Wenhao refuses to be touched

There is a piece of my heart that has been empty, and to be honest, I don't know what I really want.

The body is like an empty shell, doing what it thinks it should do step by step, whether it is forming an organization, propagating theories, passing on ideas...

I'm going to be a sinner in this world, fire is going to go everywhere, I know I'm going to be victorious, maybe years from now I'm going to be a pioneer martyr, a statue is at the gates of City Hall, and everyone will come at a certain time Remember me.

Before the arrival of the new world, they were heartbroken that the great leader Lisen had already sacrificed and could not witness that world with their own eyes...

I, from the very beginning, had no intention of living.Rootless duckweed, in this vast ocean of human beings, there is no thread that can hold me.

"Sister~"

The limp child threw herself into my arms, her green eyes were like jewels, shining brightly even in the dark room.

It was a night three days after I adopted Ranpo, Dazai hadn't come yet, and there were only me and Ranpo in the house.At that time, I probably forcibly woke up again from that sticky, empty and lonely nightmare. I saw the eyes that were still walking in disorder, and I was barely awake and whispered to comfort me.

"Sister, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, just sleep and wake up."

He thinks so simply that all troubles can disappear as long as he sleeps.But it's not that simple.

When I adopted Luanbu, I had the mentality of using him, but I didn't expect this child to break my heart so easily, and I began to feel sorry for him.Perhaps it was because his tears were too hot, his eyes were filled with endless loneliness and emptiness, he was afraid to take a step outside, and wanted to find his own safe house.

I am also so afraid, compared to still have the past, there have been relatives' random steps, even if it has been lost, at least he has the chance to lose.And I have been alone since waking up, fake family and family, fake identity, all fake.

Only the heart is really beating.

I hugged the baby tightly, and he didn't struggle, but found a comfortable position in my arms, nestling like a cat.For the first time, I abandoned all my thoughts and tried to get close to this child with a calm and uncalculating heart.

"Random steps... so cute..." I murmured in such a low voice, I buried my head on his shoulder and rubbed it back and forth, he was tickled and giggled. "It's really cute..."

It would be nice if it was really my brother.

I regret it a bit, I shouldn't have brought him home with that kind of mentality.If he knew the truth, he would definitely leave me.

One day, can I leave after my body dies?At least during my only one year of life, let me take a short break and have a good dream.

It turns out that I have always been afraid of being alone.

Time went back to the present, and I was withdrawn from the memory, looking at the children in front of me calmly.The corners of the mouth did not sip, but were raised slightly. It must be very gentle when you smile, after all, you practice in front of the mirror every day.

But in fact, I am not such a gentle person.

It's just a selfish, angry, cold-blooded person who wants to purify the messy and smelly world because he can't get used to it.

"Then tell me, what exactly did you do?"

I am Feiyin, and I am their leader 'LISEN' in people and organizations, which is homophonic to listen in English, so some people will call me 'Teacher Yin'.I am also Teacher Feiyin, the internationally renowned writer of Holy Evilism.I am Natsume Yin, the niece of Natsume Soseki, whom people around me know.

Aside from these externally recognized code names, I am just a person who has forgotten my real name and has no past.

Ranpo, Ayatsuji, Dazai, Chuya and Momiji.The five of them stood in a row in front of me, and Hongye sighed and took a step forward, complaining softly: "Really, you stinky boys are unreliable when it comes to critical moments."

She folded her hands under her wide sleeves, raised her sleeves to cover her lips, and looked at me with a smile on my face. "Because my sister is very strange. Gentleness is true, tolerance is true, love is true, but it seems that I have been troubled by something, struggling, and want to solve my sister's confusion, but I can't do it. Go ahead and ask them for help."

Momiji pointed at Ayatsuji Ranpo and Dazai behind him. "I was crushed by them. Everyone worked hard, not only the Butei Club, the Port Mafia, and even the Ability Secret Service Division. It seems that there is something chasing behind, wanting to become stronger. I think That's the only way to shorten the distance between my sister and my heart."

"Hongye, your biggest problem is that you always like to say things that are easily ambiguous in this euphemistic way." Ayatsuji clicked his tongue, "Tell my sister directly. The first time I suspected that my sister was in a coma, Xiaoxu said you Your supernatural ability has been deprived, but even if the world consciousness forcibly deprives you of your power, it doesn't make sense to be targeted by the King's Sword afterwards."

"Did you start to doubt it then?" I asked. "However, just because I didn't become a king, it must have deepened the fact that I was hated by the world."

"Then think about it the other way around." Luanbu said, "It's not that the world hates you, but that my sister hates the world and refuses the power and talent it bestows."

I understand.I am empty.The strength of my body was lost at this moment, and I sat on my desk and looked up to the sky and sighed. "I was too slack, softened by the greenhouse you built."

