north wind blows south

Maybe at a certain age, I really change my mind.

Just like the current Mu Liang, he unexpectedly felt that "little glutinous rice balls" were too cute, which made him even want to have a child of his own, although he knew clearly that it was just an impulse.

"Little glutinous rice balls" is a big change from before.It was a wrinkled purple-red hairless little monkey before, but now it is white and fat, just like his nickname, with bright eyes, very similar to his mother.

Maybe it’s because of a lot of things that happened when she was just born. “Little Tangyuan” has always been very quiet, obediently lying on her little bed, neither making noise nor making noise. Sometimes she sleeps, and sometimes she just opens her eyes wide to see this strange world.

Shen Ye and Mu Liang were lying on the railing of the crib. They were as cute as children, and they didn't speak, just looking at the sleeping "little glutinous rice balls".

Everything was peaceful, and their mood was even more so, so naturally, even in front of the little baby, they held each other's hand.

"Is it cute?" Shen Ye turned his head and asked Mu Liang in a low voice in order not to wake up the baby.

Mu Liang looked at the "little glutinous rice balls" tenderly, and said softly, "Well, they are very cute."

Much cuter than he imagined, like a little angel who came to the world because of fate.Bai Bai, tender, and well-behaved, every breath he takes in sleep seems to be casting his own magic, making everyone who has seen him like him.

When he is hungry, he won't cry or make troubles, he will just stare at his big eyes, whimpering and telling his parents that he is a perfect baby.

Moreover, she seemed to like Mu Liang very much, even though she was hungry, she still looked at him with bright eyes, and even grabbed the drawstring of his sweater and refused to let go.

Shen Ye leaned over again, pressed against Mu Liang's ear and asked, "Do you like it very much?" You don't need to think about it, what kind of brains the kid is using.

Mu Liang chose to tell the truth, "Well, I like it very much." His eyes were full of tenderness when he looked at the "little glutinous rice balls".

After all, mother and child are connected by flesh and blood, and there is always an inexplicable tacit understanding.Just like now, even though "Little Tang Yuan" is not crying, Xiao Yu still opens the door and prepares to breastfeed.

Shen Ye and Mu Liang left, and the two went to the balcony, holding hands and chatting with each other.

"This is the first time I've seen a little baby. I didn't expect him to be so cute." Shen Ye looked at the blue sky and couldn't help but sigh.

"Well, I also think that he is really cute." As soon as "little glutinous rice balls" were mentioned, Mu Liang's face was full of smiles.

"Then... do you want to have a child too?" As soon as this sentence was said, Shen felt a little regretful. He was too anxious, and Mu Liang would definitely not agree.

In fact, Mu Liang's answer was within his expectation.Hearing Shen Ye's words, someone rolled his eyes, "I'm a man, so I can't give birth to children." After saying this, someone rolled his eyes again.

This is the end of the topic about the child. If the conversation continues, Shen also feels that it is very likely that Mu Liang will push him off the unenclosed balcony.

Although the next topic is not so annoying, it will not make people happy.

Of course, Shen also just wanted to ask Mu Liang whether he was going back to his hometown tonight or tomorrow morning. After all, from the tone of "auntie" on the phone yesterday, it seemed that things were still in a hurry.

Fortunately, Mu Liang didn't lose his temper like last night, but his expression was not as soft as when he saw "Little Tangyuan" just now.

"Tomorrow, I'm tired after running around all day today, and I should still drink tonight." After that, Mu Liang paused again, as if suddenly remembering something, and said, "Book a later ticket, I won't be late tomorrow morning You must get up."

What can Shen Ye say, after all, this is Mu Liang's own business, no matter how close they are, he is not qualified to intervene.

"Got it." That's all he could say.

Because of someone's attitude, Shen also thought that he didn't care about this matter, but when he was drinking at night, the children discovered his abnormality.

Mu Liang knows more than half of Xiao Yu's friends. Although he is not very familiar with them, at least he can talk to each other.If it is not so polite, they can be called Mu Liang's "drinking and meat friends".

Maybe it's because there is a young man with him, there are always people with malicious intentions coming to "toast".Some were tactful and didn't directly ask about their relationship, while some were not so polite, and asked who Shen Ye was without even drinking.

They were all blocked by Mu Liang one by one. After so many years in the workplace, it was not for nothing.

It's just that the wine didn't seem to be used to silence them, but to vent Mu Liang's own anger.

Shen Ye, who was at the side, had no way of drinking without Mu Liang's permission, so he could only watch.Until he couldn't watch it anymore, finally when he was free, he took Mu Liang's hand and dragged him to the bathroom with some force.

