After the shadow of rebirth, I forgot to fall in love again

"What does Teacher Shen want to tell me?"

Su Jinci pushed the coffee onto the short tea table in front of Shen Manqing, and slowly sat closer, wondering why Shen Manqing drank coffee at night—won't she suffer from insomnia because of it? ?Or is she not in a good mood, so she doesn't want to sleep?

But fortunately, Su Jinci is a person who knows how to measure. Although the train in his heart is 'dirty', except for light yellow or dark yellow in his mind, his expressions and dialogue are still controlled by reason so that others can be more sensible. degree of acceptance.

"I just want to ask you, do you still feel used to it recently?"

Counting it, it has been nearly two weeks since Su Jinci signed a contract with Shen Manqing's studio, but Shen Manqing was busy supporting Mu Jin and holding a charity dinner before, and now he is also accepting a variety show, except for those two Apart from brief contact, she basically had no in-depth communication with this junior, so Shen Manqing just decided to have a more in-depth communication with Su Jinci after answering Tao Wei's call.

After watching the program preview, Tao Wei immediately called Shen Manqing. At that time, Shen Manqing was preparing to wash up, and because of this, he deliberately delayed 15 minutes.

But Su Jinci didn't know that Tao Wei was the reason for Shen Manqing's close communication with her. Instead, he secretly guessed whether Shen Manqing was attracted by her gentleness and talent.

Therefore, Su Jinci was very excited in her heart. She felt that this was a good start and a more favorable start than the previous life, so she smiled very reservedly and gently, and replied seriously: "Except that I am not used to riding in a car for the time being. Except for the tractor, everything else is quite used to.”

"Really?" Shen Manqing looked at Su Jinci's expression, trying to find some reluctance on her face: "You are now signing a contract with the studio as an artist. You can't realize your dream of being a screenwriter, and you have to be in charge of a game team. I also want to accompany me to this remote mountainous area to record a variety show, go up and down like ordinary people, suffer hardships..."

"Mr. Shen, you can't say that."

Su Jinci felt that Shen Manqing seemed to have misunderstood her, so he couldn't help looking into Shen Manqing's eyes, and said calmly: "In terms of family background, I, Su Jinci, can barely squeeze into the middle class of today's society at best, and in terms of personal ability Among the 14 billion people in the country, my Su Jin Ci is not necessarily outstanding. At most, I have won a few more awards and made a few more achievements than others. I will not go into details about it. Yes, Mr. Shen is in the entertainment industry, so he must be aware of the moisture behind these achievements and awards. After all, this society is like this, in addition to personal ability, there is also the power of social class and capital."

Just like Jun Xinzhuo, the scum of acting skills, well known to everyone, but still able to win the Golden Eagle Award, praised by countless media, why?In the final analysis, nothing more than one word - money.

Su Jinci looked at Shen Manqing, and continued: "When I was a teenager, I had many dreams. Apart from being an excellent actor - I also wanted to write the best script in the world and give it to my favorite... actor , or perform these scripts in person, and then get the recognition of the world, guide the world to think deeply, and win various awards at home and abroad."

Shen Manqing looked back at Su Jinci: "Then Mr. Su, since when did you give up this dream and become obsessed with games?"

"I've never given up on this dream." Su Jinci picked up the coffee, and looked away from Shen Manqing, and landed on her slightly open neckline: "But it has already died in the face of the cruel reality."

Shen Manqing asked again calmly: "...So, Teacher Xiao Su, has he been knocked down by reality?"

"..."

Su Jinci looked at Shen Manqing's slightly opened white neckline, and suddenly remembered an old event buried deep in the dust of time.

At that time, Shen Manqing went to study abroad at the California Academy of Motion Picture Arts, followed by Su Jin, but due to various reasons, he was only admitted to the Curtis Institute of Music.

Although the distance between the two schools is not too far, and the cost of discounted air tickets is only a few hundred dollars, for Jun Xinzhuo, who lost the financial support of her parents at that time, the expenditure of these few hundred dollars meant that she would spend a few hundred dollars in In the next month, or even longer, I won't be able to eat even the most tasteless bread.

Su Jinci still remembers it very clearly - that year Shen Manqing, she planned to give Shen Manqing an unforgettable and beautiful birthday since the beginning of the year!

She knew that Shen Manqing liked roses, so after arriving in Philadelphia, she carefully cultivated several pots of roses in the school dormitory, and planned to confess to Shen Manqing and tell her about her love when they both had their birthdays in the same month. The deep love hidden in my heart, I dare not let anyone else know...

