[Natsume] When the sun shines

This is a very beautiful winter, or rather, a very beautiful New Year's Eve.

I hold a bunch of baby's breath in my arms, the soft and delicate flowers are dotted densely on the green rhizomes, this night is very cold, and the biting cold wind makes my hands numb and unconscious.I couldn't help but stop and look up at the sky above my head.

There are no stars, no moon, just like an agreement, there is a misty cloud floating in the boundless black sky.

"Oh, it's going to snow in this weather."

"It hasn't snowed this winter, is it finally going to snow now?"

"Finally I can see Xue Nu, that magnificent figure..."

"Go, Toi □ want to eat swan meat, Xue Nu is also what a little monster like you can imagine."

"That's not something you can imagine."

"Isn't it okay to pay homage?"

"..."

The little monsters were chattering in the corner, very noisy, but on this lonely alley, there was a different kind of excitement.

I lowered my head and hooked the thick cotton sleeve on the other wrist with my cold, stiff fingers. My fingers were swollen from the cold and turned red and purple, but I didn’t feel any pain, only a kind of numbness. Feel.

I know that when I am in a warm environment, this hand will become very hot and itchy. Frostbite is nothing more than this, and I should get used to it long ago.

The sleeves were too short to cover my hands exposed to the wind and snow. I froze for a while. The predictions of monsters are always accurate. Maybe a beautiful snowstorm will come to this somewhat cold city soon. up.

I withdrew my hand and gave up the idea of ​​using my cuffs to shield my fingers from the wind. I just hugged the flowers and walked slowly towards the orphanage against the cold wind.

The clock was about to strike midnight, and the girl said she wanted to watch the fireworks with me.

That kind of gorgeous and beautiful firework blooms under the stars, but it has a brilliance that is not weaker than the stars. Although it is only a flash in the pan, that kind of beauty makes people feel that they will never forget it.

I sneaked out, but I know it doesn’t matter, because every New Year’s Eve, I look up at the sky alone under the lonely plane tree, or hide on the small bed in the warehouse and watch the fireworks outside the window, no one will find me The disappearance, maybe some people will feel grateful for it...

Maybe, it's really New Year's Eve.

There are two couplets hung on some dilapidated doors of the orphanage. I saw that the words on them were well written, but I didn't recognize them.There are still pine branches hanging on the door, which seems to be a custom. On the way back, I saw this kind of pine branches hanging on many houses.

It's... a custom.

I bypassed the front door and slipped cautiously in through the back door.

"Don't go in."

Suddenly, there was a sound, and a hand covered my mouth, I was slightly taken aback, this is a monster...

"Woooo..."

I wanted to talk, but my mouth was covered and I couldn't speak. I wanted to break away from its hand, a little angry, but carefully hugged the flower in my hand, for fear that it would change its shape.

"Don't go in."

The hoarse voice was a bit old, and I was slightly taken aback, this is...

The hand covering my mouth began to disappear slowly as if it were transparent. I broke free from the shackles with a light struggle, and turned around to see, but there was no one.

I have come to my small yard at this time, the old sycamore tree is stretching its ancient branches, and the slanting branches bear the vicissitudes of the years. Even though there are countless withered leaves now, it still feels vigorous.

At the same time, I saw my own small warehouse, brightly lit.

There is no light in my warehouse, which is obviously the light of candles. From the dilapidated window, I saw the shadowy figure of a woman.

I feel a little excited in my heart, I want to go there - it must be Kitano, she is waiting for me to watch the fireworks with her...

The shallow tenderness and warmth slowly overflowed my heart, and I finally understood the feeling described by the monster's mouth - when I came home, I looked at the flickering lights in the window of the house, opened the door, and there was a warm and soft smile from my family...

Such a moving ah.

I walked over and stood nervously at the door of the warehouse, my steps were very light, I took a deep breath, and put my hand on the dilapidated doorknob of the warehouse——

To give her a surprise...

"Why isn't that little monster here yet?"

A rough male voice sounded from the small warehouse, carrying an inexplicable malice.

My hands stiffened instantly.

