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Lin Xiaoman listened to Yi Mingze's words, and obediently reviewed his homework at home. Their department exams were relatively early, so he should really hurry up. He must continue to maintain the first grade in his major, so that he can secure a place in the graduate school next year.

After finishing the homework in the study at night, Lin Xiaoman stretched his waist, and accidentally found a lot of trophies and certificates in a locked glass door of the bookcase, all of which were related to music, and all of them had a person's name written on them: Yan Siluo .

Curious, Lin Xiaoman sent a message asking Yi Mingze who owned these things, and received a reply soon.

1: It belongs to my mother, she is a great pianist.

Lin Xiaoman was stunned for a moment. This was the first time he had heard Yi Mingze talk about his mother. He had always followed Yang Yu's warning, and he must not casually ask Yi Mingze's family.

1: Finished studying?

man: Well, I'm done learning!

1: Are you afraid of being home alone at night?

When Lin Xiaoman saw this sentence, his heart warmed up, and he immediately replied "a little scared" with his lips pursed, hoping that Yi Mingze could understand what he meant, so that he could act coquettishly and call people back.

In the end, Yi Mingze replied: Then go to bed early, and you won't be afraid after you sleep.

Lin Xiaoman was holding the phone, his nose crooked in anger.

Ego is so annoying!

Ignore him.

Lin Xiaoman angrily threw the phone on the table and began to pack up the materials and practice exercises.

Yi Mingze over there probably saw that he hadn't replied for a long time, so he sent another message.

1: What's wrong?

Lin Xiaoman glanced sideways and ignored him.

1: I heard that drinking a cup of hot milk before going to bed can help soothe the nerves. [A piece of popular science copied from the Internet is attached]

Lin Xiaoman took another look and continued to ignore him.

1: Can't sleep?How about I chat with you for a while longer.

Forget it, let's figure it out.

Lin Xiaoman sent an emoji of a dog baring its teeth, and Yi Mingze replied immediately.

Lin Xiaoman clicked, and said "Good boy" with a smile.

It's like really comforting a fried dog.

They stayed at Yi Mingze's house for another three days, but Yi Mingze never showed up, but kept in touch on WeChat.

After Lin Xiaoman finished his final homework review, he took the spare time to clean the house thoroughly, and then took pictures for Yi Mingze to see, not to miss every corner.

Tomorrow is the last day of the year. Lin Xiaoman participated in a drama program of the New Year's Eve party, playing the role of a tree elf, a small supporting role. The senior sister learned what happened in his dormitory, so she didn't ask him to participate in the rehearsal these days. I asked him to come over to rehearse for the review teacher yesterday, and the overall effect was very good.

On the day of the party on the 31st, Yi Mingze came to watch the show with the front-row tickets presented by the Social Federation. When he came, the girls of the Social Federation were all surprised, because in the past, he either refused or gave the tickets to other members of the school team. I had never been there in person before, so everyone began to speculate that there must be someone who made Yi Mingze come to this year's gala.

Lin Xiaoman's play was scheduled to be at the bottom of the play, and all the staff waited in the background.

The senior sister was worried that something would go wrong in the performance later, and she was still pulling them one by one to check the lines.

Lin Xiaoman secretly took out his mobile phone and asked Yi Mingze if he was here. Yi Mingze replied "here". Concentrate, had to put away the phone.

Finally, it was their turn to perform. As soon as Lin Xiaoman came on stage with a shiny green branch on his head, he saw Yi Mingze sitting in the middle of the second row of the auditorium. When their eyes met, Yi Mingze gave him a thumbs up.

Their show is a comedy drama, and the witty lines and anti-routine plots make the audience laugh constantly. The big screens on both sides of the stage are full of various barrages, most of which are the wechat accounts of young ladies who are begging to play the princess. , one of which is mixed in: the tree elf is so cute.

The role of Lin Xiaoman doesn't play in every scene, every time he leaves, he looks forward to playing again, occupying Yi Mingze's eyes only on him.

However, when it was the last scene, Lin Xiaoman found that Yi Mingze's seat was empty.

Did you leave because it didn't look good?

Lin Xiaoman couldn't help feeling a great loss in his heart, and almost said the wrong lines, but fortunately, he had a strong reaction ability, and successfully finished his part, and then took a collective curtain call with all the actors.

The performance costume was very thin, and it didn't help to put warm babies on his stomach. Lin Xiaoman had just stepped off the stage shivering from the side of the stage, when he was precisely wrapped in a big cotton jacket in the dark.

Lin Xiaoman turned around and saw that it was Yi Mingze!

No wonder he suddenly disappeared just now.

Lin Xiaoman's drooping face suddenly beamed with joy. He wanted to tell Yi Mingze that they hadn't seen each other for three days, and he missed him very much, but there were people here, so he could only grab the big padded jacket and wink wildly at Yi Mingze Eyes, pushed forward by Yi Mingze.

