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Chang Qin couldn't help but cast a glance in the direction of the taxi stop, watching one taxi after another slowly drive in and out, curled his lips, and secretly sighed that this excuse was really touching.

Xi Fu, on the other hand, was completely mistaken, and glanced at him while turning the steering wheel. Seeing that the other party was full of anger, he smiled with some sarcasm: "Why, my brother let you be shut down?"

Chang Qin adjusted his sitting posture, and replied calmly: "No, but..." He snorted coldly, "It's not much better."

Xi Fu didn't feel surprised, but naturally raised one corner of his mouth: "I warned you a long time ago, but you didn't believe it, so you insisted on running to suffer this crime for nothing."

Chang Qin lowered his head, closed his eyes in resignation, and murmured, "Xi Ling said...he said that he committed the crime himself, and he already has Vincent, but he still wants to provoke me."

Xi Fu heard the silence for a moment, looked ahead, but changed the topic to the other side: "Chang Qin, do you still remember that day five years ago, before you and Xie Ronger broke up, I was in the park downstairs of your company, Did you catch the incident where you were with Yu Xiaozi?"

Chang Qin didn't understand why the other party suddenly brought up this old story, he was stunned for a while, and then replied hesitatingly: "I remember."

"You know, when I suddenly caught you having an affair with Yu Xiaozi in the park, was there anyone else around?" Xi Fu continued to ask, but his tone gradually became harsh.

Chang Qin corrected with black lines all over his head: "Sister Xi, how many times have I explained to you that I was not cheating at all at that time, and nothing happened between me and Yu Xiaozi."

But Xi Fu didn't listen, and said to himself: "At that time, Xi Ling was with me."

Chang Qin: "..."

Chang Qin thought about it for a long time before he realized the meaning of Xi Ling's words. He frowned and said anxiously, "So, it turned out that it was not the first time he saw me in the box that night."

Yu Xiaozi is Xie Ronger's college classmate and a good sister who lives in the same dormitory. She has an ordinary appearance and is the type who rarely attracts attention when thrown in the crowd. She and Xie Ronger are as good as conjoined twins. We stick together almost every day. At that time, Xie Ronger and Chang Qin were in a passionate relationship. Chang Qin would often stand downstairs in the dormitory waiting for his girlfriend. Over time, Yu Xiaozi and Chang Qin also gradually became acquainted. When recruiting, there are very few girls who can get so close to him and still feel at peace—of course, Xi Fu is an exception—as the number of meetings increases, Yu Xiaozi’s affection for Chang Qin is also deepening, and Yu Xiaozi She hides her thoughts deeply, on the surface she always pretends to be a light bulb, but behind her back she always finds some random reasons to secretly send text messages to Chang Qin. In contrast, Xie Ronger's heart is much bigger, she didn't notice The sisters and their boyfriends kept secrets about Chen Cang, and they still dragged her to see Chang Qin. As for Chang Qin, since he was a child, there were so many peach blossoms around him that he couldn't count them. , he didn't take it seriously at all.

After graduating from university, Yu Xiaozi also stayed in this city. Coincidentally, the company she worked for was just downstairs of Chang Qin's "Chenxi" Architectural Office. When Xie Ronger heard the news, her first reaction was Not defensive but elated, she patted her friend on the shoulder and asked her to take good care of her boyfriend for herself with a very broad mind.

Yu Xiaozi agreed happily, but looked at Chang Qin with another kind of deep charm in his eyes.

Chang Qin, who had been in love for many years, immediately understood the meaning in the other's eyes, and couldn't help but shudder. He paused, then put on a nonchalant face, and said with a calm smile, "Then I will trouble my classmates. "

From then on, classmate Yu became more and more unscrupulous, and took care of the "other" boyfriend very meticulously, bought breakfast for Chang Qin in the morning, waited early downstairs in the office building, went to the cafeteria at noon to prepare meals and delivered them upstairs, and when Chang Qin asked On overtime nights, she simply stayed with Chang Qin at the door of his office, waiting for him to get off work together, and learned that Chang Qin had the habit of drinking afternoon tea, and even willingly ran errands for him to buy snacks.

Chang Qin's principles are far less than one-thousandth of Xi Ling's. The reason why he would let Yu Xiaozi do anything for him is that someone will do this and that for you for free. In addition to being an architect, the daily workload is so much that he vomits blood. Yu Xiaozi's care like wanting to be close to him 24 hours a day has indeed saved him a lot of troubles other than work.

