Hold Your Hand·Xuantian Chaotic Times

He is the son of the grandson's eldest son, with a heavy army in his hands, and he is in charge of the entire Jiangdong, the country that his father's generation laid down.Unruly like him, except for Zhou Yu who grew up with him since childhood, no one has ever really understood him and entered his heart, and he was alone like him, never thought that one day he would be held by a man named Ling Hao .

The matter seems to go back a long time. He still remembers that time when he was chasing the enemy and was accidentally shot in the face by a bow and arrow. If it wasn't for this incident, he might not have met Ling Hao.When they came back from the injury, everyone looked panic-stricken. They didn't know whether they had lost too much blood or looked terrible. Even Shang Xiang, who used to wield knives and guns, turned pale, and immediately made people go away. Call the doctor.Hua Tuo's whereabouts have always been uncertain, thinking that there would be no difference if Hua Tuo's apprentice was there, but Zhong Mou couldn't rest assured, so he issued a notice to find Hua Tuo that night.

It has to be said that the feeling of being stitched on the face, firstly, emotional fluctuations are not allowed, and secondly, walking around is not allowed. Seeing this, Gong Jin even shook her head and rejoiced, saying that it was a blessing among misfortunes that her face was not disfigured.What's the use of a man paying so much attention to appearance?He was noncommittal about his friend's emotion, but he didn't care about it in his heart.During the recuperation period, it seemed that there was really nothing to do except daily inspections. He was once dissatisfied with not being able to kill the enemy with his own hands, until he saw Yu Ji in the city that day, and when he was upset, he encountered such a crowded and noisy scene , Immediately waved his hand and asked Yu Ji to be brought up by his subordinates. At that time, he hadn't paid attention to the person beside Yu Ji, the person who turned his emotions all over the place.

Yu Ji was neither happy nor angry, and his indifferent expression made him inexplicably irritable, "Wait a minute, I heard that the general was plotted by villains a few days ago, so I want to try my best.".The voice suddenly broke in, and then I noticed that there was another person beside him, a good-looking man with a bit of culture, and he lost interest after hearing that he was Yu Ji's apprentice. A person comparable to Hua Tuo, how powerful can a Taoist apprentice be. "If I can't cure the general, it won't be too late for the general to convict." He sounded quite confident. He was used to being called Marquis Wu. Hearing this person's address, he was undoubtedly an outsider. It was much harder to look at this person After a few glances, he has a slender figure, a well-proportioned skeleton, and there are obvious signs of martial arts training in the finger bones. Is such a person an apprentice of a Taoist priest?There was some suspicion in his heart, and the first reaction was the enemy who came to assassinate him, heh, this is also interesting, such an open and aboveboard negotiation, he would like to see what kind of tricks this person is going to use.

Unexpectedly, this person always looked puzzled, staring at his face for a long time, and looked over coldly, before the other party lowered his head and retracted his gaze, and took out the so-called good medicine.Is this to poison him to death?With some irony, he's not that stupid. "You take it first, it's not too late for me to take it again.", propping his head, he threw out a sentence, thinking that the other party would panic, but it didn't. The man just showed surprise, but he still took the medicine and swallowed it directly .Maybe I was thinking too much?Thinking about the guards above and below the city, once this person moves, it will be difficult to fly even with wings. Since the medicine is normal, there is no need for him to be so hard on himself.He really thought too much, there really is such a good medicine in the world, his face recovered as before, and he was surprised at the quick effect of the medicine, so he felt that the other party was not malicious.

Thanks should be given, but the person on the opposite side looked a little flattered, and then waved his hands again and again, and at the end he was quite embarrassed.For some reason, just for a moment, I felt that this stranger in front of me was very interesting.In order to express my basic gratitude, I invited this person to live in the mansion for a few days. Only then did I know that this person was not Yu Ji's apprentice, but Liu Bei's subordinate.

In just a few days, his understanding of Ling Hao was quite different from anyone he had seen before, although he couldn't tell why.Just like the first meeting, Ling Hao is a very gentle person, but a gentle temperament does not mean that he is a meek person. His swordsmanship skills are probably inferior to many generals under his command. There is a common topic in military skills, and I gradually discovered Ling Hao's The way of thinking is different, and some insights even make me feel enlightened.Even though he and Liu Bei belonged to two different forces, this person didn't seem to be defensive at all. He treated others with courtesy, neither humble nor overbearing, and he seemed to have an inexplicable trust in himself.For Ling Hao's attitude, I actually felt so good that I felt a little regretful when this person had to go back.

