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The end of the year is a good time to get married. Xiao Yu just got good news here, and someone is getting married over there.

That night, Chang Qin, who was working overtime at the company, suddenly received a number that hadn't appeared in a long time. He stared at the flickering phone screen in a daze for half a minute before answering in disbelief.

"Chang Qin." A long-lost female voice floated out of the receiver, with a little excitement in her tone, "How are you doing?"

Chang Qin paused, then calmly replied: "Xie Ronger..."

The next day, Chang Qin and Xie Ronger made an appointment to meet in an elegant cafe. They hadn't seen each other for many years. Xie Ronger was much more mature and dignified than before. Every gesture exuded a strong sense of happiness and femininity.

Chang Qin looked at her with a smile, and suddenly felt that he had never seen such a smile in the long time he had been with her.

"I heard that you just won the gold medal in the cross-strait four-region architectural competition, congratulations." As soon as she was seated, Xie Ronger praised generously.

"Thank you." Chang Qin replied modestly, and then congratulated, "Congratulations to you too, you will be getting married next week." As he spoke, he glanced at Xie Ronger's shiny diamond ring.

Chang Qin had heard Xi Fu say that Xie Rong'er was going to get married a long time ago. He thought it was already married last year, but he didn't expect that the other party had just held an engagement ceremony.

"Something happened to Zejun's family temporarily, so the wedding was postponed to this year." Xie Ronger explained as if he had seen through Chang Qin's question.

Chang Qin nodded and sighed sincerely: "You finally met a good man who treats you sincerely."

Xie Ronger pursed her lips and smiled, and replied with some embarrassment: "Actually, you are also quite good."

"Oh?" Chang Qin didn't expect that Xie Rong'er would give him a compliment, and raised his eyebrows in surprise, "I always thought that you would be bitter about me about the past."

Xie Rong'er lowered her head, stirred the coffee in the cup, and said quietly: "If I hated you, I wouldn't have come here to invite you to my wedding today."

Chang Qin adjusted his sitting posture in embarrassment: "Anyway, I was the one who was sorry for you before."

Xie Rong'er paused, and sighed long: "At that time, I was exhausted physically and mentally because of you. After all," she raised her head and took a deep look at Chang Qin, "I loved you so seriously."

Chang Qin coughed twice, trying to avoid the burning gaze of the other party.

Xie Rong'er laughed at herself and looked away: "Unfortunately, all the hysteria is in vain."

"Rong'er." Chang Qin raised his head suddenly and asked seriously, "When we were together before, I was really not nice to you at all?"

Xie Rong'er rolled her eyes, thought for a moment before answering: "No, there are times when you are happy, but in the end it is mostly when you are worried, because you are so dazzling, you will attract countless admiring glances no matter where you go, being your daughter My friend, I really don’t have any sense of security at all, and I have to worry that you will be snatched away all the time.”

Chang Qin shook his head, and asked himself in his heart: Is this why you insist on leaving me?

In his mind, Xi Lingna always frowns together, as if the corners of his eyebrows will never be smoothed, and the tip of his heart is stabbed delicately.

He remembered what Xi Fu said, the first time Xi Ling saw him, he had a bad impression of being suspected of "derailment", and all the tears that Xie Ronger shed for him back then were also counted by Xi Ling one by one. It seems that he This pale road of self-denial is indeed endless.

"Chang Qin?" Xie Ronger couldn't help shouting when the person opposite him was distracted.

Chang Qin came back to his senses immediately: "What?"

"I heard from Xi Fu that you are still single now. Why, there are so many Yingyingyanyans around you, but none of them catches your eye?"

Chang Qin smiled bitterly: "Yes, it's just..."

"Huh? Just what?" Xie Ronger looked at him with burning eyes.

"To tell you the truth." Chang Qin said with some embarrassment, "I even made a special trip to England a while ago, just for him."

"I really didn't expect that the designer Chang Da, who always does his own way, would do such a thing for one person, but you have worked so hard, and she is still unmoved?" Xie Ronger said in surprise.

The corner of Chang Qin's mouth ticked: "He, like you, has no confidence in me."

Xie Rong'er chuckled: "How do you say that, the reincarnation of heaven."

"Indeed, Xi Fu said the same thing." Chang Qin laughed at himself.

Xie Rong'er was even more surprised: "Why, Xi Fu also knows that person?"

