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From that summer, Chen Chao began to understand and learn about sex.

On July 7st, my mother accompanied Chao Chen to the provincial capital.They live in a cousin's house.That morning, Chao Chen went to the military region for an interview and political review.A row of interviewers sat in the room. They asked Chen Chao a few politically aware questions, and then let him go forward.In the afternoon, Chen Chao came to the military hospital to participate in the military inspection.

The military inspection is often talked about because there is a very special inspection.At that time, seven or eight of them were called into the room together.The medical examiner asked them to take off all their underwear, including Nene.So they stood naked in a row.They first did some exercises of limb joints.Then the doctor came forward and examined them one by one.

Chen Chao had been worried that he would react in this situation, but actually he didn't feel anything.Perhaps it was the tense atmosphere at the time that made him dare not think a little bit.It's like a solemn ceremony that concerns his future.

After a whole month, Chen Chao finally received the admission letter from the university.But the long-overdue admission letter was not from the military academy, but from Xingnan University.This gave him a very big blow, because Chen Chao never thought about going to this university at all, and he was always confident that he could enter the military academy.Chen Chao's mother doesn't think so, because as long as it is a key university, she is satisfied.She felt that Super Chen should also be satisfied.But Chen Chao is not the person she thinks, and has never been.In those days, no one could understand Super Chen's pain, just like no one could understand his loneliness and his fear.

Fear is a natural weakness of Chen Chao.In an unfamiliar closed space, he will always feel fear.If the darkness also joins in the fun, then any absurd and terrifying things will be imagined by him.Then the fear set in again, and he was convinced over and over again that the fantasy was about to become reality.In a panic, he quickly called the light to learn from the reality.So he was defeated by fear.

Fear is a natural weakness of Chen Chao.Facing the difficult unknown of the future, he always dreaded that moment.He guesses all sorts of bad consequences, and then fear sets in.What to do, how should he solve all these.He began to make endless assumptions: what would happen to me if things turned out like this.Assume that inner worry cannot be suppressed.He could only wait for that moment to come.

Fear is a natural weakness of Chen Chao.But fear can only be enjoyed for so many times.When the space gradually becomes familiar from unfamiliar, when time is approaching every second, the absurd fantasy is no longer scary, and the unknown difficulties are predicted in the palm of your hand.Fear can't get close to him bit by bit.This time, he overcame his fear.But he knew he wasn't free from it.Because fear is a natural weakness of his.

As a result, Chen Chao was at a loss as to whether he should go to Lin Xian or Shi Fan.But he believed that Super Chen would definitely see them again, and then reveal his confession to them.

For a long time after the college entrance examination, Chen Chao still dreamed of the flood before the college entrance examination.But he knew in his heart that he didn't have lingering fears about the great flood, but that he never forgot the night with Lin Xian.But time cannot be turned back, he can only hope for the future.

After listening to Chen Chao's story, Lin Can felt very embarrassed and asked:

"Later, you cut off contact, did you really never see each other again?"

Chen Chao smiled and said:

"Of course it's impossible. After I went to college, I started to learn how to chat online and started another form of contact with them. Shi Fan was not admitted to the university and stayed in Jianzhou to repeat his studies for a year. During the winter vacation of his freshman year , I went back to Jianzhou to find Shi Fan once, and we still slept together. I don’t know why, although it’s winter, but wearing autumn clothes and covering the quilt always feels hot, so we all took off the autumn clothes.”

"What? Even a straight man sleeps with you! What a beast! And what about Lin Xian, you guys never mentioned that night again?"

"After entering university, I have been thinking about Lin Xian day and night. Through the personal space on the Internet, I found out that Lin Xian went to Beijing. Later, during the second winter vacation of the university, by chance, I was in I ran into Lin Xian at the train station. But that time, I still didn't say anything."

21-year-old Chen Chao is sitting on the K1683 train.The train started slowly and left the platform.The long body of the car obediently followed the direction of the railroad tracks, shuttling through the ignorant night.

The Spring Festival has passed, but the weather is still in the cold winter.

There seem to be more passengers standing than sitting in the carriages. Of course, this is the Spring Festival travel rush.The passengers—whether standing or sitting—were not yet a little tired.Some were chatting, some were eating snacks, some were listening to MP3s, and some were reading books. Everyone was good at enjoying the comfort of the journey in a harsh environment.It can be said that it is hard to have fun, and the joy is harmonious.

That's all, it's Changsha again.In a blink of an eye, Chen Chao was already a sophomore in university.He shouldn't have the sadness of being away from home, but the scene that suddenly appeared in the waiting room just now made him reluctant to part.

A few hours ago, Chao Chen dragged his luggage and walked into the train station of this small city in his hometown again.ah!He is going away from his homeland again.In the past two years when I went to Changsha to study at university, getting together and going back and forth between stations has become commonplace.Super Chen gradually got used to being in the crowd with his eyes wide open, carefully identifying everyone in the crowd.He was thinking that maybe in such a place full of fish and dragons, he could reunite some long-lost people, or simply say that exact certain person.

