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London, the world-famous city of smog, has humid air, rain and fog, and it rains for most of the year. No wonder there is a lyric that says: London is always attached to raindrops.

Xi Ling was dragged into the car by Vincent, and found that at some point there had been a thin drizzle of rain outside. Through the misty windowpane, he stared blankly at the rain-soaked street, wrinkled slightly. Frowning: Why did you come here suddenly, did you bring an umbrella?His forgetfulness, he definitely didn't know that he had to bring an umbrella when he came to London.

He was still holding the phone in his hand. The text message just now disturbed him. Just when he didn't know what to do, the phone suddenly vibrated crazily. He glanced at the display screen, and there was an unfamiliar local number on it.

He felt his throat was extremely dry, as if thousands of sharp needles were piercing his throat, he took a long breath, looked at Vincent who was concentrating on driving, hesitated for a long time, and finally said slowly: "Vincent, can I ask you something Son?"

Vincent's face with profound features faced him directly, and he asked doubtfully, "What's the matter?"

A few hours ago, a passenger plane was flying in the vast sky. Chang Qin closed his eyes tightly and leaned back on the soft seat.Earphones are plugged in, and a soft melody song is looping repeatedly in the music player of the mobile phone.

"Your face in the dream, the distance has not changed, the gray is the past, the pain is gone. The night that belongs to us is now turned to ashes with the wind. I can't hear your voice, I can't hear it anymore."

On this trip, he was in a desperate mood, and under the condition that he was too busy to touch the ground, he insisted on asking Jiang Lida for a two-day vacation, followed by applying for a visa, and tossed back and forth for more than half a month. It was not easy to set foot on this non-stop passenger plane to London.

Before leaving, he made countless phone calls to Xi Fu, but the other party couldn't resist him, and finally told Chang Qin his contact information, including Xi Ling's address in London.

Chang Qin didn't understand why it took all his strength to see him again in the blink of an eye when he was a lover who was within reach a few months ago.He thought over and over again, but couldn't figure out what went wrong. Since he stumbled with Xiao Lu last time, he had secretly sworn that he would never be exhausted for the feelings that he couldn't get. If he hadn't found those photos by accident and saw Xi Ling's almost obsessed expression in the photos, he probably would never have made such a determination in his life to cross the sea for an illusory relationship.

At most, Chang Qin has only seen the city of London in the smash hit film "Sherlock", in which the most iconic London Eye turns slowly on the banks of the River Thames, and Big Ben on the other side of the river persists year after year Driving on his mission, the big red double-decker bus passes through the middle of the road, and Victorian-style buildings can be seen everywhere on both sides of the street: Renaissance domes and Roman columns, Gothic spires and carvings, Baroque shell-shaped Arches, as well as the unique red brick exterior walls of the United Kingdom, there are historical relics in every corner here, and the streets and alleys here show traces of weather.

After getting acquainted with Xi Ling, every time Chang Qin sees the city of London on TV, he can't help taking a few more glances. Now, he is standing in the middle of this bustling city, imagining what Xi Ling once had here. Life, those were the most lush years of the other party's life, and it was possible that he had experienced the most unforgettable love here.

Thinking of this, Chang Qin took a deep breath. The fresh air in London passed through his trachea and reached his lungs, but it was like a shot of sulfuric acid, making his internal organs ache.

If he went back to ten years ago, he would still feel that he was very chic, trekking long distances for love, pulling his face down and begging the other party to come back to him. Unfortunately, no one was worth making him so humble ten years ago. Ten years later, he stood on the street In front of the transparent window of the side shop, looking at his blurred figure in the mirror-like glass, he suddenly felt extremely ridiculous. A man who was on the verge of three, was waiting blindly on the streets of this foreign country for a love that was short-lived. There are many thorns and a thousand catties on his shoulders, but he can only wait here stupidly, waiting for that person to come and claim him.After coming out of the airport, the sudden light rain drenched him into a mess. The sycamore trees on the street were blown by the wind to make a rustling sound, and the sycamore leaves swirled in the air one by one. Ye, seems to be laughing at his love that is full of desolation.

Chang Qin couldn't wait for Xi Ling's reply, so he had to dial the phone directly. After a few prompts, he finally heard the long-lost voice, with a bit of panic and bewilderment, but it made his heart cold for a second. Return to warmth.

After hanging up the phone, Chang Qin suddenly felt that he had to admit that he had fallen to this point, because he would never feel so sad for another person again in his life.

Xi Ling appeared much earlier than expected. Chang Qin stood in place, watched the other party park the car, and then walked towards him step by step. He smiled at the other party tiredly. His voice sounded hoarse after the long journey. Unbearable: "Are you here?"

