you are the one I love.

Gu Siyan was taken aback for a moment, and came over by chance.But Cheng Xueyan didn't respond immediately.

because……

Everything that happened now felt like a dream to her, and she had never been so dazed like this moment.

Always felt……

scared.

She was afraid that all the beauty in front of her eyes would disappear in the next second, that she would return to the dark and cold world in her heart, and that... she would lose Cheng Xueyan again.

"What's the matter? Why didn't you speak?" Suddenly there was no sound again, and Cheng Xueyan was a little dissatisfied, "I said something so domineering, you should have something to say, you have... kept silent, I would think... you dislike……"

"I like it." Gu Siyan's voice was not sonorous and forceful, but it made Xueyan feel her firm mood invisibly, "I like you very much, and everything related to you. I like it very much. .”

This is simply a confession, okay?

Which woman would be unhappy when she heard such words?

These words stopped in his ears, Cheng Xueyan was very happy now, okay?Smiling like a child eating honey, silly, but only for Gu Siyan.

"Go to bed early? When I see you tomorrow, I don't want to see you have dark circles." Gu Siyan joked with a smile.

"Okay. Then you should go to bed early, and when I see you tomorrow, you are not allowed to have dark circles." Cheng Xueyan countered.

"Yes." Then she smiled and hung up the phone.

When I was about to go to sleep after taking up the cable, I heard someone knocking on the door, "Come in." Gu Siyan could probably guess who it was.

Besides her dear sister, who else could have such a big night?

The reason why she was so sure was that after the knocking stopped, Gu Siyan realized that the knocking sound was three knocks first, followed by two knocks, with a fixed rhythm.

And this sense of rhythm... made her inexplicably familiar.

Also... the secret between her and Gu Nianxi.

Sure enough, Gu Nianxi opened the door and walked in in her pajamas.In fact, she didn't even realize that she was using that method when she knocked on the door. Maybe...it was a habit she had when she was a child, and she had no way to quit it.

"It's so late, why don't you go to bed? Find me...do you have something to do?"

"Hmm... that's it."

"Come on." Gu Siyan sat on the bed, patted the seat next to her, and motioned for Gu Nianxi to get on the bed and come to her side.

"..." Gu Nianxi didn't nod or shake her head. After a few seconds of pause, she walked over and sat next to her elder sister.

At that moment, I was a little panicked.

It's still the same room, the same location, the same words, and even the same actions.There is also the same sister, and the same self.

But... a lot of things have changed.

She remembered things from her childhood.

Whenever she has troubles, is unhappy or feels scared, she will sneak out of her room, and then knock on the door of her elder sister's room, knocking at a fixed rhythm, and her elder sister will let her in, and then Let her do it by her side.

"..."

"..."

After Gu Nianxi sat down, she remained silent and didn't say anything, so Gu Siyan didn't ask, because she couldn't figure out exactly what Gu Nianxi wanted to say, so she was waiting for her to say it, if she didn't say it , There is no need to ask her what she doesn't want to say.

"I..." Gu Nianxi was a little hesitant, and seemed to be a little embarrassed, "Sister...Actually...am I being self-willed?"

"Since you're asking me like that... it means that you already have your own answer in your heart, right?" Seeing her sister's troubled look, Gu Siyan answered her with dedication, "My answer... …would make you change your mind?"

"...I...I don't know. So..."

"That's why you want to ask my opinion?" Gu Siyan took over her sister's hesitant words. ,

Gu Nianxi nodded.A face of seriousness and... expectancy.

"If you let me say..." Gu Siyan looked at Gu Nianxi's expectant eyes, and said seriously, "I...don't think you are self-willed. What's more...as your sister, even if you It doesn't matter if you are willful, you have the right to be willful, if you want to be willful, it doesn't matter."

Generally speaking, Gu Nianxi should be happy when she hears her sister say something that sounds like she is pampering her so much, but now she is not happy at all, instead she is like a deflated ball, "that is, Say you think I'm capricious too..."

"Pfft," it was... a very dignified atmosphere, but Gu Siyan couldn't help but burst out laughing for some reason.There is no way, the person sitting in front of her, no... to be precise, is her own sister, really... so cute.

