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Shen Zhifei arrived a little earlier habitually, and when she turned her head and saw Zhang Yao standing at the door, she instinctively smiled, stood up, and waited for Zhang Yao to come and take a seat.

Zhang Yao had sorted out her emotions long before Shen Zhifei looked over, there was nothing unusual except that the tip of her nose was a little red, Shen Zhifei probably couldn't tell if she wasn't staring at her.

But as soon as Zhang Yao sat down, she felt helpless.

Afraid of what might come, Shen Zhifei just stared at her, the kind who couldn't take his eyes off her.

Zhang Yao felt uncomfortable being watched by her, she shrank her shoulders, cleared her throat and said, "Are you asking me to come over?"

"I can't find you if I have nothing to do." Shen Zhifei said like a mosquito, and moved his eyes to the mouth of the cup.

Her voice is very low. At this moment, the milk tea shop happens to be a small rush hour for day students leaving school. There are many noisy students sitting in the shop, so that Zhang Yao only saw Shen Zhifei's lips moving, but didn't hear her clearly. Specifically what was said.

So Zhang Yao leaned forward, holding the coffee snow cap with the straw inserted in front of her, and looked at Shen Zhifei, "Huh? What did you just say?"

Zhang Yao's "um" had a rising and lazy tone, and the word wrapped in air flow penetrated into her ears like an electric current. Shen Zhifei swallowed her saliva without a trace, closed her eyes and opened them again, and took a sip of milk tea with a smile , "I didn't say anything, I just said that I asked you out to talk about what happened that day."

What happened that day?

Shen Zhifei spoke suddenly, and Zhang Yao looked at her inexplicably shy - although Shen Zhifei didn't show it too obviously, anyway, she could see it.I didn't react for a while, I was stunned, and then I thought about it, and then I remembered.

Oh, the thing about her shutting out her second aunt.

"Tell me." Zhang Yao adjusted her sitting posture, clasped her hands on the table, and looked serious in a meeting.

Shen Zhifei took a deep breath, water seemed to flash in her eyes, her eyelashes fluttered twice very quickly, and she blinked away the faint tears again.

"They deserve it." Shen Zhifei said, a glint of unbearable light flashed in his eyes.

Seeing Shen Zhifei like this, Zhang Yao's mood became heavy unconsciously. She watched Shen Zhifei adjust her mood in such a short period of time, and she couldn't tell what it was like in her heart. Sour feeling.

"I didn't lend them money because...because," Shen Zhifei stumbled, "because they treated me in the same way back then."

Zhang Yao didn't speak, she knew that Shen Zhifei was confiding, at this moment, she only needed to be a qualified listener.

Shen Zhifei tapped on the table with her fingertips for a while, and made a not-so-obvious curling up movement, as if she was grasping something, and when she was empty, she went to hold the milk tea cup again.

Shen Zhifei continued: "My dad, my dad was sick that year, and the family didn't have enough money, so I asked my second uncle to borrow it, but my second uncle and aunt didn't borrow it, which delayed my illness."

When Shen Zhifei said these words, his expression didn't change, and he looked innocuous, as if he was talking about other people's affairs, or telling a fabricated story.

Zhang Yao looked at her, as if she could see Shen Zhifei's suppressed and bottomless despair through time.

But she couldn't give the girl another hug.

Because in those years, she missed Shen Zhifei.

Zhang Yao's chest felt tight, she looked at Shen Zhifei.

Shen Zhifei's eyes were lowered, and she clearly had no special emotion on her face, but Zhang Yao felt that there was a faint sadness lingering around her at this moment.

"As soon as they heard it was cancer, they didn't even ask if it was cured or not, so they directly rejected me." Shen Zhifei suppressed the bitterness on the back of his tongue, "They didn't even give him a chance to live."

That was also his own brother.Shen Zhifei thought.

She was young at that time, and she still couldn't understand why some people could be so cold-blooded and selfish. They seemed to understand blood and family ties that they could use at any time when they needed their relatives, but they couldn't be asked for by their relatives.

The most difficult thing for her to accept is that these people were precisely the elders she respected the most in the past, and they were the relatives she thought would never stand on the opposite side.

But once the fig leaf was uncovered, the ugliness hidden inside for many years caught Shen Zhifei by surprise.

He is obviously a brother of the same mother, why can he have two completely opposite personalities?

"My father is very emotional." Shen Zhifei smiled shortly, but Zhang Yao could hear a little pride, "He is very kind to his brothers and sisters, and he will help them as much as he can when there are difficulties. .”

She knew that she was not only refusing to help such relatives because she could not accept them.

She still feels unfair for her father.

Why can people like them live a good life, but the father who valued love and righteousness and regarded brothers as brothers passed away with regrets at the right age?

He loves life and family so much, he is obviously the one who should live a long life.

Shen Zhifei finally lifted up his unbearably red eyes, and a tear fell on the table, followed by a second, and a third.Drops of tears seemed to hit Zhang Yao's heart, hot and scorching, so hot that she didn't know how to comfort Shen Zhifei for a while.