I haven't seen him for a few months, and Xi Ling's condition doesn't seem to be much better. His hair has grown a lot, and his bushy eyebrows are completely covered by long bangs. His eyes are no longer clear and bright, but a little mixed. Complicated worries, the bags under the eyes seem to be much thicker, there are two groups of light blue shadows hanging under the eye sockets, the cheeks are obviously sunken, the face with clear features is bloodless, the complexion is a little paler than before, and the thin lips are pale. Lifeless, with the corners of his mouth raised deliberately, he looked up and down at Chang Qin, who was wet all over, and saw that the other's hair was completely wet, sticking strands to his smooth forehead, and he was wearing only a thin The cotton fabric of the T-shirt was also full of rain, making him shiver in the cold wind.Xi Ling frowned slightly, and the two lips touched lightly, and the syllable was also low: "Didn't you bring an umbrella?"

Chang Qin looked down at himself in embarrassment, and shrugged awkwardly: "I was in a hurry to go out, so I forgot."

Xi Ling sighed helplessly: "I knew it." With a somewhat worried expression on his face, he taught Chang Qin earnestly, "It often rains in London, so remember to bring an umbrella when you go out in the future. I'll take you inside to take a shower first." Bar."

When Chang Qin heard the word "enter the house", his brows twitched uncomfortably. He glanced at the expensive-looking sports car parked by the side of the road, pretending to be nonchalant and said, "I didn't expect to come to London for so many days. You even bought a car."

Xi Ling replied flatly, "It's a friend's car."

Chang Qin snorted, stopped talking, let Xi Ling lead him around alleys, and finally walked into a simple European-style building, stopped outside the door of an apartment on the third floor, and took out the key Opening the door, he took out a pair of slippers from the shoe cabinet in the entrance for Chang Qin to change into.Xi Ling completed this series of movements like clouds and flowing water. Chang Qin saw it in his eyes, and his stomach felt sour. He thought that Xi Ling might just come here to relax because he was in a bad mood, but he didn't expect him to have a car. Now There is also a house to live in, which is full of the state of "moving here".

"Come in." Xi Ling walked into the room, turned around to greet him, Chang Qin dragged the suitcase, looked around all the way to the living room.This house is not too big, and its area looks similar to that of Xi Ling’s single apartment in China. The furniture in the house is all simple and elegant white, matched with the light gray wallpaper all over the wall, a strong neutral wind directly hits the eyes, often Qin secretly heaved a sigh of relief, at least, he hasn't found any trace of a woman in this simple hut.Xi Ling went into the bathroom and prepared hot water for him, Chang Qin took out his clean coat and trousers, went in and took a hot shower.

After taking a bath, Chang Qin wiped his wet hair with a towel, walked to the mirror, and carefully looked at his own face in the mirror: dark circles under the eyes from lack of sleep, fine beard sprouting on his chin, and lack of energy due to depression. Bloody complexion...Chang Qin sighed, thinking that he should have come to see Xi Ling in the best state, but unexpectedly, let the other party grab the worst side of him, he looked down for the razor, only then realized , there are two tooth cups on the shelf next to the mirror, a toothbrush is inserted in each cup, two razors are neatly placed next to the tooth cups, and two towels with similar patterns are hung on the hook on the other side ...

Chang Qin: "..."

He opened the bathroom door, poked his head out and asked Xi Ling which razor was his. Xi Ling walked over calmly, picked up his own and handed it to him. During the whole process, Chang Qin stared at him closely. On the face of the other party, seeing Xi Ling concealing his emotions seamlessly, Chang Qin curled his lips in displeasure, and squeezed out a sentence from between his teeth: "Thank you."

Chang Qin tidied himself up and went back to the living room to find that Xi Ling was reading a book in his hands on the sofa. Hearing the sound of footsteps, he raised his head and saw that Xi Ling was wearing a clean pure white T-shirt with a tight silhouette. Looming in the cotton T-shirt, his figure is well-proportioned, and his long-term fitness keeps his muscles in a good state of tension at any time. His strong waist is hidden in the hem of the loose top, and his slender legs are wrapped in black casual pants In the movie, viewed from Xi Ling's point of view, there is a bit of mysterious sex appeal.

Xi Ling's Adam's apple rolled up and down obviously, the movement of flipping the book in his hand stopped in mid-air, his gaze swept across Chang Qin's generous chest, and moved erratically to his toes, Chang Qin completely absorbed the other's bewildered expression Under the eyes, the corners of the mouth raised triumphantly, walked over in two or three steps, hugged the person nestled in the sofa tightly into his arms, pressed his soft lips against his ear and blew: "I miss you very much."

Sensitive earlobes instantly burned red, Xi Ling closed his eyes, exhausted his willpower to push away the person opposite, he adjusted his sitting posture, shifted his eyes to the front, and asked anxiously: "Why are you suddenly Running?"

