Pinellia has arrived [Rebirth]

The seeds that were eager to germinate were not killed in the cradle as Jiang Baizhi had planned, but turned into sparks that slowly started a prairie fire.She began to empathize with the hypocritical words written by literati, thinking about a person's terrible situation all the time, and she is not much better now.

In the days to come, although he tried his best to restrain himself, his stable grades still fluctuated. The young Chinese teacher noticed the signs and talked to her in time.

Jiang Baizhi still remembers the content of the conversation that night.The most impressive sentence comes from Zhang Ailing's anthology, "Like someone, there will be no pain, love someone, there may be long-term pain, but the happiness she gave me is also the greatest happiness in the world." The teacher did not persuade her to let go Love in my heart, but encourage her, let everything go with the flow, remember the happiness and pain given by the other party, temporarily forget it, don't care about it.

So, for the whole year of the second year of high school, Jiang Baizhi indulged herself and took the initiative to care for Qi Banxia. When rushing to the bus during the rush hour, she always stood on the outside to protect her inside; Clip half of it; the physical test knows what she lacks, and spend time in the evening to practice with her...

But she couldn't bear the result that the two of them couldn't even be friends in the end, so she didn't dare to confess.

Of course, Qi Banxia’s happiness in giving back to her is also unlimited, others can’t see her acting like a baby; knowing her habit of soy milk without sugar; knowing her alcohol allergy; knowing her...

She even imagined whether the other party would like her too.

It wasn't until the beginning of the third year of high school that Qi Banxia told her that she fell in love with someone during the summer broadcasting and hosting training camp, and that person should also like her.The illusion was disillusioned, and the chest was dull and aching for an instant. As a friend, he had to pull a smile on his face and care about who that person was and whether he had a good personality.

Jiang Baizhi comforted herself that they were not together, there was still time to buffer, and slowly hid their love in their hearts.But early the next morning, Qi Banxia ran over to hug her just like in the past, sharing the joy.

They officially confirmed their relationship as a couple, the head of the school radio station, and Ding Hao from Class 2 next door.

Jiang Baizhi overestimated her ability to bear, and felt uncomfortable for a while during the break, and even agreed to have lunch with Qi Banxia at noon, knowing that there would be another person there.

"You are the elder sister that Banxia often mentions."

"Well, I'm her older sister." Jiang Baizhi added unwillingly, "There is no blood relationship."

Immediately she heard Qi Banxia's hearty laughter: "But Ah Zhi treats me better than my own brother."

Jiang Baizhi sat across from them and ate with her head buried in her food, not knowing what to eat.I spent the whole afternoon and evening self-study in a daze, listening to lectures and doing questions.Back at the apartment at ten o'clock in the evening, it was August in the lunar calendar and the temperature was 30 degrees, but she felt cold all over her body.After all, he is only 16 years old, no matter how mature and stable his temper is, it is difficult to hide the sourness in his heart at this time.She hid in the quilt and cried, her voice was low and soft.

Upon entering the room, Aunt Lu knocked on her door with milk, then turned the handle and opened the door to enter.

"Little Zhi, what's wrong?"

She moved under the quilt.

Aunt Lu reached into Bo's forehead with her right hand and touched Jiang Baizhi's forehead, she was frightened: "Why is it so hot? Get up quickly and go to the hospital."

On the bed, she turned over, her eyes were misty, and she muttered: "Auntie, I'll just sleep, I have a test tomorrow."

"Yes, take your temperature first." Aunt Chang pulled out the thermometer in the drawer and let her clip it into her armpit.

Take it out after 7 minutes, 38.5°, adults are in a hurry, children are not in a hurry.

"Walk, walk, must go to the hospital."

"Auntie, some medicine will make you drowsy. I have an exam tomorrow." She asked Aunt Lu to pour a cup of hot water to drink, and then found alcohol to mix with water according to the ratio to physically cool down.

—After all this trouble, Aunt Lu was still worried, so she called Sun Mingfen who lived nearby.So in the middle of the night, Qi Banxia had already fallen asleep, and Sun Mingfen went out with the medicine.