Shen Zhifei picked up a tissue and dabbed his eyes, "So, that's why I don't want to borrow money. It's selfish and unreasonable. I don't want to borrow money, that's all."

She tore open the scar and showed it to Zhang Yao, frankly waiting for her trial, like a fearless child.

"No." Zhang Yao looked at her, frowning.

"It's not what?" Shen Zhifei looked at her with a smile, but there was a dead silence in his eyes.

"It's not like that," Zhang Yao repeated, "The reason is reasonable and human."

"Oh." Shen Zhifei didn't hold back, and laughed softly, his flying eyes bent into crescent moons.

Although she is still very sad when she mentions her father now, but Zhang Yao is obviously not good at comforting others and she is serious about reasoning...

Kind of cute.

Zhang Yao was a little confused looking at Shen Zhifei's smiling face, her serious expression relaxed a little.

Although he didn't understand why she was smiling, seeing that the sadness on her body had indeed faded a lot with this smile, he bent the corners of his lips following her.

"Okay, I'm done explaining." Shen Zhifei smacked his lips, and after speaking, all the taro flavor left in his mouth was gone.

Shen Zhifei's ability to deal with emotions is so strong that when Zhang Yao was still immersed in sadness, she had already put on that smile that didn't matter, and looked at her with half of her chin dragging.

"It's because of this," Zhang Yao thought about her words, "Because you have to pay for your father's medical expenses, so you didn't go to college?"

Before today, she couldn't figure out why Shen Zhifei didn't go to college, but Shen Zhifei said that her father was sick at that time, and it was when she needed to raise money. After contacting the cause and effect, it was not difficult to guess the reason why she gave up going to college.

——College tuition and living expenses are a lot of expenses. Her father is sick and can't make money, and there is a young brother at home, so she can't go to school at all.

Unless her mother also works and earns a lot of money, she can make money to support the family and pay high medical expenses at the same time.

Where is her mother...

Looking at Shen Zhifei, Zhang Yao always felt that it was inappropriate to ask her mother about it at this time, so she swallowed back the words that came to her lips.

Hearing Zhang Yao's question, Shen Zhifei's smile faded a little, and she nodded, "Yes, not all of them."

She left an answer that Zhang Yao couldn't understand, and she didn't seem to intend to explain further.

Zhang Yao had no choice but to change the subject, "Did you apply for G University at that time?"

The subtext is, obviously did so well in the exam, why did you apply for such a university that can be said to be inferior.

"Yeah." Shen Zhifei said, "I only applied for G University."

"But you didn't go to university." Zhang Yao said, "Why did you apply for G University?"

Didn't you agree at the beginning that you would apply for a good university?

Shen Zhifei smiled nonchalantly, but looked at Zhang Yao seriously, and said, "Because I want to continue to be your junior."

Her eyes are dark in color, and she has a kind of pure cleanliness when she looks at people seriously.

When Zhang Yao met her pure eyes, her mind swayed involuntarily, her thin lips pursed, and her cold voice softened a lot unconsciously, "Isn't this nonsense?"

The tone was slightly annoyed, but not really annoyed.

Shen Zhifei smiled brighter, "It's not a day or two since I mess around."

Even though she knew that she would never have the chance to enter the university again, she still filled in the only one volunteer on the volunteer form.

G major in jewelry design.

Probably because he wanted to break the jar, even though he knew that he would not be able to go anywhere anyway, he still filled out the form.

Some are not reconciled, and more of it is that they really want to chase Zhang Yao.

An accident back then hit Shen Zhifei, who was still immature, at a loss. The society at that time was far less tolerant than it is now, and she didn't have the courage to talk about her relationship openly, so her secretive relationship with Zhang Yao also became negative. tired.

So when Shen Zhifei broke up with Zhang Yao, she was only a little surprised, and then she felt that it should be taken for granted, and she agreed.

The teenage Shen Zhifei thought that the separation was only a temporary expedient measure, and sooner or later he would find a chance to get back together.

But she never thought that this separation would last eight years.

The pressure of life has already made Shen Zhifei almost out of breath. She often has no hope of getting back together, and just wants to live a good life as a family when her mother comes back.

It is enough for her to touch the relationship once. She has only loved Zhang Yao in her life, and she only wants Zhang Yao, and she doesn't want anyone else.

Besides, Zhang Yao, who is getting better and better, makes her feel at a loss, and she, who is mediocre and has no merits, can no longer find a reason to stand with her.

But she was not reconciled to her girl being snatched away like this and spending the rest of her life with others.

Just thinking about it this way is enough to make Shen Zhifei's heart ache.

So after struggling for a long time, she mustered up the courage to explain these things to Zhang Yao.

There are still some things she didn't say, but she just didn't think it was necessary.

It's all over, she just doesn't want Zhang Yao to misunderstand her now, there's no need to show her the scars that made her grow up one by one.

That would look pathetic.

She doesn't want Zhang Yao's sympathy and guilt, she just wants her liking.