Hotaru [The Tale of Genji]

It was already midnight, and the entire palace was very quiet.Occasionally, the sound of the Night Carrier breaking the bowstring to watch the night can be heard.It's just that the candles in Qingliang Hall were still on, and His Majesty Suzaku was sitting alone in front of the imperial palace, busy.

"Your Majesty, although it's spring, it's still cold at night, please put on thick clothes."

The palace attendant who has been taking care of Suzaku since he was still in the East Palace put on a thick coat for His Majesty to put on.She knew that it was impossible to ask His Majesty to rest, and she could only take care of this stubborn young master from the sidelines.Suzaku sat for a long time and felt a little cold, so he agreed to her request and put on his outer robe.

Perhaps after sitting for a long time, his thoughts became a little chaotic and tired.It is difficult to continue to pick up a pen and want to write.I had no choice but to put down my pen and stare at the candlelight in a daze.

"Your Majesty, are you thinking of commanding Your Majesty the Palace?"

Suzaku was stunned for a moment, panic flashed in his eyes, and he mumbled vaguely.

Fortunately, the palace attendant didn't find anything. Although such an analogy was somewhat inappropriate, this kind old man had indeed always taken care of the brothers as his own sons and daughters.She has always been very pleased with the friendly and intimate relationship between His Majesty and Shuai Gong.

She said with a smile: "The concubine misses His Majesty Shuai very much now..."

"Uh, why?"

"Because, if he is here, you must be resting well at this time. You won't still look so tired here."

"This..." Suzaku was dumbfounded.

This Zhong Nayan smiled, "With the presence of the handsome palace, we can save a lot of trouble... He has always taken care of you."

"Obviously I'm the elder brother..." Suzaku retorted weakly.

"That's true. You have always indulged the handsome palace and cared for him very much." The smile on the palace attendant's face did not diminish, but he inadvertently expressed Suzaku's thoughts, "You will never reject the handsome palace." Your Majesty's request, and His Highness misses you so much. I have never seen a more intimate relationship than this."

Zhong Nayan felt that the friendship between the brothers made her feel very comforted, and she was talking happily when she suddenly found that there was no voice from above.She looked up suspiciously, and saw Suzaku's dazed expression.My heart was a little beating, maybe I said something wrong.

"Your Majesty... are you alright?"

"I..." Suzaku shook his head, "I'm fine, you can go down and rest."

"But……"

"It's okay, just sit down for a while and I'll go to rest."

"Then the concubine is leaving..."

The palace attendant retreated with the others, leaving His Majesty alone in a daze.In this quiet atmosphere, Suzaku looked at the room for the first time.He found traces of Prince Ying everywhere.

Hanging on the wall is Suzaku's favorite picture of chasing sound in the corridor, and beside the table is the coral decoration given to him by Yingying.There is also the old piano that the handsome palace loves, and the half-read books are scattered here-everywhere here is not contaminated with the breath of Prince Ying.It's just that I haven't seen him for a few days, and there seems to be a very lonely lack around me.

Indeed, as the palace attendant said, Suzaku was trying to command the palace.As soon as he stopped, he couldn't help thinking about Prince Ying.

Ever since she was a child, Suzaku cherished the prince's feelings extremely.When preparing to do something, he would always consider Prince Ying first.A few days ago, the two parted ways.In the past few days, Suzaku has been tossing and turning, worrying all the time, imagining the possibility of talking to her first.Even if he didn't want to admit it, he had to admit it.

I have never refused any of Yingying's requests.

Even so, his next request will shock the world.The illusion of peace between the two will also be shattered.Will the self who has been pampering him all this time agree to it?

Suzaku caressed the lotus-shaped jade pendant around her waist, and fell into a difficult, hesitant and depressing situation.

***

His Royal Highness Ying could not respond to Mr. Yuren's affection.

However, what this elegant young man is asking for is nothing more than expressing his heart on this beautiful night.Some tenderness rises with the wind and flows away with the water.There is no time to see each other again in this life, and I don't want to leave any regrets.

I just want to tell you that I once admired you so much, and I may still be reluctant to part with you in the future.

Before leaving, Yu Ren begged His Highness to keep the square scarf for himself as a memory.Shuai Gong nodded his head in agreement.Yu Ren was very happy. After he confided something in his heart, he felt relaxed.

"I thought that I would never have a chance to talk to His Highness about this matter in this life, but I didn't expect to say it so easily." He took a few deep breaths of the night's cool air and calmed down his slightly agitated mood, "Thank you for not revealing Disgusted expression, otherwise I will definitely stay here with shame and shame."

Upon hearing this, Prince Ying smiled wryly, and sighed, "...how can I hate your qualifications?"

Compared with Yuren's actions, Yingying laughed at her cowardice and retreat.He prides himself on being upright and magnanimous, but when faced with this matter, he has too many worries and dare not express his feelings.