Never... heard the sound?There are... two people in the house?

Maybe, maybe Kitano's friend...

I comfort myself.

"Don't worry, I'll be right back."

The woman's voice carried a kind of laziness and confidence that was inevitable, "That guy is so convinced to me, he's just a poor little monster, it's meaningless for this little guy to live, why not Donate your organs, that’s something that can be sold for a lot of money.”

"Hey, this orphanage is really... no one cares about a few children." The man's voice was full of malice.

There is a faint smell of smoke wafting from the warehouse, it is the smell of mint.

"That's such a poor little guy, she really thinks of me as her sister."

"Those children are really precious. Although I don't know why they turned into vegetative states, they still made a lot of money by selling them."

The woman's voice is careless, and the delicate tenderness that used to teach me to write has not changed at all, but now, the feelings inside have changed.

"Cut, it's just small money..."

Do you know what it feels like when the world suddenly collapses?

I felt thin white things falling from the sky, like snowflakes, falling on my neck, icy cold.

That kind of biting coldness, and desolate whiteness, like the ashes of a dead person burned in the flames, carelessly sprinkled down from the vast sky, just like the careless tone of a woman in a warehouse, with a kind of wordless desolation sorrow.

"……fraud."

Fireworks rose into the sky, illuminated the dark sky, and then disappeared suddenly. After the sky fell into darkness again, there was a roar.

Like a wordless signal, countless fireworks were launched into the sky instantly, and the silent sky lit up countless beautiful and brilliant colors in an instant, one after another, like a kind of tarsal curse, accompanied by the desolate white snow all over the sky, It never stops.

I was a little dazed, looking at the stars in my arms illuminated by the fireworks in the distance, or the delicate and tender white flowers, which bloomed densely on the tender green rhizomes into a piece of pure splendor.

That girl, her name is Kitano Jun.

That girl, she bent her beautiful eyes when she was teaching me to write, and said, "It's not so hard...it should be like this."

That girl, she said, "Mu like the spring breeze should make people feel warm, like sunshine."

"So, instead of always crying with a mournful face... or showing no expression, you should smile more, so that people will feel like a spring breeze."

"Really, so unfamiliar, called sister. Um... if you are afraid, sister will not be afraid of her relatives."

……

"Have Mu Mu ever thought about wanting to have my surname?"

Thousands of words, finally turned into a cold word of the woman in the warehouse.

"That poor little guy really thinks of me as a sister."

That desolate white snow all over the sky.

As if she had no more strength, the flowers in her arms suddenly fell, the delicate and clean bouquet was tied with a beautiful purple silk knot, but in the end, she fell to the ground wordlessly, the snow-white and tender tiny flowers were stained with dust all over the ground, I turned around in a daze.

My heart hurts so much.

Like a knife, it cut deeply at the position of the heart.The spray of blood, literally, killed me.

Overhead, there are no stars all over the sky, only snowflakes under the thick clouds, and endless fireworks.

"Ugh."

Like a sigh, under the sycamore tree, an old man in a brown robe stood there, holding a sycamore stick in his hand, and there were even a few bright green leaves on it.

He looked at me, "It's all fate..."

It's all...fate.

It turns out that human beings are so hypocritical and ridiculous.

Cuckoo's words finally became the truth under the verification of the facts.

"Human feelings are the last things to be trusted."

"Too hypocritical."

Yes ah, too hypocritical.

It seemed that a warm liquid had slipped from the corner of my eyes, and everything in front of me became unclear. I looked at the old man blankly, "Fate..."

There was an expression on my face that I didn't know. I saw my face while the old man's unclouded pupils reflected the bright fireworks behind me.

The eyes are crying, the corners of the mouth are smiling.

That bleakness.

I walked over slowly, and when I passed by the old man, I whispered, "Thank you."

Thank you for taking care of me, thank you for protecting me from wind and rain all these years, thank you for giving me a hand just now... Thank you.

and also--

"Goodbye."

never see again.

I never want to go back to this place, never want to see this place where I can test the hypocrisy and malice of human beings, never want to think of every flower and grass here, never want to...

