Hold Your Hand·Xuantian Chaotic Times

Since it was time to wait until Xu time, Ling Hao had no choice but to go back to his residence first.All afternoon, he was not interested in what he was doing, and stayed in the study until the evening before Han Ling came home.

It was Guan Ping who sent her back, and it seemed that he had gone out with Guan Ping early in the morning. "Hey, second brother, have you gone to look for General Zhao?" Ling Hao looked up at Han Ling and sighed, "I went once in the morning, but I was told that Zilong went to the border town yesterday and would not be back until Xushi ", he just didn't understand why Zhao Yun suddenly ran to the border town, logically said that the matter in his hands had nothing to do with the border town, and he didn't hear the news of Liu Bei's dispatch.Just after the friction between the two of them yesterday, Zhao Yun left without saying hello the next day. Although I am not sure whether it was because of yesterday's incident that caused Zhao Yun to be in a bad mood, it is basically impossible for me not to think too much .

"Well, second brother, don't keep frowning. I believe that General Zhao must be busy. Besides, he will be back today. It won't be too late to look for it then." Hanling Ling He stepped forward and hammered Ling Hao's shoulder, and then stretched out his hand to hook the corner of Ling Hao's mouth upwards.Ling Hao smiled helplessly, "I went to see the master today to finish things up. You should prepare earlier. I will go back in a few days. When I go back, I will take the time to go home and report my safety." Han Ling responded obediently. After making a sound, Ling Hao thought for a while, as if he was talking to himself, "It seems that it is time to put your marriage with Tan Zhi on the agenda." Han Ling was taken aback when he heard this, and then cried out, "God! Hey, second brother! Who said I'm going to marry that guy!", Ling Hao caught a glimpse of Han Ling's awkward expression, and knew that she was duplicity, and then he didn't explain further, just said: "An ordinary girl is like you In this way, the children may all go to private schools. The second brother can see that you have feelings for both parties, and you usually fight and fight, so don’t refuse now that it’s business, I will mention it to General Guan before I leave.”Han Ling opened her mouth, and the corner of her mouth twitched for a while, "Okay, okay, second brother can do whatever he wants, anyway, I'm a woman and I can't make the decision.".

It sounded a little dissatisfied, Ling Hao pretended to be sorry when he saw this, "I'm not an ignorant person, if you don't want your second brother to intervene in your own life-long affairs, second brother will naturally not ask too much, if you really don't want this matter I will tell General Guan in advance, so as not to waste time on this matter.” Sure enough, Han Ling became anxious when she heard this, “Wait! I, I didn’t say I disagree—— ", Seeing Ling Hao smiling after finishing speaking, Han Ling instantly realized that Ling Hao was lying to her, "Okay, second brother, you——Ignore you." Watching Han Ling run out of the room The door, Ling Hao shook his head, now that Han Ling's business can be settled, the Han family basically has nothing to worry about.

After approving the documents intermittently, it was only during dinner that Han Ling mentioned that today is the Lantern Festival. In the past few days, so many things have been on his mind, Ling Hao has already forgotten the date. It's almost time to go out to Zhao Yun's mansion now, so I told Han Ling to rest earlier before going out.The overcrowded streets during the day are even more brightly lit at night, especially under the embellishment of various lanterns. No wonder I found so many street vendors selling lanterns when I passed by in the morning.I still remember that many years ago, not long after he came to Liu Bei's command, he spent the Lantern Festival with Guan Ping and Zhao Yun. Although many things happened, Guan Ping didn't know Han Ling at that time, and Lu Bu was still Li Yuan, Sun Ce and him are just ordinary friends, and Zhao Yun still exists like a big brother.Now that the time has passed, so many years have passed in a blink of an eye, things are not people, and now I am separated from Liu Bei...

