Double Bracelets

The hospital's diagnosis is actually very simple: diabetes.Jiang Tongmin accidentally broke his calf. Surprised that his calf was broken so easily, Mr. Jiang was sent to the hospital for an examination, only to find out that he had diabetes, and the situation was already very dangerous—not only did it affect wound healing, infection, and Bone density also affected his kidneys, and even his eyes began to have problems.

He himself is very optimistic, thinking that it is no big deal, since he is diabetic, it is enough to lower blood sugar.But the hospital still worriedly notified the Jiang family siblings. After all, the test results showed that the body of Mr. Jiang, a government dignitary, had been severely damaged by the rise in blood sugar, and he himself was so unobtrusive that he vaguely resisted treatment. His posture—he always felt that his fall was not serious, and he asked for an operation as soon as possible. The most important thing he cared about every day was when he would be discharged from the hospital.

Jiang Xijie asked for leave, and Jiang Xijun happened to be at home, so the two sisters set off together urgently.Originally, Jiang Xijie might go to Hong Kong for a business trip in April. The timing of this leave is delicate, and the reason is undeniable. The lowercase letters on it do not want her to go to Guangzhou, but there is nothing I can do. I only hope that she will come back one day, and don’t go directly from Guangzhou to Hong Kong. .

It's funny, Jiang Xijie thinks, it's not like I can't work without me.She has such a humble self-awareness.When she got on the train, she glanced at her younger brother who had been estranged for several years, and suddenly felt that his growth had become very strange to her in the past few years.

"Sister, here." Jiang Xijun first helped her take off her coat and folded it away, and then took out the medicine that Zhao Maqian told her to bring to Miss San from her bag. No, Mother Zhao suspected that she was either infected in the hospital or was too busy and weak, so she boiled Chinese medicine and brought it to her, and told the fourth young master to drink the medicine no matter what, so that the lady could not miss it.When I arrived in Guangzhou, there would be someone to meet me, but the medicine on the way must not be missing.

Jiang Xijie was annoyed by the nagging, and suddenly found that she, like her father, had the attitude of avoiding medical treatment because of laziness.Before she could reflect on herself, her attention was immediately attracted by her brother's thoughtfulness.Before he knew it, Jiang Xijun, who had made troubles and spent time in prison without repentance, why did he become such a handsome young man after staying in Beiping for a while, so gentle and considerate that he felt strange to himself?It is not uncommon to say that he was so gentle and polite in the first place, after all, he was his father's own son and was taught by his family.But it seems that he has never been so obedient to his only sister. Did he realize that he did something bad, or did he feel remorse?

"Let me tell you," she swallowed the sweet and bitter medicinal soup, "how did you become so considerate? Why didn't you tell me what bad things you did?" It was right not to tell, even if it wasn't because of fear. Getting beaten—to this day, Jiang Xijie doesn't mind beating her at all, she thinks she can beat her to her 22s and [-]s. "Huh? Don't you think I'm too much to do?" Jiang Xijun put his hands behind his head, and he sat on the opposite seat on the outside. The carriage was also empty, so he put his boots on the seat on her sister's side. , "I'm old too, I can't play around anymore. I didn't know it when I was young, and I didn't understand it before. Now I know that although I am the youngest, I am also a man, and I can't lose to my sister. I can't help if I can't help." Jiang Xijie Puchi smiled, "Yes, yes, you are also [-] years old. After staying home for so long, what are you planning to do? Those who join the army at home join the army, and those in foreign firms, what can you do?" There is no way out for graduates majoring in law in this day and age. People like Jiang Xijun have some family connections, so they can enter the government and find a good job.But he looked like that, and he knew it, and he definitely wouldn't want to have anything to do with Nanjing-it's too late to hide.

"I..." Jiang Xijun raised his head, looked at the top of the carriage, and let out a long breath.

There are some things that I cannot let you know.

As soon as the whistle blows, the platform is out of sight, and people are always walking on the road of being belatedly aware of departure.

In the warm Guangzhou, Wang Jiyue took off her shoes and leaned on the couch to read a book at her uncle's house, which was a bit like the beauties in Western oil paintings.She is about to graduate, and the last semester is mainly an internship, and she finished the internship before others, and there are no classes in the last semester, only one paper left.So you can go back in no hurry and stay in Guangzhou to rest.On the face of it, it's not that no students go back, but she doesn't want to—whether it's the nuns' deliberate white eyes or good-natured curiosity, she doesn't want to face it.And she didn't want to face the thick stack of Jiang Xijie's letters in the dormitory, which she read and read again and again. The atmosphere in the whole dormitory building became depressing, and the whole of Hong Kong was depressing. She didn't want to go.

Always walking into a dilemma.He fled to Lingnan with all his heart, and now there is no way to escape.Before the Chinese New Year, she especially thought about several possible destinations after graduation: If she wanted to continue to stay in Lingnan, staying in school to teach was the only choice. The problem was that she was lazy after arriving in Hong Kong because of her self-motivation, and her grades were not so good. In terms of objective conditions, I’m afraid it’s a bit of a problem; subjectively, she also hates the dull and oppressive white group in the school, and knows that she can’t fit in; if she wants to formally find a teaching job and start to realize her life ideal, Then it would be great to go back to Shanghai—the girl's middle school wrote her a letter, and Yang Xizhen really loved her to death.But if she really wants to go back, she has to face Jiang Xijie.

