Hotaru [The Tale of Genji]

The most wonderful time is when the love first opens.

If this matter is not a bliss in the world, why are there so many idiots and resentful women who are obsessed with it and have no other intentions.

Perhaps, people who are naturally beautiful attract more attention, both men and women.Born as a human, this life must be misled by beauty, and you can't see the truth on the surface.

And some people are born to deviate from the way of harmony of yin and yang, so they become more and more obsessed with stunning beauty.There are many people who are secretly infatuated with someone who looks like Mr. Guang, but no one dares to discuss it openly.However, people who step into this path in the world either pretend to be no different from ordinary people, or secretly communicate in secret places.

Among the ministers of the previous family, it is natural to be infatuated with beautiful boys with good looks, but it is not the right way recognized by the world.In this extravagant era, it is still impossible for a man and a woman to stay together forever, let alone between two men who are born with colorful hearts.

The person His Royal Highness Prince Ying falls in love with is not an ordinary person.Regardless of their status, they are not the ones who can respond to His Highness the Fourth Highness.However, the prince has been infatuated with Xia Donggong since he was a child.At the beginning of her feelings, Suzaku was the only one in her eyes.Now that he has tasted the bliss in the world behind the word love by accident, he realizes more and more that his obsession with Suzaku is unique and irreplaceable in the world.

I can no longer let go, and there are so many sorrows that cannot be tolerated in the world.

Sad, pitiful, pity, lamentable.

……

In the afternoon, His Royal Highness Ying sat alone in his courtyard, his thoughts drifted away, and his body was absent.He roughly flipped through the things sent by people in Chengxiang Palace, but he was not interested.He understands that this is an inevitable experience of adulthood, so there is no need to make a fuss.The feeling of being overwhelmed when I woke up in the morning disappeared, and I returned to my usual indifferent and calm appearance.

However, after putting down the book, the appearance of the Suzaku in the dream came to mind again, lingering.

Now Ying longs to see Suzaku, but dares not.Want to express my heart, but afraid of abrupt beauty.The Fourth Prince clearly knew that the current Donggong didn't have any feelings for him beyond brotherhood.The prince's sleeping and thinking, tossing and turning, Donggong knew nothing, and he couldn't know at this time.

Reminiscing about the wonderful taste of haunting people in the dream, there is also a nameless dry fire burning.

……

His Majesty Donggong originally wanted to meet Prince Ying in person in the afternoon.Unexpectedly, it was announced by the present, and there was an important matter to discuss.Then someone sent me a message, please rest well, Fourth Highness.This kind of concern moved His Majesty Shuai very much, and he couldn't help but heaved a sigh of relief.

His Majesty announced that he saw the East Palace for the end of the year sacrifice.It's only a year since he abdicated, and many matters related to the emperor have been handed over to Suzaku.This time, Suzaku was also officially acting as the emperor's sacrificial priest, so he was naturally serious and refused to make any mistakes.

I am very satisfied with Suzaku's seriousness.Inside and outside the words, he also mentioned Mr. Genji.

"Minister You and your mother..." There was a pause today, and the words were changed, "...they are all very assertive people. You have a peaceful temperament, and when you become the throne in the future, you will have to obey their orders for various reasons. Meaning. However, Minister Zuo and Guang are trustworthy ministers, you can seek their help more often. Especially Guang, he is a person with perfect character and behavior, and he is the most brilliant among my princes. Listen to what he means..."

When it comes to Prince Guang, the smile on the corners of Jinshang's eyes must be more real.Once a word has been opened, it is not easy to take it back, and it is inevitable to say a lot.Suzaku listened next, without making a sound.However, following Imakami's words, he slowly tightened his fist on his knee.With the wide sleeves, His Majesty above did not see that he was trembling unbearably because of anger and disappointment.

Such partiality and distrust, which was no longer willing to hide, made Suzaku, who had always been very accustomed to accepting it, finally couldn't bear it.The fierce anger burned in Suzaku's warm eyes, and those questioning and unwilling words were almost blurted out.

Why do you have so little trust in your registered East Palace?Just because I am not your most satisfied and favorite prince, am I not the heir of your favorite woman!Then before Guang was born, you and His Royal Highness had never had a deep love, nor had you ever had a glimmer of expectation for me!

Or do you have no hope in me for what you have never done before, and choose to ignore all my efforts?

This cannot be abandoned, the blood carved on my body is the reason for my abandonment...

"Suzaku, you have to remember what I said." Jin Shangyou said with emotion, "If you can be safe and successful in this life, I will be satisfied."

Today's exclamation floated gently on the hall, but such a warm message was so powerless that it fell into the dust as soon as it was spoken.Its temperature couldn't give Suzaku a little warmth, but it made him feel extremely cold.After a long time, Dong Gong's cold and reserved voice came back:

"...My son, I will definitely remember my identity and will not do anything to humiliate it."

On the way back, His Royal Highness Suzaku felt depressed, and unknowingly walked to the place where he watched the sunset with Prince Ying last time.Just in time for winter, the leaves are withered, leaving only the fallen branches.There is no longer the dim yellow and magnificent colors of that day, and it is quite lonely.

Dong Gong tightened the cloak on his body, and lightly ordered the people who followed him: "You all go down..."