"He is..." Chang Qin rubbed his nose and replied hesitantly, "He is Xi Fu's younger brother."

"..." Xie Rong'er was stunned for a full minute before reacting, her jaw was so wide that she almost fell on the dining table, "You mean, you fell in love with a man?"

Chang Qin frowned, apparently unable to accept Xie Ronger's way of describing it.

Xie Rong'er, who was on the opposite side, didn't notice his small movements, and continued to say: "I know that Xi Fu's younger brother is gay, but you... haven't you always only liked women?"

Chang Qin sighed, really didn't know how to explain his sudden sexual orientation, so he could only say: "I don't know, maybe, I think he is different from other men."

"I don't see any difference, except that the skin is a little fairer, and the facial features are a little more beautiful." Xie Ronger looked up and found Chang Qin's darker and darker face, and quickly apologized, "Of course, these are normal. I just can't react right now."

Chang Qin smiled awkwardly: "I understand you, no one can accept this matter."

"Xi Fu's younger brother..." Xie Rong'er savored the taste alone, "I haven't seen him many times, but when I was with you, I met him a few times at Xi Fu's house, by the way," she suddenly realized, "Aren't you He used to pretend to be his boyfriend and went to his house to meet his father."

Chang Qin gave a vague hum.

Xie Ronger blinked, and said maliciously: "So, you two had already..."

"Absolutely not." Chang Qin quickly raised his hands to assure, and then said solemnly, "Rong'er, I know you won't believe me now, but when I was with you, I really didn't The third person is entangled."

Xie Rong'er curled her lips and laughed dryly: "What's the point of pursuing these things now? But Xi Fu's younger brother, can he really accept you? At that time, I often cried in front of him because of you. "

Chang Qin shook his head and said with a bitter face, "I know."

Xie Ronger patted him on the shoulder and said comfortingly: "No matter what, I still hope you can be happy. If you really decide on this path, you have to anticipate the difficulties ahead. Do uncles and aunts know about this? ? In my impression, both of them have quite traditional ideas, and they may not be willing to accept that you bring a man home."

"I didn't tell them." Chang Qin replied, "It just so happened that Xi Ling also rejected me." He turned his gaze to the window full of traffic, with a calm expression on his face, "It's settled once and for all."

Xie Ronger looked at him worriedly and remained silent.

Not long after receiving Xie Ronger's invitation letter, Chang Qin appeared at Xiao Yu's wedding as the best man. Coincidentally, Xiao Lu was also one of the bridesmaids.

Two people in gorgeous dresses stood together, smiling brightly.

"I heard you have a boyfriend." Chang Qin said with a smile.

Xiao Lu nodded shyly, her happiness was beyond words.

"Congratulations." Chang Qin said, thinking of seeing Xie Ronger just a few days ago, the other party also had a face full of happiness, and couldn't help adding, "People who have been with me have finally found their own happiness .”

Also includes Chi Ling.

"Well, what do you mean?" Xiao Lu didn't respond.

"Nothing." Chang Qin waved his hand and looked around: "By the way, where is your boyfriend? Is he here?"

Xiao Lu smiled and pointed to a table of honored guests not far away.

Chang Qin looked over her fingertips, and saw a blond foreigner sitting at the corner of the round table, looking down at his mobile phone intently. This person did not look too young, but he exuded a unique European and American style. Charming, he said unexpectedly: "I didn't expect, it turned out to be a foreigner."

Xiao Yu looked at the bowed figure not far away, his eyes filled with tenderness: "I met him when I was studying in the United States. He came to China for me and pursued me for many years, but I don't want to find a foreigner. He is a boyfriend, so he never agreed, if it wasn't for..." As he spoke, he glanced at Chang Qin meaningfully, "Lawyer Xi let me go."

Hearing this name, Chang Qin's heart trembled involuntarily, and he asked in confusion, "What does this have to do with Xi Ling?"

Xiao Lu recalled: "Lawyer Xi advised me not to trap myself in this square courtyard, but to grasp true happiness. That's why I decided to completely let go of you and accept people who treat me well."

Chang Qin was overwhelmed with guilt, avoided Xiao Lu's eyes, and mumbled, "It's all me, I'm sorry."

