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Xiao's mother smiled kindly: "Hey, although Xiao Ran's personality is not withdrawn, he is also not hospitable. This is the first time he has brought friends or colleagues to the house. It is also the first time for us to prepare these. We have no experience. , are home-cooked dishes, if you like eating, eat more."

Cheng Jialin Yiyan, relaxed: "Auntie's cooking is delicious."

After the meal, Xiao's mother took Cheng Jialin to ask him some work matters, and Cheng Jialin answered them one by one calmly. After hearing this, Xiao's mother praised Cheng Jialin again and again, and her impression of Cheng Jialin became better and better.

Then, taking advantage of the time when Xiao Ran got up to pour water, she stopped talking to Cheng Jialin for a while, but finally couldn't hold back, and asked him: "Your family..."

"Mom, that's right..." Xiao Ran, who had been going back and forth, interrupted her, "This card is for you."

"Why give me a bank/bank card?" Xiao's mother took it in doubt and asked.

Xiao Ran: "I didn't tell you before, I sold my house, and this is the money from selling the house."

"You..." Xiao's mother was surprised and angry, "you" for a long time, but there was no reason for "you".

On the other hand, Father Xiao, who was pretending to watch the Lantern Festival Gala, answered leisurely: "If you sell it, let's sell it. When I bought it, I told you that the house was too small. Your mother insisted on not listening. You are making money now. Turn around." Let’s buy a bigger house.”

"What do you know?!" Xiao's mother glared at Xiao's father, then asked Xiao Ran: "Then where do you live now?"

Cheng Jialin interjected at this moment: "Auntie, Xiao Ran lives with me now."

Mother Xiao: "..."

Father Xiao: "..."

After a while, Xiao's mother said "Oh", and got up to get some fruit from the kitchen as if running away, and Xiao's father followed closely behind, leaving a mysterious and embarrassed smile.

Cheng Jialin: "..."

He turned his head and looked helplessly at Xiao Ran, who was beside him as if nothing had happened. The latter smiled with his lips pursed, got up and dragged him to the balcony, and left the living room that was also shrouded in a mysterious and awkward atmosphere.

old times

As soon as he reached the balcony, the temperature below room temperature made Cheng Jialin, who was sweating all over the room, feel refreshed. He took a breath of relaxed air, stood side by side with Xiao Ran by the window, and looked up.

The moon of this year's Lantern Festival is round and big, and even the stars are extraordinarily bright. The whole dark blue night sky is full of stars, which is really charming.The two of them were speechless for a while, and watched the night scene quietly for a while. After a while, Xiao Ran raised his arms and stretched his waist, and said slowly, "I liked someone when I was a freshman in high school..."

Cheng Jialin paused, and Xiao Ran continued: "At that time, he was very kind to me, so good, so good that I had different feelings for him, and it was then that I realized that my preferences were different from those of him. Others. At the beginning, I was very scared, very hesitant, and I didn’t dare to tell anyone... Later, after I checked some information, I learned that my situation was not a mental illness, so I slowly put it down Xin... and then, confessed to that person."

Cheng Jialin: "..."

Xiao Ran: "Probably at the age of first love, everyone will have a kind of fearless impulsiveness and rebellion. At that time, I thought it was ridiculous that I was cool like that. Only later did I realize that that kind of unorthodox coolness is not true. If you are accepted by others, others will only think you are disgusting."

"I thought that that person was so kind to me, and he must be the same as me, but who knows, after I confessed, he started to hate me, and he still preached that I was gay everywhere in school. For this reason, all the classmates started to laugh at me And attacking me... Later, in order to get rid of the predicament at that time, I also tried to date other girls, but in the end I found that I really couldn't do it."

"In the next two years of high school, I was very depressed and decadent. No matter how sad or wronged I was, I didn't dare to tell my family. Then I found a lot of psychology books and started self-regulation. Fortunately, it was very helpful. I didn't let myself be cynical enough to do that kind of outrageous scourge... Now that I think about it, the feeling that I was about to die at the time was actually not a big deal, and even now I can't remember what that person looked like."

"However, after all, I still have a long memory. After graduating from high school, I hid my shameful feelings and never thought about being in love again... until I met you on that night when the fireworks were in full bloom... "Xiao Ran tilted his head to Cheng Jialin and smiled softly, "Recalling that I didn't have a long memory to chase you back then, it was really reckless, but you just have that kind of magical power, which makes me think If I don’t try, I will regret it forever.”

