Receive with the sky

Forget the past.

When he entered junior high school, Chen Chao was 13 years old and started boarding life at the school.Growing up in a single-parent family, he was an introverted teenager.The second year was Chen Chao's growth period, his stature began to rise, and he began to mature in all aspects.

Thinking back to that night.It was already winter, and the dormitory administrator had already turned off the lights.When everyone was soundly asleep, Super Chen woke up.He found a man lying beside him, still wearing a coat, huddled into a ball.After confirming that he was not dreaming, Chao Chen went up to recognize the face, it was Ah Peng from the same dormitory.

It was only then that Super Chen remembered what was going on.It turned out that Ah Shui followed Ah Peng to the dormitory after self-study tonight.Ah Shui is not a boarding student, but somehow asked to stay and sleep in Ah Peng's bed that night.Ah Peng was naturally very reluctant, not to mention that for the upper bunk, the weight of two people was very dangerous.But Ah Shui refused to leave with a sullen face, so there was nothing he could do about it.

In Chen Chao's eyes, Ah Shui is a bastard and a lunatic.In my memory, Ah Peng was spoiled by Ah Shui.Ah Shui pestered Ah Peng many times, so he thought he was familiar with him.They skipped classes together and smoked together.Ah Shui likes to make trouble for small people, Super Chen knows that.I remember that in the first year of junior high school, when he hadn't grown up yet, Super Chen would also be bullied by Ah Shui.There was one time that impressed him the most.

After school that day, Chao Chen was alone in the classroom.He propped his arms on the window, bent his body, and looked at the hills outside the window.Suddenly, a pair of hands embraced Chen Chao's stomach from behind, and a body leaned against his back.When Super Chen felt the man's lower body pressed against his buttocks, he hurriedly turned around quickly and broke free from those hands.

Super Chen saw Ah Shui showing an evil smile, and walked away insanely.He stood there for a few minutes, waiting for his flustered heart to calm down.Chen Chao recalled the action of Ah Shui hugging him just now, and felt uncomfortable for a while, as if Ah Shui's disgusting soul had entered his body.In the next few days, Super Chen would always think of that moment repeatedly, even if he kept telling himself to forget it.

Later, Chen Chao grew taller, and his grades were always excellent, and he was also the class monitor, so his position among the class and teachers was strengthened.Ah Shui didn't dare to do anything to him, and he didn't bother to talk to this lunatic.However, Ah Peng was not so lucky.Small in stature, not outstanding in grades, and not favored by the teacher, Ah Shui could only be dragged down the quagmire step by step.

Seeing Ah Peng shrunk into a ball, Super Chen suddenly wanted to pull him out of the quagmire.He took out half of his quilt and covered A Peng's body.Then Super Chen closed his eyes, but he didn't fall asleep for a long time.He opened his eyes, looked at A Peng's face, and felt how beautiful this night was.

At this time, Ah Peng turned over and turned his back to Super Chen.Chen Chao put his hand on A Peng's body.He wanted to hug Ah Peng tightly, but he could only hold Ah Peng's thick coat.At this moment, Super Chen realized that there was a reaction from below.He suddenly felt shameless, as cheap as Ah Shui.Thinking of this, Chen Chao withdrew his hand, turned over, and lay back to back with Ah Peng.

Super Chen suddenly had another very evil thought.He wanted to touch the bottom of Ah Peng to see if he had the same reaction as himself.He put his hand into A Peng's part in fear.shrinking!After satisfying his evil desire, Chen Chao closed his eyes very uneasy.

Waking up in the morning, Chen Chao found that Ah Peng beside him was gone.Later, neither Ah Peng nor Chen Chao mentioned that night again.Chao Chen was also unable to continue to help A Peng to be a good man, because since then, Chao Chen has been troubled by the issue of sexual orientation.He realizes that his mind and body are in a dangerous no-man's-land.Just like what his mother always told him when he asked him to study hard: remember, you are different from others without your father.

The summer vacation before entering the third grade of junior high school did not actually have a summer vacation, and the school required to make up lessons in the name of voluntary.After school starts, according to tradition, the school leaders will divide the class into three grades according to the test scores for the high school entrance examination.The intensive class is for students with an upper-middle level, and the advanced class is for students with a lower-middle level.And the students whose scores are always at the bottom or who have poor discipline will be concentrated in one class, which is called a special class.

The so-called characteristics of special classes, the school's statement is not to judge heroes by scores, but to tap personal strengths.But in fact, one of Chao Chen's classmates had an upper-middle academic performance, but he was assigned to a special class.The reason is that I did not take supplementary classes during the summer vacation.A few days after school started, that classmate dropped out of school voluntarily.

In Chen Chao's view, special classes are just a means for the school to manage disobedient students.Of course, Chen Chao is also happy to see that students like Ah Shui are assigned to special classes.The strengthening class and the improvement class are integrated from the original brother classes, just like two brothers, the advantages are concentrated in one person, and the shortcomings are concentrated in the other.So it is still a sibling class after adjustment.The so-called brother class means that the class numbers are adjacent to each other, and they share a set of teachers, as if they have common parents.

That night the class list was announced, and Super Chen saw A Peng's name in the column for the intensive class.In fact, according to A Peng's academic performance, he would be assigned to the improvement class.Later, I heard classmates muttering in private, saying that A Peng's parents came back from the city and stuffed red envelopes for the school leaders.

