calm to light

It turns out that the feeling of death is bitingly cold...

The familiar environment is my palace.

"Empress, the emperor is gone, you still have the prince, take care of yourself."

The emperor is gone?

Yes, he went...but why am I still here?We clearly agreed to go together, didn't we?Why is he gone? I'm the only one under the brocade quilt, which is bitingly cold.

"Ma'am, get up."

get up?Why get up?

The whole person collapsed on the bed, the most familiar smell before still remained in the pillow, and the smell that reassured me the most is now like the most tormenting poison, making my heart hurt but I can't get rid of it.

The Son of Heaven kept his word, but he lied to me, that liar.What about going with him, what about living and dying together, are all lies made up to deceive me, but I damn well believe it.

"My lady..."

What kind of empress, I am no longer an empress, the emperor is dead, what kind of empress am I...

"Mother, it's me."

The bright yellow figure is [-]% similar to him, but it's not him, it's Hongli, the new emperor put on the dragon robe so soon, how long has he been there, and now he has time to talk to him after catching up A lesson for those who don't count?

"Emiang, this is a letter from Huang Ama."

letter?

The fingertips trembled a little, and I didn't want it to be my hand, but the font on the letter paper was his font that I was very familiar with and imitated every day...

……

If you were more selfish and hesitated for a moment, I would definitely strangle you to death myself.

...Isn't it not good to not hesitate at all but the biggest thing at that time?I couldn't laugh or cry, I tasted the saltiness of tears in my mouth.

But you want to die so unhesitatingly, and I don't want to fulfill your wish... Only you are not enough, if you want to be buried with me, bring our children.

...Where is there anyone who is more asshole than this person, finally couldn't help but burst into tears, and said to himself in Hongli's shock, "It's strange, I obviously don't want to cry." For some reason, that sadness was overwhelmed by I vented out, "Such a person, such a person... I want to... go first... I'm sad... what."

I feel that I am being gently embraced into my arms, that kind of warm embrace makes me nostalgic.

Like a child, I cry without the slightest image.

"Huang Ama loves you." Fart, that kind of people don't understand love.

"He wanted to take you away selfishly, but he kept you for us." Lied, and even threatened me with the child.

"Maybe it's because of fear. Once you leave, no one will be able to love him." What's the matter, there are children, right?All in all a liar.

……

Yongzheng died in 1735 at the age of 58.

In the same year, the new emperor ascended the throne and amnesty the world.

……

The new emperor has ascended the throne, the Empress Dowager Niu Hulu moved into the Jingren Palace, all the concubines also moved to other palaces, and newcomers entered the harem. Looking at those fresh faces, I couldn't help feeling that I was getting old.

Su Peisheng became a member of my palace, as if he was worried about the eyeliner I left behind, maybe it was like what he said in his heart, if he did not abide by the agreement with him, Su Peisheng would finish it on his behalf I.Thinking of this, I couldn't help laughing, playing with a scroll of imperial edict in my hand, staring at the coal fire brought by Ju Qing, hesitating.

I didn't understand the profound meaning of what that person said until Su Peisheng wrote such a blank volume of imperial edict with the seal of the late emperor.

"You come to copy my words."

……

"It will come in handy later."

……

Didn't you already think about it at that time?

Then if I write my name on this decree, can I go to the funeral without my children, I said to Su Peisheng jokingly that day.

What was Su Peisheng's answer?

I just remember his very serious answer: "The emperor ordered that the only person who can be buried with him is noble concubine Xi."

That's right, isn't he the one who counts everything, the emperor known for his deep city.

Sighing, it was like expelling all the dissatisfaction in my heart, throwing it lightly, throwing the imperial decree into the coal stove, as if I had burned the last nostalgia in my heart, forgive him for the last deception.

The love affair between children is over, and I am no longer a young girl in Huaichun. I really don’t know when this kind of old man’s mentality will appear.

"Ju Qing, where are Hong Fu and Hong Min?" It was obviously time for school to be over, but they still hadn't come back.

"It is said that I went to the imperial study to find the emperor." He asked the servants to clean up the coal stove, and Ju Qing kneaded my sore shoulders with just the right strength, and taught me to squint my eyes to enjoy it.

"The emperor still has government affairs to deal with, and those two children are too naive." I frowned, and planned to ask someone to bring back the two boys who were pestering my brother.

"That's why the emperor likes the elder brothers and called them." Ju Qing liked those two children more than I did, and she was blindly and irrationally defending her shortcomings, blaming all the faults on the emperor.