Xie Ronger was admitted as a civil servant. When she first entered the industry, she trained in other places every week. She rarely had the chance to meet Chang Qin, let alone mention it in his company. Over time, everyone in the company knew that Chang Qin had a 24 Filial piety girlfriend, whose name is "Yu Xiaozi" instead of "Xie Ronger", Chang Qin realized the seriousness of the problem belatedly. Taking advantage of the lunch break at noon one day, he invited Yu Xiaozi to the park downstairs of the company. Here, explain things to her straight to the point.

The girl Yu Xiaozi is not a vegetarian either, she doesn't eat hard and soft, and her clingy skills are top-notch, no matter how hard Chang Qin tried to persuade her, she just refused to let go, sobbing and saying: "I just like you, I love you." I just want to do anything for you, what's so good about that Xie Rong'er, I just work by myself every day, and I don't see her for a week to care about you." As he spoke, he burst into tears, making Chang Qin exhausted physically and mentally.

At noon, when people were coming and going in the park, passers-by saw the beautiful girl sitting on a bench crying pear blossoms with rain, and they all looked sideways at Chang Qin. Chang Qin was stared at. There was no way to avoid it, so I had to bury my head in shame, let Xiaozi hold his arm tightly, and buried his face in his long sleeves. After a while, the clean white shirt was covered with prints. Big big tear stains.

Coincidentally, at noon on the same day, Xi Fu and his younger brother Xi Ling, who had just returned to China, had lunch at a nearby restaurant and were about to pick up their car from the parking lot. Came across the scene in front of me.

This was the first time Xi Ling saw Chang Qin. Under the bright sunshine, the man was sitting respectfully on the bench. Although his head was drooping, he could vaguely see his thick eyebrows and deep eyes. The ground is clean and neat, with golden light shining faintly in the hairpin, and he is wearing a white and shiny shirt. In an instant, it seems that all the light is concentrated on him. Lightly sighed: Arguing with my girlfriend.

At that time, he did not expect that in such a scene, such a person would become his lifelong bondage.

After sighing, he turned his head, only to see that his sister had a fierce look in her eyes, as if she was about to rush to kill someone at any time.

"..." So Xi Ling asked curiously, "Sister, do you know that person?"

"He is your elder sister Rong'er's boyfriend." Xie Ronger and Xi Fu have been classmates since childhood, and Xi Ling naturally knew each other. He only heard Xi Fu casually drop this sentence, but his eyes did not look at him, and he was still firmly attached to him. Staring intently at the pair of men and women on the bench, she let out a cold snort of contempt, and then said to Xi Ling beside her, "Wait for me here for a while, and I will come when I go." Before Xi Ling could respond, she He rushed over in two or three steps, pulled up Chang Qin who was still avoiding him with his head down, pointed at the other person's nose and cursed.

Xi Ling, who hid in the shade of the tree, enjoyed watching the "catch the rape" battle very much. Seeing Chang Qin being scolded by his sister, his bushy brows were tightly knit together, and his expression was so ferocious that he could squeeze. Bitter juice came out, and finally he nodded his promise again and again, and then led Yu Xiaozi, who was crying with snot and tears just now, to slip away.

Xi Ling didn't know how Chang Qin dealt with Yu Xiaozi's matter later, and he didn't know whether his sister told Xie Ronger the secret, but when he met Chang Qin again, he saw Xie Ronger's innocent expression , presumably this matter should be suppressed by both sister and Chang Qin.

However, Xie Ronger doesn't mind, it doesn't mean that he can also be indifferent.

Half-hearted, irresponsible for feelings, playful - this is all the impression Chang Qin left on him.

The sad thing is, knowing that the other party has such and other problems, he still can't control his heart... Only then did Xi Ling understand that the saddest thing in this world is that he can't control his heart and guide it what it should be. To like a kind of person, when you realize it later, it won't help.

How can a heartbeat that can tell the cause and effect be unforgettable.

Xi Ling experienced a very unpleasant incident when he was a child. At that time, his father's career was booming and he was a golden bachelor. There were countless women who coveted Xi's father, and Xi's father was used to being vigorous and resolute. Seeing that they couldn't break through, they moved their minds and turned their targets to Xi Ling who was still in elementary school. Xi Fu was majestic and majestic since she was a child, and her temper was just like her father's, and she was not close to others. In contrast, Xi Ling is much more approachable. These strange aunts would often block him on the way home from school, coaxing Xi Ling into a daze with just a few sweet words, and the pure Xi Ling followed the other party's wishes , took a strange woman home, the most exaggerated time, when his father came back from his official business, took a shower exhausted, and was about to go to bed, he found a naked woman lying on the bed, which scared him Immediately, he slammed the door and asked the housekeeper in the empty living room, where did this inexplicable woman come from? She took it home.

