boiled frog

Wen Qing watched Qi Yang leave before turning around and slowly entering the house.

The room was very dark, and the lights were not turned on. He closed the door, stood silently against the door, lowered his head, his hair stuck to his head, and he was a little tired from the night's fun.

"Qing Zi."

Wen Qing raised his head and saw Xiao Jingzhou sitting on the sofa, looking at Wen Qing in the darkness.

"You're back, why don't you turn on the light." Wen Qing raised his hand to turn on the light, changed his shoes and entered the room.

Xiao Jingzhou remained motionless, just watching him silently.

Wen Qing took off his coat, hung it on the hanger, breathed into his hands, and seeing that Xiao Jingzhou looked strange, he asked, "What's going on all of a sudden, what's the matter?"

"Qingzi," Xiao Jingzhou said slowly, Wen Qing felt that Jingzhou might be too tired recently, and his voice was a bit hoarse, "You...is this considered to be with Qi Yang?"

Wen Qing was stunned, nodded, and smiled, "Didn't I tell you all tonight?"

"You... do you know who he is..." Xiao Jingzhou spoke slowly, but stuttered when he said this.

Wen Qing's eyes darkened.

Xiao Jingzhou didn't say anything, Wen Qing said lightly, "Does it matter if you know..."

Xiao Jingzhou had been staring at Wen Qing, and he couldn't help frowning when he heard this.

"How do you know about Jingzhou?" Wen Qing smiled and went to the bathroom to wash his hands.

Xiao Jingzhou paused, and said: "...Recently, Minghe and I have a cooperation project.

Wen Qing smiled, looking far away, as if recalling something, "...Minghe, Minghe, heh, he knows everything."

Ming Jin had told him about his brother who basically had no relationship with him before. He had never met him before, and he didn't care about it. He never expected to meet him now.

"So, Qingzi, what do you want to do?"

Xiao Jingzhou's voice came from outside the living room, and Wen Qing's ears were filled with the sound of rushing water, listening to Xiao Jingzhou's words, he was speechless.

"You already knew, Wen Qing?" Xiao Jingzhou pressed his eyebrows, "So you're going to go on like this forever, right?"

Xiao Jingzhou seemed to hear Wen Qing in the bathroom replying.

"Does Qi Yang know that you are...Xiao An?"

When Wen Qing heard the name "Xiao An", Wen Qing's hands that pressed the hand sanitizer trembled almost invisibly, and he shook his head, "I don't know if he knows."

"You just decided to keep it a secret, didn't you, don't tell him, don't let him know, and then stay with him?" Xiao Jingzhou's voice raised.

Wen Qing shook off the water on his hand, took a towel to wipe it off, stood at the door of the bathroom and looked at Xiao Jingzhou fixedly, "Otherwise, Jingzhou, what do you want me to do?"

Seeing Xiao Jingzhou frowning deeply all the time, Wen Qing walked over, sat on the sofa opposite him, put his elbows on his knees, and added, "You let me tell him that I am Xiao An, and that I am the evil one. Kill his favorite Mingjin's Xiao An?"

Wen Qing's voice trembled slightly, and his eyes were a little restless.

Xiao Jingzhou's voice was cold, "This is the right choice."

"...I can't do it." Wen Qing said.

Xiao Jingzhou looked up at him.

He spoke slowly, with a soothing tone, "Qingzi, I don't know and I'm not interested in knowing how much your feelings for him are now, but," he paused, picked up the water glass on the coffee table and took a sip of water, calmly Looking at him intently, "... Let's assume that Qi Yang doesn't know who you are, can you imagine what he looks like when he knows this?"

"It's anger, it's resentment, it's disappointment, it's despair."

Wen Qing opened his mouth and said in a low voice, his voice was trembling, but the words were clear, "He loves me..."

"He also loves Mingjin," Xiao Jingzhou said, looking at Wen Qing's dodging eyes, and continued, "It's not like you didn't know that he..."

