if the car is more familiar than people, I don’t want to be surrounded by so many people. As far as I can see, the best car in Mingchuan is only two Porsches worth two million. There are many cynics, but they don’t want to Work hard on your own, and curse others at the same time.

I honked my horn a few times, and said hello to Director Zhang when I passed by. I walked around in front of the art building, and when I got to the teacher's apartment building, I realized that Chen Xi was still in the car. After hesitating for a second, I decided to wake him up and go to my place. Sleep, as for Shen Nuo, the Seventh Middle School is so big that it won't be lost anywhere.

But for a day, Su Changhua certainly didn't change much. When I opened the door and went in, I pouted without raising my head: "There is food on the table, go and eat when you're hungry."

I was indeed a little hungry, and when I saw Su Changhua correcting the paper with a low attitude, I still leaned over to take a look, and said in admiration, "How did you finish reading it calmly?" One piece, it was horrible, most of the multiple-choice questions were wrong, one of the fill-in-the-blank questions was correct, and the answer questions were simply not written.

Su Changhua put down the paper and felt a headache: "In the past, there was no math average score lower than three digits in our class. I thought it was the simplest. I couldn't understand how they could make such a simple thing like this. "

Seeing that he was about to explode, I immediately comforted him against my will: "I don't even look at their backgrounds, think about how bad they were before you went to No. [-] Middle School, how did you catch up?"

Su Changhua said disdainfully: "Sorry to talk about me, as if yours has always been good, who wrote the signatures on junior high school papers?" Su Changhua's handwriting has always been beautiful, enough for me to fool the teacher.

It's better to end this kind of battle of hurting the enemy by one thousand and self-defeating eight hundred as soon as possible. One subject of mathematics can already be related to the total score of the college entrance examination, so I can quite resonate with it.

"It's not something that can be made up overnight. I have seen through them. There are not many people who really love learning. You can't take care of everyone. Just pick a few people and catch them." This is already In my opinion, the best way is, no one is the savior, whether they learn or not, frankly speaking, it really has nothing to do with us, everyone is drunk.

Su Changhua said: "One year is actually enough to see the current situation clearly, but there are some people who don't give up." I guessed that it would be his brother at the first reaction of that helpless look.

"He's going to be here for a few years and you're going to make trouble with him?" I'm not suitable for giving education classes to people, especially when the object is Su Changhua. It's just that they are too obsessed with this matter.

"Su Changhua, you should know that there will always be a day when this matter is revealed. The name Kang Rui should be familiar to you better than me. Who do you think he can stand the stimulation of more?" Kang Rui is now the principal of No. [-] Middle School. He is the youngest teaching assistant at University B, and his time coincides with Su Changfeng's at University B.

"Give me a little more time, and I can handle it well." I can feel that Su Changhua's growth in a short period of time does not necessarily have to experience setbacks, but more often, he has to grow.

I patted him on the shoulder and got up and said, "Be good and wait for me to come to pamper you at night." I left with something to eat, but there was a wall, but the morning light was there, so I couldn't stay for too long.

Chen Xi had already woken up, and couldn't see that I was sitting on the bed in a daze. I coughed lightly and put my things on the coffee table and walked over: "Sleep well, get up and eat something and go back to self-study." That cute look is really cute tight.

I had nothing to do, so I watched him unconsciously rubbing his eyes for a moment before regaining consciousness, got off the bed, put on his shoes and walked over, naturally sat down next to me, leaned over to ask for a kiss, and then opened a bottle of milk contentedly I ate a few mouthfuls of bread.

"What's the matter, don't you like this? I'll take you out for dinner." I don't really like this simple way of eating to deal with my stomach, but there are always times when I'm so busy that I hardly have time to eat. Fortunately, today is It's not too late to come to school on weekends, and there is still time to go out and eat something.

I could see his eyes light up suddenly, and he looked at me like a puppy, and he couldn't help but laugh: "If you want to go out, don't say it earlier." Saying this, he has already signaled him to get up and get ready to go out.

I don't need to do anything, he still knows how to restrain himself in front of others, but he is very presumptuous when there are only two people left.

