Love Rival is so cute [Rebirth GL]

Yang Zixi hates psychiatrists very much.

In that dream, not only was she unable to prove herself to Yan Haiqing, she was even unable to confirm her own existence.

She hoped that Dr. Xu could speak for her, whether it was to persuade Yan Haiqing or help her regain her sense of existence, as long as Dr. Xu could affirm her a little bit, she would be able to continue to "exist" with peace of mind.

But Dr. Xu denied everything he said.From Dr. Xu's point of view, there is no problem, but Yang Zixi can't control his thoughts.

She could no longer trust the psychiatrist.

Perhaps Dr. Xu has excellent professionalism, but materialism makes her position very biased.Yang Zixi has already experienced supernatural, so there is no way to convince himself to trust a psychiatrist.

But Yang Yong still arranged a psychiatrist for her.Because he was afraid that she would overreact, he even asked the psychiatrist to pretend to be a newly graduated nurse to get close to her.

Yang Zixi was moved by Yang Yong's thoughtful arrangement, but she still saw through "Nurse Sister" at a glance.

There is no other reason, this psychiatrist is the young version of Dr. Xu.

This is really... evil fate.

Dr. Xu is as kind as in his dream, making people want to talk to him.In just a few days, Cheng Caidan has gotten along well with Dr. Xu to the point where they can share lipstick numbers.

But Yang Zixi's mouth couldn't be pried open.

She didn't want to talk to Dr. Xu.

When she saw Dr. Xu, she thought of the spacious and bright consulting room.

If she were 25-year-old Yang Zixi, who had some unspeakable and hidden psychological problems, then she would definitely choose Dr. Xu's studio, because the decoration is simple and tasteful, and she is very fond of it.

But when she saw Dr. Xu, she felt deep doubts in her heart.

Dr. Xu is exactly the same as in the dream, what does this mean?

Reality and dream are both corroborated, making Yang Zixi even more confused.

In the dream, she thought that the content of the dream was the truth, in other words, Yan Haiqing's suspicion was the real answer to the world; once she returned to reality, she wanted to deny everything about Yan Haiqing.

... Even Yan Haiqing, who talked about the present, also denied it.

She subconsciously rejected everything about Yan Haiqing in order to protect herself.But her subconscious mind couldn't tell the difference between the current Yan Haiqing and the previous Yan Haiqing.

The Yan Haiqings look exactly the same, have the same blood, the same genes, and the same native family.These things are an important basis for shaping personality. No matter how much Yang Zixi tries to distinguish between two people, he cannot deny their absolute homogeneity.

What's more, she now has the same counselor as Yan Haiqing.If it was just a dream, why did he dream of Dr. Xu whom he had never met before?

Yang Zixi put on a cold and alienated expression, and didn't have much heart-to-heart with Dr. Xu.

Dr. Xu was not discouraged, and dutifully played the role of "a little enthusiastic nurse who just graduated" and tried his best to talk to Yang Zixi.

"...I see that you like reading very much, are you still a student?" Dr. Xu pretended to be careless while tidying up the room, "I don't even understand the books you read."

Yang Zixi looked at the book "Rationality, Truth and History" on the bedside table.Putnam's hypothesis of a brain in a vat is very similar to his own situation.

But the author just raises a question and does not give a constructive answer.It's like the dream revealed another possibility, but didn't give a standard for her to measure which dimension she was in.

She suddenly became interested in chatting, and said to Dr. Xu, "Why do you want to do your current job?"

Dr. Xu replied: "Because of what I learned in school, the professional counterparts came."

Neither of them specified that they were nurses by profession, but neither lied.

Yang Zixi was silent for a while, then asked again: "Have you ever thought that maybe the world is a huge lie?"

Everyone's existence is a lie, we are just being deceived by unknown gods into thinking that we exist, that we have self-awareness.

With such a speech at this age, it is easy to be regarded as a secondary disease attack.But Dr. Xu thought about this question very seriously, and then said: "Then who lied to us?"

Yang Zixi said again: "In the future, you will meet a patient who is shrewd, capable, arbitrary, and difficult to deal with. Do you believe it?"

Yan Haiqing.

"Aren't there many such patients?" Dr. Xu smiled, stopped what he was doing, and took a look at Yang Zixi, which was quite obvious.

Aren't you the hard type to deal with?

As soon as the question was uttered, Yang Zixi regretted it.She realized that she almost wanted to tell the whole thing just now, but fortunately she woke up now.

She holds the world's biggest secret, maybe only she knows it, maybe everyone knows it but keeps it secret.

She can't trust anyone anymore.

Yang Zixi looked away again.

This time the exchange failed, and Dr. Xu was frustrated again, but he did not show frustration.She went on to tidy up the room, and said, "You think a lot every day, but you don't have the desire to talk. Have you ever thought about writing a diary?"

Yang Zixi was taken aback, and asked, "Write a diary?"

She hasn't written anything like this since she graduated from elementary school.

Doctor Xu nodded.

Yang Zixi smiled and said, "As a psychiatrist, the advice you give is to keep a diary?"

She thought it was quite funny, is this how professional psychologists give meaningless advice.