After that, I didn't see each other for a while, until the Lantern Festival of that year, when the territory was stable, Gongjin suggested to go for a visit, which was also good, so I wouldn't have to be entangled in the things at hand all day.When Zhou Yu asked himself if there was any place he wanted to go, his first reaction was not Jiangdong, but Runan, where Liu Bei was. How could it be Runan? This thought made him lose his mind for a moment. "Runan? That's Liu Bei's place. Besides, why did you travel so far?", "If you want to play, you must go to a place farther away." One sentence blocked the friend back. As for why, I didn't think about it.Coincidentally, in such a large place, I saw Ling Hao again. The man was still the same as I remembered, but this time it was much more dramatic. Seeing the surprised expression on this man's face, I felt unsure why. It started to feel better again.

Still feeling a little embarrassed, he couldn't help but want to tease this person. The two brothers are very similar, but they just hooked their shoulders together, but Ling Hao seemed to be frightened by something, and his body obviously froze. However, this reaction was overwhelmed by surprise when he introduced Gongjin.Ling Hao had an unexpected look on his face, and his eyes were stained with joy.Congratulations, what is there to be delighted about, Ling Hao just saw Gong Jin so excited.I feel a little bit in my heart, especially when I see that the relationship between Ling Hao and Zhao Yun is stronger than myself, isn't this a normal thing?I haven't known Ling Hao for a long time, and since I haven't seen each other for so long, I can't compare to Zhao Yun who has been getting along.

But looking at the unusually natural behavior between Ling Hao and Zhao Yun, even the smile seemed much easier, and the dissatisfaction in my heart became more and more serious.Unexplainable displeasure, what's wrong with me, to be angry because of such a trivial matter.It seems that he is not himself, "I like Zixuan very much." I don't know what emotions are at work. When these words came out, Zhao Yun paused, Gong Jin was stunned, and Ling Hao was also stunned.

It was this little episode that made Gong Jin aware of his strangeness before he himself. "Bo Fu, why do you care so much about that man named Ling Hao?".Why do you care so much about Ling Hao?Xu is a different attitude towards things, Xu is that person's trust in him for no reason.Even though he hadn't met him a few times, each meeting was only a few days, but I always felt that Ling Hao was a very special person, and when getting along with Ling Hao, he would be very relaxed. It cannot be found in humans.In my spare time, my mind sometimes thinks of this person. "I don't object to you getting close to Liu Bei's people, but you have to deal with your own affairs." Gongjin's hidden worries are not unknown to herself, but will a person like Ling Hao plot against him Jiangdong?If Ling Hao was one of his subordinates, the situation would be much better. I really don’t know why that person chose Liu Bei, who is weak and weak. Liu Bei is afraid of him. Nor will they take the initiative to send people to ask for an alliance.

The person who came was Zhuge Liang. As for this person's fame, it goes without saying that he just didn't expect Ling Hao to be Zhuge Liang's apprentice.The third time, really only the third time, when I saw Ling Hao, my mood got better unconsciously, and I still had that gentle and gentle look, and there was no change because I saved my life. I still feel embarrassed to be close.As Marquis of Wu, there seemed to be nothing wrong with him staying at Keqing. With a hint of jokes, he hugged Ling Hao into his arms. The other party was surprised, but he didn't expect that it was Ling Hao. He even blushed.The reddish cheeks set off his slightly fairer skin, and the eyes that are always gentle and smiling are a little helpless. The body that is frozen in his arms is warm and dizzy, and he wants to kiss him in a strange way. .Thinking of this, my heart stopped beating. What happened to him? I used to think of Ling Hao from time to time, but now I want to kiss a man—I doubt it in my heart, but I still haven’t let go of Ling Hao. , until he felt that Ling Hao in his arms relaxed his body, and wearily said to sleep.

