A down-and-out writer sacrifices his lust to find a brother to imitate love in order to write Danmei

The two walked into the elevator in silence. It was time for the movie to end, and many people squeezed into the elevator together.The two who were still a little apart were squeezed face to face.

Long Junchi's warm breath hit Yang Li's face, making Yang Li feel itchy, what's wrong with him?Actually fell in love with a guy, and returned his mother...Yang Li couldn't help but began to wonder if he was born gay, that's why he hasn't been in a relationship for so many years, hasn't met a girl he particularly likes, and he doesn't even have a sexual desire. Not very prosperous?

Yang Li was still depressed silently in his heart, suddenly there were extra hands around his waist, hugging him tightly, pulling him a little closer to the body in front of him.Yang Li raised his head in a panic, but what he met was Long Junchi's calm eyes.The embarrassment in the movie theater just now seemed to have left no trace on his face.

Long Junchi said softly, "Aren't we in love?"

Love, love, so this is love?The magnetic voice bewitched him gently in Yang Li's ears, making him forget where he was for a moment, naturally filtering out the surprised eyes around him.

Following the flow of people, Yang Li, who was in a daze, was dragged into the parking lot by Long Junchi.As soon as he got into the car, before Yang Li had time to react, Long Junchi pressed down on the co-pilot again and kissed him hard.

The upsurge just now hadn't receded from the bodies of the two young and energetic men, another wave of enthusiasm quickly eroded their sanity.This time, there was no struggle, the two were selflessly entangled, doing sweet but unreasonable actions in a small space.

It turned out that the feeling of kissing was so wonderful, the numbness spread from the mouth to the whole body, the limbs were as weak as if they were constricted, and the weight on his body reminded him all the time that he was kissing a man .Thinking of this, a current went straight to the side of the mouse, and Xiao Xiaoli became a little stiffer.

Of course, he also felt the little brother of another spirit that did not belong to him at the root of his leg.

This kiss went from intense to lingering, and in the end, Long Junchi's little kisses fell on Yang Li's lips, but they were reluctant to part from each other, greedy for the taste from another male.

When people are driven by lust, they tend to do things that they can't even imagine. Just like Long Junchi at this moment, from the silly kiss to the white and soft earlobe, his heart is both satisfied and dissatisfied. His body was telling him it wasn't enough, not enough.He raised his body slightly, stared at Yang Li, who was under him in a daze, and spoke out the most true thoughts in his heart, "Yang Li, let's do it."

"What?" Yang Li pushed Long Junchi away as if being shocked by an electric shock, and stared at Brother Long in disbelief, "Long, Brother Long, what are you talking about? This kind of joke is not funny."

Long Junchi realized that his recklessness could no longer be ended, so he decided to let Yang Li know some facts if he didn't do any nonsense. He had a vague confidence that Yang Li would not discriminate against him, so he straightened up Said, "I'm not kidding."

Long Junchi was not in a hurry, but actually walked around to the driver's seat with weak legs, and continued to say as calmly as possible: "I know that my behavior was very reckless and abrupt, which frightened you, I'm sorry."

Seeing Long Junchi's serious face, Yang Li secretly felt that something was wrong, straightened his body, and sat up, "Brother Long, I know you want to help me, I don't blame you, but, that really doesn't suit us. "

"I..." Long Junchi hesitated to speak.

Yang Li couldn't see Long Junchi's embarrassment, he had some suspicions in his heart, but he didn't dare to say it rashly, so he could only guide Long Junchi to say, "Brother Long, do you have any secrets? You can rest assured to tell me I said, I have already regarded you as my real big brother during the few months we lived together, you can tell me what troubles you have, maybe I can share some for you?"

Long Junchi didn't answer immediately, his knuckle fingers rubbed repeatedly on the leather steering wheel cover.Yang Li has read some psychological books before, saying that small hand movements of picking and rubbing often reflect a person's inner anxiety and fear.Although Long Junchi was calm on the surface, his little tricks still betrayed him.

Affected by this atmosphere, Yang Li felt uneasy, but he didn't urge him loudly, maybe he was hoping that Long Junchi could pass the test in his heart.

Long Junchi suddenly stopped the movement of his fingers, and stared blankly at the front of the car. Yang Li rarely saw such an expression in Long Junchi's terrifying eyes. Open up your posture.It took a while before Long Junchi's hollow voice sounded in his ears, "Do you still remember that cousin I told you about?"

Yang Li nodded, but thought that Long Junchi didn't turn his head to look at him, so he let out another "hmm".

"Actually, I don't have such a cousin. The cousin I'm talking about is just myself." Long Junchi turned his head and stared at Yang Li with his shiny black eyes, "I'm that gay, I lied to you, I'm sorry, Yang Li."

Yang Li was in a daze for a while, the handsome and masculine Brother Long actually told him that he was gay? !

