crossing the dangerous bridge

Before receiving the call, no matter how wronged Jiang Yu was, he would not cry. He had already learned how to regulate himself in his long secret love, but when he heard Lin Jianxi's voice, he suddenly lost control.

It was a sense of out-of-control that was caught off guard and so powerful that he couldn't control it at all, as if a train running late at night unconsciously deviated from the track.

When he was in a strange city, surrounded by all kinds of strangers coming and going in a hurry, he never realized more clearly than now that he only had Lin Jianxi.

Others at this age have parents and friends, and can complain about relatives who seem to never be able to keep up with the times in the groups of friends and friends during the holidays, but he does not have a home where he can hide when he is wronged, and he has no friends.

He didn't think it was a lonely thing to have no friends before. He had an older brother, but what would he do if his older brother was snatched away one day?

What should he do?

"Well... are you near my school now?" Lin Jianxi felt a little bit dumbfounded: "But I'm back."

Jiang Yu was stunned, his heartbeat seemed to pause for a second, and then beat at a more urgent speed, all the bright neon lights were blurred in front of his eyes, he couldn't see or hear clearly, and all his attention was concentrated on one In the small mobile phone: "Why did you go back?"

Because of me?

He held his breath subconsciously, waiting almost greedily for the answer, wanting to hear it, but afraid to hear it.

"Because of you." Knowing where Jiang Yu was, Lin Jianxi was not in a hurry to go home, and leisurely bought a can of drink, holding the mobile phone in one hand and the can in the other, hooking the tab with his slender fingers, lightly Lightly pull: "I have a hunch that you are thinking about me, so I rushed back here on purpose. Am I right?"

He spoke with a smile in his voice, which is a typical tone of coaxing children.

All greed is settled, well, Jiang Yu, you already have this sentence, you have got enough, don't fantasize about anything else.

Jiang Yu rolled his Adam's apple a few times, and finally squeezed out a word: "...Yes."

"Then what should we do now," Lin Jianxi asked: "Little friend, are you going to wait there for me to go back, or should I wait for you at home?"

"Wait for me to go back," Jiang Yu replied softly, "Can you?"

I've waited for you so many times, you wait for me once, okay?

He heard a gentle sigh from the opposite side: "Okay."

The early summer sun was not too dazzling, but when he got out of the taxi, Jiang Yu was still in a daze.

He looked out of the Lin family's courtyard for a long time as if he was timid, and then quietly went upstairs, pushed open the door of Lin Jianxi's room, and found that he was not in his room.

He walked back to his room again, and the moment he pressed his hand on the doorknob, he remembered something, opened his eyes suddenly, and hurriedly pushed the door open.

Lin Jianxi was sitting in the chair, when he heard the door opening, he turned his face and smiled at him: "You're back?"

His expression was normal, and his tone was also normal. He couldn't see or hear anything unusual.

Jiang Yu walked over with trepidation, "Brother."

He looks like he didn't do his homework now, but the teacher has randomly checked the unlucky student before him. He was so nervous that even the strands of his hair were trembling with guilt, his eyelids were half-drooped, and he didn't dare to look directly into Lin Jianxi's eyes.

"Hey," Lin Jianxi responded, "What's your expression... eh...?"

Jiang Yu leaned over and hugged him tightly.

From the moment he discovered his thoughts to now, this was the first time he hugged Lin Jianxi so hard. He buried his head in Lin Jianxi's shoulder, and tried his best to wrap his arms around this person, as if he was afraid of being separated from him. In a small voice, he called out aggrievedly: "Brother."

Lin Jianxi patted his head, lowered his voice, and coaxed him softly and slowly: "What's the matter? Afraid I'll scold you for running around? Don't be afraid, I won't talk about you."

He was a little out of breath, but considering someone's current mood, he still didn't say anything, and generously lent himself out to be hugged by the injured kid.

Not long after, Jiang Yu let go of some of his strength. He turned his head, his eyes fell on the notebook lying on the table as he wanted, and the light in his eyes sank inch by inch: "Brother, I want... to go abroad."

Yes, he resigned to his fate, he can't control the boiling desire, but his love is a scourge, and getting close to Lin Jianxi will only hurt him.

He doesn't want to hurt him.

He can't stay by his side anymore.

He wants to find a cage and lock himself up.

"Why do you suddenly want to go abroad?" Jiang Yu had never mentioned related topics before, and Lin Jianxi asked blankly, "Do you want to go out to play, or?"

"I want to go to school," Jiang Yu said slowly, "I also want to... go out for a walk."

"You may be wronged if you are outside alone."

"I'm not afraid."

"What if I get homesick?"

"I..." Jiang Yu paused: "I will look for you often."

Lin Jianxi lowered his eyes and looked at the kid who was still clinging to him. Although he was used to seeing him as his younger brother, he wasn't really a kid after all.

Jiang Yu is taller than him now, with a tall and straight figure, and the exposed forearm shows smooth muscle lines, and has great strength. Occasionally, when the two of them are playing around, Jiang Yu grabs him seriously, and he can't break free. open.

After a while, he said, "If you really want to go out, then go."