Chang Qin didn't expect Xi Ling to be so indifferent, he frowned almost invisibly, turned his head slightly to stare at the other's clear side face, and repeated innocently: "I said, I miss you very much." .”

Xi Ling turned his gaze back again, looked at him like he was looking at a child, and almost begged: "Chang Qin, don't be self-willed anymore."

Chang Qin's heart trembled, he didn't understand why he suddenly became "willful" in the eyes of the other party, he calmed down and explained word by word: "I'm not willful, I really miss you, the days without you, I can't stand it for a minute."

Xi Ling smiled bitterly, and said calmly, "This kind of flirting is really easy for you." He looked at the other's dark pupils, his eyes were extremely serious and focused, but his tone gradually became weaker, " In the past 20 years, how many people have you said to?"

Chang Qin was at a loss when he was questioned by the other party. He felt that Xi Ling was making trouble for no reason. They had been together for a year, and even lived together for more than half a year. At this time, in this foreign country, I blamed myself.

I saw Xi Ling frowned, and said helplessly: "Chang Qin, I admit that I have been attracted to you, but I also said that this relationship makes me feel very tired. I don't want to worry about it. I should have done it long ago." Let it go, it was my fault in the past, I should stop, I apologize to you, now, please let go, okay?"

Every word of Xi Ling was like a knife, cutting through Chang Qin's already fragile heart little by little. He remembered that on the day he celebrated Xi Ling's birthday, the other party's eyes could almost penetrate his heart. It was also in this kind of helpless tone to say that sentence: I feel very tired and don't want to bear it anymore.He was slightly taken aback, but he didn't expect that when Xi Ling said letting go, he was referring to himself.

Chang Qin licked his dry lips, grabbed the other's cold hand, lowered his head, and reflected on himself in a repentant manner: "Xi Ling, I don't know what I did to make you distrust me so much. I really live as I please, and I have never been able to be consistent in my relationship. I can't make a promise to you. I only hope to prove to you with my actual actions that as long as you are with me, I will I will definitely never fall in love with another person again.”

Xi Ling didn't pull out his hand, and let the other party hold it tightly. The warm body temperature came from the palm of his hand, but Xi Ling couldn't feel the slightest warmth. He took a deep breath and said slowly: "But I already have a boyfriend. Yes, you know."

Chang Qin suddenly raised his head, his expression was extremely inconceivable, he was stunned for a long time, opened his mouth, but saw the corner of the other party's mouth curled up bitterly: "Yes, that's how I commit|bitch, I keep saying that you are half-hearted, but you are half-hearted. Flirting with you behind the back of the 'family'. Why are you guarding someone like me? You have a bright future and considerate parents. If you are not so self-willed, Xiao Lu is also very suitable She told me that she loves you, and such a broad road is in front of you, why do you have to learn from that moth and jump into the fire without knowing what you can do?"

Chang Qin's hand increased a bit, as if to prove his innocence, he hurriedly explained: "Nothing happened between me and Xiao Lu, you trust me."

Xi Ling shook his head, finally pulled his hands out of his palms, shifted his gaze to the coffee table, and said calmly: "It doesn't matter if it happens or not, I care, that's not what it is."

"Then you..." Chang Qin moved forward a few inches and said in a panic, "What do you really care about?"

Xi Ling looked at him, his face that had been as pale as water suddenly turned into a ball: "Why don't you understand? As I said, I have a boyfriend and a life of my own. I made a mistake before, and now I realize that My absurdity, I want to escape that kind of life, don't you understand?"

Chang Qin was helpless and silent for a long time. After learning from the pain, he opened his arms again and locked Xi Ling tightly in his arms. His broad chest was pressed against the other's bone-like back, and he said in a panic, "Don't leave Me, I don't want half of the life you just planned for me. I will convince my parents that I will give you my heart and soul. You believe in me, I will be able to do what I say..."

Xi Ling lowered his head in pain, he was really exhausted by this person's stalking, he hated himself for being weak and incompetent, from the time he met him again, he didn't know how to reject this person's sweet words, if his will was not firm, he would fall Getting into the gentle vortex of the other party is beyond redemption, he told himself over and over again in his heart that it was absolutely impossible this time, but he was powerless to push away this tender embrace.

At this moment, the door was opened, and the two people who were hugging each other on the sofa raised their heads one after another. The very tall Vincent stood at the entrance, with a naughty smile on the corner of his mouth, seeing the intimate posture of the two, He was not flustered, but the expression on his face was not too polite. He sneered, looked straight at Chang Qin, and said provocatively: "This is the designer of Chang Da, I didn't expect you to say hello." The way is so blatant, but this is in my house, I am still Xi Ling's boyfriend, in front of me, shouldn't you restrain yourself a little?"

The author has something to say:

I have no face to deal with this bloody chapter...

ps: The song Chang Qin listened to on the plane is called "Ke Feng", and it is recommended to read it together.