"I'm glad you were reckless at that time." Cheng Jialin raised his hand and stroked his hair, whispering.

"I'm also very lucky," Xiao Ran pulled Cheng Jialin's hand and played with his slender fingers, "Many people have said that I am very lucky, and I think so too. I was very lucky to meet Cheng Jialin when I first entered the workplace. A very good master, and later changed jobs, and was lucky to meet great leaders and colleagues, and met many people who were willing to help me... and my mother..."

Speaking of this, Xiao Ran paused for a moment, and when he spoke again, his voice was choked with sobs: "When I was in college, my mother proposed to buy me a house, and my father was very forward-looking and said that my mother's proposal was very good. Well, I said that the house price will definitely rise in the future, so if you buy it early, it will appreciate sooner. In the end, my mother ignored my father's objection and wanted to buy me a one-bedroom house... I didn't know until then, she already knew about my body. There is a problem. She knows that I don’t want to live on campus, so she wants to buy a house for me, but she is afraid that the house she bought will be too big, and some classmates will want to live with me... I don’t know when she found out, maybe in When I graduated from high school, or earlier, most mothers in the world would have inexplicable intuition and observation for their children. At that time, after I moved to a new house alone, I cried All night, I could imagine that she must have suffered more than I did during that time. As a mother, she not only had to bear the pain and despair that her child turned out to be gay, but also had to bear the son’s avoidance and concealment from her. I don’t know how she survived that period of time, but I can also feel her cautiousness and tangled struggle hidden under her innocence. I hope I can open my heart to her. ... She has endured so much heartache and struggle, and she still has to look back and put herself in my shoes to feel sorry for me... I really feel very lucky to have such a great mother."

Cheng Jialin: "Well, Auntie is really great."

Xiao Ran: "Sometimes I always think that it was obviously the most beautiful youth, but let me encounter such a terrible thing, it must be because God can't stand it, so he arranged for you to appear in my world, Let me be so lucky... I am also very glad that we are just ordinary people, we don't need to come out to the world like others, we don't need to receive so many people's attention, and we don't envy those blessings, we are like stars every day, attracting attention At the same time, even trivial things can be turned up and turned into scandals, and they will be torn up and cleaned up later, without any private space and time, how tiring, we are just like this in our own circle of life It’s good to be silent…”

"So, really, Cheng Jialin, I'm really satisfied with my current life."

Cheng Jialin paused, feeling that all the sweat in the room just now had evaporated, and with his current body involuntarily getting cold, he shook Xiao Ran's hand: "Don't you want anything?"

Feeling the coolness coming from his fingertips, Xiao Ran let go of his hand, helped him gather his collar, and sighed almost imperceptibly: "The most luxurious and expected things are family and friends around you. It's really just that we can accept other people like us... But, no matter what the future holds... I'm already very content."

After finishing speaking, without waiting for Cheng Jialin's answer, he dragged him back into the house, and said to Xiao's father and mother, "Mom and Dad, we'll go back first, and you should go to bed earlier."

"...Hey," Xiao's mother paused for a moment, as if she was about to compromise, she said, "Okay."

The two sides said goodbye at the elevator entrance. After the elevator door closed, Xiao's father took Xiao's mother's shoulders, patted her lightly, and said in a low voice: "For this matter, you have been fighting with me for so long, and even now I am also I have already accepted it, why are you putting on such an appearance of more sorrow than joy now?"

Xiao's mother raised her hand and rubbed her sore eyes and said, "When other people marry their daughters, don't all mothers look like this?"

Father Xiao: "..."

After returning home, Cheng Jialin waited until Xiao Ran fell asleep, got out of bed and opened the curtains, watching Xiao Ran's peaceful and soft sleeping face under the moonlight, feeling flustered in his heart - he was thinking about the biggest problem It's because of the parents of both parties, but they don't want to worry about the attitude of Xiao Ran's parents at all, but what needs to be worried about is Xiao Ran's attitude.

Perhaps because of the influence of that incident in high school, Xiao Ran appeared to be lively and unrestrained on the surface, but in fact he was able to hide things in his heart, and was a little stubborn. Later, under the influence of Xiao's mother, he had already learned patience and understanding that were beyond compare. Willing to embarrass anyone around him... especially parents.

Xiao Ran said that no matter what the future holds, he is already content... No matter how you hear this, you feel that he has a great possibility of compromising their future...

At this time, Xiao Ran in his sleep didn't seem to feel the familiar body temperature, his brows were slightly frowned, and he moved to the position where he was originally lying.