crossing the dangerous bridge

Lin Jianxi's consciousness was blurred, as if she had fallen into the sea, and could only float up and down with the waves.

He didn't want to step into that sea.

But the waves still submerged him, and he was pulled into the water, and the air, heartbeat, and breath seemed to go away together.

He was out of breath, almost suffocating, pleasure and pain intertwined into thorns, densely entangled him, as if trying to swallow him whole.

He couldn't bear it, and didn't want to beg for mercy. He unconsciously scratched a few times with his limp fingers, trying to grab something so that he wouldn't sink completely. In a haze, he grabbed a hand with the same temperature as his own. , It took a few seconds to realize that it was Jiang Yu's.

He let go of his hand slowly, and just about to take it back, Jiang Yu held it down.

Jiang Yu easily separated his fingers, clasped them, then leaned over and kissed the back of his hand.

Lin Jianxi lowered his eyes tremblingly, and the water droplets on his eyelashes rolled down. He didn't notice it, but just looked at the hands of the two people who were holding each other.

The room was very dark, and he couldn't actually see anything, but he didn't need to see clearly, he could imagine it just by feeling.

It shouldn't be holding another person at this time, in this intimate gesture.

He tried to struggle, and the next moment, Jiang Yu suddenly put his fingers into his mouth, he was in a daze, not knowing why, after a while, he tightly grasped the quilt, whimpering and biting the hand that Jiang Yu consciously handed over.

Jiang Yu hugged him, and called hoarsely in his ear: "Brother."

Lin Jianxi seemed to have never heard of it. Without the shackles, he was finally able to curl up. It took a long time for his eyes to lose focus before he slowly saw the outlines of all objects in the room.

He closed his eyes and asked, "Are you done?"

Jiang Yu didn't answer.

Lin Jianxi regained some strength, sat up, grabbed Jiang Yu's collar, pulled him in front of her, and punched him hard.

He had never fought before, and this was the first time in his life that he had hit someone like this.

Just like before today, he would never have thought that the most painful injury he has ever suffered physically would come from the person he loves the most.

Jiang Yu didn't resist and let him fight, but Lin Jianxi lost his strength again after a short fight. He was like a burning furnace. It was so difficult to breathe and take most of his energy. Put the nameless fire on fire, almost burn him dry.

"Jiang Yu," he sat on Jiang Yu, trying his best to suppress the trembling in his voice, but he couldn't control the trembling in his body: "You said you like me... that's why you like me? Do you know you doing what?"

His hands were shaking all the time. Even if he wanted to strangle Jiang Yu to death, he didn't have that much strength. He even revealed a feeling of collapse because of this uncontrollable situation.

Jiang Yu held his hand, opened his mouth silently, swallowed the answer he was about to blurt out, and suddenly didn't dare to answer.

Lin Jianxi shook off his hand again, "Don't touch me."

He stood up, and his flimsy body fell down without taking two steps, but he still didn't fall, and he was still caught by that person.

At this moment, he thought, if only he never knew Jiang Yu.

I don't know who he is, I haven't taken care of him, I haven't hurt him, and I haven't taken care of myself, I haven't given everything to myself, I'm a complete stranger, that's fine.

He can simply hate, he can simply kick him into prison, so that he will not see the sun for the rest of his life, no matter what, it will be better than now, love can't last, hate can't be hysterical, two people can only be bound by each other , sank into the sea together.

He used to think that Jiang Yu was the boat that depended on him for life, and that only with Jiang Yu present would he not fall into the sea, but now, the boat is broken.

Suddenly, all his strength was taken away from him, and he didn't want to move, but curled himself up into a ball as hard as he could, like a wounded cat.

Jiang Yu carefully picked him up and carried him into the bathroom.

The moment the light fell on Lin Jianxi, Jiang Yu shook him, almost unable to hold him steady.

Lin Jianxi is a pampered young master, his body is extremely delicate, and he will get bruises everywhere he touches if he doesn't pay attention, let alone being forced, the bruises on his two wrists are terribly deep, and his whole body is covered with bruises. There are shallow and deep marks - half bitten, half kissed.

Jiang Yu wasn't rude when he did it, he could even be said to be gentle, but no matter how gentle he was, if he wasn't accepted, it would still be a knife that could hurt people.

Ever since he discovered that there was a terrifying beast living in his heart, he has been trying his best to suppress the pathological desire. He dare not touch his brother more, dare not think about him, trembling every step he takes, for fear of claws , will scratch his treasure.

But a wild beast without chains will still get out of control no matter how hard it is.

He still hurt his elder brother. He turned his treasure into a scarred river with his own hands, and he could fish out a handful of broken stars if he fished it up.

Lin Jianxi asked him if he was crazy, and he was.