Yang Li mechanically turned his head inch by inch, meeting Long Junchi's eyes.

Long Junchi looked at him without turning for a moment, there was no hint of a joke in his deep eyes.Yang Li knew that what he said was true.In fact, he is more qualified than anyone else to be sure that Long Junchi is really gay, otherwise how to explain the fact that Long Junchi, a normal man, would react when they kissed?

No, how could he, a straight man, have the same reaction?Could it be that gay has a trait that attracts the same sex?

He forced a dry laugh, "Brother Long, what you said can't be true, can it?"

Long Junchi did not answer directly, but continued: "I have discovered my difference since I was very young. At that time, I was also very scared and confused. It was not until I read a lot of psychological books on this topic that I slowly accepted it. I don't like the fact of women. It's also because of this, regardless of gender, I will deliberately keep a certain distance from others. In the summer vacation of my freshman year, I had a showdown with my family. My mother always wanted me to find a beautiful girlfriend in college. , so that after graduation, I don’t have to worry about work and my partner, but I don’t want to deceive her, the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment. So I told her the truth.

At that time, my father was so angry that he went to the hospital with high blood pressure, and my mother shed tears on the bedside every day.In our place, good things don't go out, and bad things spread far and wide.Soon, my aunts and aunts came to my house to persuade me whether they had a relationship or not.

I didn't want to continue to cause trouble for my family, so I went back to school before school started.On the first day of school, my mother transferred the tuition fee to me, and then called to persuade me, but I still insisted on myself.She hung up, and for four years, no matter how I tried to contact my family, they ignored me.Even when I came home after graduating from college, my dad just threw my luggage out.I think they were disappointed in me, and finally I gave up.If it weren't for the tuition fees sent to me by my brother every year, plus the living expenses I earn from part-time jobs, I wouldn't be able to graduate from school smoothly. "

It was only then that Yang Li remembered that it was no wonder that when he was in college, Long Junchi always looked taciturn and simple in food and clothing. It turned out that there were these stories behind him.

"So you have been alone until now, and you haven't contacted your family anymore?"

"No," Long Junchi smiled, "until the year before last, my mother called me suddenly, just to ask about my current situation and see if I was short of money. I think my mother is gay to me." This matter has been loosened. After all, I am her son, and she will not really ignore me. I went back to my hometown last year, and the family was very happy. Although my dad still doesn’t talk to me very much, I know that he When I get old, my heart will soften. My persistence won in the end, and I can only make up for their damage in the future.”

Yang Li couldn't imagine how Long Junchi survived the four years alone, under the pressure of study and life, the determination of relatives and friends, and the worldly eyes and public opinion, but he finally persevered, and finally won the love of his family. acceptance.

"Yang Li, you will definitely disgust me now, hate me, right? I never confessed to you from the beginning, and I even kissed you."

Yang Li's cheeks turned red when he heard the following words, because he heard such a horrifying thing that he even forgot what happened just now. Now that he mentioned it, he suddenly realized that he was Was taken advantage of!

"That is to say, it was out of your own selfishness that you helped me before?" Yang Li felt his tongue tingle, and he was 1 unwilling to believe that Brother Long would deceive him.

But Long Junchi was silent, opened his mouth, and finally said nothing.

Yang Li felt a surge of anger in his chest, and for a moment he even had the urge to hit someone.After playing for a long time, I regarded the other party as a brother, but the brother wanted to fuck me!

"So that's what you did brother?" Yang Li got out of the car angrily, stood outside the car window, and said coldly, "I'll take a taxi back by myself, you go first."

"Yang Li, don't do this, I know I'm sorry for you, you can get angry at me, you can hit me, I, Long Junchi, will never fight back. But don't torment yourself, it's so late, and it's so cold outside, if you hit me What should I do if I can’t get to the car?” Long Junchi already regretted that he told the truth so quickly, if he only got Yang Li’s disgust in exchange for telling the truth, he would rather bury his heart forever and just do it silently His brother Long.

Yang Li fumbled here and there in his pocket, and finally found a pack of shrunken cigarettes. He seldom smokes, and only smokes one when he is really upset.At this time, it is exactly what is needed.

"Is there a fire?" Yang Li said angrily.

Long Junchi took out a lighter from his coat pocket and handed it over.

Quietly watched Yang Li light the cigarette, stand outside the car, and swallowed the clouds without saying a word.

I have to admit that even Yang Li like this is deeply attracted to him. No matter what he does, whether it's smoking or writing pornographic novels, he's always the one who was bathed in the sun in the campus back then. juvenile.

Long Junchi watched so quietly, his eyes unconsciously quieted down.

After Yang Li finished smoking a cigarette, he turned his head and saw Long Junchi looking at him obsessively.

There was a beating in his heart, as if he had guessed something, but he was afraid of breaking it.He just got into the car with a sullen head, "Go back."