There are also many old stores in Mingchuan. The elders have worked hard to build a reputation for many years, and the younger generations will take over and continue to operate. Basically, the price of this kind of store will change with the consumption level, but the taste will not.

The shop in the alley on the east side of the shopping mall’s south gate is still open until now. Chenxi also likes the porridge there. I didn’t know it at first. I only saw it when Chenxi took me there to eat. People who haven't stayed in Mingchuan for many years really can't find it.

I have been here a few times to buy meal coupons, order food, choose seats, and get tableware. I am quite familiar with the environment here. It is not a meal time, there are not many people, and most of the seats are still vacant.

When I passed by with the plate, Chen Xi had already wiped the seats. Looking at the dishes I chose, although he is not picky eaters, his preferences can be divided into several levels, especially I know that he does not like meat , Therefore, when eating with him, I subconsciously choose less meat.

No. [-] Middle School did not know when it became regular. There were two exams in three days, major exams and small exams. It was a headache to correct the papers every day. My own exam review was also very hard. The time for Chen Xi to choose something was delayed again and again. The last resort is to give TOEFL to others.

After being so busy, before I knew it, it was also the beginning of summer, and the pre-sale of the newly developed Dijingwan New District in Mingchuan had also come to an end, and it was finally time for me to leave.

Everyone thinks that parting is a poem without an end, we don't need to remember the beginning, it is enough to know that it will never end, but it doesn't.

☆, so close to the end of the world〈[-]〉

There are many farewell poems by the ancients, but now is not that era. Although Su Changhua and I have not been separated for too long, I know that we can all live well without each other.

In fact, the last month was not chaotic, and I didn’t feel like saying goodbye when I left. It was just in time for Mingchuan’s last final exam. convenient.

I discussed with Su Changfeng about my apartment, and let him live in it under the pretext that the school rents out the apartment for top students on the grounds that it is convenient for Chen Xi to study. There is a bit of selfishness, but it is really for his convenience, after all. The requirement to turn off the lights at [-] o'clock in the dormitory will not change, and the construction of the Seventh Middle School is not yet perfect, and water and electricity cuts are common in winter. At least my place can be regarded as a simple decoration, and it is more comfortable to live in, and it is closer to Su Changhua. I can take care of some.

Chen Xi obediently agreed, and did not express any dissatisfaction. When she came, she only had a suitcase, and when she left, she packed some clothes, and left everything else to Chen Xi.

But before we left, we had a meal together, so it could be regarded as a break-up meal. Several of them had classes the next day, and Su Changhua transferred to see me off. This created an even more parting atmosphere.

"Are you okay? I didn't go to the battlefield as if I couldn't come back. Don't curse me." I'm still fine.

"You are the only one who will be poor." Su Changhua showed his great demeanor at this time, and decided not to be as knowledgeable as me.

"Okay, okay, you can go back, and I won't take you there again." I waved my hand and wanted to press the car window. Su Changhua's expression was very strange at this time, he hesitated to speak as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he did Nothing was said.

If I knew at this moment that the most painful thing in the world is not farewell, but life and death, if we all know what will happen in the future, will we have the courage to change the future?

At this time, Su Changhua seemed to have finally completed the psychological battle between gods and demons. I don't know who won the victory. I only know that he didn't tell me anything. Until the end, he couldn't say anything in person. Here's the chance.

Gently imprinted a kiss like a butterfly flapping its wings on the corner of my left eye, declaring the possession I once had, and the desire I would never have again.

I looked at him thoughtfully for a moment, but I was actually a little puzzled. I have always been a little slow in terms of emotions. Playing and real devotion have always been different. If Su Changhua really has other thoughts about me, There will be much more opportunities than Chenxi.

He also retreated quickly, the expression didn't linger on his face for a moment, his delicate facial features were as beautiful as a picture scroll, but he didn't want anyone to say anything to his face.

"Hurry up and drive carefully." In the end, I looked at his back and walked away slowly. His back was straight, his white shirt was decorated with a loose tie, and he was blown up and down by the wind. The ends of the hair were swayed, and then slowly fixed on a certain night, when I secretly kissed me, I found out that the youthful face that turned into anger from embarrassment, was more outrageous than I secretly kissed him.