Peng's parents left him in the care of his grandparents when he was just learning to walk.The couple went to the city to start a business.It took more than ten years to do it, from setting up a street stall to opening a restaurant.When students discuss this matter, most of them are envious and jealous.In the past, if someone else did such a wrong thing, Super Chen would always scoff at it.But today when this happened to Ah Peng, Super Chen was more than happy.

After the two classes exchanged some students, the head teacher organized everyone to line up in the corridor and arrange seats.Although there is a team for men and women, the boys and girls have already sat separately.So Chen Chao calculated the order of seating and deliberately stood behind A Peng.Only then did Chen Chao realize that Ah Peng had also grown up in stature.So we became tablemates in the last year.

The time spent at the same table is unmatched by other students.Talk, laugh and rap with the front and back tables, and listen to cassette songs together with one earphone.These are things that everyone likes to do, but Chen Chao is not sure whether other students have the habit of folding their thighs.I don't know when it started, but Chen Chao likes to put his thighs on A Peng's thighs, and the same goes for class time.

A few days before the senior high school entrance examination, Ah Peng suddenly said to Chen Chao: I will sleep with you.It turned out that during the three days of the senior high school entrance examination, I lived in the hotel of the county party school.Because the beds are limited, two people are arranged to sleep in one bed, and the combination is voluntary.So they slept in the same bed again.

On the first night, Super Chen was very quiet.The second night, he went to bed very late.He pretended to be asleep and put his legs on A Peng's body many times, but A Peng put them down gently.The next day, while brushing his teeth and washing his face, Ah Peng said, "You boy, you move a lot when you sleep. If I'm a woman, I won't be eaten by you."

On the last day of the exam, Chen Chao's pants were ripped and he borrowed a pair from A Peng.I wanted to return it to him when I returned to school, but I didn’t know that after returning to school, I had already gone my separate ways.And the Walkman they listened to music with was also at Chao Chen's place.Of course, there are good memories that remain in my mind.

During that summer vacation, Chen Chaochao was very lonely and ordinary, relying on A Peng's walkman to live.Later, a phone call from A Peng added a little flavor to the boring summer vacation.A Peng said: I didn't get into the high school I wanted, so I had to go to a private school.And Chen Chao successfully entered the provincial key with the 26th place in the city.

When he was in the second grade of high school in the county, A Peng came to see Chao Chen once.It was a very dull day, and Ah Peng seemed to be preoccupied.There was a power outage that night, and Chao Chen listened to the radio with dry batteries.Ah Peng was playing with his mobile phone on the side.Chen Chao said, go to sleep.A Peng said, um, good.

For the third time they slept together, just the two of them in the room.Before Chen Chao fell asleep, Ah Peng hugged Chen Chao with his arms.Chen Chao pretended to be asleep, he wanted to let Ah Peng hug him like this.However, Ah Peng was not satisfied, he climbed onto Chen Chao's body, and pressed Chen Chao down.Chen Chao became a little nervous, but he thought it was good, so he continued to pretend to be asleep.A Peng didn't let it go, his lower body began to move strangely.Super Chen suddenly felt caught off guard and could only remain motionless, not knowing what to do.At this moment, Super Chen realized that his place was as hard as a steel rod.So, Chen Chao's hands hugged Ah Peng's body naturally.

When I woke up the next day, no one mentioned what happened last night.Before leaving, Ah Peng looked at Chao Chen's wardrobe for a long time.Ah Peng took out a shirt and said:

"I feel a little cold, please lend me this shirt to wear on my body."

Chao Chen said:

"Okay, I'll give it to you."

Chen Chao didn't know if Ah Peng had seen it, but Ah Peng had lent him the pair of pants in the closet.

After that, Ah Peng never came to see Chao Chen again.The mobile phone has also been in a state of being temporarily unavailable, and later calls became empty numbers.

At this time, Ah Shui suddenly asked:

"Chen Chao, do you still remember A Peng?"

Chen Chao smiled and said, "Of course."

Chen Chao asked Ah Shui: "Do you still have contact with him?"

"He," Ah Shui choked up, and said, "Ah Peng committed suicide."

"What?" It was as if a bomb exploded in Super Chen's ear.

"Ah Peng committed suicide." Ah Shui said.

Chen Chao's face started to heat up, as if all the blood suddenly rushed up.

After a long silence, Chen Chao asked Ah Shui: "When and how did it happen?"

Ah Shui said:

"Nine years ago, I met A Peng here. That year, A Peng transferred from the county town to the provincial capital to study high school. It was his parents' decision. In the first year of high school, A Peng did not agree. He was reluctant to part with his grandma. In the second year of high school, A Peng’s grandmother died of illness, and he became helpless, so he agreed. After I was expelled from school in the third year of junior high, I came to the provincial capital to make a living. A Peng did not enter the university after graduating from high school. I met a lot of friends, and they met in this bar. They fell in love. At first, they were very careful, and went to the hotel secretly to open a room. Later, A Peng’s parents divorced, because A Peng’s father had He had an affair and was discovered by his mother. A Peng's father asked for forgiveness, but his mother insisted on divorce. A Peng stood by his mother and lived with his mother. After working, he rented a small apartment outside and lived by himself. "