you are the one I love.

Gu Rusheng took a deep breath, and calmed down his previous anger a little bit. After he took a breath, he sat down again with Zhang Yan's support.

Zhang Yan poured a glass of water and handed it to Mr. Gu. Gu Rusheng took a sip and said, "Okay, you two have grown up too. You're not kids anymore." Then he coughed twice.

Gu Siyan took a few steps forward, and Gu Nianxi naturally did the same. He opened his mouth and asked, "Grandpa! Are you okay?" They said in unison, and then the two sisters looked at each other tacitly, and turned their heads to look at their grandfather at the same time.

Before Gu Rusheng had time to answer, he took the medicine that Zhang Yan had brought over, took another sip and said, then waved his hands and said, "Small things, don't get in the way."

The two sisters are not fools, so naturally they wouldn't believe it. Gu Siyan immediately raised her head, looked at Zhang Yan who was standing next to Gu Rusheng, and said, "Uncle Zhang, didn't you say that Grandpa is fine? Why is he coughing so badly? Let the family doctor come to show grandpa, and the medicine that grandpa took just now is—”

"—I'm fine." Gu Rusheng directly interrupted Gu Siyan's questioning, "It's nothing serious, it's just that my throat is a little uncomfortable recently. Don't blame Zhang Yan."

"I didn't mean to blame Uncle Zhang. I just..." Gu Siyan didn't continue to say the following words. For some reason, she couldn't say anything.

She was just... worried about her grandfather's situation.

Sometimes, the words of concern are clearly on the lips, but there is no way to say them.

I don't know if it's a lack of courage or a moment of speechlessness.

Gu Siyan lowered her head and said nothing.

"Okay. What happened this time," Mr. Gu paused, but said in a slow tone, "Forget it. You two, don't mess around like this again next time."

"Hmm." The two sisters responded.

The study suddenly fell silent, a complete silence.There were obviously people, but they didn't speak.

Zhang Yan didn't dare to say it. If Mr. Gu told him to shut up, he shouldn't say anything more.

Gu Nianxi was watching, thinking about what to say.

Gu Siyan's lips seemed to be stuck together, she didn't know what to say, and she didn't know what to say.

Ever since her parents passed away, she has insisted on leaving this family, and she has been away for so many years in a blink of an eye.Although she is so familiar with everything about this family, every plant, every tree, every brick and every tile has once sheltered her from the wind and rain. It is her home and the home she can escape from, but after the death of her parents, , everything... has changed.

All things have become strange.

Even... her relationship with her grandfather is the same.

no longer close.Never come close either.

Actually... She didn't hold grudges about her grandfather because of the slap Gu Rusheng slapped her back then and the words he blamed.It's just... She doesn't mind, she's afraid that her grandpa will mind.

Although now... I know the truth about the death of my parents back then, that is to say, it was not caused by her willfulness.But...even if it was because of Cheng Qiming's few words that her parents went to sea and died, but after all...her waywardness back then was the original instigator.

It would be fine if... she wasn't so capricious.

If... she wasn't so self-willed, her parents wouldn't have gone out to find her in person because they were worried about her, and they wouldn't have followed up with the series of things that followed, even if they weren't directly caused, but she was...indirectly killed My parents'... murderer.

Every time she thought of this, she felt her heart was heavy, her chest was heavy, she couldn't breathe, and her mood would become much lower.

Yes, that's right, she didn't continue to escape now.Because she knows that as long as she doesn't avoid and face up to this matter, she can face up to her guilt and the guilt in her heart.

Even the death of her parents was not a direct result of her.It just reduced the guilt that had been hidden in my heart for so many years, but it never disappeared.

The longer time passed, the heavier the guilt on his shoulders became.

"Back then..." Gu Rusheng said suddenly, but his eyes were not erratic. His eyes were not on Gu Siyan and Gu Nianxi, and he didn't know who he was looking at. Instead, he seemed to be recalling something, and he spoke very slowly. , "The matter between Chengyang and Yan Xi... I blamed you."

Gu Siyan's eyes widened, and she looked up at her grandfather, only to see him continue to say, "The things I said back then were said out of anger. I shouldn't blame everything on you body. Their death...was an accident." After so many years, Gu Rusheng also thought clearly.She has already...accepted the fact that her son and daughter-in-law died.

He is indeed... Gu Siyan should not be blamed.