"There's nothing wrong with liking someone. What's wrong is that you don't know what you want." Xiao Lu's voice came faintly from her side, causing Chang Qin to fall into deep thought again.

Not long after, a grand wedding march came out from the stereo, and Xiao Yu, dressed in a neat suit, appeared on the star-studded stage, waiting for that one with a smile, and walked towards his bride.

Immediately afterwards, there was roaring applause, and everyone was staring at the extremely warmly arranged long aisle, waiting for the beautiful bride to show her beauty, the door slowly opened, and the bride in a long white dress walked in. Supported by his father, he walked slowly to the groom. After the elderly father handed over his daughter's hand to the groom, Xiao Yu bowed deeply to his father-in-law and led the bride back to the center of the stage.

At this time, the best man, Chang Qin, stepped onto the stage, took out the wedding rings that had been prepared and handed them to the two people, witnessed the couple exchanging wedding rings with their own eyes, and then hugged and kissed. After everything was done, Chang Qin He took the initiative to give Xiao Yu a big hug, put his mouth next to the other's ear, and said from the bottom of his heart: "Bless you, good brother."

The radiant Xiao Yu patted his generous back and said with a smile, "I hope you can find your own happiness, too."

After the light reappeared, the guests sat down to eat, and Fu Shengyu was seated next to Chang Qin. He looked thoughtfully at Xiao Lu who was not far away, and saw that the other party was bowing his head and ear to a blond foreigner. , the posture was very ambiguous, and he couldn't help but asked in confusion: "Isn't that your girlfriend?"

Chang Qin explained with a smile: "Actually, the two of us broke up a long time ago."

Fu Shengyu suddenly remembered something, and suddenly realized: "No wonder..."

"No wonder what?" Chang Qin frowned and asked in puzzlement.

"No wonder, that night on the stage, when you said that you already had a master, you looked in a direction that was not where your girlfriend was sitting. Means, and that person is also there, right?"

Chang Qin froze for a moment, then shook his head speechlessly: "Unexpectedly, Teacher Fu's side job is also a detective."

"That's not true." Fu Shengyu said with a smile, "I'm closer to you, so I can see it more clearly. I'm just curious. Since you have admitted it to your face, that person was also in the audience at the time, but why didn't she How about going on stage?"

"What do you think?" As if intending to test the other party, Chang Qin sipped his red wine and looked at Fu Shengyu with a half-smile.

Fu Shengyu rested his chin on his fingertips and thought for a while: "Could it be that that person is a man?"

Chang Qin smiled and looked away, noncommittal.

The smile on Fu Shengyu's face deepened, and he patted the back of Chang Qin's hand as if to comfort him, "Actually, I completely understand."

Chang Qin turned his head and looked at him in disbelief.

Fu Shengyu showed a complicated smile, and continued: "It's not a big deal abroad or even in Hong Kong. To tell you the truth, I used to be with one or two men. But at that time, I was just It’s just a taste of something new, without any real emotion.”

Chang Qin was speechless, and wondered, "How could you... that night in the pub, I saw you having a good time with a group of women."

Fu Shengyu pursed his lips and smiled: "The more you want to hide some secrets, the more you need to deliberately disguise. However, it is really tiring to play too much with emotions." Fu Shengyu focused his gaze not far away, busy with a table The newlyweds who received a toast at the table sighed, "I have been looking for the person who can make me truly willing for the past few years."

Chang Qin looked at the deep side of the other party, and said unexpectedly: "Your qualifications are so good, are you still worried that you won't find them?"

Fu Shengyu chuckled: "This road is really scary." He looked away, his expression suddenly dimmed, "Once you step on it, you can never turn back." Then, he looked at Chang Qin again , reminded earnestly, "Chang Qin, have you really thought it through?"

Chang Qin knew that the other party was alluding to the path of homosexuality. Once he chose, it would be difficult to go back and fall in love with women again. He curled his lips bitterly: "No, I have never liked a man before. He is the first one. It should be the last one."

A flash of astonishment flashed in Fu Shengyu's eyes, and after a while, he suddenly nodded with emotion: "That's good."

After stumbling and growing up to 30 years old, I finally recognized my feelings for the first time.

How is it possible, you can let it go if you say it.

After attending two weddings in a row, the new year came in the blink of an eye. This year, Chang Qin found an excuse not to go home for the new year. He stayed in the big house alone. I cleaned it all over.