The water from the shower is very warm, and the water vapor curls up like smoke, rising and rising, gradually covering the entire bathroom.

Lin Jianxi was immersed in the warm water, his thoughts and mood were blank.

He should continue to be angry, continue to hate, or simply press Jiang Yu into the water and choke him to death. Anyway, Jiang Yu will not resist, but will die obediently in his hands, but anger and hatred require a lot of effort to maintain Yes, he has nothing now.

A complex and deep sense of exhaustion overwhelmed him, he slowly slid into the water, and when he was about to be submerged, he was fished out again.

"Brother," Jiang Yu's voice was hazy, and he couldn't hear it clearly anyway: "Don't do this, please, you can kill me, don't do this."

Lin Jianxi leaned against the edge of the bathtub and asked softly, "What did you call me?"

Jiang Yu replied in a low voice: "...brother."

"What should you call me?"

"……elder brother."

"calls me."

"elder brother."

"Jiang Yu," Lin Jianxi stretched out his hand and raised his face: "So you still know that I am your brother."

"..." Jiang Yu's eyes fell on his wrist, and then moved away at a loss, "I'm sorry, brother."

The three words "I'm sorry" don't serve any purpose, can't repair the hurt, can't calm the anger, but it has to be said.

Jiang Yu carefully tried to clean his body. Lin Jianxi neither struggled nor cooperated, like a robot with low battery, letting others handle his every move.

After taking a shower, Jiang Yu carried him to another room, and just as he was putting him on the bed, he felt the quilt and got in automatically.

The lights in the room were still turned off, but the curtains were not drawn either, and the lights from Yuncheng vaguely came in, flickering on and off, making Jiang Yu's face flicker on and off.

No one spoke, and the air was so quiet that the sound of dust falling could be heard. Jiang Yu sat beside the bed, his mind was empty, like a pool of stagnant water.

When Lin Jianxi asked him the question, he actually knew the answer. He naturally knew what he was doing. He could use "impulse" to justify himself. It can be said that I was dazzled by jealousy, but no matter how I quibble, I can't help myself. Can't beat his knowing, he is sober, the so-called impulse is just a plan that has been thought about thousands of times in his mind for a long time.

So he didn't dare to answer, he was afraid of frightening Lin Jianxi, who was about to collapse, to a complete collapse.

He didn't think about anything else when he was doing it, and his mind was full of madness at the end of the road. After finishing it, he finally remembered that they were not lovers in a desperate situation in the movie. There is a long future ahead.

... so long into the future, what should we do?

Will Lin Jianxi recover?Will you forgive him?Would he want him again... Impossible, he knew it after thinking about it, it was impossible, his brother would never forgive him, and he would never want him again. A desperate stray dog.

He didn't know what to do.

Why is there no time machine in the world? Jiang Yu thought desperately. He was willing to pay all the price to kill Lin Jianxi himself the second before he entered the house.

Lin Jianxi hid under the quilt, but did not fall asleep.

He couldn't understand why Jiang Yu suddenly became what he is now, and what went wrong. The Lin family all obeyed the law and behaved well. Should he mutate into the rampant psychopath he is now?

Is it because of him?Was he the one who turned Jiang Yu into what he is now?

... No, it has nothing to do with him, but Jiang Yu himself is sick.

It was only 1 minute away. Jiang Yu had been waiting for so long, why couldn't he wait another minute.

The anger in his heart ignited again, making his whole body uncomfortable, like a balloon that was about to burst. Finally, he couldn't help it anymore, threw the quilt, threw Jiang Yu to the ground, and stuck him around his neck.

Jiang Yu lay obediently, like a piece of plasticine that could be rounded and flattened by him, not a little tough as before.

Now he's playing nice again.

Lin Jianxi was dizzy with anger, and unconsciously increased his strength in his hands: "If I strangle you now, will you fight back?"

Jiang Yu was so strangled that he couldn't breathe or speak, so he shook his head slightly.

"Then I'll strangle you, okay?" Lin Jianxi lowered her voice, as if it was vibrating from her chest, and every word and sentence carried an indescribable heaviness: "In case you go crazy everywhere and run outside to mess around bite."

Jiang Yu nodded, and struggled to spit out a vague word: "...OK."

Lin Jianxi's hands restraining him became heavier and heavier, just when he thought that he could really die in his hands, when those hands were loosened, he failed to realize his dream after all.

It's a pity, he thought in a daze, brother is really stingy, he didn't agree to him before, and now he doesn't even grant him this wish.

"...When did you start?" Lin Jianxi put his hands on his shoulders and asked awkwardly: "When did you start...to like me?"

"...from the time you smiled at me." Jiang Yu closed his eyes: "It's been too long, brother."

Lin Jianxi felt something, raised his hand tremblingly, touched his face, and touched his tears without any surprise.