Thinking about it, I can't help but feel a little emotional. I don't know if Zhao Yun still remembers those things back then.Walking through the familiar streets among the crowd, he stood still in front of the majestic stone lion in front of Zhao Yun's mansion. The guard in front of the door happened to be the same person he saw in the morning. "Is Zilong back?" The guard apologized, "I'm sorry, General Ling, General Zhao hasn't come back yet, why don't you go in and wait for a while?" Ling Hao nodded, walked up the stone steps, and just stepped into the mansion , I heard the sound of horseshoes.Ling Hao paused, then turned around, and saw Zhao Yun appearing in sight riding a white dragon. "Zilong." Ling Hao unconsciously wanted to step forward, but stopped in the next second.Zhao Yun seemed to have been driving for a long time, Bailong snorted under his seat, Zhao Yun got off the horse, held the rein in his hand, reached out and patted Bailong's neck, then looked at Ling Hao, with no special expression on his face mood.

I hope he was thinking too much, "I want to talk to you about something..." Ling Hao smiled lightly.Zhao Yun did not answer, but said to the guard: "You can go to rest today, I will be back later." Seeing that the guard greeted him, he said to Ling Hao: "Let's talk in another place." Ling Hao was stunned, But he saw that Zhao Yun had already led the horse and turned around.

Walking on the street again, the noisy human voice seemed to disappear at this time, only the hoofbeat of the white dragon could be heard.The two of them didn't say anything all the time, Zhao Yun's attention seemed to be on the crowd around him, Ling Hao frowned, it was the first time he felt so speechless. "What else are you looking for?" Zhao Yun asked after a long while, "Isn't it just to spend the Lantern Festival with me?".

Ling Hao smiled wryly, he had completely forgotten that today is the Lantern Festival... "I just want to say what I want to say before I leave." Just to avoid regret, if after today there is no progress, then He can also let it go willingly.Zhao Yun didn't speak any more, Ling Hao tilted his head slightly, looking at Zhao Yun's still indifferent face, the handsome side face was illuminated by various lanterns, his usually gentle and smiling eyes seemed a little far away at this moment.

Just following in Zhao Yun's footsteps, the two of them crossed the block all the way to the outskirts of the city, and the crowds gradually became rarer. After crossing the city bridge, there was a river passing through the city in front of them. A river lantern shining yellow slowly drifted from upstream.A lot of lotus lanterns have been accumulated on both sides of the strait. It can be seen that there should be a lot of people in the upper reaches of the river.Ling Hao was fascinated by the lights in the river, which were on and off. Zhao Yun beside him had already let go of the reins, and sat down on the bank of the river. "Just say what you have to say."

Ling Hao looked away from the water, and also sat down on the river bank.I have to say that the place Zhao Yun chose really relieved his nerves, although at the same time he recalled many old things. "I've thought about what happened yesterday... Indeed, now you don't want to hear my apology and guilt, so today I will finish what I didn't finish yesterday." Zhao Yun didn't say anything after hearing the words, It's just that the eyes moved to Ling Hao.

"Among all people, I spent the longest time with you, from the time we first met until I left a book and left, and you are also one of the people who know my true identity. I am not an ungrateful person, and I know that you My friendship, I know that you have paid a lot all the time. When you said that you like me, I don’t know if I was resisting this kind of same-sex relationship at that time, and I was afraid that you would lose your life in the future. Therefore, the original me I don’t want to accept it.” Speaking of this, I couldn’t help letting out a sigh of relief, “I always thought that I could still treat you as a close friend and a companion after that incident happened, but... I’m sorry, I lied to you and I lied to you. For myself, as long as I think that the person who is always by my side and is willing to help me share my worries and comfort me without asking for anything in return will be disappointed because of his own emotional reasons, I should know in my heart that this is the best result, but I still hope this People don't leave...".Zhao Yun could tell that this was indeed not a lie, but he didn't say anything, instead he turned his eyes back to the river.