At two o'clock in the middle of the night, Jiang Baizhi's body temperature dropped, she closed her eyes, and soon fell asleep in a daze.Waking up early the next morning, I received a text message from Qi Banxia: "Azhi, I'm riding Ding Hao's bicycle, so I won't be with you this morning, cheers for the exam."

"Come on." After recovering from a minor illness, she got out of bed with vain steps, suppressed her emotions, ate breakfast, and took a taxi to school.Exams from morning to night, after school, after getting on the bus, I turned on my phone and received a text message from Qi Banxia again, "Azhi, I'll wait for you at the old place."

"I have something to go."

But, in fact, I really want to be with her...

But, you shouldn't be with her...

Still, it is inevitable to taste pain, I just hope that the process will be shorter and not too long.

There was little rest time at noon and evening, Jiang Baizhi forgot to take medicine, took a bath after returning home, took medicine, and lay down wrapped in a quilt, she felt that she should have a fever again.

In a trance, I heard the door being pushed open, and a hazy shadow appeared in front of my eyes, so bright and moving.

"Azhi, are you feeling unwell?"

She watched Qi Banxia grab the mercury thermometer on the bedside table, and immediately frowned: "38.7°, mom is invited to the hospital by a patient, dad is in the laboratory, and Aunt Lu and I will accompany you to a nearby clinic." The other party didn't care She nodded, picked up the clothes next to her and threw them on the bed, and pulled her away from the thin quilt.

"Banxia." She stared at Qi Banxia for a long time, with complex emotions in her eyes that she couldn't distinguish clearly.

"What's wrong?" Qi Banxia, ​​who was pulling her, asked doubtfully.

"Nothing." Jiang Baizhi shook her head, regained her calm expression, smiled slightly, "Thank you."

She is still young, how could she completely hide the discomfort in her heart, Qi Banxia noticed it, and asked with concern: "Not in a good mood?"

Jiang Baizhi didn't look at her, and lied while getting dressed: "I feel that the test results are not satisfactory."

"—Two grades don't mean much. I heard from my mother at noon that you had a fever last night. It will definitely affect your performance."

"Well, maybe.

To be honest, she enjoys and wants to have this kindness all to herself forever, but the reality is just the opposite.

Be brave next time, she told herself.

So since then, Jiang Baizhi deliberately kept a distance, played the role of a friend, and tried to push Qi Banxia away from a certain position in her heart step by step. take your time.

At the beginning of January, it was close to the day of the unified examination of broadcasting and hosting arts.When she came home from evening self-study, she tutored Qi Banxia in mathematics, and found that the other party had sulked twice because she often refused to take the car together, so she asked casually: "Ding Hao plans to apply for the same school as you for the school exam next month?"

Qi Banxia concentrated on doing the questions without raising her head: "We split."

"what?"

"I mentioned it last week. I don't feel like being with him. I suspect that I am frigid."

......

Qi Banxia spoke too directly, she didn't know how to proceed.But the inadvertently raised corners of her lips betrayed her mood at this time, and then she comforted: "Maybe it's not appropriate."

"Yeah, at most, I accept holding hands. He wanted to kiss me, but I pushed him away."

......

After Qi Banxia rested, Jiang Baizhi's heart was in a mess again.She knew that as a friend, she shouldn't be secretly happy, so she even hated herself a little bit now.Unrequited love without confession, feeling uncomfortable when others leave the singles, but gloating after breaking up...

Although not gloating.

She felt that she was not good enough for the other party at this moment, so she decided to let go of her insistence for the time being.Young love is often full of passion, but not so sure, there are certain dangers, she needs precipitation and enrichment.

In the college entrance examination, Jiang Baizhi exceeded the key line by 94 points, and did not fill in a better school. Because of Wu Liu's death and his own hobbies, he chose Yanyang University of Traditional Chinese Medicine to recruit 4+5 clinical Chinese medicine majors for the first time.Qi Banxia was admitted to Yanyang Communication University with a good score of 518 in the art test and a good score of [-] in the culture class.

The two universities are separated by a street, and in the first half a month, they can occasionally make appointments to eat and go shopping.Later, the class schedule was full, and medical students had classes on weekends. Qi Banxia asked her out several times, but she had no chance to go out.Then, Qi Banxia got busy and was discovered by Tai Chuan, filming movies, filming commercials, following announcements, and finding time to study.