He dug out a pile of discarded white rice paper from under the table in the guest room where Xi Ling used to live. On it were flying dragons and phoenixes, all of which were written by Xi Linglian.

Chang Qin sat cross-legged on the ground, flipping through the pile of waste papers one by one, and the memories of the past roared in, hitting his brain one layer after another.

On that dusk with ambiguous light, the young man who was practicing calligraphy at his desk had that perfect profile against the backlight.

He said that the poems written by Yan Jidao are full of desolation between the lines. He said that everyone is born to experience eight hardships. He also said that people are always like this.

Chang Qin spread out one of the rough papers, "Try to write from the sound to the old strings", and seven vigorous running scripts came into view immediately.

He remembered that it was at that time that Xi Ling tightly held the brush in his hand, copying these words meticulously, and it was also at that time that he recognized his own heart clearly.

Yan Jidao suffers from not being able to get what he wants.

It turned out that I also came to this step.

Chang Qin let his thoughts wander for a while, then flicked the dust that fell on the paper, and went out to find a shop that specializes in mounting calligraphy.

In the evening, Chang Qin simply cooked a New Year's Eve dinner for himself. He was born lacking in cooking skills, and most of the delicacies on this big table were semi-finished products bought in supermarkets.He sat alone at the dining table, sipped the red wine slowly, and finished the New Year's Eve dinner alone.

He didn't turn on the TV, and the already empty room seemed more and more deserted at this moment. Soft music was playing in the living room. Before he knew it, he was a little drunk, and he felt that he was swaying and floating.

After finally making it to twelve o'clock, he hurried to the balcony, picked up a few fairy wands that he had prepared earlier, and lit them with a lighter.

Looking at the fireworks flying around in his hand, he couldn't help laughing at himself, thinking that he is indeed a fickle guy. Last year, he still laughed at Xi Ling for playing with things that little girls only play. , but he held up the fairy wand and foolishly waited for the New Year's bell to ring.

At this time, a familiar singing voice came from the stereo, and the soft melody echoed in every corner of the room. Chang Qin listened with bated breath. It was the song he repeated repeatedly on the plane to London.

"The night that belongs to us is now turned into ashes with the wind, I can't hear your voice, I can't hear it anymore."

Accompanied by the melodious music, he took a deep look at the calligraphy inlaid in the glass frame placed in the corner of the living room, took out his mobile phone, and dialed the number on the other side of the world.

Chang Qin listened to the rhythmic beeping sound from the receiver, his heart beating wildly.

"Hello?" After a short wait, a long-lost deep voice came from the other end of the phone.

Chang Qin was stunned and his heart skipped a beat. He took a deep breath and said slowly, "Happy New Year, Xi Ling."

The author has something to say:

A meeting of ex-girlfriends, I hope these ex-girlfriends can find happiness ╮(╯▽╰)╭

ps: I didn’t want to talk about it at first, but when I saw someone leaving a message, I’ll explain it. The reason why Xi Ling rejected Chang Qin was because he felt that he was bothering, second, he kept his vow with his father, third, he couldn’t explain to Chang Qin’s parents, and fourth, he just happened to lose his job. She couldn't save face, and the fifth reason was that she was hit by Xiao Lu's disclosure of her girlfriend's identity that night.

It's not that Xi Ling has never tried it. When he met Chang Qin four years later, he took the initiative to send the man home. He wanted to test the other party's attitude, but Chang Qin's first reaction turned out to be to cover the quilt. silence.

Afterwards, he moved into Chang Qin's house, and thought about being with him, but Xiao Lu came across him halfway, and he could only remain silent, which is why he said let go.

After Chang Qin's parents came, he took the initiative to please him, and kissed Chang Qin on the New Year's Eve night. Seeing that the other party did not reject him, he planned to go further, but Chang Qin's parents discussed marriage with Xiao Lu...

After Chang Qin took the initiative to confess his love, Xi Ling himself encountered a lot of unhappy things. In addition, Xiao Lu appeared as his girlfriend on the night of the award ceremony. No matter how rational he was, he would be emotionally hit, so He left without even saying goodbye.

Of course, those who don’t like this article must think that I’m making excuses, it’s okay, my friend, there are thousands of excellent articles, and you don’t have to be trapped in my square courtyard and toss yourself in vain, don’t you?

Have fun!