Yang Zixi felt that this matter was very absurd, and he didn't want to continue to make false claims with Dr. Xu for Yang Yong's sake, so he simply pointed it out.

Seeing Dr. Xu's astonished expression, she felt a sense of revenge welling up in her heart.

See how delightful it is to reveal a secret.

And he still holds a bigger secret in his hands.

After being slightly shocked, Dr. Xu quickly calmed down and said, "So you know?"

Neither humble nor overbearing, without the embarrassment of being exposed at all.

Dr. Xu smiled, then packed his things and performed his duties as a nurse. "To be honest, I always feel that you are more repulsive to me. Is it because of my profession? Or is it because I cheated on you?"

Yang Zixi leaned against the head of the bed, without looking at Dr. Xu, and said, "Because you must be talking nonsense and can't solve my problem."

Dr. Xu continued: "If you don't describe your problem, of course I can't solve it. Although I don't know your situation, I will try my best."

Yang Zixi thought for a while and said, "Has Dr. Xu heard of the Ship of Theseus?"

"Of course, if I haven't heard of such a famous paradox, then I'm really not academically good."

"Then do you believe in souls?"

"The word 'soul'... depends on how you define it. If it means a conscious body that can think, feel, and learn, then of course I believe it, otherwise my work would be meaningless. If you mean the ability to leave the body and I’m afraid I can’t agree with something that exists alone.” Dr. Xu smiled and said, “Then which one do you mean?”

"What if it refers to time travel? It's like..." Yang Zixi paused, and after thinking for a while, he came up with an example, and said, "As Qing Chuanwen did, the soul returned to many years ago, but the span did not exceed 50 years. Do you believe such a thing exists?"

Dr. Xu said: "There are also such cases in the medical field. Some people have a sudden change in temperament. They not only have another personality, but also have another set of knowledge system and logical thinking. This may be considered schizophrenia, but why does the other personality change? It’s so complete, it’s still inconclusive.”

"Then, will the same person have completely different personalities after going through different things? Comparing these two possibilities together, are they still the same person?"

After laying the groundwork so much, Yang Zixi finally asked this question.She exhaled lightly, both anxious and looking forward to Dr. Xu's answer.

It's not...not a problem.She was pretty sure it wasn't supposed to be a person.The adult Yan Haiqing's paranoid and indifferent traits are not reflected in the high school Yan Haiqing at all, and the adult Yan Haiqing's dislike for her does not come from the high school Yan Haiqing.

Is a name really that important?Yan Haiqing can be called Yan Haiqing, or Yang Haiqing.

Maybe the environment can really change a person completely.

But...that was also Yan Haiqing.Yang Zixi couldn't help being afraid when he thought that his Yan Haiqing might become like that.

"Forget it." Dr. Xu gave a firm answer, saying: "Different things will have completely different effects on different people. Some people will jump and scream when their wallets are stolen by thieves, and some will call the police. , some will consider themselves unlucky. These people are different."

"But the same person is different from this situation. What this person will become is determined by both nature and the environment. If this person has his wallet stolen, he will also have the above three situations according to his mood. As long as he is objective Conditions remain the same, regardless of the person's state of mind at that time, the probability of doing the three behaviors is certain."

Dr. Xu said: "Oh, the probability of doing the three actions is different from the actual action. Are you able to accept this distinction?"

Yang Zixi nodded.

"I think that people are not defined by behavior, but by possibility. This person has experienced a different life, but the behavior taken in stressful situations should be predictable."

Yang Zixi nodded with a complicated expression.

In other words, the adult Yan Haiqing is completely different from the current Yan Haiqing, but they are still the same person.Let the current Yan Haiqing go through what Yan Haiqing experienced as an adult, and it will still be like that.

This possibility and inclination is the reason why Yan Haiqing became Yan Haiqing.

"I believe that consciousness and physicality are inseparable. If this person is not... er, clear, then there is no doubt that it is the same person."

Dr. Xu once again gave an answer that Yang Zixi didn't want.

Yang Zixi was exhausted physically and mentally, and didn't know how to face Yan Haiqing.

Will you still vomit?

Yang Zixi leaned against the head of the bed, feeling that he was also desperate.Obviously she doesn't believe in the whole world anymore, but when Dr. Xu gives her opinion, she regards it as her standard.

Obviously, she has decided that Dr. Xu is not trustworthy.

Her proud thinking ability seemed to be frozen, and her whole body seemed to be hollowed out, leaving only endless emptiness and helplessness.

Yang Zixi sat on the bed in a daze, she didn't know when Dr. Xu left.

When he woke up, he was holding the phone in his hand, and the text message interface had already been opened.

[Can we find a time to chat? 】

From Yan Haiqing.

【I don't want to see you】

Has been sent.

Yang Zixi woke up suddenly, before he overreacted to the word Yan Haiqing, he only had one thought: When did he send this thing?

Will Yan Haiqing take it seriously?Will it be so hurt that you don't want to see yourself?

Last time I said "I like it" and told her to "don't give up", did Yan Haiqing listen?

These are all unknowns, but she still hurriedly made up for it, and sent another one: [The last one was not my truth, when will we meet? 】Yan Haiqing's reply came quickly: 【Well, I understand you.Is this Saturday okay?I will go to the hospital to find you. 】