People will grow up, he will, and so will Jiang Yu, but he still inevitably feels lost when he thinks that the child who always followed behind him and called his brother in a milky voice will leave home in a blink of an eye.

"It's so fast," Lin Jianxi compared with his hands: "In a blink of an eye, you are so much taller than me."

Jiang Yu leaned on his lap, raised his eyes, and looked very cute: "Yeah, so fast."

That night, the two chatted together for half the night, until Lin Jianxi couldn't hold on any longer, closed his eyes and fell asleep.

The next day, Jiang Yu sent him to the airport.

Jiang Yu couldn't tell how he got back, his mind was empty, he might have thought a lot, or he might not have thought about it.

The books and test papers on the desk are still lying in the same position. Lin Jianxi never touches his things casually, especially notebooks. As an "experienced person", he knows very well that these are all hidden secrets space, so he doesn't touch it easily, for fear of bumping into the little secret hidden by the children.

Judging from his performance, he definitely did not open this notebook yesterday.

But as long as he opened even one page, he would know the reason for Jiang Yu's anomaly and what Jiang Yu was hiding, and he would unlock all the secrets about Jiang Yu.

There is nothing in this notebook, only pages with his name written on it and his portrait drawn.

The notebook that records his secrets is the closest distance to his secrets, but it's just a matter of raising your hand.

But one step away.

One step is like a moat.

The next time passed faster.

Jiang Yu didn't go to school anymore. She prepared for IELTS, finished the test, got her grades, and went abroad. Everything seemed to happen in an instant.

Instead of going to Britain and America, he went to Australia.

Lin Jianxi thought about going to see him, but he only sent a picture, which nailed Lin Jianxi's thoughts of seeing him in place.

That picture is of the city after the rain, with fuzzy earthworms wriggling freely on the ground.

Lin Jianxi's scalp went numb, and he urgently changed "I'll see you" to "I'll wait for you to come back".

But he was still not at ease, checked the weather, chose a time with good weather for a few days before and after, flew there, and stayed for two days.

"Why on earth did you choose this ghostly place?" Before leaving, Lin Jianxi complained, "If I change the place, I can come and visit you often."

Jiang Yu didn't speak, just grabbed his sleeve and shook it like he did when he was a child.

"I'm leaving," Lin Jianxi hugged him: "Take care of yourself, I won't come here in the future."

"...Okay." Jiang Yu hoarse.

He admitted that he chose this ghostly place on purpose. He knew that Lin Jianxi was terrified of insects to the marrow, and there was a reason why he would not come to see him again.

This is very good, as long as he doesn't come, he won't have unnecessary greed.

He locked himself up like a cocooned beast, but he was still worried that the lock would not be tight enough, and whether there would be light coming in, revealing the secrets he was guarding against, so he added layer after layer of shackles, and finally Blocked the light.

The light will never come again, he hid in the airtight small dark room with peace of mind, thinking about that person wantonly.

As time went by, his life gradually got on the right track, but he was still lonely abroad after all. After he stabilized, he found several part-time jobs and tried to fill his time to the full.

When he misses that person too much, he will go to the sea.

In the evening, the setting sun burned with all its strength on the horizon, igniting all the clouds, and the clouds were burned with colorful enamel, covering the low-hanging sky.

The light penetrates through the layers of waves, breaks a bone as light as a feather, and melts into the sea, dyeing the tide with ephemeral colors.

Aunt Zhao said that her brother’s name was because she went to the beach to relax when she was pregnant, and met the tides and the afterglow of the setting sun, with ups and downs, continuous and beautiful.

She was in a happy mood, and immediately named the child Lin Jianxi.

Seeing the sea is like seeing him.

When returning, Jiang Yu saw a boy in the square holding a guitar and preparing to sing on the street. He seemed nervous and his legs were still shaking, but when his companion turned on the stereo and the music streamed out, he seemed to be comforted In general, slowly opened the voice.

Such scenes can be seen everywhere, and there is nothing worth stopping for. Jiang Yu glanced at it, looked away coldly, and continued to walk back.

But he didn't take a few steps, and stopped again.

The boy is still singing: "Someone asked me what is so good about you, I can't forget it after all these years."

"No matter how beautiful the spring breeze is, it can't compare to your smile.

People who haven't met you won't understand. "

He was getting better at singing, and when he finished singing, he opened his eyes, only to realize that there was someone standing in front of him at some point.

It was a man, tall, with a well-defined face, looking somewhere between a "boy" and a "man", only his eyes were melancholy beyond his age.

"You sing very well." Jiang Yu said.

"Thanks," the boy smiled and said clearly, "Brother, you look very unhappy, are you broken in love?"

Jiang Yu shook his head: "No."

"Huh?" The boy is a student of the acting department. He came to the street to perform and sing in order to complete the homework assigned by the teacher. He felt that he was very accurate in reading people, especially when he was in a state of despair. The person who read the words, unexpectedly, he looked away: "Then why are you unhappy?"

Jiang Yu leaned over slightly, put all the cash on his body into his piano box, and then replied softly: "I have never been with him before."

The author has something to say: the lyrics are from "Ghosts Are Obsessed with Hearts"