After such a long time, I have already forgotten how that day ended. He also avoided me for a while, but there was never a time like the later one, never seeing him again.

Right now, I am watching the scenes of Mingchuan slowly retreating from back to back, until I can't find any familiar shadows at all, I realize that I really want to leave this land, and it is no longer a holiday to go out Play, but leave completely.

For a moment, I almost forgot the life I used to live. Perhaps, it is far away from me.

After returning to City B, I took a look at my former residence which is now under the name of Chenxi. Naturally, I prepared not only these, but also the piano in the living room on the first floor. I knew he liked music, but he didn’t The way is to choose music when choosing art, and all I can do is to grant him a fantasy and keep him safe for life.

When I handed over the key to Su Changhua, he also scolded me severely: "Shen Mingyi, you are really great." I just tried my best to give him peace.

At the moment when the plane took off away from my hometown, I suddenly had a strange thought, if the plane suddenly had an accident, or if Shen Mingyi disappeared from this world, who would be sad.

However, when I saw the tall buildings getting smaller and smaller until I could see nothing else except the clouds in the sky, I felt that I was thinking too much.

Jiang He said that all the reunions were just intentional, because there are also too many people who have no destiny, I think it makes sense, if I really don't want to see him again, I'm afraid he won't know me for the rest of his life Where.

I don't know what will happen in the future, I only know that at the moment I make a choice, I can't look back, and I can only let time smooth all my edges and corners.

When I was young, I always felt that people are born unfair, especially when I was born with one parent, one egg cell and one placenta, why I was not allowed to do many things at birth.

I can't go to school with Changfeng, and I'm not allowed to go out to play wildly with Changhua. Because of my poor health, they are very careful with me, for fear that if I am not careful, I will stay in the hospital for a few more days.

In fact, I didn't like them treating me like this at all. At that time, my biggest wish was to be with Changfeng, even if it was just to go to a place with a little more people, I would also like to.

People say that even if twins look the same, their personalities will be completely different. One is good and the other is bad. In our family, I am spoiled a bit.

Changfeng was taught by his grandfather himself since he was a child. In the eyes of his grandfather, even if they were born together, they will be separated. After all, the elders are orderly, and there is only one eldest grandson. Although his love for us is the same, but After all, there is always something different about the first grandchild.

Even his name was taken by his grandfather. He lived a long life and had a youthful demeanor. Even the characters should be arranged in order.

Although I was in second place, he never called me second brother, just like Changhua never called me second brother but called me Su Changzi by name and surname, he called me Xiaozi.

The voice is gentle and affectionate, and to my ears, it is the best voice in the world.

My parents have always been very busy with work, so they are rarely at home on weekdays. Even during the holidays, my mother is always busy working overtime, and my father still has some free time. Even so, there are still other things to do. , Changhua and I seem to be born at odds, he would rather go out and play crazy than go home, and he is not willing to stay with me at home. Apart from me, there is only one nanny who does housework, laundry and cooking in such a big house.

After I ruined my father's collection of books countless times because I was too bored at home, the nanny finally coaxed me out of the study with a look of horror: "If Xiao Changzi feels too bored, why don't I take you to see Big Brother?" Play well, if you break your father's book again, you will really get angry when you come back."

"Can I really go to Changfeng, but he is still with grandpa." Thinking of this, I am actually a little bit lost. Grandpa refuses to live with us, and he has to take care of his grandson. Grandpa restrained me, and he could only come to accompany me on weekends. For such a short time, I was really not satisfied at all.

"As long as you are obedient, I will take you to play with him after school. However, it can't be too long. Grandpa will punish him if he finds out. Xiao Changzi must be reluctant to see him being punished, right?"

"Yeah." I nodded heavily, obediently waiting for her to take me out to find Chang Feng after she finished her work.

That is the little secret between us, she took me together, at the gate of Changfeng’s school, all the children have parents to pick them up, or grandparents who dote on them, only Changfeng is always alone, Carrying a small schoolbag, wearing a neat school uniform with a red scarf, his chubby face is polite since he was a child.

Don't be afraid of Changfeng, Xiaozi will pick you up.