Hotaru [The Tale of Genji]

This was a sudden change overnight, and everyone was too frightened to turn around.The ministers anxiously waited for the news outside the hall, lamenting that the past year has been incredible.All kinds of rumors spread rapidly in the palace.Everyone didn't know what happened, and wanted to inquire about the news in Qingliang Palace, but there was no way at all.

It's just that His Majesty and Yinggong really don't have much experience to care what other people think.This wind and cold is not light, and it is quite unbearable to put it on anyone.Dong Gongxia was ups and downs in a state of sobriety and bewilderment, neither drinking medicine nor answering questions.His depressed and desperate appearance made His Majesty Suzaku anxious.

After spending an afternoon with him, Ying Gongxia ran out of patience and fed the medicine by himself.Dong Gong's small face was flushed red from choking, with tears and concoction, Suzaku felt extremely distressed seeing it.Donggong stared at His Royal Highness Ying stubbornly and resentfully, the deep grief and indignation hidden in the grievance, no matter how hard-hearted people are, they will soften their hearts when they see it.

Ying and him looked at each other for a long time, sighed and persuaded softly, "Don't embarrass yourself like this..."

Dong Gong let out a sob in his throat, struggled to sit up, plunged into his brother's arms, and burst into tears.The anger when he was deceived; the despair when he found out the truth; the grievance with nowhere to go, and the guilt of not being ashamed to face Suzaku and Hotaru are all expressed in this cry.

Quan originally thought that his mother's renunciation was because she missed the late emperor, so that she no longer lingered in the world.Thinking of her lonely looks many times, Quan also blamed himself for not being able to relieve her worries.

Although it was difficult for him to accept Zhonggong's conversion at the beginning, he later felt that he shouldn't be so selfish.If the mother can find a way to find peace of mind, as a child, she shouldn't stop it for her own sake.

Although he was reluctant to give up, he also slowly accepted the reality. Along the way last night, Donggong was still blaming himself for doubting his brother and mother's behavior for no reason.

But the truth was uglier than he had guessed.

He was not the late emperor's child, and Quan would not have believed it if the two hadn't admitted it himself.Thinking of the late emperor's love and cherishment for him, Quan almost wanted to die of grief and indignation.He is not qualified to enjoy these things, his own existence is a big lie, a sin, and a stain that Zhonggong cannot escape in this life.

That beautiful face that is exactly the same as Genji's is not a proof of the beauty in the world, but a crime that makes the world laugh.

No wonder my mother didn't want to see me. The evil fruit of sin was so vivid, how dare I face it after being tortured day and night.If it was me, I would also want to get rid of him as soon as possible.

Perhaps, getting married is not for atonement.It was because the person I liked was persecuted, and I thought that I would never see each other again, so I fled into Buddhism in despair.

Feelings are always biased, and people will always choose the one who feels more important, right?Then why are these two people still so grandiose in the name of Donggong, making him feel so guilty.Don't they know what shame is?

There was as much nostalgia and admiration, as much respect and admiration, as much hatred and resentment at this time.The dark and negative emotions that had been suppressed in my heart finally burst out.

After a heavy rain on a spring night, there will be no sunshine.

Quan didn't know how he got back to the imperial palace, and he didn't know whether Zhonggong and Genji noticed after he left.The heavy rain is like a curtain, and the sky and the earth are connected in the dark night.Where to go and where to go, there is nowhere to know.

When Donggong finally reacted, what he saw was Yinggong's frowning and Suzaku's worried gaze.At that moment, he finally cried, only crying because he still had a home.

Donggong cried so sadly, Yingying hugged him, and whispered comfortingly in his ear: "It's not your fault, don't embarrass yourself like this."

At this time, Quan was in a state of confusion and just kept crying, but His Majesty gave Yinggong a slightly surprised look.

"What happened, why did you toss yourself like this?"

Facing His Majesty's question, Dong Gong bit his lower lip and was very reluctant to say more.But the emotion of deceiving others has already become a heart disease, so how can he be willing to deceive Suzaku, who is like a father and brother.

But Izumi didn't want Suzaku and Hotaru to dislike him too.What would they do if they knew the truth?To abolish his position in the East Palace, or to take away the identity of the prince.Quan didn't care about these things, he was afraid that the two elder brothers would look at him with that disgusting look - just like he hated himself now.