"Jingzhou." Wen Qing interrupted him, closed his eyes, "I know."

Xiao Jingzhou remained silent.

Wen Qing said: "I just don't want him to know who I am."

"What if he already knew?" Xiao Jingzhou stared at him.

Wen Qing smiled, "Wouldn't that be better, it means that he doesn't care and is still with me."

"Qingzi, you..."

"Jingzhou, I know what you're worried about," Wen Qing said softly, his face regaining his usual calm, "I don't care, Jingzhou, I don't care, as long as we are still together, I don't care, Jingzhou. "

Xiao Jingzhou only felt a headache when he heard him repeating it over and over again.

"You don't care about anything, Wen Qing! You don't care about anything! You don't care whether he loved that person back then or whether he really loves you or not!" Xiao Jingzhou clenched his fists tightly, with a little anger in his voice.

Wen Qing trembled, bit her lip and said nothing.

"You don't care, right? You don't care, I care!" Seeing that Wen Qing didn't speak, Xiao Jingzhou continued, "You forgot, I didn't forget!"

Wen Qing looked up at him in a daze.

"Have you forgotten what you did when that person died five years ago? Wen Qing! Wen Qing, have you forgotten?!" Xiao Jingzhou stood up and approached Wen Qing, his voice raised high.

"You don't care, do you? Wen Qing, don't cry when you don't care. If you don't care, then don't lock yourself in the room alone, even holding a knife?! Tell me Wen Qing, what did you want at that time? Why! What the hell do you want to do! You don't care about Wen Qing, tell me now that you don't care?! Wen Qing!"

Xiao Jingzhou yelled at him.

"It's been so many years... I really don't remember much about what happened back then..." Wen Qing avoided Xiao Jingzhou's furious gaze, smiled faintly, and turned his gaze to the side with an unclear light, "After all, that People have been away for five and a half years, the world has almost forgotten him, right?... You see, I don't even remember him very much, you think he... Will he not remember too much..."

The anger in Xiao Jingzhou's body was completely vented by Wen Qing, looking at Wen Qing, he only felt a faint pain in his heart.

Xiao Jingzhou will never forget how Wen Qing spent five years ago when Ming Jin just died. He couldn't fall asleep late at night, and was woken up by nightmares in the morning. He, himself a murderer, committed a heinous crime. He vomited into the toilet every day, had diarrhea, and threw up all the food he ate, and his body weakened rapidly.Xiao Jingzhou even felt that Wen Qing was not so desperate when Wen Qing's younger brother Xiao Wen had an accident. He had no choice but to take him to the hospital. He said he needed to be taken to a psychiatrist.

Wen Qing suffered from temporary depression at that time.

He was moody, and he didn't seem to understand when talking to him. Every day, he yelled some messy things, everyone died, and his voice was hoarse, until he couldn't make a sound at all, and almost lost his voice.He doesn’t take care of himself every day, it’s a mess, he’s no longer the clean Wen Qing, he doesn’t care when his hair grows to his waist, he locks himself in the house several times, if Xiao Jingzhou didn’t arrive in time, he really doesn’t care Dare to imagine what the crazy Wen Qing could do at that time.

Wen Qing could forget it, but Xiao Jingzhou couldn't forget it, and he would never forget how they spent that period of time.

Dakun changed Xiao An's name to Wen Qing according to Ming Jin's wishes before his death, and he could not refuse, but just accepted it silently; Dakun also arranged two years of secret protection for Wen Qing according to Ming Jin's instructions.

However, no matter how much Ming Jin did for him, it could not change the fact that he was dead.

He can protect Wen Qing's body from any harm, no matter when he is alive or in ashes, but he still doesn't understand that the first thing to love someone is his spirit, his heart.

When Ming Jin was alive, he imprisoned | Xiao An's body, but he couldn't get Xiao An's heart. When he died, he still bound Wen Qing's spirit and imprisoned Wen Qing's soul.