The aisle leading to the backstage was very narrow, and the two walked to the door of the backstage room one after the other. There were a lot of people inside, and it would be too much to squeeze in another 1.9 meters.

Lin Xiaoman was just about to ask Yi Mingze to wait for him outside, when suddenly, a familiar voice that was almost forgotten——

"Lin Xiaoman, long time no see."

Lin Xiaoman suddenly looked deep into the aisle, and found Yu Xiangwen standing there.

His trademark big glasses were taken off, but the sinister smile that raised one corner of his lips remained completely unchanged.

Yi Mingze glanced at Yu Xiangwen, then looked at Lin Xiaoman, who suddenly turned pale, as if he was frozen, and stared blankly at Yu Xiangwen.

He remembered this expression. During the basketball game that day, Lin Xiaoman missed his three-pointer like this, and dragged him around to find a person named "Yu Xiangwen".

Seeing the expressionless big man behind Lin Xiaoman, Yu Xiangwen was obviously taken aback for a moment, then quickly recovered and smiled: "I also came to Jiang City for the exam this year. If you don't add me on WeChat, I can only make a special trip to give it to you." You sent a New Year's gift, and you will know the sincerity of my apology after reading it."

After finishing speaking, Yu Xiangwen put a square flat box in Lin Xiaoman's hand, left the backstage under Yi Mingze's sharp gaze, and left a sentence before leaving: "We are all adults, so it's meaningless to hold grudges like this."

From the beginning to the end, Lin Xiaoman didn't say a word to him, but stood there fixedly, as if thinking about something.

"He has already left." Yi Mingze reminded.

Lin Xiaoman woke up like a dream, and opened the box in his hand. Inside was a diary with a blue cover, which looked very old.

Coming out of the auditorium, Lin Xiaoman and Yi Mingze walked straight forward and walked in silence for a while without saying where they were going.

It was Yi Mingze who spoke first, and he asked bluntly, "What's going on with you and that person just now?"

"Do you want to hear it?" Lin Xiaoman muffled.

Yi Mingze let out a "hmm".

Lin Xiaoman reminded: "It's not a happy thing, it may affect your mood after listening to it."

Yi Mingze said: "It's okay, brother Yi is very stable."

As long as it's not some ex-boyfriend chasing back the lingering entanglement, it's fine.

Seeing that Yi Mingze insisted on listening, Lin Xiaoman suddenly had a strong desire to confide, and he hurriedly said, "The man just now, his name is Yu Xiangwen."

Yi Mingze nodded and said, "Yes, I know."

Lin Xiaoman asked in surprise, "How do you know?"

Yi Mingze said, "I guess."

Lin Xiaoman thought that Yi Mingze was too amazing, and then continued: "The first time I realized that I only had a crush on the same sex was when I was in the first year of junior high..."

Yi Mingze was taken aback for a moment, he didn't expect that Lin Xiaoman's conversation would suddenly turn to sexual orientation, but Lin Xiaoman continued to recall the past few years ago.

At that time, the boys in the class had already entered puberty, and they began to judge the girls around them one after another, who was beautiful, who had a good voice, and the girls were the same.

This kind of discussion is flying all over the sky. Even if Lin Xiaoman is obsessed with studying, he is still affected to some extent. However, he finds that he doesn't seem to like the class flowers in the boys' mouths any more than his classmates. On the contrary, like many girls, he feels Three, the senior who can play the violin is so attractive.

This abnormality didn't make him panic, but he really wanted to know the reason, so he went to the computer room of the school when no one was around, and looked up information about it on the Internet.

That day, it happened that Yu Xiangwen was on duty in the computer room.

Yu Xiangwen is the class monitor, the most trusted student of the whole class and the teacher, and his grades are only a little worse than Lin Xiaoman's.Usually, Yu Xiangwen takes good care of Lin Xiaoman, knowing that boys don't like to play with him, and even chats with him during physical education class.

So when Yu Xiangwen took the initiative to talk to him, saying that he was the same kind as him and wanted to help him, he opened up without thinking much, but there were some things that he really didn't know how to say.

Yu Xiangwen gave him a diary in the empty classroom, and asked him to write down his daily thoughts and hide them in a place known only to them after school, so that they could know what he was thinking and what he had in terms of sexual orientation. What a confusing place.

Yu Xiangwen has always spoken softly and persuasively. Lin Xiaoman, who has just learned about sexual orientation, almost regards Yu Xiangwen as a confidant.

However, after more than a month, a rumor suddenly popped up, saying that Lin Xiaoman, from Class 4 of the first grade of junior high school, was a sissy, and liked to dance rubber bands and kick shuttlecocks with girls.

This was originally just a topic of whispering, until one day, a few photos suddenly appeared in the class group, and when Lin Xiaoman saw it, his face lost all blood on the spot.

Because that's what he wrote in his diary.

As a top student, Lin Xiaoman's excellent homework is often printed out and posted on the bulletin board in the classroom, and the handwriting is recognized by the whole class.