"The emperor is also, is the imperial study a place that anyone can enter?" If the foreign ministers found out, they might make a fuss about it, "You go in person and invite the emperor to have dinner here tonight. "

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☆, Nian Shilan episode

"The emperor... died?" He died...

Kneeling on the dark gold embroidered round mat, I looked up at the golden Buddha statue in the world with cold eyes. In a trance, I didn't even notice what I said.

"Niang Niang?" Next to her was Song Zhi who was full of worry and whispered, but I was just wondering, what was there to worry about.

He's dead, and everything is over, isn't it?

The Nian Shilan who loves him so much, and the Nian Shilan who hates him, no matter which Nian Shilan it is, now they have their ending, which is very good.

A drop of tear fell and soaked the golden lotus in front of the Buddha, everything seemed to have settled down.

"Songzhi, go for a walk with me." Since he is already dead, if I still live in this Sifang Buddha Hall like this, it would be too ridiculous.I am Nian Shilan, even if I am plotted against by the person I love the most, without the protection of my brother, I am still Nian Shilan who is invincible. .

Songzhi on the side couldn't believe it, she burst into tears in surprise, it was rare to see the girl beside her with such an expression of involuntary emotion, and it was also hard for her to never leave her all these years.

"What are you still doing in a daze, I haven't reprimanded you for a long time, could it be that you have also started to neglect?" Standing up, with a familiar arc, I puffed up my chest proudly, just like Nian Shilan before, smiling You have to be flamboyant.

"...Yes, slave... slave dare not." Song Zhi was a little incoherent, and after a long time he calmed down, he opened the door first, and reprimanded some lazy servants in the yard, "Young lady, changing clothes, you little hoofs are so good at serving. "

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Spring is infinitely good. For me, who has not been out and about for a long time, it is especially fresh. The corner that has begun to be damp and moldy sees light again, and my cold body begins to warm up again. It once proved my stupidity before, no one can live without anyone, how could my Nian Shilan die because of a man who is not worth it, it is simply embarrassing to the general of the Nian family.

Songzhi, who was supporting me, kept chattering, noisy and a bit criminal. I probably knew her worry, but she was afraid that I was not interested in anything and would hide in the ancestral hall and always be with the green light. It's understandable, but I can't accept such a disappointing behavior.

"Shut up." The merciless reprimand made Songzhi shut her mouth, but her eyes were full of surprises, such a master, just like the previous master... This kind of recognition made her feel hard to hide surprise.

The garden is full of peach blossom trees, the flowers are blooming on the branches, or they are budding, or hiding in the green leaves, or swaying in the wind, decorating the whole garden like a fairyland.Falling petals are colorful, and the Peach Blossom Land imagined by the literati in the past is probably such a beautiful scenery.

The two pink and jade-carved children have seven or eight similarities in their eyebrows and eyes. They are about the same size and wear the same color clothes. They are like little exiles, chasing each other around the peach blossom tree, very happy.

The little girl with a cute bun first discovered me, she was not afraid of strangers at all, she looked at me curiously with her big eyes wide open, and sized me up boldly, but she timidly hid her body away from her. I am not far behind the peach tree.

And I, looking at the inexplicably familiar eyebrows and eyes of that child, was stunned in the same place, not knowing how to react for a while.

"Wen Sheng, I've caught you." The little elder brother who finally caught up with him put his arms around his sister's shoulders, panting triumphantly.

"Brother, stupid." Covering his brother's mouth, Wen Sheng felt that he had already startled the snake, so there was no need to hide.

"Beautiful lady, Wen Sheng greets you." The little girl ran up to me with a smile and greeted me politely, while the little boy beside her looked at me with a puzzled expression, and his eyes were still wary.

"Wen Sheng, Erniang is waiting for us, go back quickly." The little boy pulled his sister, with the intention of protecting her.

Wen Sheng... She taught the children very well.

"It's just like the master when I was a child." Songzhi next to me whispered in my ear, and I nodded subconsciously.

"Brother, this empress is so beautiful. I've never seen her before. Let's take her to Erniang too, okay?" The little girl excitedly proposed.

"No, Erniang is not feeling well recently, and she doesn't want to see outsiders." The little boy resolutely refused, and the little adult looked like a big brother.

"Maybe the beautiful lady is not an outsider? How do you know that Erniang doesn't want to see her!" The little girl protested dissatisfied.

"Wen Sheng, don't mess around!"

The two children were discussing as if no one else was around, and the little girl had a beautiful mother, which made me feel good, and I just watched the two of them discussing.

