north wind blows south

"So?" Bai Yun sat across from Mu Liang, with his legs crossed, wearing flamboyant leopard-print pajamas, with a cigarette in his fingers, "What do you think?" He raised his eyebrows as he spoke.

Although he can't be called a "master of love", at least he has twice as much experience in love as Mu Liang. For their small fights that can't be called "quarrels" in his eyes, he just wants to Say something like "quarrel at the head of the bed and peace at the end of the bed".

If you want to ask Mu Liang what he thinks, he really can't tell.I used to boast of being "clear in logic and meticulous in thinking", but now I think about it when I was young and ignorant at that time, I really dare to say it. I didn't expect that I was so dazzled by emotions that I can't find myself until now.

"Yes, what do I think..." Mu Liang lowered his head, his eyes drifted away, and the word "confused" was written all over his body from beginning to end.

Does he love Shen Ye?

If you don't give him time to think, let him say his own answer immediately, it must be "love".But if he is given time to seriously think about this matter, it will be difficult for him to give an answer, whether it is a positive answer or a negative one.

Loving someone turned out to be such a painful thing, and this was the first time Mu Liang had such an experience. He couldn't adapt and felt at a loss in this relationship.

As a bystander, Bai Yun actually has nothing to help his friend.He couldn't think about the problem from the same perspective as Mu Liang, and to be more realistic, even though he had known each other for so long and had such a good relationship, he still didn't understand Mu Liang's heart.

Mu Liang is a very contradictory person.The pain made him conflicted, and the conflict made him suffer even more, creating a very vicious cycle that he couldn't get out of.

The opinions given by Bai Yun were not very constructive, or his opinions could only serve as consolation, but it was better than nothing.Seeing his best friend go through this kind of inner torture made him feel uncomfortable.After a long sigh, he stubbed out the cigarette in his hand.

"Go back when you calm down, he will miss you if you've been away for a long time." Bai Yun said pitifully.

Mu Liang felt so tired, so tired that he seemed to collapse here any second.It turns out that trying to change one's life in vain is such a painful thing.

Does he still have the strength to go on?he does not know.

"I'll leave after two days," Mu Liang said.In just two days, he gave himself two days, hoping that within these 48 hours, he could figure out how to go on in the future.

"Okay." Bai Yun readily agreed, "There will always be your room here."

In fact, in the next two days, Mu Liang did not spend the little time left to think about his relationship with Shen Ye as he had expected before, because the reality was too cruel, and he found that he could not think about anything about Shen Ye. Things, as long as you think about it, you will feel heart-piercing pain.

During these two days, he briefly experienced the feeling of falling out of love.When it was the worst, there was no need to miss it at all, the blood in the whole body seemed to be shouting that name.

She didn't sleep very well either, even though Bai Yun's home bedding was all high-end.But as soon as he lay down, his mind would be filled with the person who haunted him.

Everything that happened to them was played over and over again in Mu Liang's mind like a movie.Holding hands for the first time, kissing for the first time, intimate contact for the first time, and even the sweet look at each other that he would never think of in the past, are all sweet things for Mu Liang now.

It turned out that he cared about him so much.

Looking at himself in the mirror with green stubble popping out, Mu Liang seemed to be dazzled suddenly.For some reason, he actually saw Shen Ye's shadow on his face, and that Shen Ye who was in a trance was also smiling at himself.

Human instinct is really miraculous, it can force oneself to recognize one's own heart, can force oneself to peel off layer after layer of confusion even in pain, and see one's own heart that beats hard no matter how hard it is.

No one is without pain, and Mu Liang understood this truth very early on.But many people love and be loved while suffering, this is the truth that he only now understands.

It is because of pain that love is needed.

The self in the mirror couldn't help but have red eyes, and tears fell like golden beans that don't cost money.

It's rebirth, it's a hard and painful rebirth, it's like a caterpillar turns into a butterfly, many people die as a caterpillar, few make it through the night, and even fewer become Butterfly.

Has Mu Liang become a butterfly?he does not know.He can only say that he doesn't know about many problems, because he has never experienced them.

But he knows that now is the night before he becomes a butterfly, and Shen is the only motivation for him to break through the cocoon.

It started to drizzle outside, but it still couldn't extinguish Mu Liang's burning heart.He hurriedly packed his luggage, wishing he could fly to Shen Ye right now.Even the farewell to Bai Yun was hasty, just a close to perfunctory hug.