Quietly, she acquiesced in her hug. For the first time, being with Ling Hao not only relaxed but also felt at ease.Although he is a man, he has practiced martial arts since he was a child. His body is flexible and his frame is small, so he is comfortable to hold.After a sleepless night, and no more conversations with Ling Hao, the person in his arms finally couldn't bear the sleepiness until late at night, and he still looked soundly asleep until early in the morning.Warm breath sprayed on his neck, Ling Hao, who had his eyes closed, was defenseless, and he could clearly observe the trembling of his eyelashes close at hand. Before, he only thought that Ling Hao was good-looking, but it was the first time he observed so carefully. Describe it with good looks.Slender and slightly curved phoenix eyes, long eyebrows flying obliquely into the temples, when the face is expressionless, it looks very stern, once the corners of the mouth are raised, the whole facial features soften.Stretching out his hand to touch his cheek, the idea of ​​hell came up again last night, and he was forced to look away from Ling Hao's face, "Bo Fu, don't you like this man Ling Hao?" That's when Gongjin's words came out.Perhaps it was his own different attitude towards Ling Hao. Zhou Yu once thought that he liked Ling Hao. At first, he just thought it was funny. How could his friend think of him so much? He didn’t want to explain this matter at all. Thinking of such absurd things.

Now this situation - the whole person can be said to have been frozen for a long time, could it be said that he is really interested in Ling Hao?The gaze returned to Ling Hao's body, unconsciously sweeping over his chin and neck, this feeling was even worse.He raised his hand and slightly lifted the other's chin. For the first time, he kissed a man.I wanted to try how it felt, but it got out of control, I pried open my teeth and wrapped Ling Hao's tongue, and when he realized what he was doing, he had already inadvertently pressed Ling Hao in his arms. Under the body.Xu Shi was crushed uncomfortably, Ling Hao frowned, and when he opened his eyes and saw himself, he didn't realize anything, "Bo Fu?".With a "thud—" in my heart, I immediately got up from Ling Hao, using an excuse to get up and get out of bed, but when I got up and sat on the edge of the bed, I was in a daze.

He kissed Ling Hao, he had desire for Ling Hao, he, like Ling Hao?A man under Liu Bei's command who hasn't had much contact with him?

Later, facing Gong Jin's natural questioning, the original misunderstanding has now become a reality. The original non-explaining was considered funny, but the current non-explaining has become acquiescing.As the schedule of the Battle of Chibi became tighter, Ling Hao went with Gong Jin as planned. He, who was supposed to be in charge of the overall situation in this battle, did not want Ling Hao to go to this battlefield more and more. He is also extremely loyal, and persuading him to quit is undoubtedly a blow to the other party.This is the dignity of being a general and a man. No matter how selfish I am, I can't take away a person's dignity.For the first time in this life, he was so hesitant about assigning a person to the battlefield. It seemed that since he met Ling Hao, he had always had so many firsts.

Fortunately, Cao Cao was defeated and Ling Hao was unscathed.I am more and more sure that I have a good impression of Ling Hao. My character has always liked to control sovereignty, so since I like it, why don't I ask Ling Hao to stay, even if I am rejected, it doesn't matter.It can be said that as expected, Ling Hao was no longer surprised but frightened. The immediate refusal made him feel a little disappointed, but this is also understandable, after all, no one can accept being suddenly told that he likes him.Fortunately, Ling Hao didn't feel disgusted or resisted. The man's eyes were just very complicated. He would still look worried when he saw that he was injured, and he would still be angry when he saw that he didn't cherish his body. Sometimes he would even be angry at himself. Call him by his first name.Step by step, Ling Hao will not resist so much for some occasional intimate actions. From the initial negation to the later consideration, he does not trap him, and he gives him enough freedom and respect to do it himself. These pay off in the end.