"I'm not fooling around!" The little girl seemed dissatisfied with her elder brother's pretending to be old-fashioned, she shook off her elder brother's hand and ran to me, grabbed my sleeve and looked up, asking me, "Pretty lady, and Let Wen Sheng play together, okay?"

"Okay." It took a little effort for me to pick up the child directly, but seeing Wen Sheng's surprised look, I felt that there was no more effort. I ignored the boy next to me who was still on guard against me, and I took Songzhi back. government.

"Where is the beautiful lady taking Wen Sheng?" The little girl asked curiously, but she trusted herself a little bit.

"Go play in my palace."

"Anything to eat?"

"What do you want to eat?"

"Wen Sheng likes to eat crab cakes, but Erniang will let Wen Sheng eat more every time." Hey, little girl, your mother is also doing it for your own good. Whoever eats too many crab cakes all at once and gets diarrhea every time? what.

"You're still so petty, don't you want your kids to eat more crab cakes? You can eat as much as you want in my palace, okay?"

It's good to have crab cakes, but I still don't like others to speak ill of Er Niang, even if she is a pretty lady, "E Niang is not petty, it is Wen Sheng who is greedy, and Er Niang is always in charge of Wen Sheng. "

The child was protecting her so much, which made me feel a little uncomfortable, "You like... your mother-in-law very much?"

"Well," the little girl smiled brightly, "Er Niang likes it the most." After thinking about it, the girl added, "It's like liking Concubine Huagui!"

Concubine Hua Gui... Is this child talking about herself?

Even though she hadn't hugged her since she was born, the child said he liked her.

"Concubine Hua Gui, has Wen Sheng seen it?" Can't help but ask, I should be the only Concubine Hua Gui in the palace.

"Yes, Erniang said that it was Concubine Hua who brought Wen Sheng to this world, and she was the first person Wen Sheng met."

Did she say that?

I didn't expect that she would tell the child this without any concealment...

"Er Niang also said that Wen Sheng's beauty is all because of Concubine Hua, so Wen Sheng likes Concubine Hua. Concubine Hua always stays out during class, so Wen Sheng can't see her."

"Does the beautiful lady know Concubine Hua? Can you take Wen Sheng to meet Concubine Hua?"

"Okay, I'll take you to play in Concubine Hua's Palace."

Here the mother and daughter get along well, while the little elder brother who was left behind by his eccentric mother felt aggrieved for some reason, and the younger sister didn't listen to him, and the younger sister was taken away by a lady she didn't know. ... In the end, it was because he was still young, and the little elder brother's eyes were red, but he forced himself to wipe away his tears, pretending nothing happened,

It wasn't until Xiaoxizi who was beside Erniang found her that she couldn't help crying, "Xiaoxizi... sister... my sister was taken away... what should I do..."

At that time, the little elder brother didn't know that the beautiful lady was Concubine Hua, who he and his younger sister had always liked, and Concubine Hua didn't know that her petty temper today caused her son to fight with him for dozens of years. The awkwardness of the year.

Just sigh, don't think that children can be teased at will if they are ignorant, but they don't know that children can hold grudges very well.It is not easy to heal a young heart that is injured.

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☆、Zhen Huan*Huanbi episode

Wish to be one-hearted, Baishou will not separate.

I was too naive to make such an unjust wish in the deep palace.

The intoxicating favor of the emperor is because of Chunyuan, and the irony of the husband and wife after that is because of Lingrong. I have always been the emperor's favorite concubine, but I have always been just a substitute pawn.

But the person who only looked at me was ruined by me... Baishou actually left me alone.

……

The long nap time made me weak, almost half paralyzed, and Jinxi helped me dress.

"The queen mother, all the concubines, and concubines are already waiting in the open room." Seeing me staring blankly at the image in the bronze mirror, Jinxi reminded softly.

Ah, queen mother, I have been a queen mother for several years, but why do I feel so tired... I feel stiff and tired even when I raise my hand. Could it be that the passing of time makes people grow old?However, the faint figure in the bronze mirror is nothing more than a young woman.

"Is Concubine Ru coming today?"

"Toffee is not feeling well, I'm afraid she won't be able to come today."

"It's just a cold, and it can last for half a year. Doesn't the Tai Hospital have no brilliant doctors?" For some reason, Jinxi's words only made me feel upset.

Obviously it was just a cold, but that person lost a lot of weight...

Mingming's complexion was sallow, and the situation was not optimistic, but that person smiled so easily, as if she wasn't the one who got sick, or that getting sick was what she wanted.

But, what should I do, Ling Rong, I'm like a demon now, I don't want you to escape this deadlock so early.