"The feelings of the past ten years cannot be expressed clearly in a few words. Maybe I am too used to your consistent tolerance and company, so I don't pay attention. What I owe to Meng Qi is whether I am grateful or like it. The same is true for Bofu. I can't feel at ease. As long as this situation lasts for a day, I will always feel guilty in my heart. Zilong, you know Mengqi and Bofu, but... I have to say it clearly Clearly, I don’t want to hide anything from you. Li Yuan is Lu Bu, who is once again the Marquis of Warmth in the imperial court. He escaped death under Cao Cao, and became my bodyguard by accident. He has been with me for so many years. Walked over, for me, he regained his original identity, entered the court alone, risked his life, and contained Cao Cao. And master... I should respect him, but now I have violated the way of master and apprentice. I really can't give up any of them, because any one of them has paid and endured so much, so, sorry, Zilong, I like you, but I can't give you the only emotion. I I don’t say these things to persuade you or to gain sympathy, you can think that I’m frivolous and wimpy, I don’t care about these things, after all, this is something I caused myself.” Ling Hao’s eyes instantly became serious when he said this Many, "You said that if I really like you, I will try my best to keep you, but I can't do this, not because I don't like you, I like you very much, but because I like you, I can't make you feel wronged or unwilling because of my selfishness." After he said so much, he never raised his head to look at Zhao Yun. This conversation, whether it was a heart-to-heart or a farewell, he didn't want to tell Zhao Yun's expression in advance. Know.

"All of this is due to my side. I will not force you at all. As a man, not a woman, I can't give you anything. Even now, I still feel worthless for them, but I owe you too much." Many, so in order to repay, I can't refuse, and please forgive me."

This was the last sentence in my heart. I somehow felt that I had said everything, and the burden was relieved a lot. Even though Zhao Yun still couldn't forgive him, he admitted it. "That's all I want to say."

Zhao Yun still didn't speak, as if he didn't hear so many words from himself, whether it's good or bad, there will always be a reaction.With Zhao Yun's current state, Ling Hao really couldn't guess what the other party meant. "Don't you think these lamps are beautiful?" Zhao Yun spit out a sentence without a head or tail, and the light and shadow in his eyes seemed to be recalling something.Ling Hao was stunned, and the other party suddenly smiled, "Do you still remember the Lantern Festival that year? Over the years, only that year, we had a good time together for the Lantern Festival." Zhao Yun lowered his head, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, The two fell into silence again, and this was probably the last Lantern Festival for the two of them.

A few minutes later, Zhao Yun stood up from the bank, walked towards Bailong, returned to Ling Hao after a while, and put a box-shaped object in Ling Hao's hand.Ling Hao looked at the things in his hands, and was stunned, unable to speak for a long time. "Last time I walked around the whole street with you. You seem to have a special liking for this one. It's a pity that there are no ready-made stores in the city. There is a good reputation in the border town."The package in my hand is a box of soybean cakes. Although this kind of pastry is called soybean cakes, it has nothing to do with soybeans at all. It just looks a bit like Shaqima in appearance. The reason why Ling Hao liked it at the beginning was not because of other reasons. Just let yourself still have something to remember the modern times. "You... did you go to the border town to buy this?" As if he couldn't believe it, Ling Hao raised his head with surprise in his eyes.Zhao Yun nodded, and watched Ling Hao look at his hand again, "You said you can't be so selfish, so let me choose, but I just want you to be more selfish." He believed that his meaning had been expressed very clearly. Clear.

"You must have done it on purpose." Ling Hao's voice trembled slightly, "I want a selfish Ling Hao, and now this problem comes back to you, throwing the so-called morality aside, even if I have a grievance, please Can you be selfish for once?" Zhao Yun's voice seemed to return to the old days, and those bright eyes stared at Ling Hao tightly, and then slowly opened his hands in the next moment.If it were anyone, it would be a lie to say that he wasn't moved, Ling Hao's smile could hardly be maintained, even though his smile looked more like crying at this time.Accompanied by the sound of well-packaged pastries falling to the ground, Ling Hao hugged Zhao Yun tightly the next moment.

Zhao Yun tightened his arms around him, "I haven't said to give up yet, how could you give up on me first.". "But your attitude these days... I thought it was irreversible." Ling Hao smiled wryly, "I've been waiting for you for so many years, I've been waiting for you all this time, since I never left you, why should I change it? I want to hear what you have to say , it’s just a word of liking.”