Those letters seemed extremely sad, so sad that she felt that she should jump the Pearl River to apologize.In the letter, Jiang Xijie first continued to confess her love, and then apologized. At the beginning, she didn't mention her anger and displeasure at not telling her and not cheating her; after two months, she probably became anxious because she had no news at all. It's the content of the apology. She is like a deer that has lost its habitat. She said repeatedly, you can hate me and blame me, you can beat me and scold me, but please don't ignore me, don't contact me, and don't drive me away.

Don't drive me away, let me stay on the edge of your territory, okay?I just want to see you, I just want to see you.

She said, it doesn't matter if you don't accept me in the future, you can resent me as much as you want in your heart, but please hate me as much as you want, and don't think it's your responsibility—she knows herself this way, and she understands that she will do everything first Find your own reasons—you just hate me, and I should take all the responsibilities, so you will feel better, right?They are also such similar people, they want to bear everything by themselves, let the other party resent themselves calmly, forget and let go easily.She wrote again, no matter how much you hate me, please don't drive me out of your life, I want to be with you, even if you only let me watch you from a distance, please don't leave.

She didn't use "abandoned", and she might feel that she should be taboo and cast a mouse.On the contrary, Wang Jiyue felt that this was no different from abandonment.If I hadn't known your intentions, I wouldn't have betrayed you, so naturally I don't care about abandoning you.Now I know that there is neither a clear rejection nor an affirmative acceptance, only you and I are placed in the wilderness of a dilemma, exiled far away alone.

Then Jiang Xijie became more and more desperate, and seemed pessimistic that Wang Jiyue would not go back. In the last few letters, she babbled about her current situation, how her work was, how her family was, and how she spent her daily life. good posture.At the end, I started to say, you may be tired of me, from the very beginning, to my reckless confession, to the endless letters now.I shouldn't pursue too much, after all, I'm forcing you to do something you can't do.I just hope you are happy and that you can still remember me somewhere in your heart.

I still remember me somewhere in my heart, ten years, 20 years, 30 years, occasionally leaving a dull moment, leaving me and your past.There was no "us" then either, just two people who hadn't seen each other in a long time and probably never would.

Jiang Xijie may have accepted this result from the bottom of her heart: she doesn't love her, so she can't give her even the most unanimous affection.She hopes that she loves her, just as she loves herself, even if the degree is different, even if she always loves herself more.Willing to give endlessly and only ask for simple returns.But this long period of blankness and indifference finally made her feel that this was impossible, it was all wishful thinking and forcing herself to do something that was completely impossible.

Then there was no letter, leaving only a large blank, just like what Wang Jiyue gave her before, the blank unknown and absence for her to guess.I received a card from Jiang Xijie during the New Year, and it was simply a New Year greeting.She sent it to Wang's house with great heart, but she was unwilling to let go of her after all, like a deer injured by an arrow shot by a hunter, who didn't know whether to run away or stay.Is it against the nature of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages, or does it think that the pursuit marked by pain is what it seeks in its life.

I am most afraid that there is a sequence in the order, but the time is not willing to start again. If it is late, it is too late.Wang Jiyue looked at the greeting card, the words were familiar with the flying and unrestrained Zhao Mengfu and cursive English, and the signature was of course more familiar.Sometimes she feels that she can tell her current mood from Jiang Xijie's writing, such as the original notes - if the writing in this note is more regular and close to regular script, it proves that she was calm that day and her mood was not disturbed during class; But if she is close to the line, then she is in a turbulent mood, if she does not hide her pen, she is in a good mood, and if her pen is cautious, she is unhappy and angry.

In front of her, she was always showing joy and anger.Including good handwriting.Those letters, however, gradually did not look special, and even turned into a well-behaved copybook in the end.She is willing to wrap her heart completely, refrigerate and isolate it.Responsibility, perception, and connection are packaged together, taken away from oneself, and sealed back to one's heart.

Maybe,

She looked at the French-style courtyard in front of her, where the breeze was blowing and it was very warm.

I have lost you.Even if I want to repay you now, and want to tell you that I can try to love you and take responsibility like you love me, do you already think that it is impossible for me?You are in too much pain, so you choose to be deaf.This is the punishment I deserve.I will do what you want, because I lost you, and I will always remember you.I could have thought it was your revenge on me, but after reading your letter, I realized that you will not revenge me because you love me too much.

During the holidays, Wang Chanyue once asked her sister if she had a conflict with Jiang Xijie?She was startled and asked if Jiang Xijie had said something to her when she was in Shanghai.When asking this question, she wished to hear Jiang Xijie's anger and complaints.But Wang Chanyue gave her a blank look, "Sister Jiang didn't. I just came to ask you because she didn't feel right. Sister, what did you do to her? I think you have a lot of things that you don't tell us or her. It's like talking. It's fine if you don't tell us, and you don't tell Sister Jiang, but you have some big plan to keep it secret?"

She asked, what's wrong with Jiang Xijie, doesn't she look right?Wang Chanyue even rolled her ugly eyes, saying what the hell do you two usually talk about, sister Jiang looks haggard and not very happy.Like a gloomy sky during a typhoon.

Wang Jiyue closed the book, no one was around, she was in a daze at ease, indulged in longing.In fact, last night she dreamed that Jiang Xijie died, dreamed that Jiang Xijie drowned in the cold sea, looked at her with a beautiful smile of despair, and slowly sank to the bottom of the water.