Xiao Jingzhou did not believe that Wen Qing could forget this person.

He will never forget what this person did for him, he will never forget what this person strictly forbids him to do, what this person asks him for, he will never forget, and this person's death will never be forgotten.

He has no right to forget at all, he was the one who forced him to death.

Seeing that Xiao Jingzhou didn't answer him for a long time, Wen Qing met Xiao Jingzhou's complex eyes with a flat but positive luck.

"Jingzhou, I know that you are good for me. I am really grateful that you were by my side when I was most desperate. Thank you, Jingzhou."

Xiao Jingzhou was a little dazed.

"... Isn't it too hypocritical?" Wen Qing smiled, Xiao Jingzhou felt that his smile was forced, he just heard him continue, "I have no other choice now, even if I know what will happen if Qi Yang knows, but I still can't let go."

Wen Qing took a deep breath and narrated plainly, while Xiao Jingzhou listened quietly.

"I can't foresee our future, I don't even know if we have a tomorrow," Wen Qing squeezed his fingers, "I even wonder if he will know tonight, if he will come to my house tomorrow morning Tell me let's break up."

"I'm worried all the time now, Jingzhou, in fact, I'm really scared.

"I've always been very careful when I was with him now, I didn't dare to talk nonsense, I didn't dare to drink, I didn't dare to get drunk, I was afraid that I would talk nonsense, and I was afraid that I would accidentally slip out of the messy past.

"Jingzhou, if you don't analyze it for me, I will know, and I know what role I play in this relationship.

"But no matter how pitiful and humble this character is, I don't want to get out of it even if it's so humble that it's in the dirt.

"I just want to pretend that nothing happened, I'm just Wen Qing, he's just Qi Yang, I'm not the hateful Xiao An who drove Ming Jin to death, nor is he the Qi Yang who loves Ming Jin deeply, We were just two idiots who had a little affection for each other and decided to give it a try together.

"Jingzhou, I said I don't care, I'm not joking, I'm not being brave, I'm not putting on a show, I really don't care, I don't care what will happen when Qi Yang finds out, Jingzhou, have you noticed that my world has no future, everyone It is a passer-by in my life, even the closest people have left me early now.

"So I don't care, I don't care about the future, I don't care about tomorrow, I don't care how far I can go with Qi Yang, what I care about is just now, every day that I can be with him in peace.

"Maybe one day he will know, maybe one day this peaceful life will come to an end, maybe he will scold me and let me go, this is what I deserved five years ago, there is nothing to shirk. But at least, we are today Tell everyone about us."

Wen Qing paused, bent his eyes, and evoked a faint smile, his blurred vision suddenly became clear, two lines of tears slid down his cheeks, flowed down his chin and disappeared along his neck.

"Maybe I saw Dong Zi and Chu Zhe. I really envy them. The past was clean and clear. How can there be so many entanglements? If you want to get blessings from others, tell them loudly, 'We are lovers' , no scruples, no entanglements, except for relatives, I have never loved anyone, I don’t understand, I just think that love is not that simple, it has nothing to do with gender, identity, or other people, it’s just a matter of two people, simple and simple Single, clearly.

"So I thought, can we be like them? Even though there were so many messy things in the past, I still want everyone to know that the two of us are in love. I, Wen Qing, and he, Qi Yang, we are lovers." .”

Xiao Jingzhou looked at the thin body of the person in front of him with a gentle smile, Xiao Jingzhou couldn't help but blurred his vision.

Wen Qing stood up, hugged Xiao Jingzhou with a smile, and patted his back.

"Jingzhou, don't worry, I will be fine, we... are all fine."

Xiao Jingzhou thought of Wen Qing's pain and despair a few years ago, his hysteria a few years ago, and the determination in his eyes when he held a knife.

Now this person is hugging himself with his thin body so that he no longer has to worry.

Xiao Jingzhou's tears came down in a flash.