In the small county town of Jianzhou, there is only one railway station.According to Chen Chao's observation, the train bound for Beijing entered the station only a quarter of an hour later than the train bound for Changsha.And Lin Xian is studying in Beijing.That is to say, if Lin Xian bought today's ticket like Chen Chao, then Lin Xian would be waiting here at this time, and they would most likely meet here.

But in fact, Chen Chao's extremely possible idea was just wishful thinking.He didn't know when Lin Xian would leave, and he didn't even know if Lin Xian had ever come back.Of course, in this era of advanced information technology, Chen Chao can directly send a short message to Lin Xian, asking when he will return to school, or more directly, asking if he is waiting at the train station now.He can't, however, they haven't seen each other since high school, and cell phones and the internet have only thickened their divide.Chen Chao desperately needs an unexpected encounter with Lin Xian, perhaps to prove something called fate.

At that time, the train bound for Changsha was about to arrive at the station in less than 10 minutes.Chen Chao sat on the cold iron chair in the waiting room, and more and more passengers lined up to check in before him filled his sight.Just when I was about to join the queue in disappointment, a familiar figure flashed into his line of sight, in the direction of his two o'clock.Chen Chao took a closer look, and it was indeed Lin Xian.

Lin Xian's dress became more fashionable, and her handsome face became more mature.

Super Chen's heart suddenly flustered. It turned out that the encounter with Lin Xian was not as simple and romantic as he had imagined.Chen Chao felt that the various motor units that constitute the same muscle in his body received nerve impulses from each other, resulting in incomplete contraction.He couldn't suppress the tension in his heart, he really wanted to mobilize his faster-than-light thinking to think about what the hell was going on.

Before Chen Chao could think too much, his and Lin Xian's gazes had already converged.Super Chen saw the smile on Lin Xian's face, that smile was as calm as ever, as if he could easily hide the secret in his heart.

Lin Xian walked towards him and said:

"Hi, what a coincidence!"

Chen Chao also smiled and said:

"Yeah, long time no see."

"By the way, are you studying in Changsha?"

After speaking, he pointed to the train number sign at the ticket gate.

Chen Chao nodded and looked back, only to realize that there were only a few people left in the long line just now.He pulled out the handle of the suitcase and said to Lin Xian:

"It's time for me to get in."

"Okay, stay safe."

After passing through the ticket gate, Super Chen looked back at Lin Xian, who smiled and waved to me.He suddenly regretted not hugging dear Lin Xian just now.

Super Chen put away the suitcase and sat in the carriage.Someone’s cell phone in the carriage streamed a song, it was Liu Genghong’s "Rainbow Paradise", a song he liked very much in high school.Both the lyrics and the melody of this song moved Chen Chao as always, especially at this time, he had just broken up with Lin Xian, whom he had just met by chance.

At this time, the song "Rainbow Paradise" reminded me of the chorus part:

"Can't find the direction to the rainbow heaven, there is the love you said is touching sadness with happiness.

Super Chen put down his cell phone, leaned his head back on the seat, and looked out the window. What he saw was pitch black, as if nothing existed there.Simply, he closed his eyes and started thinking about it.

Chen Chao recalled his high school years a few years ago, and Lin Xian's initial youthful appearance slowly emerged.Thinking about the past few years, the time can no longer be regained, and at this moment, the high-speed train makes the distance between him and Lin Xian drift away again.He became sad without any premonition, because until now Super Chen didn't know whether Lin Xian had ever loved him.

The crashing sound of the wheels on the rails, the roar of the high-speed air flow, the sound is in the ear, if there is nothing, it seems that the train is passing through the tunnel of time and space, and it will take them away from this dark world and enter another rainbow. paradise.

If life is exquisite vases, then memory is the broken fragments of these vases.But it's the little fragments that make people sad.

In the "Haizi's Home" hotel, the night fell, and the sound of traffic outside the window could be heard.On the double bed in the room, Lin Can kissed Super Chen on the cheek, interrupted his memory, and asked:

"Then when did they know about it? For a coquettish person like you, when you realize that you're not wrong, you can't help but tell them!"

Chen Chao glared at Lin Can, and said coquettishly:

"Hmph, I won't tell you!"

"Say it!"

Chen Chao thought for a while and said:

"One day, I saw Shi Fan online on the Internet. Shi Fan repeated his studies and was admitted to a junior college in Kaifeng. I didn't know where the courage came from, so I told him that I was gay. Shi Fan said he had already felt it a little bit, Because there is no text about girls in my cyberspace. Shi Fan asked me, what do you think of Lin Xian? I replied that Lin Xian did not admit it personally, but for me this is not important anymore, what is important It was I who knew that I fell in love with Lin Xian at a certain time and at a certain place."