Young Master Yuren saw the distressed look on his face, so he naturally understood Shuai Gong's pain.Compared with myself, this His Highness's love path will only be more bumpy.He couldn't say any words of comfort, he just felt extremely sad in his heart.

The handsome Miyamoto was worried, but when he saw Yuren's expression of being more uncomfortable than himself, he smiled instead.

"Don't show such a look, it will make me feel more guilty."

Yuren was startled, and hurriedly said: "Your Highness, I don't intend to burden you. If you feel embarrassed, please forget what I just said."

Prince Ying smiled, and said in a very gentle tone: "It's late at night, go back and rest."

Yu Ren was a little hesitant, "Then you..."

"After you go back, I will leave."

"Alright..." Yu Ren nodded, he still wanted to say something, but he didn't know what words to use.After hesitating for a while, he turned around reluctantly.

"Honor..."

"Yes!" Young Master Yu Ren turned around very quickly, looking nervously at the handsome palace.

I saw the prince standing there, and the night cast a very gentle halo on him.He smiled so beautifully and was so gentle that it almost made people cry.

He said, thank you.

Young Master Yu Ren endured the sadness and sorrow for a whole night, and at this moment he finally couldn't help it and burst out.

He squatted on the ground and wept loudly, not far from him was the dream he was obsessed with.However, this is not his own.That person's heart belongs to him, and he is dedicated in this life.Whether you come early or go late, that person is always waiting for the other person in the way you love.

Even if he was so sad that he couldn't help himself, he just looked at him politely and gently, and would never come over to comfort him.

"How can it be like this?" Yu Ren hugged his shoulders, sobbing, and said intermittently: "How to reject me in such a gentle way, it is really impossible for people to even resent."

Yuren squatted on the ground and calmed down for a while before standing up, meeting the helpless eyes of His Highness the Fourth Highness, feeling a bit ashamed by crying just now.But I have already expressed my heart, no matter how embarrassing it is.He nodded to His Royal Highness before turning around and leaving here.No hesitation, no resentment.

The candlelight of a good night is now in love, burning until dawn with only smoke remaining.

***

After Mr. Yuren left, the night wind began to blow slowly again.The palace lanterns on the porch danced accordingly, swaying circles of halos.Prince Ying stood here, lost in deep thought alone.

The most tormented in this world is a lover, hurt and parting, and can't ask for it.If you put this heart on one person, then all the love, hatred, ignorance and hatred will no longer belong to you.

How to understand this feeling, how to eliminate this meaning, even the Buddha can't comprehend it.

Thinking of that person, the prince suddenly felt that his heart was being twisted like a knife, and the pain was so painful that he couldn't breathe.He thought of returning from the palace that day and asking Mr. Genji what to do if there is someone he admires.Mr. Genji told him to tell the truth.But I hesitated for a long time, but I didn't have the courage to take a step forward.

Maybe it's because I feel that if I don't express my heart in this life.Even if she pretends to be stupid, she can always stay by Suzaku's side.But now in comparison, the prince found that he was the cowardly one.

Thinking too much, but lacking that magnanimity.It's really ridiculous that you don't even have the courage to confess your heart openly.There is no one around to complain about this complex emotion of stagnation, except for the weeping willows who look to the side and express their lovesickness.

His Royal Highness Ying stood silently for a long time before calming down.The move of Young Master Yuren caused a great shock to the prince.

There are so many infatuated people in the world, when Yuren is on the Suzaku Avenue, he will fall at a glance.And at that time, His Royal Highness Ying also galloped towards Yujing wholeheartedly, just to see his sweetheart early?

They are all deeply affectionate, but Mr. Yuren's relationship has already come to an end, but Prince Ying still doesn't know what his heart is.He looked at the horizon, although there were heavy clouds to avoid the moon, but the brilliance was still scattered.If it was my own feelings, it would be like this month, and it would be a kind of grace that it would never fade after obstacles.

Shuai Gongxia sighed silently, although the expression on his face was lonely, but he didn't have the tired feeling of being bored these days.Perhaps, he made some decision to restore the previous crisp and sharp momentum.

Quiet and late at night, there are no other people coming and going, and the place is secluded, and even a little sound is very clear.The prince turned his body slightly, and suddenly called out to a corner behind him——

"Your Highness, I know you are there, come out."

Behind the pillars, His Royal Highness, the daughter of Chengxiang Hall, stepped out slowly.A pair of eyes very similar to His Highness Prince Ying's was filled with complex emotions of worry.

The author has something to say: there is no doubt about the company's annual meeting on Friday and overtime on Thursday.Everyone should be used to me not being able to update on Thursday and Friday... right?

Make up for the weekend, make up for the weekend!

Tired head hurts, good night good night!everyone go to bed early