The two of them only get together during Chinese New Year, and have two phone calls in their free time.Qi Banxia will ask her if she has someone she likes. She always says that she is so busy, how can she have the energy to fall in love, and then asks: "What about you?"

"Ah Zhi, have you forgotten that I am cold and cold? There are quite a few people who pursue me, but none of them fall in love with me."

At the age of 21, she seemed less persistent than before, half-jokingly said: "Don't set your sights too high."

"Azhi's vision is also quite high. I heard from my brother that there was a boy in your school who confessed his love downstairs in the dormitory, but you rejected him on the spot."

"Huh? Brother Mao Mao is really a big talker."

"That person is still the vice chairman of the student union, you don't even look down on him? Or are you waiting to be my sister-in-law?"

......

"Ban Xia, you're starting again." Three months ago, she and Qi Yuanzhi sat together and talked about the marriage between the two families, and they both said it was impossible.Qi Yuanzhi told her directly that she was not his type.

"I was wrong, when Ah Zhi meets someone she likes, remember to be the first to tell me."

The light from the street squeezed in through the window and flickered on the ceiling. She looked at the acupoint map pasted behind the door of the dormitory, opened her mouth, and remained silent.

"Azhi, are you asleep?"

"No." Gradually, the increasingly dazzling she on TV appeared in her mind, swallowed what she wanted to say, and replaced it with words of concern, "Pay attention to your body when filming."

"it is good."

After hanging up the phone, Jiang Baizhi leaned her head against the white wall of the upper bunk, and sighed exhaustedly.

In recent years, besides boys, there was also a girl who confessed to her.At the beginning, I wanted to find a group of like-minded people, but there were only girls in it, and their sexual orientation was also girls.

The girl was two years younger than her, she had just graduated from university, and she helped to give advice when filling out the major.I just learned that they were all in Yanyang, so one weekend, I made an appointment to meet up.

The other party has been out of control since then, receiving countless messages on time every day. "Good morning, sister, good night, sister, what are you doing, have you eaten?"

And so on.

Jiang Zizhi seemed to be aware of the girl's feelings for her, and she refused decisively during the private chat: "Xiao Ning, I'm not suitable for you."

"Why? In my opinion, there is only dislike, not inappropriateness."

"I have someone I like." She still hasn't let go, maybe she has to wait until she finds happiness before she can really let go.

Jiang Baizhi often sees the real experience shared in the group, straight girls flirt with girls, don't like straight girls, there is only one consequence of confessing to straight girls, and even friends can't do it.

She thought about confessing her love, but because of these cases, she retreated again and again, and couldn't afford to lose.

On National Day when she was 25 years old, same-sex marriage was legalized. Qi Banxia forwarded and supported Weibo, but she didn't know about it because she didn't use Weibo.At the end of the year, Qi Zhennan was diagnosed with advanced pancreatic cancer and expressed his wish to see Qi Yuanzhi and Jiang Baizhi get married.The two got together and began to discuss specific matters.

But in the following six months, something happened to Jiang Luhua's subsidiary, Sun Mingfen broke his leg inexplicably while riding a bicycle, Qi Yuanzhi was deeply involved in a doctor-patient crisis, Jiang Baizhi caught cold and fell ill one after another, even Qi Banxia, ​​who was filming in the city of S, was not spared. Mudslide, almost accident.So the superstitious Jiang Luhua spent a lot of money to hire an expert to give orders, and calculated that Qi Yuanzhi and Jiang Baizhi were incompatible, and if they were combined, there would be endless troubles.On the contrary, the combination of the two daughters of the Qi family and the Jiang family is a match for marriage.

That night, Jiang Luhua asked for Jiang Baizhi's opinion. She believes in science and of course thinks that feudal superstition is nonsense.Although she was willing a thousand times in her heart, but she knew that a twisted melon was not sweet, she held the lottery of a master's order in her hand, gritted her teeth, and was about to refuse.

"dad."

"Consider it? I'll answer the phone first." Jiang Luhua talked with the person on the other side of the microphone, the corners of his lips gradually curled up, and he turned his head and asked loudly, "Ban Xia agreed, what do you say?"