The rose was well raised by Jun Xinzhuo at that time, with lush branches and leaves, and gorgeous flowers, which perfectly complemented Shen Manqing's appearance engraved on Jun Xinzhuo's heart.

However, even Jun Xinzhuo himself did not expect that these roses cultivated by himself would become the last sword to break her deep love for Shen Manqing!

That year, Jun Xinzhuo, who was not yet full, had a serious gap with her parents because she insisted on pursuing Shen Manqing's footsteps to study abroad, and her father and mother, who were not broad-minded enough, forcibly cut off her financial support. Jun Xinzhuo, who was just under his age, began to face this cruel world of money.

Relying on her own strength and talent, she followed in Shen Manqing's footsteps to go abroad, dreaming of accompanying Shen Manqing through every important moment in her life, and finally broke down in reality-compromising on money!

Life was precious!

Love is more expensive!

But when the money in your pocket is no longer able to support your next meal, and cannot buy you the next piece of bread... Who dares to say so loudly, who is he still in love with, who is he still deeply in love with?

At that time, Jun Xinzhuo was still very young and naive, and she still insisted that she still loved her deeply, but only compromised with the cruel reality, and only compromised with time and distance... So, on Shen Manqing's birthday, she guarded herself I personally planted and cultivated rose flowers, and watched the planes take off and land at the airport...

On that day, Jun Xinzhuo waited from sunrise to sunset, watched the planes come and go, watched the people come and go, and watched the roses he cultivated with his own hands gradually wither under the ravages of the sun and noise—just like her That young and immature love sprouted in ignorance, died in the unknown, fell into the sand in front of hundreds of dollars, and was buried deeply ever since...

What is love?

Is love a spiritual product after solving the temperature protection problem?

Ever since the day when the roses he cultivated withered with his own eyes, Jun Xinzhuo thought that he understood love.

Therefore, even though she has met Shen Manqing countless times since then, she has always maintained her own tone on the surface, without disturbing Shen Manqing's life and world in the slightest.

——Is it because you don’t love me?

Not!

But because she was knocked down by money!

Has been knocked down by reality!

I was overwhelmed by the feelings I believed in!

I was deeply stabbed by... those roses that bloomed day and night...

——Shen Manqing, do you know?When facing you, I am happy, I admire, but I am also sad...

Maybe I have been deeply attracted by you since I first met you when I was young; maybe I gradually fell in love with you, the sunny and beautiful you, after getting along gradually...

But, Shen Manqing, do you know?

I still love you!

For ten years, I love you!

But I hope that I am like the protagonist in a beautiful love story, accompanied by bright clothes and elegant temperament, who can hold up a sky for you and protect you from wind and rain.Instead of giving up? Some pride and dignity, singing in the bar, leading the dance in the ballroom, playing the piano in the hotel-working hard for the meager salary, frowning for tomorrow's bread...

?So, I gave up my dream of becoming a great actor, screenwriter, and novelist, and I became a traffic star, and I became a word-of-mouth-a golden hand!

Because, that desperate life pressure devoured me? Some artistic inspiration and artistic life...

……

Shen Manqing has been paying attention to Su Jinci's expression, from the gentleness when she answered the question at the beginning, to the sadness that she couldn't hide no matter what, Shen Manqing saw everything in her eyes - she couldn't imagine that this Why does a person who should have been born in a wealthy family have such a complicated expression!

At that moment, did this young and gentle teacher Xiao Su fall into some kind of memory, some kind of... some kind of despair that can't even be expressed?

Shen Manqing picked up a cup of coffee, took a sip slowly, and continued to observe Su Jinci - in the previous call, Tao Wei mentioned more than once that this little Su seemed ordinary, but she was in "One Eye" The performance in the variety show "Three Meals" seems to be very unusual...

Tao Wei didn't go into details about what was unusual, but Shen Manqing knew that Tao Wei would never target without purpose!

? Therefore, there is definitely something about Xiao Su that she has overlooked!

Shen Manqing looked at Su Jinci, and heard her say in a very affirmative tone: "Mr. Shen, please rest assured! I will never be knocked down by reality again!

"..."

Although Su Jin's words seemed to be categorical, Shen Manqing felt that he seemed to see a kind of glass-like fragility from this sentence and from her eyes.

"Mr. Shen."

Su Jinci was also staring at Shen Manqing, watching her eyes gradually reveal a bit of tenderness and concern, couldn't help but feel hot, and asked, "Can I hug you? Just... just give me a hug……"

The author has something to say: It can be said that Teacher Su is a bit too much. Teacher Shen just wants to talk to you.