Seven bitter flowers

Chapter 5: Wait until you are sober

At night, the snow fell again in a swirl.

Ding Xiu sat in the yard with her knees hugged, her chin resting on her folded hands, her eyes were slightly closed, as if she had fallen asleep.

The surrounding area was extremely quiet, and even the small sound of snowflakes falling around her could be heard.

And of course, the sound of breathing.

Her own breathing.

Shangguan Jiu and Yu Fei had already been buried, and they were buried in the open space in the backyard. There were two weeping willows standing beside them, their snow-covered branches hanging down. "Srustling" sound.

But there are no new graves.

After burying the bodies of Shangguan Jiu and Yu Fei, Ding Xiu insisted on filling up the soil.

"Ajiu said that if she dies, she doesn't want to have a grave, and she doesn't want people to burn paper and people to cry for her. She said that life, old age, sickness and death are inevitable. Since it can't be stopped, it's better to accept it calmly. "Ding Xiu's face was indeed calm, but there was almost stubborn persistence in her eyes. When she said this, she never looked at Zhan Zhao, and her voice was so low that she seemed to be talking to herself.

After Shangguan Jiu and Yu Fei were buried, Ding Xiu started to tidy up the house, from inside to outside, slowly, as if she was not cleaning up, but completing a painstaking work of art.

During this period, Zhan Zhao stood there silently, quietly watching Ding Xiu's brisk steps in and out, but his brows were furrowed.

After discovering the corpses of Shangguan Jiu and Yu Fei, Ding Xiu burst into tears unexpectedly. She cried extremely subduedly, and she just shed tears sobbingly, which wet a large area of ​​his front.But after Ding Xiu wiped away her tears, she suddenly became surprisingly calm, as if in this short period of time, she had accepted the fact that her childhood playmate died unexpectedly, she had no sadness, no hatred, and even Not the slightest bit of emotion was shown.

A bad premonition gradually rose in Zhan Zhao's heart, Ding Xiu was unexpectedly calm, there were only two possibilities.

The first is that he once heard Mr. Gongsun say that if a person is hit too hard, he may choose to close all emotions and stop communicating with the outside world, which is an excessive self-protection phenomenon.If this is the case, then Ding Xiu might not be able to accept such a blow, and closed himself in his emotions.

But from the bottom of his heart, Zhan Zhao didn't believe this kind of speculation. Although he didn't know much about Ding Xiu after several months of getting along, he could tell from her words and deeds that this girl seemed weak, but there was something in her personality. Extremely tough part.The family upheaval when I was a child, the death of my master, wife, and brother, including seeing her in Luoyang half a year ago, when she was besieged and dying... She has suffered many blows, and any of these blows may cause a person to collapse. But she has endured so much, yet she was still able to appear in Kaifeng with such a calm and composed attitude a few months ago.Even during those days when she stayed in Kaifeng Mansion, she often played and joked with Zhang Long and Zhao Hu, no different from any other ordinary girl.She has never shown her weakness in front of others. Such a girl, so stubborn and strong, will not fall down due to blows.

Zhan Zhao's mouth was tightly pursed, if not, then there is only the last explanation.

In such a short period of time, Ding Xiu has already thought of a new countermeasure.

Countermeasures for revenge.

When Ding Xiu washed away the blood on the ground with water, Zhan Zhao finally spoke: "Axiu, take a rest and listen to me."

Ding Xiu raised her head and slowly straightened her body, but she didn't listen to Zhan Zhao's continuation, but said softly, "Zhan Zhao, where are the seven bitter flowers I gave you?"

Zhan Zhao raised his head vigilantly, and said in a deep voice, "What do you want to do?"

Ding Xiu completely ignored Zhan Zhao's question. She took a towel from the shelf in the corner of the room, wiped her hands carefully, then stretched out her right hand, and said coldly, "Where are the seven bitter flowers? Give it to me."

Sure enough, Ding Xiu's attitude became indifferent and blunt, Zhan Zhao shook his head and said: "Axiu, calm down, if you want to use the seven bitter flowers to save..." Ding Xiu interrupted her, she said: "Even if Qikuhua can really bring her back to life, Ah Jiu will not agree to let me save her from living alone. I just ask you to give me the flower."

Zhan Zhao hesitated for a moment, then reached out and took out a small cloth bag from his bosom, and handed it to Ding Xiu.Ding Xiu received it expressionlessly, and opened the cloth bag, which contained seven bitter flowers.After nearly a month, the flower has not withered, but the petals are as white as a soft light.Ding Xiu leaned closer and sniffed the fragrance of the flowers lightly, her expression remained unchanged, she raised her hand and put the cloth bag into her pocket.

"Zhan Zhao, you go back." Ding Xiu suddenly said calmly.

Zhan Zhao was stunned, and after a while he asked, "What did you say?"

Ding Xiu said lightly: "I said, you go back." After speaking, she walked from in front of Zhan Zhao to the yard, leaning against a weeping willow, and sat down slowly, lowered her eyelids, and did not look at Zhan Zhao.

