[Natsume] When the sun shines

The boy's warm yellow hair slightly covered his eyes, I couldn't see the expression on his face clearly, but my heart began to feel uneasy.

...I mean, I said something wrong... right?

Knowing that Natsume is an adopted child, but saying that his childhood was very happy... It really is a shame.

I silently slapped myself N times in my heart.

"Actually, it's not bad."

The young man's voice was like the breeze blowing from the distant mountains, with a little gentleness, "That would be considered a kind of happiness."

I turned my head to look at his face, the thin hair was blown away by the breeze, and there was a slight smile on the lips of the boy with cat-like eyes, "Perhaps it is a bit inappropriate to say that, but in retrospect, there is indeed It's a happy feeling."

I subconsciously clenched his hand.

After a while, I whispered, "...Natsume said that he was adopted...but why?"

Such a warm person, how could parents have the heart to abandon him?

I deserved to be abandoned, although I don't want to admit it, but when I think about it, there is really no way.

After all, not every mother has such a good psychological quality. Holding the newborn child in her hands is full of joy, but the child suddenly opened his eyes and said in a gloomy tone, "There is someone behind you"...

It's pretty scary.

Maybe it's because I've grown up, maybe it's Hayakawa's gentleness, I don't worry about the things I was abandoned back then, but occasionally when I dream back at midnight, I miss the monster who sent me to the orphanage .

I can't forget those beautiful eyes.

"It was an accident."

The boy's voice was very soft, with a clean and beautiful timbre like the first snow, "They passed away."

……

So this is ah.

I was silent for a while, and slowly took the hand that was held back. The temperature in the hand was not too cold, but just warm, "Natsume... will you miss them?"

Just now, I didn't have the courage to hold the hand of my sweetheart.

But now, what's in my heart is just a little distress.

Such a warm person shouldn't have such a sad past.

"Yes."

The young man pulled me, bypassed the small pond with a beautiful fountain, and took me to the gazebo opposite. The marble-carved ground was very beautiful, reflecting the sunlight that penetrated through the gaps in the trees. Sitting down on the bench, the young man's voice was as shallow as a clear spring, "But sometimes listening to the sound of wind chimes and feeling the sun shining on your body, you will feel that they are by your side and have never left."

Are you comforting yourself, or is it really how you feel?

I can't figure it out, but there is a little throbbing pain in my heart.

I don't want the boy I like to have such a sad past.

"But it doesn't matter. Although sometimes I feel a little sad, but now... I feel very good."

The young man turned his face to look at me, the sunlight set off those beautiful eyes like glass, "It feels like having the Fujiwara couple caring by my side, just like my parents."

Not the same, not at all.

If it was the same, there wouldn't be such deep... nostalgia and sadness in your eyes.

No one can replace parents, and the person who bestows his own body will have different feelings after all.

"I remembered a word."

I let go of my hand, although I really want to hold it for a while and eat some tofu, but now, I feel that if I hold it for too long, it will clearly reveal my intention, so I put my hand on my chin and say slowly, "Have you heard that?" There is a saying like this: 'Every child should be pampered.'”

How can a warm person like you be rejected by the world?

"Said it right."

The boy bent his eyes, "So now, all I feel is warmth."

I was startled, looking at his smiling face, suddenly seemed to understand something.

When we come into this world, we always have to suffer.

But there is always someone who can laugh happily.

Because they know how to cherish and know how to be content.

So my boy always smiles with happiness all over his face.

I suddenly didn't want to talk about it anymore. I always felt that if I talked too much about this issue, my teenager would feel sad.

Look at his eyes, they are pure and clean, as if you can see the bottom at a glance, so I can see the shallow melancholy and deep sadness in his eyes.

"Ah, speaking of which, what does Natsume think of monsters? Well, Reiko is your grandmother..." I abruptly changed the topic, and the wind blew, carrying the light fragrance of gardenia, Make the whole gazebo beautiful.

"They always mistook me for Reiko, it's a little troublesome." Natsume smiled, he rubbed his hair a little shyly, then seemed to think of something, and was a little dazed, "It's just... sometimes I feel , monsters are also a kind of kind, very kind group.”

"Then...does Natsume like them?" I tentatively asked, "If you had to choose between humans and monsters, which one would you choose?"