"It's not your fault." In fact, this sentence, not long after Gu Siyan left the Gu family, as early as many years ago, he should... wanted to tell his granddaughter, but he has never been able to say it, maybe it's La I can't keep my face down, maybe... it's because I'm ashamed in my heart.To actually blame this...on a teenager who is only in his teens, he must be too confused.

Gu Siyan raised her head, but lowered it again, her eyes looked at the ground, tears just fell down, she didn't wipe it, and she didn't make a sound, but adjusted her breathing, not wanting to be found out or to be caught People noticed that she was crying.

Originally thought that upon hearing this, Gu Siyan felt that she should refute. She wanted to say, no, no, it was my fault in the first place. If it wasn't for my willfulness, nothing would happen to my father and mother.She should have said that... originally.

But when she really heard her grandfather say such words, she wanted to cry, and Gu Siyan realized at this moment... It turns out that in her heart, apart from guilt and self-blame, she has always... longed to be loved... forgive.

I want to get out of the shadow of my parents' death and the pain of being blamed by my family.

"It's not your fault. I was so angry that I blamed everything on you, as well as the Cheng family girl. None of you are at fault. The fault is all on me, the old man, and has nothing to do with you." After so many years, he has already seen clearly the relationship between Gu Siyan and Cheng Xueyan.

If we talk about the anger at the beginning, besides the death of his son and daughter-in-law, there is also...the granddaughter who I was once proud of, actually said that she liked a girl and was with that girl up.

For a person in the 40s, this is simply ridiculous. In his era, men and women always fell in love and got married. Where is there any nonsense about girls being with girls?

So from the very beginning, Gu Rusheng believed that this so-called "like" was absurd, and also felt that his granddaughter must be just confused and confused. After a while, this feeling would be forgotten. After going abroad, Gu Rusheng became more determined in his mind.

Although Gu Siyan left the Gu family, Mr. Gu never mentioned the matter of letting her go home because of his anger. Later... although he understood that Gu Siyan should not be blamed, he couldn't speak because he couldn't hold back his face. So many days in those years allowed him to see clearly the relationship between Gu Siyan and Cheng Xueyan.

Even after Gu Siyan left the Gu family, Mr. Gu still kept an eye on her movements, but found that she had never had any private contact or closeness with any man, not even a woman...nor.He thought it was because Gu Siyan had no intention of dating anyone, but he still did not give up and sent someone to check Cheng Xueyan's movements.

Never dated anyone again, neither man nor woman.Even if it's just a little bit closer, it never happened.

Since the year when Gu Siyan left China, Cheng Xueyan has been like this.

Unconvinced, Gu Rusheng even sent someone to pretend to be an excellent, wealthy and young entrepreneur to offer an olive branch to Cheng Xueyan. can help.

But Cheng Xueyan's answer was a resolute rejection.

At that moment, all of Gu Rusheng's firmness began to loosen, or even collapse.He began to think about his thoughts, whether... it was wrong from the beginning.So he has been secretly watching the movements of the two of them.

In the end, he had to admit it.

My granddaughter and the girl from the Cheng family really...very...like each other.

ten years.How many days and nights.How long is it again.

Gu Rusheng is not a fool, so he naturally understands the truth.That's why he decided to try it once, and let Gu Siyan go back to China when there was a crisis in the programming company.He even did not hesitate to meet with Cheng Xueyan in private to sign the contract.

In the end, it turned out that even after so many years, even if the two of them never said it or admitted it, they really only lived with each other in their hearts.

"The matter between you and the girl of the Cheng family. Engagement and wedding are all counts." Gu Rusheng said suddenly to Gu Siyan who was shaking his head. He thought he was really old, but... as long as his granddaughter is happy, It's better than anything else, "But you can't lose your manners. Another day, you can invite the elders of her family to sit at home, otherwise it will be said that our Gu family has lost their manners."

Gu Siyan wiped away her tears silently, held back her crying and said, "Okay".She knew... her grandfather had already approved of her love with Cheng Xueyan.It really felt like everything just now was like a dream.It was a day she never thought would happen, a day she never dreamed of.

"Okay, let's go out." Mr. Gu seemed to remember something again, so he said again, "It's so late now, you can stay at home today, I have asked Mama Wu to clean up the room in advance .”

The two sisters nodded, did not say anything more, and did not disagree.

Gu Siyan said, "Grandpa, you should go to bed earlier."

Gu Rusheng nodded his head, as a response.

Just as the two sisters were about to leave the study, Gu Rusheng suddenly said, "Nianxi, you stay."