Hearing this, Father Xi was so angry that his eyes were smoldering, and he went straight to Xi Ling's bedroom, and lifted his son who had already fallen asleep out of the bed with one hand. Allow to crawl back into bed.

Since then, Xi Ling has developed a habit of restraining his emotions, and he is used to forbearance when encountering anything. At that time, he pulled Changqin to pretend to be his boyfriend, and the reason why he was able to keep it secret was not only due to inertia, but also because The other party already has Xie Ronger as a real girlfriend.

No matter how much Xi Ling misses each other, there is still a principle of not breaking up a couple.

Seeing that Chang Qin had been immersed in memories, Xi Fu brought him back to reality: "Actually, Xi Ling asked you to pretend to be his boyfriend, and it was a lie to say that you would vaccinate Dad."

Chang Qin turned his head puzzled.

"At that time, my younger brother wanted to learn archeology, and he applied to my father many times, but his old man refused. My father has always placed high hopes on Xi Ling, hoping that after he returns from his studies, he can manage the company for him, even if he doesn't study. Marketing, the law is at least a kind of guarantee. It is better than archaeology, which is an incomprehensible major. I don’t know what to do when I return to my country. Together, he came up with an idea to let Xi Ling pretend to be gay, so as to distract his father, and even use this incident to stimulate his father. If he can't accept the cruel fact that his only son is gay, maybe he is choosing Professionally, he was able to make concessions." Xi Fu smiled awkwardly, and continued, "Afterwards, it proved that the idea we came up with was really bad. The incident caused heart failure. Unfortunately, my brother was far away in the UK at that time, and I was busy with work all day and rarely went home. I didn’t know anything about my father’s physical condition until he died suddenly. The doctor told us outside the ward I finally understood the cause of the disease. My father had a bad heart...Because of this incident, my younger brother has blamed himself until now. He thinks that his willfulness killed his father. But what I don’t understand is that his homosexuality It was just pretending, but when Dad used this to threaten him and asked him to choose between his studies and his sexual orientation, he did not settle for the second..."

The leather chair under him was soft and comfortable. Chang Qin sat on it, but his back was stretched straight, no muscle in his body was relaxed, and the expression on his face was also not very exciting. She had a panoramic view of all kinds of entanglements, she ruthlessly interrupted Chang Qin's fantasies, and said unabashedly: "I guess, Xi Ling may have really met someone who made his heart flutter, so that he will be in the matter of sexual orientation. Keep your mouth shut." Then he glanced at Chang Qin again, and said coldly, "I don't know who that person is, but I hope it's not you."

Chang Qin's heart sank, and Xi Fu paused for a moment before continuing: "If it's really you, it's not a good thing for Yu Xiling or for you."

"Why?" Chang Qin blurted out.

Xi Fu smiled: "My younger brother has never been tempted by anyone in his life. Once he is tempted, his teeth and blood will be broken, and he will go all the way to darkness. After his father passed away, he suppressed his emotions even more, until he almost became When you are with Xie Ronger, Xie Ronger would run to my house and cry if she suffered a little emotional trauma when you were together. Zeng Mo and I were not married at that time, and our house was not mortgaged to the bank. Ling is still living together, all the tears that Xie Ronger shed because of you, my brother saw all of them, and when he first saw you, you were 'cheating' with someone, I think, you have to change his attitude towards you. It's hard to get a bad impression of you. If my younger brother really fell in love with you at first sight, he would probably just choose to remain silent, or even run away."

Chang Qin was speechless.

At the end, Xi Fu said coldly again, "How do you say that sentence? The law of reincarnation."

Although Xi Fu didn't finish his words, Chang Qin guessed the hidden meaning of the other party.

All the scars he once drew on the heart of the girl who liked him have now been paid back to him one by one. In the past, he always felt that Xie Rong'er was worried about gains and losses, lacked trust in himself, and felt insecure about their relationship. He also hated each other He is too clingy to himself, and sometimes even wants to be with him 24 hours a day. He always feels unreasonable, and he can't understand why the way of getting along between two people is so extreme.

He hadn't really felt it until now.

Now, the same retribution has finally fallen on him, he also wants to cling to Xi Ling, and wishes he could see Xi Ling's docile sleeping face when he wakes up in the morning, and at night, he hugs Xi Ling tightly in his arms and goes to sleep. He sometimes feels that he is obsessed with Xi Ling to a morbid level, and he is next to him, and he is also afraid that this person will disappear at any time. If he can, he really wishes to keep him by his side all the time.