Zhan Zhao followed her out, but his steps were a little stiff. He looked at Ding Xiu, his mind was a little confused for a moment, he stretched out his hand and rubbed the center of his brows, and his voice was a little tired: "Axiu, don't think about it alone. I'll go back together, about Shangguan's house, let's figure out a solution after we go back."

Ding Xiu laughed and said word by word: "Zhan Zhao, am I not clear enough? What I mean is, since Shangguan Jiu and Yu Fei are dead, I don't need you to stay here, please Go back. Besides, I have my own things to do."

Zhan Zhao clenched his fists and said in a deep voice, "Axiu, you can't go to Shangguan's house rashly now. We are in the open, and the enemy is in the dark. Going to Shangguan's house is like going to Shangguan's house."

Ding Xiu bent his knees, supported his chin with one hand, smiled indifferently, and said, "Whether I am a sheep or not, is none of your business?"

These words were so chilling, Zhan Zhao couldn't help taking a breath, and said in a depressed voice, "Axiu, I consider you a friend, and I want to help you..."

"It's a pity, I didn't regard you as a friend." With a faint smile on the corner of Ding Xiu's mouth, he said each word slowly, "You still don't understand Zhan Zhao? Why did I go to Kaifeng? If I didn't know you, How could I justifiably get rid of Murong Qing? If I didn't know you, how could I live in Kaifeng Mansion and escape the Shangguan family's pursuit? If I didn't know you, how could I let Bai Yutang open the box for me so easily , got the seven bitter flowers? If it wasn't for you, how could I have escaped from the Changfu?" She laughed softly, and continued, "If you didn't help me do so many things, how could I get out of Changfu?" Can I tell you the secret of Qikuhua? You have done a lot for me, but I am not completely useless to you. The two of us use each other and do not owe each other. I have never regarded you as a friend. If this makes you feel uncomfortable, I can only say, I'm really sorry." Ding Xiu finished the last few words slowly, raised her head, and looked calmly into Zhan Zhao's eyes.

Zhan Zhao let out a long breath, turned his head to avoid Ding Xiu's gaze, and loosened his clenched fist.He stretched out his hand and rubbed the center of his brow again. Too many things happened in the past few months, one after another, he felt like he was twisted to the tightest clockwork, tired and tense, Ding Xiu's pile of words , It was like the last hammer that hit hard, making him suddenly doubt what he was doing these past few months.He needs to be alone now, think about the past few months, and think about the next thing.

Zhan Zhao put down his arms, looked at Ding Xiu, and said calmly: "Since you have thought it through clearly, I won't stop you, but don't be reckless and think twice. If you need help in trouble, write a letter to Kaifeng, Kaifeng The government will do its best." His voice suddenly stopped as he spoke, and after a while, he finally said, "Axiu, be careful."

After speaking, he turned around and left the yard, and walked back along the way he came.The sun had already set to the west, and it shone on the snow, clearly reflecting two strings of footprints, which were the footprints of the two when they came.

When I walked to the mountainside, I suddenly heard a soft singing sound from nowhere.

"If a flower is full of love, it won't last long. If a person is too infatuated, joys and sorrows will also be awkward. Wasted, the sound of warblers disturbs the sky. Beauty is easy to old and spring is easy to go. In drama, it comes like flowing water and passes away like wind.

"Yesterday's right and wrong is forgotten today. It's hard to calculate grievances and grievances. You can taste your own happiness and sorrows. I ask you, what is the plan to stay here in spring. You won't see it until you wake up. Thousands of pieces don't follow the flowing water, but follow the wind."

The singing voice is faint, melodious and long, like ice beads and broken jade falling down, and the sound of the song is scattered.Only the last line of the song was sung softly repeatedly, as if sighing and asking each other.

Zhan Zhao couldn't help showing a wry smile.

Wait till you wake up, you won’t see it, thousands of pieces, if you don’t follow the running water, you will follow the wind.

The author has something to say:

I really have nothing to say, Ding Xiu, you asked for it completely.

ps: Regarding the ballad at the end of this chapter, Zuo Moute hereby makes a simple statement:

Original works of this word: Ouyang Xiu, Jin Yong, Gu Long, Zuo Xiaoxi, etc.

Editor of this word: Zuo Xiaoxi

Synthesis of this word: Zuo Xiaoxi

Special effects of this word: Zuo Xiaoxi

Final processing of this word: Zuo Xiaoxi

The final interpretation right of this word: Zuo Xiaoxi

PPS: Tips for love: 倥偬 (kongzong is three tones) Yuxi (wuhu is the same as whining)

PPPS: Paste the original words of senior Ouyang (Ouyang Xiu "Ding Fengbo" in the Northern Song Dynasty)

Before the hops, I want to ask the public.Sue Admiralty for what to do.To ask where was last spring.waste.The sound of warblers disturbed the air.

Spring this year must be cherished.rare.It should be noted that the flower surface does not grow red.Don't see you until you are sober.thousand pieces.If you don't follow the water, you will follow the wind.