Later, after many days, it can only be said that the situation was complicated, and there were constant frictions between Jingchu and Jiangdong.For the sake of profit, Liu Bei came to Jiangdong again, and Zhongmou and others have always been worried about Jingzhou, which Liu Bei occupied but did not return, and they have no friendship with Liu Bei. If it weren't for Ling Hao, they might have raised their troops to regain the lost ground.I was glad that Ling Hao didn't follow, and I felt more at ease with what Liu Bei did. Unexpectedly, that person broke his plan again - without telling Liu Bei, he dragged his sick body in the rain to deliver life-saving medicine to Gong Jin. He also asked Gongjin not to let him know about this matter, even Gongjin who always put Jiangdong's interests first had compromised, let alone himself.The moment he saw that Ling Hao was safe and sound, he felt a big stone drop in his heart. He ignored the people around him, stepped forward and kissed him. He didn't want to care about other people's eyes anymore. It's okay to say that he has broken sleeves. Regardless of masculinity, he is going to decide on Ling Hao.

Maybe it was because I finally let go of my knots. When I first heard that besides myself, there was a second special man in the heart of the other party. It is undeniable that the irritability came to my heart in an instant, but Ling Hao's next sentence succeeded. Soothing all his dissatisfaction, he said he was willing to try and hoped he would not regret it.It was like a dream, and it took a long time to realize it, regret it?How could he regret it!All behaviors became justifiable, hugging Ling Hao into his arms without any resistance, kissing intimately, the man no longer refused, but just accepted with a blushing face.It was another first time, and he felt that he was in a good mood.

It's a pity that there are always people around Ling Hao who make him feel dangerous, such as Ma Chao and Zhao Yun. Fortunately, Ling Hao doesn't know anything about this, and he already has many steps ahead because of this.It can be said that the feelings for Ling Hao have reached the point where the feet are deep. That parting is more reluctant than ever, but there is no other way. He and he are both in troubled times. As Wuhou, it is impossible for him to give up. Jiangdong is a place, and since Ling Hao is from Liu Bei, it is naturally impossible to stay in Jiangdong forever.

However, after this farewell, there was no news for a long time. I only heard about Liu Bei's conquest and expansion, but rarely heard about the generals under his command, such as Ling Hao.The worry in his heart became more and more serious, and it was clear that Ling Hao did not give him an affirmative answer. The so-called trial... How many uncertain factors are there?Especially when he heard that the man from Xiliang turned to lead troops to Jingchu where Liu Bei was, anxiety and anxiety began to invade. Why has there been no news from Ling Hao for so long?It was so long that he even wanted to go directly to Jingchu.Fortunately, Ling Hao finally came back, although he still carried Liu Bei's order, whether it is reconciliation or asking for help, let's put these aside for now, looking at this familiar person, except for a little tiredness on the face, everything else As in the past.Due to the presence of everyone present, it was difficult to directly respond to Liu Bei's request, and there was no mood swing. After a quick glance at Liu Bei's letter, Ling Hao asked Ling Hao to go back to the post house for the time being.The man was taken aback for some reason, and before leaving, his eyes were slightly closed, making it difficult to see the expression on his face.

After finally sorting out the matter, when he went to look for Ling Hao, he still continued his business-like expression and looked at Ling Hao for a moment, then silently let himself into the room, with a vague look of disappointment on his face. shadow.But the other party didn't say anything in the end and didn't ask any questions, and the title was changed to the unfamiliar "Marquis Wu".What a fool.Watching Ling Hao turn around and pour tea for him, "Why does Marquis Wu bother..." because "I miss you.", no longer teasing the man in front of him.He stepped forward and hugged Ling Hao tightly in his arms, his nose was filled with a familiar smell, the most reassuring smell, the most likable person.I only felt that the expression of the person in my arms was relaxed, and then the expression was slightly embarrassed, and the eyes unconsciously drifted away.With a tense mind, he lifted Ling Hao's chin and kissed it, and his longing for a long time burned like fire in an instant.

That night, he didn't hold back and didn't want to hold back, he wanted Ling Hao, looked at the exhausted person who fell asleep in his arms, and finally let go of the moment, the indescribable love at that time could no longer be described .

However, God always likes to joke with him. The next day Ling Hao started to act abnormally. He thought it was because his not gentle behavior that night made the other party unhappy. He was thinking about how to apologize, but he never expected that Ling Hao would throw The following sentence: He can't be with himself.The reason turned out to be because he still had someone else in his heart, something else—a man!Stop making trouble... How could this be the case, the smile on his face froze for a moment, but he still held the idea that the other party was just joking or deliberately annoyed him, reached out to pull but was silently dodged, and the look of lowering his eyes was suddenly aroused I killed the beast that had been sleeping in my heart for a long time.His people!Someone he likes!She actually wanted to leave herself because of other people!The unconcealable anger and killing intent made Ling Hao's face gradually pale, even if Ling Hao hated him, he would definitely kill that person. "From now on, you don't even think about taking a step out of Jiangdong!", leaving these words coldly and walking away.