This kind of obsession, he couldn't open his mouth to say it, and he didn't have the face to say it, just like what Xi Fu said, when we first met, he had already left an indelible bad impression, and now everything he said seemed to be irrational, and to the other party's ears, it was even more so. Hypocritical.

Chang Qin turned his face sideways, looked at the passing scenery outside the car window, laughed a few times, and relaxed his frown that had been furrowed all along, and said slowly, "Fortunately, I'm not the one he's looking at."

When he got home, Chang Qin washed off all the dust, changed into casual home clothes and walked out of the bathroom. His mobile phone vibrated cheerfully on the coffee table. He leaned down and saw that it was his mother's phone.

Chang Qin's eyelids twitched, he calmed down, and pressed the call button.

"Qin'er, why didn't I get through when I called you yesterday." Chang's mother complained impatiently when she heard his voice, "I made your father and I worry all night."

It was only then that Chang Qin remembered that he was in London on his birthday yesterday, and he couldn’t receive calls on his cell phone. Every year on his birthday, his mother would call to remind him. Chang Qin is busy with work and lives as he pleases. He never remembers important dates. Thanks to his mother's reminder, he didn't forget his birthday.

He hurriedly made up a reason and said: "The company sent me abroad a few days ago. The domestic number is temporarily unavailable, so I didn't receive your call. We are very busy on business trips. I didn't even think that yesterday was mine. Birthday, I'm sorry, Mom, for making you worry."

"It's fine." Chang's mother breathed a sigh of relief on the other end of the phone, and then reminded, "Since you didn't make it yesterday, let's make it up today. Is Xiao Lu by your side? Did she prepare a cake for you?"

Chang Qin rubbed his nose and said guiltily, "Xiao Lu is not with me, but—" He paused, and a smile that he didn't even notice suddenly appeared on the corner of his mouth, "I've eaten the birthday cake."

"Have you eaten the cake? That's good, then I can rest assured." Chang's mother relaxed.

"Mom." Chang Qin hesitated for a long time, but still made up his mind to say, "Xiao Lu and I have already broken up."

"What?!" Chang's mother's ending sound dragged on for half a minute. Even if Chang Qin couldn't see her face, he could still feel the puzzlement on the other side's face, "Didn't you two get along very well all the time?" Well, how to say break up and break up."

"It's my fault, it's all my fault." Chang Qin admitted without thinking.

"You're half-hearted again, and you've fallen in love with someone else, right? If you don't like Xiao Lu, you dump him." Chang's mother said sharply.

Chang Qin secretly groaned, thinking that as expected of his own mother, he knew his son's temperament better than he knew himself. He reflected on himself, and finally hemmed and said "Yes".

Chang's mother sighed on the other end of the phone, and scolded rather resentfully: "You, you... What can I say about you."

"Mom..." Chang Qin wanted to defend himself, but was interrupted by his own mother.

"Actually, during Chinese New Year, when Xiao Lu came to our house, your father and I could see that you were lukewarm towards others, but we didn't think much about it at that time. You think we are impatient, and we just forced you We also thought about getting married and gave in. In the end, we didn't force you to invite Xiao Lu's parents to meet, because your father and I felt that you were already an adult. Since you chose this girlfriend , you should have a sense of proportion, but I didn't expect that in less than half a year,... Qin'er, you are already 30 years old. The ancients said that you stand at 30. Although you have made some achievements in your career, I Both your dad and I are proud of you, but how come you are still so immature when it comes to feelings? Think about how many girlfriends you have dated in the past [-] years, and so many girls of all kinds. Doesn't anyone make you want to settle down and live an honest life with her?"

Chang Qin listened to his mother's painstaking education on the phone, and unconsciously played with the TV remote control in his hand. When he heard "After a lifetime", Xi Ling's meticulous and indifferent face flashed uncontrollably in front of him. He took a deep breath and said after learning from the pain: "Mom, you... have you ever heard of homosexuality?"

The author has something to say:

The next few chapters are a bit difficult to write. In addition, there are many miscellaneous things recently. I want to ensure the quality as much as possible. I may not be able to maintain the speed of updating every day. It will be updated every two to three days. Forgive me~~

In addition, I received a few private messages. I set the update time to be 7:00 in the morning, so some friends can only get up early to read the article. Considering the schedule of my friends, I still plan to change it to 12:00. Of course, I still have to read it. Everyone's opinions (^o^)/~