If this world is so annoying, why should I love this world?

The old man sighed and said nothing more.

I went out the back door in a daze, and saw a little monster hiding timidly by the side of the back door. When I first saw me coming out, it seemed like I was frightened by something.

It is half the size of a human, with very round and bright eyes, and the light inside is like the bright moonlight during the Mid-Autumn Festival.

I looked at it, feeling a little dazed, "Are you here...to laugh at me?"

Laughed at me for believing in humans, but ended up being severely stabbed.

"It's all me... deserve it."

It was quite frightened, and shook its head hastily, as if to verify its innocence, "No, no, I just came to visit Grandpa Wutong..."

"Ah, yes." I laughed to myself.

No one came to see me.I'm just an outlier.

No purpose, no direction, I wander alone in this city.

The desolate white snow covered the vastness of the ground, and my hands and feet were numb from the cold. I curled up in a corner of this bustling city, looking at the tall buildings not far away, shining with indifferent and gorgeous neon light.

Look, there are fireworks for a while, and then they wither and die.

The so-called feelings are just like the fireworks. After the moment of hypocrisy, there is endless darkness and confusion.

"Big, lord?"

A timid voice sounded, "You, are you cold?"

I turned my head, only to see that little monster holding a pot of hot water with a half-human height, it saw me looking at it, and took a step back, "Well, this is the hot water I stole... ...I think, you, may be cold..."

Cold, why not cold.

Cold body, cold heart, cold all over.

It was cold, as if even the tears were frozen in the eye sockets, unable to flow out.

"Why are you being nice to me?"

I heard me asking it, the hoarse voice was like the desperate roar of a wild beast, "Get out!!! I don't believe it!!!!"

It rolled in fright, put down the hot water in a panic, turned around and ran away.

Why are you so kind to me?

If there is no interest, why should you treat me so well? ! ! ! ! !

Go away, go away—I don't believe it, I don't believe it at all—

That kind of despair, heartbreaking.

The feeling of falling from heaven to hell is something I will never forget.

The author has something to say: The writing of Sajia is heartbreaking (killing your stepmother

And, let me tell you a sad news... Sajia will leave for Shanghai tomorrow, and I will probably live there for half a month. The conditions I will face are... no internet, no computer, no mobile phone_(:з」∠)_

So, I will... cut off the update (cry blind

Please wait for me to come back! ! !I still have a few chapters to save, and I will use the manuscript box to update until there are no more manuscripts!Goblins, don't abandon me

☆、Moonless X Wandering

"Are you cold..."

When I opened my eyes again, my body was covered with a thin layer of quilt, and the little monster shrank aside, with a slight warmth in my hand. I lowered my head and saw the pot of hot water in my hand. up, it's warm.

It was startled when it saw me open my eyes, and took a few steps back. Seeing that I just looked at it and didn't speak, it explained shyly, "I, I see you are so cold... just, just Can't help it..."

The night has passed.

The eastern sky is full of morning glow, and a round of red sun is rising slowly.

I felt in a trance, and tears slowly rolled down my cheeks.

I thought I was too cold to cry.

"You, are you hungry?"

It tentatively asked me, seeing that I didn't speak, it forced a smile, "Well, I, I have a magic trick, look, 1,2,3, [-], [-] change—"

Its hand hidden behind it suddenly stretched out in front of its body, and there was half a piece of bread in its small hand.

"...Monsters don't need to eat... En."

Seeing me staring at it blankly, without even an expression, just crying, it was a little embarrassed, "Well, no, isn't it fun?"

No, it's fun.

I just, kind of forgot how to speak.

What is laughter and how can you laugh?

What is warmth?How can I feel it?

Even the cup in his hand was slowly getting cold.

What is hunger?Just starve to death, okay?

"...You, don't be like this." The little monster was a little anxious, blushing, and held back a sentence after a while, "Monsters are different from humans..."

Is it different...?

I was suddenly a little confused.

Where is it different?

When I was abandoned by my human mother, youkai took me to an orphanage.

When I was bullied by human children, the child-eating monsters came to my window and told me stories in the middle of the night.