The palace servants looked at each other in blank dismay, and were about to persuade them with the reason that it's too cold to stay here for a long time.It can be seen that Donggong had already sat down leaning against the porch pillar, and had no intention of answering them at all, so they had to retreat one after another.

The sound of clothes rubbing and sliding quickly disappeared, and the surroundings became quiet.In such a winter day, the water in the pool no longer flows, and even the sunlight is quiet.Only in such an environment, those irritating words that disturb Suzaku's ears will disappear in shame, and give the prince a peaceful solitude.

The meeting with Imakami made Suzaku feel extremely tired, he leaned his head to one side, his brows and eyes were full of distressing colors.This prince often prefers to face those hesitant courtiers rather than face his own father.

Because, in front of those courtiers, the most practical things can be used to eliminate their distrust of themselves.And in front of this eccentric Majesty, no matter how hard Dong Gong tried, he would not be recognized and valued.Perhaps, he saw it, but he didn't want to admit it.

Reluctant to admit that this child who is very similar to himself can do things that he has not.

Such meetings made His Royal Highness Suzaku feel more and more tired.Many times, Suzaku handles government affairs alone until dawn, looking at the blue sky, he can't help but wonder what makes him persevere like this.

Obviously, there is only one person standing so firmly by his side.

"Firefly...Only, you alone..."

Suzaku opened his eyes, and the coolness seeped into his eyes.But because he thought of Prince Ying, he became warm.Suzaku couldn't help laughing at herself like this: If that child also finds someone and something he cherishes one day, how can I persevere as such a weak person?For a lonely person, how lucky it is to have someone to accompany and respond in this life, but how unfortunate.

"Only me what?"

Suzaku was startled, and when he turned around, he saw the fourth prince standing behind him with a puzzled expression, "Firefly?!"

"Yes," the fourth prince tilted his head, not understanding why Suzaku looked so surprised now.Could it be that there is something on his face?Prince Ying couldn't help touching his face, "Suzaku, what's wrong with you?"

"I, I..." Donggong stammered, "I just didn't expect you to appear suddenly."

"Oh..." Shuai Gong smiled shyly, walked to Dong Gong and sat down, "I didn't see you when I went to Chaoyang House just now. I came here to look for you..."

The fourth prince's expression contained a certain kind of shyness, which set off the prince's extravagant appearance and made people feel more amazing.He didn't tell Suzaku how long he hesitated before he overcame the overflowing shame in his heart and came to him.She also didn't tell Dong Gong about her eagerness to see him.

Hearing Yingying's words, Donggong couldn't help laughing, "You can always find me so quickly."

Perhaps it was because Donggong's smile was too gentle at this time.The color of the pupils of His Royal Highness became darker and darker, like the deep sea in winter, containing thousands of unknowable emotions.Under the calm water surface, there are dangerous whirlpools and undercurrents hidden.However, his face was always full of innocence that Suzaku knew, and he couldn't see any flaws.

"I've been relying on Suzaku since I was very young...Even now, I can't help but want to stay by Suzaku's side all the time."

"Is that so?" Dong Gong joked.

"Yes, I never lie."

Suzaku laughed, and raised her hand to gently tidy up Prince Ying's temple hair.This kind of action reminded the Fourth Highness immediately of what happened last night. He remembered the temperature of these hands and the feeling of holding them.Prince Ying stared at Suzaku's lips, recalling the warmth when they were touched, and the real touch of the kiss in his dream.

Donggong brushed her mischievous hair behind her ears for Yingying, and there was some unknown self-injury in her eyes.This frank child, as always, believed in himself.Always there when you need it most.It was good when I was very young, and it is good now.The person who finds himself the fastest will always be him.

Perhaps, in many, many times, I was looking forward to being found, so I hid like this.Perhaps, I have always held some secret expectation: hope to be found, hope to be valued.

Suzaku tidied up the black hat for the prince, put his palm on the fourth prince's shoulder lightly, and sighed softly: "Yingying, maybe the one who can't leave you is me..."

The author has something to say: Poor Suzaku whose father doesn’t love his mother and doesn’t love her~

Regarding homosexual love in the Heian period, I briefly checked the information.The love of all ways is the love of young people, which mainly occurred in the Sengoku and Edo period in Japan.The Wind of All Ways has a top-down process.This phenomenon began in the Heian period, and it is said that it was passed back from the Tang Dynasty by Japanese monks.

According to the data, although "The Tale of Genji" has descriptions of sex and love, there is no male love, which shows that it is not popular.

My understanding of this sentence is

1. Description has

2. Murasaki Shikibu did not clearly write

If you read the original book, you will find that the book mentions Guangyuan's attraction to men countless times.Especially when the Ministry of War Qinggong (Mrs. Purple's father) visited the barnacles at the same time as Hikari, he thought it would be nice if Genji was a girl.Wait, there are many such examples.Perhaps it is because this kind of feeling is not "orthodox". For a book dedicated to the entertainment of the empress and emperor, it is not easy to write it in the dark room.But this kind of description is too much, and it stops abruptly halfway through, which makes me feel very deliberate.

How could there not be such an era of immorality.I don't believe it, cut it.

Back to this article, for Yingying now, the biggest obstacle at this time is the identity of the emperor brother Suzaku.

Ugh

Above, good night everyone.