[The Phantom of the Opera] Boundary Bridge

After Egmont said those words and left with a gloomy face, this small corner of the opera hall suddenly fell into a strange atmosphere.No one spoke for a short time, but in the awkward silence, everyone had different thoughts.

Viscount Raul Shani was still able to calmly think about the information the other party just revealed.He speculates on the relationship between Enid and Eric from Enid's identity, trying to find out the entry point of "The Phantom of the Opera".But his lover, Christine, didn't think so much—although the young and innocent girl knew it was impolite, she still couldn't help secretly looking at Enid's calm and clean side face.Based on feeling, Christine believed that the relationship between Enid and Eric would not be the kind of transactional physical relationship.Although she almost instinctively resisted when she heard the term "composer Eric's mistress", when this identity was substituted for Enid, the resistance disappeared.

Christine didn't know where her confidence came from. Her contact with Enid was actually limited.But with intuition, with the strongest intuition, she could feel the purest confidantship between these two people, the mutual attraction of souls.This kind of attraction is even stronger than the relationship between her and Phantom in the early years, because the latter has some seductive factors after all, and there was also an obvious teaching relationship between her and Phantom at that time.But between Enid and Eric, the mutual attraction of souls is more precious and better on the basis of equality. Christine feels that Eric treats Enid with an unconscious cautiousness—— That kind of cherishing may hinder further development, but it connects their hearts together.Sometimes she even has a tinge of jealousy, but Kristen Daye is always a good, good girl.She wouldn't believe what was said about mistresses, after all, except for Eric's palpable esteem—who could possibly be worthy of Enid?

Yes, worthy.Christine never thought that one day she would use this word to describe another girl of the same age... She didn't even care about Enid's possible identity as the Archduke Egmont said, because she would naturally feel that that identity Enid's temperament is an obstacle, and any identity constraints in the world are an obstacle to her.Enid was so peaceful and gentle, her peace was almost holy.How could such Enid fall into the world because of the love of mortals?At least Kristen couldn't imagine that scene.Enid should stand there with an eternally peaceful smile, moving everyone who sees it, without revealing a single mortal, every part of herself to be admired and admired of.

But Christine didn't know that at this moment, Enid's heart was far less calm than her appearance.

The girl with blond hair and blue eyes has wisdom and gentleness far beyond ordinary people. The former makes her gain inner peace, and the latter helps her absorb the happiness in life.But this does not mean that Enid will not feel pain—her pain is the same as the usual tranquility, and it is double that of ordinary people, or even more intense.

Her pain comes from her wisdom, from her strong cognition of herself and her incompatibility with the world. The philosopher said that being a part of society is a kind of misfortune, and being excluded by society is another kind of misfortune.In order to avoid the former, Enid chose self-exile, while Eric switched to the embrace of the former because of the latter, and they suffered essentially the same kind of pain.

Once, Enid thought that when she tended to weaken her connection with society infinitely, and only enjoyed the meager kindness and appreciation of singing that she met by chance, then she could escape those two things except bear the unspeakable loneliness. misfortune.But she overestimated her ability to bear loneliness—it was not lonely and speechless loneliness, but a fire that could burn and howl in her heart, making her eager to confide, to confide this long-standing feeling.

It is difficult to define that feeling with exact words, it may be long-term loneliness, it may be the desire to communicate with others, it may be family affection, it may be love, it may be none of them, or it may be all of them.In short, when Egmont's appearance awakened her memories of the long past—actually not so long ago, Enid's long-suppressed emotions were completely awakened.She can no longer control herself, she needs a relief, she wants to love someone or be loved by someone, so as to complete her inner satisfaction.This spiritual urgency forced her to either immediately project her feelings on someone, or leave the secular civilization far away, and use the loneliness of the wilderness to re-freeze the group of emotions she was eager to confide in.There is no second choice.But Enid didn't realize this at the moment.

No matter how intelligent a person is, he can't see himself clearly. Enid just felt that the suppressed emotions in her heart spewed out with the memories Egmont called up, and it was hard to contain—but she finally suppressed them forcibly, so that Pain, with tears, with smiles.

The moment she made a choice, she voluntarily gave up almost all of her personal relationships with the world—if possible, Enid hoped that she believed in God as devoutly as her mother, so that at least the relationship between her and God There is also a layer of personal connection, which is crucial.It is a pity, however, that Enid does not have that kind of concentrated religious fantasy. She is unshakable in her self-cognition. The image of God gave her comfort.The object of her dialogue is ego, not God.This seems deviant, but Enid's gaze is far more compassionate than any believer, and her temperament is far more holy than any mortal.

But she is still human after all, needing love more than lovers, needing personal relationships more than general public relationships-and this is the source of pain.

"Sorry, excuse me." Suddenly, Eric said.

From now to now Eric's face has been astonishingly ugly, but when he glanced at Enid from time to time, he was gentle and concerned.He even instinctively turned sideways to block Christine's sight. Although the opera singer's eyes did not contain malicious speculation, the gaze itself was a kind of interference to Enid.And there are more people in the hall who witnessed the turmoil just now, looking at Enid with obscene and malicious, frivolous and even lustful eyes-how dare they?How dare those fat pigs do this?Eric could hardly control the tyrannical desire in his heart. In this familiar opera house, where the Phantom of the Opera has become a place of terror for countless nights-but fortunately, the worry about Enid overwhelmed this strong desire. desire for revenge.Eric just said sorry to Shani and Christine in a hurry, and hurriedly pulled Enid away from the stairs, not even having time to respond to Christine's worried "wait—"

He knew where the lounge was upstairs, and the Phantom of the Opera knew everything about the opera house.Eric didn't notice that the intensity of the emotion made his hands shake so badly that he couldn't even look back at Enid.

The author has something to say: * Enid and Eric have lived an extraordinary life.Their love is first based on the understanding of each other, and then because of the fermentation of loneliness, the loneliness has become the love that must be bet when it reaches the deepest level.Enid needs love because of her long spiritual loneliness (it’s just a synonym, it’s a collection of multiple emotions)—and Eric has chosen to bet his feelings on Christine in the previous long loneliness.

*Enid’s feelings cannot be suppressed in this chapter, Eric’s love in the next chapter | Desire to awaken hehehe