calm to light

On the day Zhen Huan returned to the palace, all the concubines in the harem went, but I didn't.Because of the privileges granted by the emperor, I lived in the corners of the Yanxi Palace, imagining the grand scene of the new noble concubine Xi entering the palace. I am afraid that Hongli is packing things in his own palace at this time, or has already arrived at Shoukang Palace?

But no matter what, at least, he became Concubine Xi's son according to the original plan, and when he was away, he would not be an inferior child with no mother's power to rely on.

And I, too, can unload unnecessary burdens and live my own life, even if selfish, but self-interested.

……

On a nice day, Mei Zhuang had nothing to do, he hugged his child and played with me, and by the way, accompanied me to relieve boredom.Ever since Concubine Xi came back, she seemed to come to my palace with Ke Ke, perhaps she was still not sure what kind of attitude she would use to face this incomparable sister, or she was worried that I would be deprived of my privilege. The concubine who lost most of the imperial favour?At least, that's what Meizhuang, who doesn't know the truth, thinks so.

The princess asked the wet nurse to take care of her. Mei Zhuang rarely had free time but couldn't help but fiddle with the unfinished embroidery in my palace, "Your craftsmanship is still as good as ever." Mei Zhuang said with a little envy, taught me to listen I couldn't help but think of her totally unassuming way of grabbing embroidery with Hongli at that time, and I couldn't help laughing, but then I felt a little emotional.

"It's just children's things, why is my sister jealous?" Mei Zhuang thought too much, I joked.

"That's right, I'm jealous of everything in your palace, why, is Rong'er willing to part with it?" Mei Zhuang put down the embroidery and fought back without showing any weakness.

"This is really weird. My sister doesn't think about the things in Shoukang Palace, but always thinks about me. There are some treasures here that I don't know." Telling her to lose her complacent and relaxed look, she said to me a little anxiously and pretending to be angry, "You are just a bad talker."

"It's not a way to avoid it all the time."

"You're still the same, you've been avoiding it for so long." Seems to have caught a glimpse of something and brought back a memory, Mei Zhuang's eyes flashed by at that time, the hands of the three people were holding each other, and he couldn't figure out what it was like , "No matter what, it's not easy for everyone."

"I didn't expect my sister to think so clearly." I was really surprised, Mei Zhuang's thoughtfulness was more than what I wanted to let go, "Then why..."

"I'm not afraid to tell you the truth. Right now I have nothing to pursue. I just want to be well. She... is Concubine Xi, with a high status and a lot of trouble. She is no longer the Zhen Huan I can get along with. "Mei Zhuang mocked helplessly, "If I want to live well in this palace, I really have to learn to be selfish."

"Look at what my sister said, so why am I not? It's all like this after all, and I can only comfort myself. If people don't offend me, I won't offend others." Guarding the last bit of conscience, he seemed open-minded and reserved in the palace. Yeye, is this the life I want to live?I touched my lower abdomen, and no one saw the determination in my eyes.

"Juqing, let's go to Yanxi Palace to have a look. I don't know if Niang Niang is interested, let's go to the Imperial Garden together." I said, looking at Mei Zhuang's slightly frowning brows, her eyes were firm, and in the end she still gave in. up.

"The person who is about to give birth is still restless." Mei Zhuang said angrily to me, and prepared to go to the Royal Garden with me resigned to his fate.

"Where is my sister who said so badly? It will take three or four months. How can she be a person who is about to give birth?" Now that the scenery is good, my sister is not moved?"

"No matter how beautiful the scenery is, I look at it every year, and there is no novelty, but it is the same." Mei Zhuang said, "It's just that people are different."

……

A gathering that was initiated by me, as the host, I naturally went there early, and fortunately Meizhuang was with me, otherwise I would still be in a hurry for a potbellied person like me, now it’s alright, I just stay Watching from the side, Mei Zhuang ordered everything to be ready, and was basking in the sun outside in a rare good mood, seeing from a distance the bare-headed person who stood out among the group of people, he couldn't help but froze for a moment.

Unexpectedly, she would bring Hongli over.

