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The nose is filled with the smell of disinfectant, mixed with the faint bitter taste of traditional Chinese medicine, the loud cries of children, and the disputes between the patient's family members twisted into a twisted rope, stimulating all senses in all directions.

The elevator door finally opened, and a wheelbarrow rushed in pushing the patient who had just got off the ambulance. People who had already squeezed into the elevator had to let it out to make room for it, which caused another burst of complaints.

Those with broken arms and hanging arms, those with needles in their hands holding a bottle, and those with registered bills of payment hurried on their way. Everyone’s expression is full of pain or despair. This is the closest place to heaven. This is A place where no one wants to stay longer.

Song Sifan has been here for more than ten days.

He was very uncomfortable with the environment of the hospital. Although the crew provided a single room, he could sleep on a recliner next to the hospital bed, but he had to go through the noisiest outpatient building every day whether he was getting medicine or getting meals. His patience had been exhausted. Even if it is smoothed, it is already the limit to be able to barely stand here.

Song Sifan carried the lunch box and walked up the steps slowly.

The elevator is full of people. He is not used to so many people crowded together in a small space. This is an experience he has never had since he was a child. want to escape.

When passing the fifth floor, Song Sifan saw Lei Meng.

Raymond was wearing a casual T-shirt and jeans. He curled up his knees and huddled on the bench outside the door of the department. With his hands in his jeans pockets, he looked indifferently at all the people downstairs.

Song Sifan had never seen him like this before, without the usual familiar smile, Song Sifan was not used to it, so he changed his route and walked forward, "Are you here too?"

Lei Meng blinked his eyes, his originally indifferent expression broke instantly, his facial expression became vivid, and his eyes flashed with sly sincerity again, he looked at Song Sifan with some surprise, "Why are you here?"

Soon he guessed the reason, "For Li Keran?"

Song Sifan didn't answer, he reluctantly acquiesced, and moved to sit next to him.

"I heard that you have recruited new people? Congratulations."

"It's too late for me to deal with the Tenglong project, where is the time to recruit newcomers." Raymond waved his hands, not daring to take credit, "Killy recruited them, just looking at my pity for me to use."

Song Sifan said softly, "Sorry."

"What's the matter?" Raymond was a little confused, "Why did you suddenly apologize?"

"It's so hard for you to be alone... My phone is out of battery, and I haven't gone back to charge it for the past few days."

When he said that, he probably knew that he had called him.Raymond smiled, but he didn't really care, "It's okay, thanks to Tommie, it's been resolved anyway, you don't have to blame yourself."

"Well, it's fine if it's resolved." Song Sifan was also very thankful that it was resolved.

The topic has reached this point, and there is no way to move forward.

It doesn't matter, but it's just Raymond's magnanimous politeness. How could he not be angry when he was left behind in that situation?The project management department has no one to help, only relying on the sales department to deal with, Xu Yao is so tired that he still has to trouble him.It's not that Lei Meng never hated himself for his incompetence, nor did he never complain about Song Sifan's running away, but for no reason, he just could feel Song Sifan's deep sense of powerlessness.

He still kept the bag of Tenglong project materials that Song Sifan gave him. Every line highlighted and every note showed Song Sifan's dedication to this project.He obviously wanted to do a good job in this project, so he was serious about it, and Lei Meng was willing to believe that he really had a way to solve the predicament at that time.

But what is the use of believing?If you are not there at the critical moment, you are not there. No matter how much preparation you make in the early stage and how many times you apologize afterwards, it cannot be made up for.

So Raymond could understand his helplessness, but he was unwilling to accept his apology easily.

The two fell silent at the same time.

Lei Meng didn't urge him, and Song Sifan didn't leave either.The two of them looked at the sky and the ground, until there was a sudden "gululu".

Lei Meng clutched his stomach in embarrassment, "Hehe, that..."

"You haven't eaten yet?" Song Sifan realized that it was Lei Meng's stomach crying.

"Well, I accompanied my dad here early this morning." Raymond explained shyly.

Song Sifan handed over the lunch box in his hand, "Eat this."

"This is so embarrassing..." Raymond swallowed, and subconsciously declined.

"It's still early, I'll call later. You can eat first, there are a lot of people in this hospital, uncle estimates it will take a while to finish."

"Okay then." Lei Meng also stopped being polite, he didn't know when Lei Zhentian's physical examination would end, so he didn't dare to go away to eat, and kept waiting outside the door.

Is there any reason not to eat the delicious food in your mouth, let's take it as an apology from Song Sifan.Raymond found an excuse for himself, opened the lunch box, and the sumptuous dishes were placed in separate compartments, and he whistled, "Not bad, so rich."

