[The Phantom of the Opera] Boundary Bridge

Before Enid knocked on Eric's door, she had calmly accepted the changes in her feelings and viewed everything with a slightly pessimistic vision.

Sometimes the greatest journey is the distance between two people.Enid has been wandering for so long, it took her two full years to walk through poverty and wealth, and through thousands of mountains and rivers to come to Paris and Eric.But she was destined to be blocked by him from the door of love, because of the girl named Christine.

When people make choices, it is often difficult to really see the way forward.Most people will, shortly after choosing a path, curse and regret it, while having to drag on.A small number of people choose to turn back, they may not get the chance to choose again, and even regret it again after choosing again, because the pain in life is inescapable, and every road leads to the same goal—every step we take determines the final outcome. The end of our life, our footsteps are heading towards the end point we have chosen.

Fate never knocks or asks.It breaks in.As true for Enid as the witch's presence is, it is also true for Eric's emotions.But there is an inescapable inevitability in the consistent choice. Looking back on her own path, she has jumped from one kind of loneliness to another kind of loneliness.The former princess lived among puppets, and her lonely and thirsty spirit had nowhere to speak.Today's wandering singers can embrace everything in the world, but they can't establish a slightly personal friendship.

That's what loneliness does.Loneliness, eternal loneliness, no one can get rid of its shadow, because loneliness is absolute.In this world, two unrelated souls come together only because of loneliness, and when loneliness develops to the deepest level, it becomes love.Even at this moment, when my heart is filled with hot tenderness and love, but it is filled with a mist of sadness, Enid can easily see through the essence of this love, which is to use her lover to realize her desire to love, Or the desire to escape solitude.

This kind of deformed thing, I don't even know if it can be called love, its production is actually no different from Eric's to Christine.It is an anchor that people look for for their emotions that they cannot release in the extreme loneliness.This anchor is covered by the eruption of emotion, and the appearance of a lover is formed in an instant.It was just a struggle to get rid of loneliness, but the deep feelings contained in it cannot be denied, and the contradiction is here.

Enid is well aware that Eric and Christine cannot be in love, that their admiration for each other—Eric to the Light, Christine to the Angel of Music—is precisely the furthest from understanding emotion.For love based on loneliness, the next step is to understand each other.Both Eric and Christine deified each other too much. This deification made Christine's heart completely broken after discovering that the "angel" was the "Phantom", and she threw herself into Raul's arms completely, which also made Eric seek to gain light. , and even make the decision to give up being heard—that is, to completely block the possibility of being understood.Under such circumstances, how could they love each other?

But this is not to say that she enshrines her love so noblely.On the contrary, when Enid looks out of the window and sings, it is this love, and its essential loneliness, that is recalled.She thought of the lonely stages she had gone through.What exactly do people face when they are alone?Some people are gods, some people are themselves, and she belongs to the latter.During those years in the Duke's Mansion, she always believed that no one could save herself except her.To the young princess, God was false.But after that?

She constantly strengthens her cognition of herself while wandering, and constantly enriches her inner self image.A man can endure any kind of life as long as he knows what he is living for.She believed in this so much, but how could anyone endure that extreme loneliness?Cut off from the whole world, it is almost impossible to maintain an interactive connection... Enid needs such a person to appear, so that she can break this long-term deadlock of loneliness.Otherwise, she would either go crazy because of loneliness and dry up her life in craving, or die because of loneliness and live her abundant life as a song of worship.Not Eric, there will be someone else.

Maybe even the deepest love can't overcome the ultimate loneliness. Desperate loneliness is everyone's original sin.And for those extraordinarily sensitive and rich hearts, it is the original sin of original sin.But people always struggle with hope, how can Enid be an exception?She is too aware of how deformed her love is. She loves him only because she needs to love him, not in a normal relationship. I need him only because I love him... But she is indeed in love with Eric, And there can be no one else.

This kind of deformed love will not be happy, especially when the other protagonist in this love also obsessively loves other people abnormally, this is almost an inevitable tragedy.But Enid voluntarily falls into this tragedy, almost as a martyr.Her tragedy is neither lofty nor humble, it is just a personal struggle in the grand destiny.But when someone like Eric appeared in front of her, how could she not fall in love with him?

Enid has seen so many numb, small and trivial souls, and the loneliness of her first 17 years of life was shaped by these souls.And the more she saw during the journey, the more painful it was, because it was so difficult in this world to find a soul that matched her broad and clear soul.Her lonely soul walks alone until she meets Eric.That deep, dark, majestic and magnificent soul!That incomparably sharp but strong ego!She was almost eagerly looking forward to the appearance of such a soul, and this was the reason why she was willing to stay before.Under such circumstances, how could Enid not fall in love with Eric?

Even if she is destined to suffer from it.

Enid knocked on Eric's door, and the first thing she said to him was, "I've stayed too long."

In her breast pocket was the bloody handkerchief.On the pure white veil, the blood stain was like a red rose.It is not difficult to predict the withering after blooming to the extreme.

The author has something to say: * Enid is not going to confess for the time being, she is rather pessimistic, and wants to see Eric's attitude first.But then I will still fight for myself.

*Enid doesn't knock on Eric's door for an entire chapter, looking up at the sky.