This is my fault. "Love, what an incredible thing." What is the so-called love?I thought it was me who protected the stray cats and raised them in the greenhouse to take good care of them, but I didn't expect that I was influenced by them instead.

"This is a mistake." I didn't admit my weak side, "No wonder everyone was pestering people so much during that time, acting like a baby was unbearable, and it made me really sincere... So what? Now I want to How to punish me, a liar."

People still have to be down-to-earth and treat each other sincerely. Those who deceive others will eventually deceive themselves into it, but...

I chuckled: "It's quite interesting to have you brothers and sisters." The days spent with them filled my emptiness, and the corners of my heart were filled to the brim. "But, I value you more than you think."

They looked at me quietly. After 1 minute, 2 minutes, and 5 minutes, the embarrassed one became me instead. "Hey, what kind of expressions do you guys have? No way, is my reputation that low? I really didn't lie this time."

"But you lied to me so many times, you pretended to be a fool until everyone believed me." Zhong also looked at me sadly, "Sister, you hated me at first, not only because you hated the world, but also because you thought I was the one you planned. The biggest variable."

I froze for a moment, squinted my eyes and looked at Zhongye carefully. "You are not someone who can say such insightful words, Zaizai taught you, right?" He showed an insulted expression, and stared at me angrily with his hips akimbo.

"It doesn't matter, it's okay to lie to others, it's okay to pretend to be stupid..." When I didn't notice, Dazai had already come up behind me and hugged me from behind. I thought he was trying to play some game, but it turned out ...

Holding the needle port on my neck, I looked at the thin needle tube he was holding in shock, unable to calmly wait for this change in the situation. "You, what kind of medicine is this?"

"The powerful hypnotic that can make my sister sleep in the dark for three days and three nights after 5 minutes, is a finished product made by Ayatsuji after consulting a monster under Kishi." Dazai threw away the needle, Pass the phone to me.

"Hurry up, hurry up, you have no choice now. Abandon the identity of Teacher Yin? Or abandon Feiyin's identity? If you choose the latter, you will be in a coma for three days and three nights, and the day lily will be cold when you wake up." Right." Dazai blushed with excitement, "Because my sister has been adjusting the plan so that the people of this family will not be affected, and after returning from Mr. Fukuji, she must have made some new plan adjustments, That is to say - this battle without Teacher Yin's real-time follow-up command, the effect will be greatly reduced, right?"

I:……!

"Don't you have anything else you want to ask me? Besides, you haven't told me the truth about how to change Fukuchi Sakurachi's plan to kill me!"

"Okay, okay, sister, don't struggle." Ayatsuji came over and stuffed the phone into my hand, "Is it not a phone, but other contact methods?"

"Mr. Gide should know clearly, do we need to call him in?" Hongye said excitedly, "Hurry up, the effect of the medicine will take effect in a few minutes, and there is not much time left for my sister."

Chuya chuckled and said: "Sister, has no one told you? Planning this kind of thing, even if the opponent is about to die, you must never say it out loud. The villain dies because of talking too much. This is the truth, right? .”

"That's right, so why do you think that we will tell you obediently." Luanbu said loudly with his hands on his hips, "If you guess our trump card, you will take this into consideration next time you make trouble. Aren’t we digging our own graves then? We’re not stupid!”

I:……

In the end, in order to avoid any gaps in the plans of the people and the organization, I had to bear the burden of humiliation and contact Beichang.Beichang's voice resounded cheerfully in the room, and I could hear his fisting.

'teacher!Are you ready to come back?Where is it now, we will send someone to meet it immediately! '

I haha. "Start the backup F89 plan."

'……Why? '

I obviously felt that my energy was beginning to slump, and the feeling of drowsiness swept up, and I pinched the face of Dazai next to me, and his wow-wow sound made me wake up a little bit.

'Wait a minute, teacher, why is there a child's voice next to you?Hey, no way, are you going to bring those kids into the organization?You can't do that, you are working so hard on the reputation of Feiyin's pseudonym, isn't it for the sake of the new world, those children without you can have a bright future under the protection of the reputation..."

'I said Ah Chang, you are so noisy! I exploded, and pinched Dazai's chubby cheek even harder, "Are you talking about him? Start the F89 plan and let Mr. Yin die! Do you understand, if I confiscate it in three days When Lisen dies and people and organizations reach a peace agreement with other countries, you will be dead—”

'What!Are you serious?The one who planned to die was 'Feiyin', if Lisen-sama disappeared, your loss would be too great. Do you want to retire at the age of 26?Can't--'

I cut off the contact with Beichang, and the second before I closed my eyes, I gave all the children a violent shudder, and watched them fall into a slumber contentedly after seeing how they couldn't dodge and were caught in the trick one by one, clutching their foreheads with teary eyes past.

Oops, it seems that I really have to live my whole life under the name Natsume Yin.

But I offended Natsume Soseki, how can I make him realize that his "niece" is actually a healing idiot?