I thought that if I were given two choices to choose between humans and monsters, I would choose monsters without hesitation.

I think so.

But when the real choice fell on me, I chose human beings.

It's really... a little funny.

For human beings, birth, old age, sickness and death are commonplace. A lifespan of only a hundred years, but many people don't know how to cherish it. They only know to seek some unreasonable benefits.

Because I chose humans, I may never see youkai again.

However, I don't want the boy next to me to know.

I can feel the loneliness coming from him.It is like a walker on foot, although he is facing the sun and smiling, but there will always be boundless loneliness and loneliness.

A person sees things that others cannot see, and hopes that someone, like himself, can understand his mood and tell them something about monsters...

However, no one understands that if they expect to be like-minded, all they get is a look at the other kind.

In the end, people gradually alienated him, and got some titles such as "heterogeneous", "monster" and "monster".

Isn't that what it looks like?

Is there less of what I have experienced?

Although he didn't say it clearly, I can think of it, because putting what I have experienced on him may be able to explain the truth of his childhood.

Maybe the details are a lot different, but... [-]/[-] is not far from ten.

You can see monsters, no matter how you hide, there will be clues.

So, I want to accompany him and tell him - I can see monsters too.

——I am the same as you.

So, I want to be by your side, don't let your heart become so lonely.

"Human beings."

The boy's voice was very soft, "If you have to choose between monsters and humans, I think I will choose humans."

Answer without a doubt.

"...The choice I'm talking about is actually like this."

"If you choose humans, you won't see monsters."

"If you choose monsters, it means you are in your current state, you can see both humans and monsters... well, that's about it."

This choice was presented to me two days ago, and I chose the former.

"..."

The boy was silent for a while.

After a while, he said softly, "Should, I still choose humans."

Is it an unexpected answer, or is it reasonable?

"Hey, I'm really bored, talking about these nonsensical questions." I laughed a few times, and then asked, "But, in that case, wouldn't you feel sad?"

"..."

The young man raised his head slightly, his side face looked very soft under the sunlight, "Maybe."

He is not sure either.

I think I can talk to him slowly, at least the tension in my heart is slowly let go, he suddenly turned his head to look at me, "By the way, what about Xiao Mu? You can also see monsters, right? If it's you... How would you choose?"

Of course monsters!

I want to blurt out—

But, the reality is, I chose humans.

I shook my head, "I can't tell at all about this kind of thing."

I looked at the boy's soft face, he was looking at me, his cat-like pupils shattered the bright brilliance of the sun, and I heard me say, "This kind of thing can only be said clearly when faced with a real choice." Woolen cloth."

Just like me, I chose human beings when I chose, so even though I regretted it to death, I never thought about changing it back.

Maybe it's because if I change it back, I can't bear the heavy price, or it may be because of other reasons.

Or, I also want to feel, if there are no monsters, can I also... be safe and live in the human world.

Just like an ordinary person, he has someone he likes, someone who loves him, and some small dreams and expectations. From nine to five, he realizes it bit by bit with his own efforts...

Such satisfaction.

"..."

The boy was silent for a while, as if recalling something, before saying, "Maybe."

In his heart, he was also hesitating.

"Tomorrow, I want to go to a city." I laughed, "I want to explore something, you promised to accompany me there, you can't break your promise."

Natsume smiled, with clear eyes, "Of course not."

What, you have class the day after tomorrow?Well, is it not common to skip classes or something?

Actually, I'm still a little guilty.

It's fine if I skip class, let Natsume accompany me...isn't it wrong?

Ahaha, don't worry about what's wrong... right?

"Will... skipping class... yes."

"It's okay." He said softly, "I need to relax once in a while."

I was slightly startled.

When Natsume spoke, he raised his head.

That slightly calm expression seemed to be thinking about something.

Perhaps, he also has something to think about.

"Well, it's not relaxing to go there." I bent my eyes and said slowly, "We're going to find out the truth about something that happened many years ago."

"kindness?"

"That's the answer I owe a goblin."

Cuckoo, are you still there?

Is he still in some corner of the world, continuing to hate those children?

Now I think, there must be a misunderstanding.

Maybe it's just a guess, but I still want to find the truth. "

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