Xin Tongling stood beside Bai Yun, the two looked so well-matched.Bai Yun put his arms around his wife's waist, and Xin Tongling leaned on her husband's shoulder.

"Come on." They said in unison.

Finally, after feeling the invisible but palpable pain, Mu Liang saw his own heart.He is a contradictory person, he wants extreme freedom and extreme favoritism, but these "wants" blind him to see his true thoughts and Shen Ye.

Only when he got on the train did he have the chance to think carefully in a quiet atmosphere.The surrounding sounds are like white noise, giving him a chance to passively meditate.

It is love, it is love very much, it is love that can take out your heart.

But because of secular views and self-cognition mistakes, Mu Liang hurt Shen Ye while loving him.

It is wrong love, so Mu Liang wants to correct it.

In fact, Mu Jinguo's words are not without reason. After all, he has traveled so much, and he has eaten twice as much salt as Mu Liang.He just tore apart the cruel reality and put it in front of them, or put it in front of Mu Liang, but he left without even thinking.This is a kind of escape. It can be said that he is brave even without sinking.

Trust is a very important issue in love, and Mu Liangxiu scored zero points.He needs rebuilding.

Throughout the relationship, he's been a little scared.I also once knew that the lonely courage of young people is easily suppressed and disappeared in reality.In fact, this can be regarded as prejudice. After all, not everyone is like this, and neither is Shen.

He is a very brave man and a very assertive man.

He only valued Mu Liang, so he valued what Mu Jinguo said.In fact, Mu Liang knew that Shen Ye didn't mean to break up. They just entered the burnout period, so they didn't even see the flames, and their emotions were on the verge of breaking out.

He should have spoken well.As the older party, he should support Shen Ye.They once had an agreement that no matter what thoughts they had in their hearts, they would tell each other.

——Frankly.It was Mu Liang who first proposed it, and he also failed to do it first.

Emotions abound.Guilt, longing, and worry about Mu Jinguo were mixed together, and after being clarified, they were mixed again, like a jar of muddy water, no matter how Mu Liang added clear water, he could not make him clear as before.

Maybe it's because I haven't slept well the past few days.As long as Mu Liang closes his eyes, the little things he spent with Shen Ye will appear in front of his eyes, which makes him unable to get rid of it.

Originally, he wanted to send a message to Shen Ye, but when sleepiness struck, nothing could stop him.Mu Liang just fell asleep with his mobile phone on the quiet train with only a little light.

Before losing consciousness, he suddenly thought that it was the first time in his life that he was so desperate...

But everything was still a bit late. When Mu Liang arrived at the hospital where Mu Jinguo was, the nurse informed them that they had been discharged the day before, and a young man helped them with the formalities.

After hearing this, Mu Liang asked anxiously, "Did they choose not to have the operation?"

The nurse knew him and knew that he was Mu Jinguo's eldest son, and because of his handsome face, she would blush when Mu Liang talked to her.

"Well, they chose conservative treatment to improve the quality of life for the rest of the time." As she spoke, her face turned redder.

But Mu Liang didn't see this, or he was too anxious to notice.His mind was occupied by two things - Mu Jinguo chose conservative treatment, and Shen and Shen were about to leave.

Without even thanking him, Mu Liang left in a hurry.He thought he was going crazy.

I stopped a taxi on the street and drove home. Seeing Mu Liang's anxious look, the driver thought that something happened to his house, so he was about to fly away.

God will always take care of him, Mu Liang thought so, he can't get it and then lose it so vaguely.

He ran home as fast as he could, and his hands began to shake even when he took out the keys.After seeing the familiar pair of shoes in the entrance, Mu Liang let go of all his strength and sat slumped at the door.

Hearing the sound, Shen Ye came down the stairs, saw Mu Liang sitting slumped at the door, and quickly ran over.

Then, he knelt on the ground and hugged Mu Liang tightly.

The emotions in my heart surged out beyond words, and now I just want a more intense skin-to-skin kiss.

Shen also wished he could cry now, but suddenly he stopped crying.For so many days, during the few days when Mu Liang disappeared, Shen Ye didn't shed a single tear, his tears seemed to have dried up.

Mu Liang's voice was choked with sobs, "I miss you so much." He said it was sincere.

Tears gushed out at this moment, falling drop by drop on Mu Liang's clothes continuously, turning into a puddle of dark water stains.

"I miss you too." Shen Ye was paralyzed in Mu Liang's arms, and his sobs could not be concealed.

so far so good.