His Highness Quan tightly closed his lips, but refused to speak out.Suzaku became more and more anxious, but it would not work until the matter was resolved.Thinking about the cause and effect, he carefully asked: "But it has something to do with the palace?"

Donggong's body trembled, and he hugged Yinggong's waist even more tightly, as if he was afraid of being abandoned.Seeing this, His Majesty knew that he had guessed right, and carefully recalled Ziquan's performance after waking up. He felt bad in his heart, but he still asked tentatively: "...is it related to light?"

Quan's complexion was already pale, and the painful expression was so obvious that Suzaku couldn't bear to ask any more.I just plan to put it aside like this, and pursue it when Quan is willing to speak up.Nesting in the embrace of Yingying Palace, His Highness Quan slowly sat up straight, and replied in a fluttering, uncertain voice:

"Brother Huang...do you think I and... Brother Guanghuang look alike...?"

What is the meaning of such a nonsensical sentence?Suzaku frowned.Suddenly, with a flash of inspiration, an extremely absurd guess emerged from his mind.His Majesty's face also changed, and he couldn't believe it was true.

However, facing His Majesty's unbelievable eyes, Dong Gong's eyes showed anxious desire.He begged almost without thinking: "Brother Emperor...I, please, don't leave me...I..."

Suzaku was obviously flustered, this kind of absurd thing was really unacceptable.But thinking of Donggong's reluctance to see these two after waking up, he understands a little or two.This sudden truth really disturbed His Majesty's thoughts, and he felt the incomparable absurdity.

Then Yinggong was extremely calm. He turned the trembling Donggong to face him, and comforted him in a deep voice: "If you are afraid of being rejected because of this matter, then you are worrying too much. Suzaku and I will definitely not abandon you because of abandonment. You, understand?"

Dong Gong's eyes glowed with hope because of these words, but he was still afraid, and confirmed in a very low voice: "...Really?"

"Of course it is true," His Majesty adjusted his mood and agreed.His feelings for Quan have always been extremely sincere, and have nothing to do with his status or blood relationship.This must be said from the heart.Although what happened just now shocked him greatly, it still will not change his love for Quan.

Donggong is sensitive and extremely dependent.He looked into His Majesty's eyes, confirming again and again.Only then was he finally willing to believe that what Suzaku said was not to coax him.At the same time that the tense and guarded emotions were relaxed, Dong Gong, who was still ill, also felt deeply exhausted.Almost fell asleep with eyes closed.

He is still holding the corner of Yinggong's clothes in his hand, which shows that he is extremely uneasy.

Ying opened Quan's fingers and pulled the quilt for him to hold.Then he gestured to Suzaku, and the two walked lightly to the outside before daring to make a sound.

His Majesty only felt a splitting headache about this matter, it was really annoying.These days, it seems that all the bad things come to Guangyuan.But in the end, it was me who was in trouble at the end.

"If he can change his merciless temper, he will save a lot of trouble!" Suzaku couldn't help complaining like this.

After hearing this, Yinggong mocked lightly, "If it can be changed, then it wouldn't be him."

"Well, how will Quan deal with himself after this?"

"It depends on your attitude and my attitude. Will Suzaku abolish the Eastern Palace for this reason?"

Facing this question, Suzaku pondered for a while, and said firmly: "I will not abolish the position of the Eastern Palace because of this, and the throne will not be passed on to others after I die."

"That's all. As long as Suzaku's attitude remains the same, what impact will this matter have? If you... want an heir because of this, then you should make a decision early."

The voice of the last sentence was very soft, as if Hotaru was talking to herself.His Majesty shook his head and sighed: "From the very beginning, I have no intention of leaving an heir. After being with you, I have no intention of getting close to others. Just keep this matter as a secret in my heart. Don't worry about it." That’s what changed the attitude.”

"That's right," Yingying's expression could almost be described as joy, and he took a steady breath and asked again: "But, what should Guang and Zhonggong do? Now Quan is extremely resentful towards them."

"Zhonggong has already become a monk. As for Guang... he will leave for Suma soon. After that, the mountains and rivers will be separated, and I won't be able to see people. Quan's heart should feel better."