When I was ruthlessly betrayed by human beings, the Wutong old demon grabbed me who was blindfolded by warmth.

When I was displaced, wandering around, and was about to freeze to death or starve to death, this little monster brought me a thin quilt with hot water and half a piece of bread.

"Live." The little monster stuffed the bread into my hand, and it looked at me seriously, as if it was not so scared anymore, "Monster, very good, human beings are all bad guys."

Humans are badass.

I felt the corners of my mouth slowly curl up, as if it weighed a thousand catties, with strong bitterness and sadness, I raised my head, and the eye sockets were filled with warm liquid.

monsters, humans.

"I'm sorry." I heard me say slowly, "I shouldn't have treated you like that yesterday."

"It's okay." The little monster smiled, and its eyes, as bright as a full moon, bent into crescent moons. "My name is Wuyue, please give me your advice."

I held the bread in my hand, chewed it bit by bit, and then swallowed it with difficulty.

The taste buds could vaguely feel the sweetness, the saltiness mixed with tears, and I swallowed it bit by bit.

Living in the open air, wandering from one city to another, it is really a long and indescribable time.

That kind of hostility and disgust for human beings is always in my heart, and I can no longer unravel it.

"Qin Shihuang swept the world..."

There was a little old monster monster who was telling a story to a group of little monsters, and I stepped in.The old monster glanced at me, ignored it, and continued talking.

Emperor Qin Shihuang.

Whether the surname is Qin Shi or Qin, I don't know.

But I know this is a domineering person, he will not be bullied.

So, from now on, my name is Qin Mu.

I can wander, I can be embarrassed, but I can't be bullied, I can't be deceived.

I'm Qin Mu, Qin Mu who doesn't believe in humans.

"who are you?"

"A wanderer."

"Where are you going?"

"do not know."

"Go there, there, it's nice."

……

Wander, wander, wander around.

Sometimes monsters will follow, and sometimes monsters will leave because of something.

Then goodbye.

With them, I will not starve to death or freeze to death. They tell me many beautiful cities and let me wander there.

But even so, I still see a lot of darkness in the human world.

Insidious, cunning, can discard humanity for profit.

It's just that I didn't expect that this small town would be my last stop.

From now on, no longer wandering.

——Hayakawa!

Wake up early! !

Who, who is calling me?

Is it a monster, or a human...

Disgusting, human...

The glare of the sun shone into my pupils, and I was blindfolded, watching the sun shine on the wooden floor like broken glass, and a small black snake curled up on my bedside, its golden eyes were unblinking. look at me.

"you're awake?"

I narrowed my eyes slightly, my throat was dry, and I was in a daze, "Water..."

It dexterously climbed onto the desk next to it, wrapped a light blue mug around its tail, and pulled it close to me, "Here."

I vaguely recognized that this was my bedroom.

When I reached out my hand, I realized my weakness. I was so weak that I had to struggle even to reach out. After struggling a few times, I took a few breaths before I got the cup. I stood up and took a sip of water to moisten my throat. I looked around in confusion. everything of.

It seemed that I grew up suddenly in a flash, and it seemed that the fragmented memories could not find an end. I was confused for a while before I suddenly woke up.

Everything just now was just a nightmare given to me by that monster named Mizuki Haruka.

As he said, just the not-so-long but painful memories almost made me sink into it, and I couldn't wake up again.

Maybe really, will die in a dream.

"Are you OK?"

Xiao Hei's voice was very calm, but I knew it was an act.The tail was trembling anxiously, but the snake face was trying to pretend that nothing happened.

It's also a good thing that it didn't pull the mug just now to make the water pour on my bed.

"I'm fine, just a little weak." I shook my head, nothing serious, but thinking that I might never see monsters again, I feel a little... regrettable.

Yes, sorry.

"...Is the seal too strong?" Xiao Hei jumped off the table, and went to the side softly, his golden eyes sparkled, "Do you want me to lift the seal a little bit?"

"No."

I put down the cup, and the warm water in it warmed my cold hands, "It's okay, I'm just a little weak, well, I just discovered that my body is so weak, it's time to practice."