Smiling and indicating to Meizhuang, I have nothing to do. I just wanted to get up to meet my good sister whom I haven’t seen for a long time, but I didn’t want to kill Cheng Yaojin halfway. When I was waiting for Meizhuang to approach me, I could only faintly hear the new Concubine Xi's majestic speech made Qi concubine speechless, and by the way, she explained the doubts of the fourth elder brother... I have to say that in many respects, I am no better than Zhen Huan. If it were me, I am afraid that there is no way to make her speechless I was speechless, and I couldn't see Hongli's open-minded and studious appearance. In front of me, Hongli mostly acted like a young adult who had no doubts.

It doesn't matter if I say I'm hypocritical, but Hongli's eagerness to learn made me feel that my decision wasn't completely selfish, at least it was good for Hongli. Thinking about it this way, the eyes I looked at Hongli became calmer, and there was something wrong with me. For leisure, I asked Ju Qing to prepare to write about Hongli's favorite food.

Although he is someone else's child now, but the affection of getting along day and night these days can't be broken just by breaking it, and Hongli's child probably won't make a fuss.

It's just that I didn't expect that Hongli sat down and saw those eating, and the fleeting grievance made me worry, so I had to wipe the corners of my mouth with a veil to cover it up. Zhen Huan also saw this scene but didn't point it out. I just rubbed my belly and laughed for no apparent reason, but it was Mei Zhuang, who frowned slightly after seeing our reaction, and became the first person to speak, but she spoke to Hongli, "Brother, don't you have to go to school today?"

Xu Shihongli was also surprised that Meizhuang would ask him, with food still in his mouth, and the embarrassment of being unable to answer for a while made him habitually cover the bridge of his nose with the back of his hand. I can assure you, this kid is absolutely blushing Oh, Hongli is really the cutest even if he blushes at such a small matter.

"I thought my sister hadn't seen the fourth elder brother for a long time, so I asked Hongli to come with me. My sister can't blame me for making my own way." Zhen Huan said, not caring about Mei Zhuang's indifference at all.

"How come, my sister is also kind. I may not have seen Hongli, and I really miss it a little." Hearing what I said, Hongli subconsciously looked up at me, but frowned and avoided when his eyes touched me. Gu Zi ate as if he had been hungry for a long time.

"Since you are reluctant, why don't you just beg the emperor to let Hongli come back?" Mei Zhuang didn't know what he was thinking, but when he said this, the atmosphere in the banquet suddenly became very strange.

"That's right, I'm also pregnant with a child now, so I can't help being negligent when Hongli is here, why don't we let Hongli go back to his sister's place."

What is this, kicking Hongli back and forth like a ball in front of Hongli?Or is it a test?Thinking of this, I couldn't help but lose a good face, "Brother's delay is too long because of bad studies, why don't you go back first." With a cold face, I let Hongli go first, then looked at the child and asked Zhen Huan very politely, and got After he agreed, he just left the meeting, feeling even more angry in his heart, but he didn't know who the anger was directed at.

"It's not easy for my sister to go back to the palace. That being the case, I should hold the bargaining chip given by the emperor in my hand." Suddenly I didn't have any interest in acting as a sister, so I cut straight to the point, "After going through all these things, I want to come to my sister. I also understand that in the harem, I am the only one who can be relied on, so don't ask for anything else."

"My sister said so, but my sister is confused. Could it be that the sisterhood is not reliable now?" After finishing speaking, Zhen Huan looked at Meizhuang and me meaningfully.

"It all depends on what my sister thinks." If you want to believe it, you can believe it, if you want to doubt it, you can test it. Whether it is reliable or not is always a personal judgment.

"It's really an irresponsible statement." It seemed that I didn't expect me to say that, even Zhen Huan was slightly taken aback and sneered, "I crossed the line today."

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On the way back, Mei Zhuang remained silent, and only when he was about to reach his own palace did he say, "Is this the sister you want before you go back?" It was all about coping and calculating, and they were not in the mood to enjoy flowers. The three of them Is this the only way to go in the end? "If I had known this would be the result, I might as well not have gone."

"Hey," Mei Zhuang actually said such irresponsible words, "Sister, you are so willful."

Who the hell is selfish...

"Even if it's for Hongli, I should go there." Although I can't claim to be his mother, I will try my best to plan for his future. Regarding Hongli, I owe Zhen Huan Favor.

After all, Mei Zhuang understood a little bit of the truth, but in the end he just sighed weakly, "My child..."

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