The explosive news that No.4 in Class 1 of junior high school was gay spread throughout the school, and the boys started to avoid him, and the people who had a good relationship with him were afraid of being regarded as a minority and alien and kept silent. Slowly alienate him.

Only then did he realize that everyone was so repulsive to homosexuality, and he was quiet by nature, which was simply an added crime.

As the class monitor, Yu Xiangwen was called by the class teacher to find out the situation. In front of Lin Xiaoman, he told the class teacher that he also felt that Lin Xiaoman's behavior was very strange. Sometimes he looked like a girl and liked to stare at boys.

Lin Xiaoman was angry on the spot, saying that the diary was given to him by Yu Xiangwen and asked him to write it. If you don’t believe me, you can call the classroom to monitor it, but Yu Xiangwen said that it was the prize he gave to the number one in the class as the monitor. Who knew that Lin Xiaoman would take it? It was a waste of his good intentions to write such nasty things, not only that, but he also said the same to other students.

A child's malice has never been restrained, like a gas that expands infinitely after entering a vacuum, it quickly evolved into school violence, verbal attacks became the lightest kind, and someone even put cockroaches in his pencil case , which is why he is still afraid of cockroaches.

As for the subsequent dropout and transfer to another school, Lin Xiaoman didn't want to talk about it, and there was no need to talk about it.

It began to snow in the sky, and the white snow petals fell on Yi Mingze's hair, making his dark face stand out.

"Brother Yi, what's the matter with you? What are you thinking?" Pulling away from the memory, Lin Xiaoman shook Yi Mingze's arm with both hands.

"I want to go back and beat him up until the ground is full of teeth." Yi Mingze's voice was colder than Beifeng.

Lin Xiaoman laughed with a "puchi", it turned out that Yi Mingze would say such childish things!

However, he found it amazing that this was the first time he had fully told the story of his experience in junior high school, and he didn't have the feeling of wanting to cry or being aggrieved and resentful at all. Instead, it made Yi Mingze very angry.

Yi Mingze asked, "Is that Yu Xiangwen gay?"

Lin Xiaoman shook his head and said, "I don't know. He clearly knows a lot about homosexuality and even guided me to recognize my own sexual orientation, but he got a girlfriend after the incident. I heard from Chen Wenqi."

In fact, he still doesn't understand how the contents of the diary were leaked, and now, the diary is back in his hands.The biggest possibility back then was that Yu Xiangwen directed a big play in order to tease him, but he was too lazy to pursue it anymore, because those who had bullied him are not as good as him, not as good as him, and are not as good as him. I met such a nice person like him, Yi Mingze.

He comforted Yi Mingze, saying that the matter was over, but he couldn't help but get angry a little when he mentioned it, and it was not a big problem.

But Yi Mingze still had a sullen face, his expression was stinky, his fists and forearm muscles were hard, and he clearly didn't believe it.

Lin Xiaoman put the diary in Yi Mingze's hands to show that he really didn't care.

Yi Mingze opened the diary and flipped through a few pages with the help of a street lamp. The immature fonts on it were neatly lined up, and there was no sign of collapse in the face of special sexual orientation between the lines. Every word and sentence was like a brave young man's exploration of the unknown. .

Such courage and rationality are clearly commendable, but they are used as a reason for malicious slander.

If he had known Lin Xiaoman in the early years, he would never have allowed such a thing to happen. Rubbish like Yu Xiangwen would crush him to death as much as he came.

Yi Mingze closed the diary, walked a few steps and asked, "Is it difficult to be gay?"

Especially for a simple child like Lin Xiaoman, who has been hurt before, but still doesn't defend against him as a straight man, blocking the way to confess to him, relying on him, praising him, and shining on him like a little sun.

"No matter how difficult it is, it is a unique life." Lin Xiaoman said optimistically.This is what Yi Mingze once taught him.

Lin Xiaoman is not surprised that Yi Mingze would ask him this question, because bisexuals still have at least half the chance of living as a normal person in the eyes of the world, and it is too normal not to understand.

As the snow fell harder and harder, Lin Xiaoman breathed into his palms and said, "It's so cold."

As a result, he regretted it as soon as he finished speaking, and was afraid that Yi Mingze would say that he was cold and go home. He had suffered a lot in this regard.

However, Yi Mingze didn't say anything to the straight man this time, but hugged Lin Xiaoman's shoulder without saying a word, taking advantage of his size, he rubbed him into his arms.

Don't be anxious, my Bo'er, there will be formal cohabitation, Lao Yi's confession, and being together. I can't spoil any more, but there are really not many plot points before Lao Yi's enlightenment and pursuit!Recently, I have been stepping up daily updates~ We will definitely be together when we are together, so my goal is to tell their stories completely, and at the same time make sure that the words I write are not nonsense (I bb a piece of nonsense while talking ∠(?」∠ )_)