"...well."

Xiao Hei didn't force it, but just looked at me, "Your demon power has crushed your body, you should practice more."

"..."

After being silent for a while, I watched an unknown bird flying across the sky outside the window, and suddenly said, "Where are my things?"

Also, what about Mizuki Haruka?

"Everything is in the drawer. When Hayakawa came back to prepare lunch at noon, she saw you fell on the ground... She was terrified at that time."

It didn't go into details, but I can imagine the anxious look of that gentle woman, she must be... terribly anxious.

"What about her?"

I asked.

"She went to buy medicine for you and will be back in a while."

I am silent.

That painful memory has gradually faded in my mind with time, but why, would anyone want me to remember it?

Mingming can finally open his heart to accept human beings slowly, but why, some people want to stop him?

why?

"Shuishu Haruka, from... Dragon Realm?"

For a long time, I heard some hesitant questions from me.

"Well, yes." It nodded, "As long as it is not the kind of dragon that was born between heaven and earth, well, it has parents, and basically comes from the dragon realm."

"What about you?" I squinted at it.

It immediately began to be proud, with a raised tail, "I am the divine dragon that surpasses the world, how could it be possible that I came out of such a small place as the Dragon Realm!"

"The divine dragon that seizes heaven and earth can't even beat a little green dragon that came out of the small place of Dragon Realm. I'm ashamed to say it." I laughed at it.

"That was an accident!!! No, I defeated it!! No, it ran away without fighting, okay!"

Xiao Hei's hair exploded, although the hostility all over his body disappeared, but...

Fried Hair's temper remained the same.

"Okay, okay." I dealt with it casually, but my thoughts drifted to the distance. I don't know why, holding the handkerchief embroidered with little blue dragons, I always have a weird feeling in my hand.

But...it's not the feeling of "dangerous".

Rather, the ... feeling of "missing".

"Hey, no, why can I see you?"

In my mind wandering, I suddenly realized something was wrong.

"It's an illusion." Xiao Hei shrugged his shoulders, and then put on a beating expression like you didn't hurry to thank the gods and Buddhas for such an honor, "Only you can see me, don't worry."

I don't think it's anything to be proud of.

"Don't quarrel with you, Hayakawa is here." Xiao Hei looked like "I'm too lazy to talk to you" and turned over and slipped into the bed.

"She can't see you, why are you hiding?" I laughed.

"...This is just in case you don't understand."

"Squeak."

The door opened, and Xiao Hei immediately shut his mouth.

Her footsteps were in a hurry, and I could hear it when I went up the stairs. I looked at her who pushed the door, her forehead was covered with a thin layer of sweat, and she was slightly panting.

Come here in a hurry.

She was wearing a thin sweater, her loose black hair was tied up in a random bundle, and was a little messed up by the wind. She was carrying a plastic bag with several boxes of medicine in her hand.Seeing me awake, she was a little surprised, but soon laughed, "Mumu, are you awake?"

Smiling like usual, but it makes people feel warm like a spring breeze.

Facing her, I suddenly didn't know what to say.

"...Well, I'm awake."

The feeling of being overwhelmed when I first came here came back, a little... uncomfortable.

Could it be cheating?Could it be intentional?

"Are you okay? Why is your face so pale?"

She stretched out her hand and touched my forehead worriedly, "I don't have a fever...it's much better than yesterday, do you want to go to the hospital?"

I shook my head, "It's okay, you don't need to go."

I hate it, the suspicion in my heart.

She held my hand and frowned, "No, I'd better go to the hospital, my hands are a little cold."

"I'm fine..."

"Go to the hospital!" She became serious.I immediately silenced.

The barrier in my heart gradually melted away.

Kitano Jun never cared about my body.Even if she held my frostbitten hand and taught me to write, the light in her eyes was that kind of dark carelessness.

Different.

...not at all, different.

I pursed my lips, watched the sunlight fall from the window, and heard my own whisper——

"Okay, go to the hospital."

The author has something to say: Ball collection (rolling~

☆、Night Sky X Solitude