Yingying disagreed with Suzaku's guess, and denied it: "That's not necessarily..."

"Why?"

"Who knows how long Brother Guanghuang can go to Suma? If someone in the court finds various excuses to intercede for him and wants him to come back early. Concerned about Quan's mood, will Suzaku agree?"

"Of course not." Suzaku frowned, answering almost subconsciously.

"Then what if they put pressure together?" Yingying immediately asked the next question, with oppression in her tone.Without waiting for Suzaku to answer, he lowered his eyes slightly, and sighed with emotion as if joking, "You know, Suzaku, you have always been a soft-hearted person. Many things have been let go because of your soft-heartedness. To what extent."

Suzaku finally noticed something was wrong.From the incident to the present, Yinggong's performance was too calm.If it weren't for the weirdness revealed in the last sentence, I would almost be walking down step by step under his guidance.

His Majesty hid his anxiety and doubts, and forced himself to calm down, "So, what do you want me to do?"

There was no panic on Yingying's face when a flaw was discovered, but a very satisfied and sincere smile.It seemed to be happy that Suzaku finally asked this question.

He put up his fingers and tapped his lips lightly, and replied leisurely word by word: "I just hope that His Majesty will issue a decree that Guangyuan is not allowed to return to Beijing if there is no order from the new emperor."

Qing Gong of the Ministry of War was hidden in half of the shadow, his eyes were extremely bright.He finally released all his restrained momentum, and spoke the tip of the iceberg of this huge layout.And maybe just one more small step, and he will succeed.

A sense of absurdity that was greater than before climbed up Suzaku's spine, and his mind went blank.The shock of reacting almost shattered all his composure.

His Majesty recalled many details that he had overlooked, as if the scattered circles were finally connected together.Consciousness has been broken into fragments, but he is still holding on——

"You already knew about this?"

"Which one is your Majesty referring to?" Yinggong smiled, "If it refers to Quan's life experience, it is probably about the same time as when the previous Imperial Box Palace entered the palace."

Suzaku's mouth was bitter, and he asked again with sour eyes: "Is there anything else that you already knew?"

"Ah, it's probably about brother Guanghuang's unrequited love for the monk Shizhijun. What's the matter, is Suzaku interested to know?"

"No, I don't want to..." His Majesty shook his head and began to speak incoherently, "I...you, you actually told me so directly."

Yingying smiled more and more happily, and tapped the ground with her slender fingers, "Because I won't lie to Suzaku, right, I will tell you whatever you want to know."

"Then tell me why you did it!"

His Majesty was extremely angry, and felt tired from the bottom of his heart.Shouting this sentence almost exhausted all his strength.He stared at Yingying, trying to find a hint of guilt from that calm and handsome face.But he only saw the fake smile fade away from it, revealing the real coldness.

"What Suzaku thinks I am for, don't you know what I am for!" Yingying's face was icy cold, and the anger that had been suppressed for a long time finally flowed out.That mocking answer no longer gave each other any face. "As I said, it is precisely because Suzaku has always been so soft-hearted that I..."

"So what's the reason... about Shangshi and Guang, and this time about Quan, what did you do..." His Majesty interrupted Yingying with pain in his heart, as if to find another reason to deceive himself.At this time, he already knew that Quan was responsible for everything that happened recently, but he still refused to believe it.

Suzaku's expression was really distressing.Ying Gong only felt pain in the apex of his heart.A bloody smell came out of his mouth, it turned out that he accidentally bit his lip.He clenched his fist on his knee, then let it go tremblingly.Resisting the urge to hug him into his arms, he opened his mouth word by word: "I didn't do anything, these things are just the truth. They just reappeared in the world at what I think is the right time to make up for some It was just a situation that I was unable to recover from. If you really want to ask me why..."

Speaking of this, Yinggong suddenly smiled slightly, "I probably just want to be with you earlier..."

Truly free and unrestrained, let go of those disturbing right and wrong.It is up to me to untie the shackles on you.Even if it's just an insignificant firefly, it will take you to fly far away into the blue sky far away.Just the two of us, snuggled up, never to be bothered again...

The author has something to say: the next chapter will be announced~ Yes, this article will be added to V after it is finished~ Thank you for your support!mwah!