Why does Ling Hao treat him like this, and having sex with him is the so-called compensation for guilt?The joy and satisfaction at the beginning was shattered in an instant, Ling Hao, Ling Hao, since the final choice was not her own, then let him erase Ling Hao's choice with his own hands!He didn't see Ling Hao again for a few days, and before going to the battle, he doubled the number of soldiers under house arrest, and ordered no one to release Ling Hao without permission.But what I didn't expect was that my friend, Gong Jin, who knew me best, would let that person go, like a treasure disappeared. For a moment, it can be said that he wanted to kill Zhou Yu directly.He clearly knows how important Ling Hao is to him, even if his emotions turn into possessiveness, it is still a matter between him and Ling Hao, when will it be other people's turn to intervene?

Enduring his anger and impatience, he vowed to bring Ling Hao back, but this time it was impossible.Liu Bei couldn't find Ling Hao, and there was no sign of Ling Hao in Jingzhou City. They only knew that Ling Hao seemed to have disappeared inexplicably, and he didn't mention it to anyone, so they couldn't find him.Anger gradually turned into worry and anxiety as the days passed, until later, news came from Liu Bei's office that Ling Hao committed suicide by throwing himself into the river. Zhuge Liang turned over almost all the rivers and rivers in the territory day and night.Throwing into the river——The note conveying the message slipped from his hand, he couldn’t stand still, he took a few steps back and fell back on the chair in embarrassment, throwing himself into the river...suicide...how could it be...the moment he knew the news, he felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave , Cold from head to toe, even the heartbeat seemed to have stopped.How could that kind, gentle and stoic person commit suicide!Like crazy, he sent all his staff to search for it, but in the end - he didn't find any trace, only Ling Hao's autograph letter brought from Liu Bei, and the word "absolute pen" at the end pierced his eyes, and his heart suddenly ached Nothing to add.

Didn't you say that you have someone you like?Why do you want to seek death?Since you don't want to be with me so much...why did you lie to him in the first place?I'm sorry, he was wrong, is it alright if he lets go, I just beg you not to die when you come back, don't die...don't even leave the last ray of light behind, so that he will have nowhere to rely on in the future.

Since then, my heart has died, and I have nothing to think about.

The Yangtze River flowing in front of me never stops, day after day, it seems that nothing has changed, everything is just as it was first seen.However, the word "as if" is so weak, I will never see that person again, the man who only exists in memory.I don't know when, I like to face this torrent more and more.Sometimes, standing alone by the river, imagining that Ling Hao is lying on the cold bottom of the river at this time, how many times I have the idea of ​​jumping directly, but unfortunately...he is not living for himself, he is for the whole Jiangdong , for tens of thousands of people and soldiers, for monk Zhongmou Xiang.Therefore, every time at this time, I can only smile bitterly, and then say sorry to Ling Hao in my heart, the reason why the river flows endlessly is because it will never return, but I want to turn back, but I can't turn back no matter what.Later, I gradually began to have fear, fearing that one day I would forget Ling Hao's appearance, and I would not be able to remember the things between them clearly. This kind of fear erodes my heart all the time.She painted hundreds of portraits of Ling Hao with her own hands, but every time Gong Jin tried to persuade her, she just hesitated to speak, and finally walked away silently.

Just like this, half a year has passed, it's only half a year, but it makes me feel like a hundred years.As soon as he had accepted the fact that Ling Hao would never appear in his life again, God made another joke for him, a joke that caught him off guard.The news came from the imperial court that Ling Hao was granted the title of imperial censor. I was shocked when I first heard it, but then I gave up my thoughts. I thought it was a person with the same name and surname, but I didn’t know that this "Ling Hao" was the man in my memory. Comparing it with the fact that Ma Chao was appointed General Hussars, I realized how pathetic and ridiculous I was.He did so much for Ling Hao, but after all, he was inferior to that man Ma Chao in every move. When he wanted to die for Ling Hao, Ling Hao didn't tell him anything, and went in and out with Ma Chao in the court.The heart that has been silent for a long time now only feels sad. From the beginning to the present, I have paid so much, what have I got?