"Ah—old sister, I'm so depressed, and it's so obviously depressed, why... how can you still laugh! And you can still laugh! Your dear sister is so sad, and you are still like this! It's too much!" Gu Nianxi protested against her elder sister's shameless behavior, protest!

"Okay, okay, I'm sorry, it's my fault, it's my sister's fault. But..." Gu Siyan said with a serious tone, "I really think that you are not willful at all."

Gu Nianxi raised her head slightly and looked at her sister's face that was somewhat similar to hers, and she continued to say, "Although... it's not that you haven't been willful before, but in my opinion, it's been a long time It's a thing of the past. You are indeed very willful, but that is a thing of the past and has nothing to do with the present."

Gu Nianxi opened her mouth, although... being praised by such words is not a compliment, she was still a little happy in her heart, but she couldn't help but want to say a rebuttal, but she didn't expect to say a word yet, I heard her elder sister say again, "I know what you want to say. I only have one thing to tell you, impulsiveness does not mean willfulness. Everyone has impulsiveness, and everyone has a time when they can't control their emotions. It doesn’t matter what kind of experience you have or how old you are, it has nothing to do with your age. You have done a good job.”

Gu Nianxi lowered her head again.

She couldn't let go of what happened when she bumped against her grandfather in the study just now.

Obviously...she can do better.If... At that time, if I didn't contradict my grandfather... It would be fine.

It was the same before she came in to find her sister, she came after talking on the phone with Cheng Yufei.

In that phone call, she said very little, except to tell Cheng Yufei not to worry about going to bed early, she didn't say anything more. The call time was not long, and she hung up the phone after a while.

For the first time, she felt that she had no confidence in herself.

Just like what her grandfather said, even if Gu Nianxi can tell clearly that she really likes Cheng Yufei, then she can be sure that Cheng Yufei treats her... the same way.

I have to say, Mr. Gu's sentence, "She has been with a few men before, but she has never been with a girl before, except you." A thorn in Gu Nianxi's heart , she couldn't pull it out by herself.

It's not that Gu Nianxi doesn't trust Cheng Yufei, it's because she doesn't trust herself.

She couldn't figure out why even if Cheng Yufei liked girls, why that person happened to be herself.I like Cheng Yufei because she is indeed excellent, but what about me?

I have no confidence in myself, I don't care about my family, and I don't care about the people I like...

I really feel like a failure.

"You shouldn't put too much pressure on yourself." Gu Siyan patted her sister on the shoulder, and then said, "What I mean is...you don't need to, and you shouldn't blame all your mistakes on yourself. These are not things you need to bear."

Gu Nianxi still buried her head down, sinking into a deep sense of frustration.

"If you're blaming yourself for contradicting grandpa," Gu Siyan stretched out another hand, forcing her to look up, "rather than regretting what you've done wrong If you are not responsible, why not come to some practical things, such as spending more time with grandpa, drinking morning tea with him, playing Tai Chi or something, or if you are worried about his physical condition, you can ask the family doctor to come over to see him immediately."

Gu Nianxi just looked at her elder sister, her eyes filled with words, "You know everything?"

Gu Siyan nodded, and then said, "At least, in my opinion, these things are more practical than regret and self-blame. And you should also understand that what grandpa needs...is never our regret and self-blame. Blame." Gu Siyan's voice suddenly became a little low, her tone was a little low, her eyes were clearly looking at her sister, but it seemed that she was not seeing her, or... it was not just her, but also... the one from before. , the ignorant self.

"What he wants...probably is nothing more than us as family members, as his granddaughter's...accompaniment."

It took a long time for Gu Siyan to understand this truth. Seeing her grandfather getting older and his hair graying, she hoped that it would not be too late now.

Gu Nianxi just nodded vigorously.Eyes start to turn red.

I feel sad when I think of the thing that made my grandfather angry because I was too impulsive.

He, Gu Rusheng, his grandfather, is really old.

The tree wants to be quiet but the wind keeps on, and the child wants to support but the kiss does not wait.

With all care, hope, it's not too late.