Before entering, place the "Under Repair" stand by the door.

Mu Liang didn't seem to know himself at all, and his eyes were full of disturbing emotions, which made Shen also somewhat unable to understand him.

But now he doesn't need to understand.

Fortunately, he brought the handkerchief that Mu Liang gave him with him. Shen Ye sighed heavily, found a chair to press his shoulders to let him sit down, soaked the handkerchief in water and wrung it dry, and wiped it gently for Mu Liang. She slapped her face.

"Is it better?" Shen Ye asked.

Mu Liang's tense shoulders finally relaxed. He closed his eyes, but it wasn't enough. He rubbed his eyes again, and finally said, "It's better."

"En." Shen Ye's tone was as usual, Mu Liang couldn't tell whether he was angry or not, but his eyes followed him all the time, watching him take out a small bottle of mineral water from his pocket as if by magic.

"Drink some." Shen Ye handed the mineral water to Mu Liang and said.

Like a child who has done something wrong, Mu Liang hung his back and drank water obediently.He always felt that Shen Ye would definitely talk about his drinking just now, so he lowered his head and prepared to be punished.

Unexpectedly, Shen Ye didn't say anything, but just stayed with him obediently.

"Are you angry?" Mu Liang raised his head, looked at Shen Ye with wet eyes and said.

Shen Ye took Mu Liang's hand, "No, not angry." The voice was a little different from usual, no matter how you looked at it, it didn't look angry.

It was silent at first, then remained silent, and finally Mu Liang said, almost inaudibly, like "begging", "I'm sorry, just now..."

"I've said it all, don't apologize, I'm not angry." Shen Ye said, squeezed Mu Liang's hand, "I know, you are because of uncle."

Hearing these words, Mu Liang finally raised his head, looked at Shen Ye, and hugged him.Everything was kept silent, and Shen could feel that Mu Liang was very tired because of various reasons.

Shen also patted Mu Liang on the back, as usual to coax him to sleep.

"Let's... book an earlier ticket." In the end, Mu Liang chose to soften his heart.

"Okay." Shen also agreed, "It's all up to you." He said.

Sometimes, at least now, Shen also really can't understand Mu Liang.It's as if the answer is right in front of you, and you know every word, but once you connect them, you don't know what it means.

Looking at Mu Liang's tired sleeping face, Shen Ye's eyes began to blur.

Sometimes, at least now, Shen can't help himself not to think too much.It's like a long, long thread that extends to an unknown place, but this unknown makes people feel scared.

Shen was also thinking, after Mu Liang was with him, did he become more happy or more troubled.He always felt that there were more troubles, because he knew clearly that Mu Liang had lived a life without any desires before. He had no desires, so he had no troubles, but after being with himself, with desires, there would be troubles.

Worry is everywhere.

The outside world puts pressure on them. After all, sexual minorities are not so easily accepted. No matter how strong the heart is, no matter how many times they are questioned, it is unacceptable.

And there is also pressure in my heart. I didn't think so much at first, I just felt that since I like it and since I have an opportunity, I have to work hard for it.But after being together, I realized that everything is not that simple. Self-identification is actually a difficult thing, especially during adolescence.

But he couldn't say it because he still loves Mu Liang.He can't always say, although "I love you", but I can't agree with myself.

The train was running quietly as usual, and the small sound made people feel at ease.Shen Ye's gaze never left Mu Liang. He used to think that he couldn't take care of him, so he was reluctant to leave. But the reality is that he can and is fully capable of taking care of himself, it just depends on whether he is willing or not.

Everything seems to be self-indulgent.

Thinking of this, Shen Ye frowned, and shook his head hard, trying to get rid of this "shouldn't" thought, but unfortunately it didn't work.

He sighed, and covered Mu Liang with his own blanket, his eyes reluctant to leave his boyfriend.He really loves him, that's why there are so many strange and unspeakable troubles.

Shen Ye pursed his lips, turned and left, leaving a quiet space for Mu Liang who was sleeping.

Although he knew that he was not qualified to meddle in Mu Jinguo's affairs, he was still worried, so he called his stepmother behind Mu Liang's back.

The voice on the phone was still anxious, she said that because of heart disease and various underlying diseases, Mu Jinguo was awake sometimes and fell into a coma during the day, when he was awake he was silent, and when he was unconscious he would read Mu Liang's name.

After conveying his worries and telling them that they were on their way, Shen also hung up the phone.

Seeing the darkness outside, accompanied by the dots of lights, Shen Ye suddenly felt so lonely.

Why, he asked himself.