There is nothing greater than death, and the only remaining guilt towards Ling Hao is shattered in an instant. This is probably the case of the so-called hatred from love. If he is allowed to see Ling Hao again, what will he do?Ling Hao still owed himself an explanation, even if it was to draw an end point for the two of them, he said to himself in his heart, and finally, he went to Shangdu in person.Why do you have to be entangled in this man Ling Hao, Ling Hao has already treated him like this, why does he still keep entangled?Sometimes I feel that I am bewitched by evil spirits.

I saw Ling Hao again at Cao Cao's banquet, and it felt like a lifetime away, and that person hadn't changed at all.When he bumped into him, his originally indifferent expression became flustered, and his eyes failed to meet his own several times.He should have laughed at himself or poured out all the dissatisfaction, resentment and questioning that had been accumulated in his heart, but only after meeting him did he know what he wanted to do the most, and he still wanted to take Ling Hao back.But Ling Hao pushed his hand away again, opened his mouth and couldn't speak, not even a single explanation, what a good excuse, can everything be covered up without speaking? "Don't forget, you owe me an explanation.".

In fact, it doesn't make sense for Ling Hao to explain or not, and he is really tired.This person has already chosen to be with Ma Chao, so why would he care about his feelings?Perhaps it was the last time I walked together with Ling Hao. Compared with the initial anger and doubts, my mood was unexpectedly calm, which was probably the reason why I decided to let go completely.However, when Ling Hao mentioned the matter of Lu Bu and Ma Chao, he was taken aback. Before he could fully understand the meaning of Ling Hao's words, the man looked straight into his eyes and said word by word: "Actually, I have been I like it very much—" I couldn't hear the last word.Ling Hao's expression was startled suddenly, then his pupils shrank slightly, and finally he stepped forward and pushed himself aside.The accident happened so suddenly, he only remembered turning his head again, only a black horse roared past, and Ling Hao who pushed him away fell to the ground motionless.

My whole body tensed up, and my heart immediately turned cold, "Zixuan?" There was obviously some trill in the voice, but I didn't notice it.He stepped forward to support Ling Hao's head, felt a sticky warm liquid in his hand, and pulled out his hand like a machine. There was a shocking blood stain, dizziness in front of his eyes, and he once again realized what it means to be afraid.This is how he truly felt the horror of death, seeing Ling Hao collapsed lifelessly in front of him with his own eyes.He had already missed Ling Hao once, why did God make such a joke on him again?Say good let go!Sun Bofu, do you want him to die that much?Why do you still come to look for Ling Hao again... Don't think about those messy things anymore, even summoning Hua Tuo to the capital at night, all the worries and panics prove that I can't convince myself to give up Ling Hao.Ling Hao once said that he owed it to himself, but he didn't want this kind of compensation that was paid for with his life!Facing the anger of the two men, it was only at that time that he understood what Ling Hao meant. If anything happened to Ling Hao, he would not be able to forgive himself first of all without the need for the two of them to do anything...

Fortunately——fortunately, there is no danger of life, but the eyes that have always been gentle and gentle have dimmed a lot, and there is clearly a shadow in the pupils, but the reality is dark. It has nothing to do with you, even if I don't leave the mansion today, people who want to kill me will always do it, it's a matter of time.", pretending to be relaxed, it seems to have some meaning to comfort myself.How can there be such a stupid person, how can he let go?I'm afraid I can't let go.In fact, Ma Chao might be the same as himself. He fell in love with a person, but he had to bear the fact that that person couldn't tolerate only one person in his heart.Conflict is conflict, but men and women are different after all, and Ling Hao is just a man... He has no right to ask the other party to be like a woman. Perhaps, when he fell in love with Ling Hao, he was destined to recognize him in this life.

Either way, Ling Hao always has a special place in his heart for himself, he likes him, that's fine.

At least—it's better than having nothing to do with each other in this life and being alone.

But please feel at ease, and share the same quilt with your son.