Song Sifan also laughed, "The luxury hospital meals may not taste very good, but the nutritional combination should be the best."

Lei Meng picked up a chopstick of food, ate it with a big mouthful, and praised vaguely, "It's delicious! It's better than my mother's cooking!"

"Um...can I take the liberty to ask, Uncle, this is a routine physical examination?" Song Sifan was a little puzzled. Generally, a routine physical examination would not take so long, unless there are special items that need to be checked.

"No, it's a follow-up visit from the Department of Neurology, after which the doctor will give him rehabilitation massage and acupuncture, so each time will take a long time." Song Sifan looked over inquiringly, and Lei Meng patiently explained, "My dad had a cerebral hemorrhage before. "

Song Sifan thought of something, and asked tentatively, "I remember you quit your good job in City C, and only listed family reasons on your resume. Is it because of...uncle?"

"Hmm." Now that it was mentioned, Raymond had nothing to deny.

"My dad is usually in good health, no one would have expected that... He also got up well that day, but suddenly fell down. There are only two women in the house, my mother and my sister, and I was terrified at the time. Don't look at the usual My mother looks very powerful, but in fact my father is the backbone of the family. The pillar of the family suddenly fell, and my mother suddenly lost her mind. It was my sister who called 120."

"Later, my dad's surgery was successful, and he was lying in the hospital for more than a month. My mother had to watch him as a nurse at all times, and the task of running up and down every day to buy food, medicine, and daily necessities fell on my sister. She is only 16 years old and she still has to study during the day. I don’t know how the two of them managed it. The funny thing is that a week before this happened, I took on a very important project and held meetings with clients every day. They don't want to call me. In the end, they really didn't call... When I got the call and rushed back to City B, my dad had recovered and was discharged from the hospital. "

He smiled wryly, with an expression uglier than crying. Every word he said seemed to have been polished by sandpaper, with a rough grainy feel. Every word passed through his heart, and it hurt people, "I When I first graduated, I thought that as long as I made money, a lot of money, and helped my family pay off the mortgage as soon as possible, that would be the best reward for my parents. But after this happened, I was really scared. If the operation failed, or my dad would Right after the cerebral hemorrhage..."

He took a breath and couldn't continue, "What's the use of making more money? So I resigned and came back."

"My sister seemed to be a little scared when this happened. On the day I came to Zia for an interview, she asked me if I was really not leaving. My mother gave birth to me very early, and my sister and I are 12 years apart. By the time she remembered, I had already gone out to live in high school, and there was actually no intersection between the two of them growing up. Usually she kept complaining about me and beating me for being as strong as my mother. I have never seen her like this, like a flower Weak little flower, I am afraid that I will leave again. Now think about it, no matter how strong she is on the surface, she is still a 15-year-old girl, and I can't leave her alone to face life and death."

Song Sifan listened intently, and did not interrupt him like Lei Meng was doing project introductions.He didn't ask any questions, just simply being a listener.

After Raymond finished speaking, he scratched the back of his head in embarrassment, "I'm sorry, I said so much all at once. You shouldn't be interested in this, right? I just...have never told anyone about it, so I'm a little too talkative all at once. , as long as you have heard it."

"It's hard work." Song Sifan's tone was calm and gentle, with the power to comfort people's hearts, "You are actually blaming yourself and living in guilt every day, right?"

"Yes," Lei Meng looked up at Song Sifan, and responded to him with a calm and gentle tone, "So, don't blame yourself too much. I understand your mood very well, just like me back then, unpredictable It is impossible for you to know in advance when there will be problems with the Tenglong project when my father became ill. If you can, you want to rush back to deal with it immediately, just like I am in city C and I have no time to come back."

"You're right..." Song Sifan didn't expect Lei Meng to say so much and go around in such a big circle to comfort himself. He lowered his eyelids and said softly, "Thank you."

"However," Raymond paused, and continued, "There are many disturbances in this world that hinder our progress. You must think clearly about what is the most important thing. Sometimes, we have to give up some things to make things happen. Others. I really like the job in City C, and it’s my dream to do project management, but I still quit for the sake of my family.”

Raymond concluded, "My father's incident made me realize that people should not be too greedy."

"What do you want to say?"

"I don't know why you came to Zia..." Lei Meng didn't say "you are so rich", "but since you came, there must be your reason."

"Wei Xiao asked me to send you a message. He said that it was all about temptations and warnings before. Someone is waiting for your choice. You should also know how Zia is in your situation now. I don't know your purpose, nor your chips. But now you can't take care of Li Keran and Ziya's work, so you have to think clearly about what you want."

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