"The emperor is also in a hurry. I think coming to Taitai Hospital is also having a headache now. It will probably be over in a while."

"Forget it, why is Aijia so anxious? There are still emperors on the left and right." At this time, I didn't know how stiff the corners of my mouth were, but Jinxi saw it, her eyes were full of pity, and that almost impossible perceived guilt.

"Empress Dowager, do you want your servants to invite the emperor over to have a meal together? I heard that the small kitchen has prepared the emperor's favorite mutton stew today."

"No need, just send it directly to Concubine Ru's Palace," I stood up, and with a slightly stiff expression, I slowly walked towards Mingjian. No matter what the ending is, I chose it myself, and I have the consciousness to accept it.

Huanbi episode

On the most unpretentious wooden table, the slightly scattered sleep still exudes a strange light, just like my current mood.

It was the first time I saw Zhen Huan who was so painful and incoherent, the elder sister whom I had always loved and envied, now she was like a child who made a mistake and regretted it, dazed and desperate.

But the man whom I had hoped for, and whom I calculated, fell down on the table in such a state of embarrassment and lost his breath.

It's ridiculous that my beloved sister killed my beloved prince.

But I am not qualified to laugh. For him and her, I am an outsider. A sister who was calculated by me, a prince who was occupied by me, and I who forced myself into their midst, I have no chance to laugh or be sad .

I know that, so I stand on the sidelines.

It's just that, just looking at it like this, I was confused, and I didn't even know when I fell to the ground.

I'm really confused, do I love him?Is that handsome King Guo the man I love deeply?Why did I feel relieved when he died...

do i love herIs that bright and bright Concubine Xi my beloved sister?Why does she look so embarrassed but taught me... so satisfied...

why?

Why is it that I am also the daughter of the Zhen family, but I can only be a maid...

Why can I only be the servant next to my favorite concubine with similar faces and the same beauty...

Why can't I get into that man's eyes compared to that broken Zhen Huan...

Why do I always have such doubts in my heart?

Why can't I stop comparing myself to others?

Why are you so unwilling?

Why can it be so gloating?

She is obviously her sister, and her prince, isn't she?

But ah, what should I do, this kind of joyful feeling from the bottom of my heart makes me shudder even though I smile, as if all the things that have been pressing on my heart have disappeared, unwilling or uneasy, dissatisfied or extravagant hope... All shattered...

So empty, but so light.

Can I do the same?

Don't need any clear reason, just laugh happily like this...

I am so happy, even Zhen Huan has never seen me before, that's why she looked at me in such a panic, and the crying stopped abruptly, "Huanbi..." The words are full of uncertainty, sister, my dear sister, how about you? Question what?

"Sister," look, obviously I am already the righteous daughter of the Zhen family, and I changed my name to Yuyin, but I don't like this name, even you always think of me as Huanbi, just like him, who married me but just let me marry you. Living in the palace, all I think about is you. It's better for such a man to die sooner, right?

"What's the matter?" I asked knowingly, or I had already started talking nonsense, "The prince is dead, why are you so sad?"

"What do you say?"

The already cold body, his lover only concentrated on suffering for him for a moment, and now I have attracted my attention, my lord, your love is really cheap, the woman in front of me is enjoying it but also ignoring it, the only thing I need is to use you Just like my love, it will be distorted sooner or later, so it is better to die.

"He loves you but can't, and he's already in pain, and I'm tired of this kind of incoherent life, and death is just a relief."

"Only you, heartbroken that your lover has left, and heartbroken that the fool who protected you with all his heart has died, and no one will help you in the future. Are you afraid? Zhen Huan, are you afraid?"

……

"Think I'm strange? Think I'm not at all like that Huanbi who fawns over you?"

"Yeah, of course I'm not like Huanbi anymore. I'm Yuyin now, and I'm jealous of your Yuyin." I don't want to be inferior to you. When you are the most favored in the harem, Xiao misses the emperor's grace, but there is no hope in the emperor's favor. When I was young, I found a different way, and I fell in love with King Guo. The funny thing is that I have always fallen in love with the man you fell in love with. In the end, I was confused. Is it because of love or because of jealousy.

But now, we are all the same.

One is the fearful imperial concubine in the harem, and the other is the nameless side Fujin in the palace, but they are all just women who enjoy the glory and wealth of their lives for nothing.

The author has something to say: God knows I originally wanted to write something sweet and relaxing, but in the end I wrote such a ridiculous joke, and I lost my morals and couldn't get it back. Forget it, let's make a living like this.

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